; AN UN-OPENED HEART ;

Tuesday, July 31, 2007Y

i may have lost something i used to cherish and hold dear. but what i've gained in return for the loss, is definitely more worthwhile and a million times better. (: a lot really happen, and like edith sweets says, it's all meant to be. well, what's mine will be mine, what's not, will never be. at least, i've gotten myself a really what-more-to-ask 'jie mei', edith, and a really wonderful bunch of lovelies, whom i never thought and expected to get along so well with. (: i love my lovelies, and we've got better things to plan for, and look forward to, then to think and worry about those unnecessary. (: KUDOS TO US! ((:

since it's all over, and i've decided to really let go and let things be, i shall be an even happier girl. (: no matter what, i don't go to school to see others' faces, and make my mood go down down down. like what i told paul "gor gor", i go to school with a happy heart every day. ((:

ignatious love's birthday yesterday! (: HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ((: *BIG LOVES-

dino darling will be bunking into her NTU hostel next monday. ): that means i won't get to see her room's window wide open during weekdays, and she is like so much further from me, and from home. ): i'm gonna miss her like crazeh! =x

chinese lit is making me dizzy. =x international trade is making me worst. *RAHS-

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12:17 AM

Sunday, July 29, 2007Y

CHECK THIS OUT! (: from SUPER TK at my HALOSCAN. ((:

" Structure of SHIR's Driving Fan Club:

Central Figure : Shirley of course...

Main Committee : Shirs' GFs (n Sisters Club)

Patron : erhm... the GP Tutor of course

Cheerleading Body : those who are not part of Shirs' GFs n Sisters Club but supports her...

Innocent passer-by : Me of course...

hahaha :D

now tt ur SUPER SHIR's Driving Fan Club is established by SUPER TK, there's no reason why u should fail ur next test...

hahaha :D "

it's like super sweet luh! thank you tk! ((: LOVELOVE!

8:44 PM

i'm tired, and i want to sleep. but still, i want to blog. HAHA! =p

new things added on WISHLIST. i should stop reading magazines & surfing the net. no, i MUST stop. =x
my wants and savings are facing an INVERSE RELATIONSHIP, just like price & quantity demanded. =x
moolahs are always going out whenever some comes in. *AH BISH-
i saw this star necklace in mama's mag's SK brochure. its $269. =x
suddenly, i want to go cycling at ECP.
i want to eat BEARD PAPA. i miss the "FLOUR" that falls from the puff. (;
dino darling is home! (: she's turning into an undergrad in DAYS time! ((:
i "hate" my sunshine, for making me miss him so much. ): *RAHS-
i hate to see CARS & TRIANGLE-PLATES NOW! i feel so unhappy. ):

goodnight world.

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29TH JULY. THREE FREAKING MONTHS TO MY FIRST A LEVELS PAPER. ok. wish me luck! *RAHS-

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2:27 AM

Saturday, July 28, 2007Y

behind me always, and all the way, i've got a fantastic SHIR's DRIVING FAN CLUB. (: they are my encourage-ers, supporters, confidence instill-ers & cheerleaders.(: tuankiak named this club for me, and it's established YESTERDAY. ((: i love this club of mine. (;

sometimes, we just got to witness things ourselves, before really believing and realising that things and people around us are no longer like they used to be. things are constantly on the move, and people are always changing. one moment ago, they're your good friends. the next moment, they may be the ones hurting you the most. but this is part of our growing up. and growing, is never easy.

words matter. they either do wonders, or they simply just hurt you right deep into your heart, which you sincerely brought out and share with everyone you know and love. things may not be the way we want them to be, but we just got to admit, once those hurting words made their exit, everything changes. disappointment surge up, and relationship turned sour. whatever plans made beforehand are smashed and gone. whatever happy moments and laughing times have all turned into hurtful memories. hurtful not because of not being able to continue with those happy times, but because they are no longer going to happen.

no matter how strong a person may seem to be, there are times whereby he/she crumbles and falls, and lose the will and power to carry on. i guess, i'm on the brink of feeling so.

12:32 AM

Thursday, July 26, 2007Y

i'm thankful for all the support i receive from my dearest friends. (: edith sweets, leong, junlong, tuankiak, sher gf, ignatious love, yichuang, cheryl, nich, dino darling... they didn't bring up anything that would make me fall into sadness and disappointment again. they encouraged me, and cheered me up a lot. (: i love them to the max. (:

i felt like a polar bear/penguin during CLA consultation today. =x

7:47 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007Y

i flunk my TP. period.

don't ask me about it, don't talk to me about it, don't probe about it. i'm depressed enough, disappointed enough, sad enough. and i cried buckets.

thank you for those who wished me luck. mr tan, 05a2-ians, sher gf, junlong wormie, edith sweets, nich superman, dino darling, and not forgetting paul "gor gor" & my family. (: i'm sorry for not clearing TP at one go. sorry for disappointing all of you. ):

saw zul at SSDC. hope he cleared his. (:

i feel even more like a goldfish now. especially with two puffy & swelling eyes.

oh. now i don't have to leave SSDC already. i can still stay with them for another 2 months plus. oh well.

5:56 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007Y

had a blast yesterday. (: been really long since i last had a busy yet enjoyahle day. yesterday was filled with activities one after another, and continuously. i got so tired that the moment i came home, after showering and talking to leong for awhile, i slept all the way till this morning 11am. =p

a LONGGGG sum up for yesterday. =p had driving at 8.15am. which is like darn early. =x had to wake up at 6.45 to get ready, and a quick breakfast. driving was ok, but i was nervous, so i made a few mistakes. not those super serious ones, but those like insufficient acceleration, delay moving off etc. =x got to go home myself again yesterday. was so tired that i fell asleep on the bus. some more it was raining, so the weather was like shiokkk. =x luckily mummy called, if not, i would have overshot the bus stop. =x

had tuition in the afternoon, and i had to rush through my lunch because i spent a pretty long time changing. =p well, i'm a girl what. HAHA! =p during tuition, time seems to pass like super slowly. with much difficulty, managed to strive through that 2 & half hours. =x after tuition, time seems to start flying. =x

met up with LEONG! (: then headed to marina. (: met the rest, and off we go, to cheng huat! ((:

welcome to CHENG HUAT! ((:

the person was nice enough to gave us a SUPER GOOD SEAT. (: we wanted to be there early because we want to be able to have a good seat to watch the fireworks for the NDP rehersal. (; and our position was SUPER DUPER GOOD! (: fireworks were beautiful. (: we also manage to catch parachut-ing, and those big helicoptors and planes flying. (: nice nice! we shall go again together next year during national day ok? (; CHECK OUT THE FIREWORKS VIDEO BELOW! ((:

FIREWORKS [1]

FIREWORKS [2]

steamboat-ing with dearies were great luh! i really had a tons load of laughter & enjoyment. (: really glad that i was sitting BESIDE LEONG, and IN FRONT OF EDITH, with YC & YH dearie between leong & edith. they provided a lot of entertainment, and i really had great talks with leong. (: edith was there to cook her special noodles, yc & yh keep filling my plate, and i just kept playing with the bbq food. =p i don't like to cook, but i still had fun letting the melted butter splat at me, and hoping that the food i cook is edible. =p

before we left, we celebrated edith sweets bday and gave her the present we bought for her. (: had to wait for a while for leong to finish up the crabs & two hard boil eggs. haha! while waiting, we talked, laughed and cam-war-ed. =p we're all oily, smelly and we all smell of BBQ. =p

i miss my claris gf! (: she's still sooooo skinny please.

my jas gf! (: she's "unhappy" when i didn't sit beside her. =p

sher gf! she's my darling. ((:

PENCIL LOW. WE LOVE TALKING IN CAPS! ((:

cj dearie. quiet she may be, but a real fun girl to be with. (: she can disturb people really well too. haha! =p

i love edith sweets to bits. ((:

yihong can pay the kid's meal price the next time round. (;

the snake is really good at moving about, so much that the photos i took with him are BLUR! =x

he manage to join us in the end. (:

after steamboat-ing, we went across the road to the big field to play with the sparkles that edith sweets brought along. i got "jammed" because of the muddy and "hole-y" field. i don't like walking on grass patches, and also the BEACHHHH! =x omg. so i got "stuck", and i didn't play with the rest.

after that, we were deciding where to go. when at dohby ghaut mrt station, was on the escalator, and i dropped my ez-link into the hole in between the two escalator that were heading to different places. i was like, "OMG!" then leong & junlong went back to help me get it back. THANK YOU! (: but the others were "bad" luh. none waited for leong & me, cos i waited for leong. but well, haha! it's ok. (: went down to PS, but there weren't any places for us to accomodate 11 people. so went down to cathay, and guess what i saw? NEWURBANMALE SHOP! leong saw the shop as well, and said, "don't see... don't see... go go... don't see..." in the end, i didn't control my temptation to walk into the shop. =p but after i saw the pink havaianas sandals, i don't think it's really nice after all. the prints are faint, and i thought the blue one was nicer. =p clar gf also say the blue is nicer. haha! but the blue i don't think suits me. it's a little, man. =p so havaianas pink with white floral prints sandals will be OFF my "wanted list". (:

we got like nowhere to go? so we went to the highest floor, and sat outside the cinema. that area got those cushion seats, so we sat there and chill for awhile. (: mummy & daddy were really nice last night. they let me play till really late. (: LOVELOVE! but after awhile, i got really tired and restless, so i decided to leave first. asked edith & leong how to walk back to PS, but they suggested that we all leave together. (: so off we go, back home. (:

had a really really wonderful night last night, and i really had a great time. (: thanks to my THREE GFs, for being such great companions. (: although we didn't really talk much, but still, your presence made me happy already. (: thanks to JUNLONG, who keep DISTURBING ME! I DON'T WANT TO SIT WITH JUNLONGGGGG! =p yea, i don't want to sit with him, don't want to talk to him... haha! =p thanks to SUPER TK! he sat beside me during steamboat-ing & bus ride, and kept me entertained. (: thanks to YC, YH & CJ dearies for the nice nice food fed into my stomach. (: thanks to LEONG DEAR, for the wonderful time i had last night, with all those laughters you brought along. (: last but not the least, EDITH SWEETS. (: i really had a great time gossiping with you, talking about EVERYTHING & ANYTHING. (: you're really a great sister to have! ((:

came back home, after showering, talked to leong online for awhile and loaded all the photos. after that, slept like a pig till this morning. =p

after lunch, had driving. my last practical lesson at SSDC, if i clear my TP on wed. saw paul "gor gor" again, and he smiled. HAHA! =p while doing my circuit today, i keep seeing him around also. (: i'm so gonna miss him please. i guess, after i leave SSDC, i'll miss him the most luh. i will miss uncle salleh & uncle ang as well. (: and not forgetting the other instructors who taught me. (: i somehow left SSDC with a pretty heavy heart. suddenly, i don't feel like leaving SSDC. sighs... =x had ONE engine stall today, before i park back my car and end lesson. uncle salleh says that it is a closing ceremony for me. ): I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE SSDC! ):

i'm soooo nervous for TP on wed. =x *RAHS-

didn't get to study today, cos was too tired. and after driving, daddy got to fetch my sister & mummy. then i slept on the car. =p after playing so hard over the weekends, it's really time to get back to my books. 100 DAYS TO As! it will be over in a jiffy. and after our As, it's time to plan for MORE MORE SISTERS' CLUB OUTING, and all those fun that i'm so gonna have with my dearies. (:

I LOVELOVELOVELOVE ALL OF YOUUUU! ((:

don't shoot meeee! =p

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i love my blog song. but it makes me cry, especially when it's being blasted in my ears. ): i'm turning emo, again. =x

can things stay like now please? i hate for things to change, and i don't want them to change. i miss a lot of people, suddenly. =x

time check : 12.33am.
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9:00 PM

Friday, July 20, 2007Y

today is a really wonderful day. (: i have been smiling ever since i exit the classroom after meeting up with mr tan. (: hahaha. i'm HIGH already. =p

had this MOE quality survey on our school. well, i guess i gave really positive comments for the survey. haha! =p after that, while waiting for mummy to come, i went to HARMONIS. got to know from sera darling that they're having practice today. it has been really long since i last went inside HARMONIS, so when i went back today, just like tuankiak says, "we're home. (: " i feel so home-ly and warm inside. it's really nice to see them all again, with new members, and being able to hear the sound of angklungs & kulintangs were really great. (:

messaged leong this morning to tell him about ake having practice. he missed miss wee, and want to go for one ake practice. so he was there with kiat, and i manage to catch them before my mummy came. (: i started playing on the marimba. played a little of "one moment in time", a little of "accidentally in love", and i played "simple serenade". (: as i played "simple serenade", kiat was like, "SIMPLE SERENADE!" haha. then he hummed a little along, then he was jamming away. honestly, i miss those jammings he did during break-time, before & after practices. those jammings were noisy in the past, but now, they're really nice. ever since the year3s graduate from ake, i really long to hear those jammings on the drums, the mixture of music from self-practices... i really miss ake like madness. =x and of course, those people i got to know through ake. (: i really really love every single one of them in there. (:

before mummy came, i was with junlong & tuankiak outside the library. collected money from nilam, and was talking to the other two. (: darshini saw me, and she came over to congratulate me. (: i was surprised why she did that, and she told me that she saw my name on the exam notice board. so when mummy came, i ask mummy to go with me to the notice board after meeting mr tan. (: i was already smiling like crazy when mummy told me she reach school already. =p

mr tan taught me ways to improve my weaker subjects, and even thank me for helping out in the money collections for stuffs. mr tan even asked me how's everything for me in class. haha! i'm like a mad girl in class lah! and i think i mix around well with my new classmates. (: so no problem at all, i guess. HAHA! =p

after meeting mr tan, went down to the notice board with mummy. with really great surprise and satisfaction, i saw my name on the board. (: i saw ignatious's name as well! (: he's a BIG LOVE lah. he told me he saw my name as well. haha! and we've a common goal. work even harder, and make sure we appear there again, together for prelims. (: WHEE~ the MT HOD was behind me & mummy as we were looking at the board. and we overheard him telling another parent that the list is the TOP 10% list. (: i made it there AGAIN! ((: i'm like super duper happy please. i didn't lose it afterall, and my effort for this mids did paid of. (: mr tan says i got to put in even more effort, and work even harder, to do even better. (: he will help me as much as he can, to achieve what i want. honestly, when i see my name on the board, i feel the pressure. oh well, it's just for the next 100 days. once i'm done with the BIG As this year, i can enjoy life for the next few months. ((:

before i left school, went back to HARMONIS to collect my stuff. hafirah greeted me with a really warm "HELLO SHIRLEY!". sunshine love & some others waved to me. (: before i really walk out of the room, they just nice started their combined for "DI TANJONG KATONG". when i said "BYE!", they reacted. sunshine waved, and i listen to them play at the door. memories please! at that moment, if i was alone, i would have cried already. i really can't bear to step out o HARMONIS at that point of time. i just wish, to stay inside there, for as long as i can, and never leave...

had driving today, and even before i saw my name on the tv screen, i saw VILA's. (: she's taking her TP tomorrow. LUCKS GIRL! YOU CAN DO IT! ((:

uncle salleh said that i did pretty well today. (: he even say that judging from my performance from the past till now, i'm gonna make it on the day of my TP. (; uncle ang always say that to me as well luh! but i was like super nervous & scared today even before i started my practical lesson. =x don't know why, i just feel like freaking nervous, and i'm trembling. =x but today's lesson was great! haha. minimal mistakes, just that there's this uncle who kept walking so close to my car as i'm passing and he wants to jay-walk across the road. =x i was like super scared he will stick his toes under my wheels, cos he's like SUPER CLOSE? =x acceleration was good! haha. uncle salleh says that i've improved a lot for today, and my gear shifting got no problem. (: saw paul "gor gor" teaching motorbike today. (: missed him luh! he always call me "MEI MEI" when he sees me. HAHA! =p still remember the day i had practical lesson with me. he kept singing on the car, and make me sing with him. even ask me a lot of lame questions, and made me laugh like nobody's business. =p he's the one who instilled in me a lot of confidence in driving, and making it a point to me that driving is fun, and i shouldn't give myself so much pressure. (: although i only had once practical with him, it's the most memorable one. ((:

TWO MORE PRACTICALS LEFT, and once i clear TP on wed, i'm "graduating" myself from SSDC. i've been with them for more than half a year, and it's really sad to have to leave actually. those instructors are like so nice & friendly. always putting on that smile, making people's day better. (: well, no matter how sad i am to leave SSDC, i still got to leave one day, and parting has always been part of people's life. we just got to accept it. at least, there were wonderful memories. ((:

STEAMBOAT-ing is like TOMORROW? wahaha. so far, no bad news! (: may there be no bad news all the way till like i sleep ok? ((: i'm so gonna enjoy myself like to BITS & PIECES tomorrow. after that, i promise, i will mug and mug and mug. i've thought of what to wear already, and i'm really EGG-CITED! GIRLIES! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? IT'S JUST TOMORROW! hahaha. =p i'm really mad. going totally nutsssss. =p SAVE ME SOMEONE! =p

SISTERS' CLUB MEMBERS! do bring camera tomorrow ok? WE'RE SO GONNE CAM-WAR!!! haha. been long since we last CAM-WAR-ED! =p oooo. i'm really HIGH! woosa woosa! (;

i love my friends. (: i love ignatious cha! he sent me this on friendster, that made my day, and make me smile even wider. (:

when the sun is down
and the skies are grey

im gonna be here for you.

hugs.

8:16 PM

Thursday, July 19, 2007Y

just SIX more days, and it's my TP test. worried, scared, nervous... every feeling also have. may i not ~~STRIKE/MOUNT KERB, STRIKE POLES, KNOCK DOWN POLES...~~ and most importantly, MAY I LANE CHANGE SMOOTHLY! that's the most important one. lane change have always been my MAJOR PROBLEM throughout all the revisions i had. =x *RAHS-

racial harmony day celebration today was rather dry. i miss those occassions we all celebrated back then when we were in bartley. could still remember when we were in year1, me, yichuang sweets & the others went to buy our ethnic costume. (: and we all wear our costume to school on RHD. (: i still have those photos! haha. totally no lessons on that day, and the entire bartley was filled with beautiful clothes. (: could still remember on that day, andrew was in BRIGHT YELLOW costume, and as usual, looking so TALL. haha! the teachers were all dressed up as well. and because of being so dressed up, we all had no pe as well. (; i miss the teachers, the people, the campus, the everything back in bartley... bartley days were really cosy & warm days. (:

i feel very emo today during econs class. i was easily irritated, and i admit, i'm frustrated and unhappy. sometimes, things just don't go my way, and i become edgy. =x

i'm so looking forward to this sat's steamboat-ing with dearies. i really really hope i can make it on sat. mummy's grandmother is admitted into the hospital, and her condition ain't that stable. tomorrow night is D-NIGHT. if we receive any unwanted news, then sat's steamboat-ing got to be off for me. ): regardless of what reason, be it is because of my own selfish interest that i want to be there for the gathering, or because i hope the elderly can hang on... i just hope that she'll be ok. i really hope i can make it, and enjoy myself fully and thoroughly before we turn into full muggers and mug our heads off for the coming exams. may bad news not come please... =x

i just realise. my lappy's "F" key on the keyboard seems to be on it's way to dying on me. i have difficulty typing the "F"s when i need to. =x stupid electronic stuffs. all dying on me one by one. *RAHHHHHHS-

6:01 PM

Tuesday, July 17, 2007Y

mood-less today. friends, head to LIVEJOURNAL. go go!

i'm feeling more than what i'm feeling. and i'm really tired of having to be myself as much as possible. i hate those stares. ): now, more comes. ): i don't know how long more i can take them. but i'm really freaking out. =x

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went home myself today. took 66, and went past the 985 bus-stops. memories AGAIN! =x i miss ake days. i miss ake. i miss syf preparation days. i miss syf. i miss dinner after syf. and i miss the night ride on 985 after dinner that day. i miss the companion i had on 985 that night... ):

time check: 10.57pm.
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7:00 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007Y

RANDOMISATION! cos i got LOADS to finish today. ): and i'm starting to CHEW OFF BOOKS TODAY! last week was filled with FUN & PLAYING. this week is the restart-ing of my engine. (: all the way! (;

SHIRLEY LOVES LEONG! (: for every reason today. leong, you know why! ((:
NEW ADD-ONs ON SHIR's WISH LIST! (1) dearies sleep-over at my place! ((: (2) HK trip with EDITH, SHER GF & LEONG! ((:
me & sher are EGG-CITED! =p
teacher-parents meet this friday. *bloops- OH! and there's no school this friday. ((:
i miss my hendra sunshine like TONNIES? ): finally see him today. (:
steamboat-ing is coming! and i want to wear my newly bought "painter-suit"! (;
TP IS COMING. and i'm freaking scared & nervous. *rahs-
new hyped blog song! (: jump off from the earth's surface with me, will you? =p
new photos for notebook! check them out tomorrow! (;
stomach cramps nearly "killed" me today, and left me meal-less in school. ):
one last note, PE TOMORROW = TRIAL RUN FOR X-COUNTRY! *shuckies-

CIAOS LOVELIES! <3

i love everything about this morning. ((:

8:52 PM

Sunday, July 15, 2007Y

one issue after another came looking for me yesterday. ): and i feel so upset since in the morning. felt a lot better after talking to sher gf and edith sweets. (: they're really great listeners & sisters. (: also, leong. he listened to me, talked to me & even advised me on what i should do regarding the "stares" i receive in school lately. but i know, because of the "stares", i will most probably be taking an action that will affect him. ): i'm still considering if i should or i shouldn't make that move. once that move is taken, on one hand, i feel more relieved, but on the other hand, i will drag another person into the picture, and that person is my good friend. =x i don't wish to involve another person, yet i feel so lost. i don't know what else i can do now. especially when people around me are making fun, making me feel more awkward, and the stares are really getting "out of hand". ): whatever it is, i will leave to tomorrow to decide. tomorrow is D-DAY! =x

driving yesterday was not ok. uncle salleh says that i'm not giving myself enough acceleration, and i'm still scared and not confident. =x TP is in less than TWO FREAKING WEEKS, and i'm still making mistakes. =x i striked the VERTICAL PARKING POLE today when i'm making an exit. i was super angry with myself, because i've NEVER strike ANY poles before, and that vertical parking was so nice. =x disappointing. and i stopped within the YELLOW BOX today, because i wanted to beat the amber light, with pedestrians waiting to cross the road already. ok. i'm a great disappointment yesterday. =x hope today's driving later would be a better one, and mistake-free. uncle ang's taking me later. may there be lesser mistakes, and everything runs smoothly. yes, driving later at 1.05pm, and i'm still here online at 1.21am. =p

edith & junlong came over to study yesterday too! ((: and we're making this a weekly thing. (: study together, and motivate one another along. maybe because today's the first day, so we're a little distracted here and there. i'm sure the next session will be better and more efficient. we got to be even more disciplined. if not, it will defeat all the purpose. =x

i received another news today. a really shocking one, which left me distracted and unable to concentrate on revising just now. =x i honestly was distracted, and i kept thinking why. =x SHOO to all distractions! *RAHS* FOCUSSSSS! =x

i didn't know whatever that comes to me about you, has such a strong impact. =x

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was talking to leong online, and we started talking about friends. i told him, how lucky he was to have rubin & kiat as his really wonderful & true friends, and how i come to realise that the friendship that i cherished & loved the most is actually gone just over a small incident. and i said, who knows what will happen the next moment. he was a really sweet guy, who replied, "I KNOW! the next moment you found LEONG! that LEONG would be with you thru thick and thin." (: it was a really sweet thing i get to hear, and i'm really glad i've got leong. ((:

and he said, "when you say you drag a friend down with you, it's actually to have a friend to walk with you." that's what he said to me the night before, when i spilled everything about the stares i'm getting, and how frustrated i am due to those stares to him. (:

i told him, the suggestion he gave to me, will definitely drag him down into the situation, and make him involved in the matter which doesn't concern him in the first place. as usual, being the sweet leong, he said, "i say it's not dragging. it's about being with you to solve this problem together." (:

tell me, where else can i find another leong as sweet as this one i've known? (: LUCKS TO OUR MISSION LEONG! (: and... i love leong! ((:
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2:09 AM

Friday, July 13, 2007Y

results are ALL out. good or bad, i got to accept them. but i'm happy, because, at least, out of my 5 targets, 3 are achieved. (: gonna work DOUBLE/TRIPLE HARD from today onwards to achieve ALL 5 TARGETS during prelims. (: a brief sum-up:

CLA : B [achieved! (: ]
Econs : E [*BOO-]
Mgt of Biz : C [achieved! (: ]
GP : C5 [*BOO-]
Maths 8174 : A1 [achieved! (: ]

so, NICH! DO I GET MY SPIN FOR SHOPPING ROUND TOWN? (; haha. =p

this time round's exams, i did put in effort. but somehow, i think i could do better than this. or rather, i know i can do better than this. i didn't start really early when preparing my mids, and i was way lagging behind my own schedule. so, this time round, for my prelims, i'm determined, and i will stick to my own planned schedule, and work towards my targets. (: GO GO GO SHIRLEY! ((:

driving practice tomorrow morning! (: and edith sweets will be coming over to my place to study together tomorrow as well. (: i love edith! (;

can't wait for SISTERS' CLUB STEAMBOAT-ING SESSION on next saturday! haha. finally, sisters' club can meet up again, and have fun together. ((:

did a little shopping just now with mama. and... I BOUGHT NEW CLOTHES AGAIN! wahaha. i think i know what i shall wear for steamboat-ing next sat! (;

WOOHOO~

6:25 PM

Thursday, July 12, 2007Y

ervy sister sent me this, and i thought, it was pretty true... =p

11 signs you're in love.

ELEVEN:
you walk really slow when you're with them.

TEN:
you feel shy whenever they're around.

NINE:
you smile when you hear their voice.

EIGHT:
when you look at them, you can't see the other people
around you, you just see him/her.

SIX:
they're all you think about.

FIVE:
you realise you're always smiling when you're looking at
them.

FOUR:
you would do anything for them, just to see
them.

THREE:
while reading this, there was one person on your mind
this whole time.

TWO:
you were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't
notice number SEVEN was missing.

ONE:
you just scrolled up to check, and is now laughing
silently at yourself.

haha. as you're reading, how many of you found yourself secretly laughing? =p well, that shows/tells it all, didn't it? (;

tomorrow's the day! my last paper to be brought back home. i don't know what the situation will be like tomorrow. embarrassed? further "humiliated/insulted"? further wronged and misunderstood? well, let's just leave it for tomorrow to settle. whatever it is, i know i've got a group of friends who will be behind me, supporting me and backing me always. (: i love my friends! (:

oh! this morning, before i left the canteen for morning assembly, i "accidentally" gave my nalgene a SUPER BIG KNOCK on the table, followed by the bench. it was TWO LOUD "PLANG PLANG". ignatious was staring at me, and saying, "aiyoh! can you be more careful? don't forget, i'm also drinking from THAT bottle as well!" haha! what has my nalgene's knocks got to do with him anyway? HAHA! oh. he drinks from the PINK NALGENE as well! =p he LOVES my PINK NALGENE! (;

8:14 PM

Wednesday, July 11, 2007Y

finally received my ake package from sher gf today. (: just finish watching the video which made me tear non-stop. i really got to say, these bunch of people really touch my heart, and make me feel really warm. (: i miss every single thing about ake... from the start, till the end, from people i don't know, to those close friendships we've built... i know, i treasure them a lot, and i really love them more than anything else. (: the video was a really great one. (: when those photos appear one by one, noting down those captions which signifies our activities/performances, i just feel the tears rolling down. those wonderful & memorable moments that i really cannot forget, and i can't make myself forget them either. i love ake. (:

oh ya! thanks to hendra sunshine & ili, they posted my SUPER UNGLAM photo that ben took during our malaysia trip in 2005. and that SUPER UNGLAM moment is captured, with a SUPER BIG GOLDFISH FACE! =x well, its ok. (;

will post up the photos of what is in the package in a few days time, when my bluetooth adaptor is working. it's abnormal now. =x still, i want to say, i miss ake, and i love ake a lot a lot. (:

they touched my heart, and so did you. (:

gotten back my results, except for maths. cleared all, but not really satisfactory as targets were not met. ): sense of achievement for GP & management, but the rest were a BIG SHAKE HEAD. =x what's over is over, and i can only work for the present and the future. (: turning into a full-mugger mode with edith soon, and we're gonna study together. (: lovelove edith sweets! i have to, and will make a difference. (:

before i go, presenting again, my beloved ake. (:

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i continue to get STARED at, and i continue to feel like an animal. but for today, it's even "better"! i feel like a little kid being punished to stand at one corner, and not get out of that corner until permission is given. oh please! can they just KEEP THEIR EYES TO THEMSELVES? i'm starting to not lead normal school life, especially when TIME TABLE IS ALREADY CONDENSED, AND WE SHARE THE SAME BREAKS & GO HOME TIME? i need to get an invisible cloak, anyone knows where to get it? i will pay any price for it, just to make myself less visible. =x
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6:48 PM

Tuesday, July 10, 2007Y

SO WHAT IF YOU TOP? SO? i cannot say that i'm not affected by YOUR words, but is there a need for you to do so? =x you just want to make me feel dejected and down thats all! so... why do i have to be bothered with you? =x *RAHS- ANGRYYYY! =x just *SHUSH* will you?

another thing, i don't need people to help me make choices/decisions, when it concerns ME only. i've got my own thoughts and way of thinking, i don't have to follow whatever YOU say. ok?

also. i just feel super super stared at wherever i go. i hate the feeling of being STARED at. especially when i'm trying to have my meal peacefully, i don't like to be STARED! i feel like an animal ok? i really feel that way today during break.

SUPER BAD MOOD. SHOO~

off to rant at LJ. i need to get it OFF my mind, if not, I'M BURSTING AND BLASTING TO WHOEVER COMES AND TALK TO ME NEXT! =X

7:23 PM

Monday, July 09, 2007Y

the minnie mouse necklace that i saw online two days ago is OUT OF STOCK! ): and adeline, the owner of the blogshop says that the supplier won't produce it anymore. ): but it was really on high demand, that's why it ain't surprising to be sold out really fast. ): like leong says, save the money i want to spend on that necklace up, and to get myself another something that i like. (: i've already found it! wahaha. or rather, it has always been wanted by me. =p

HAVAIANAS FLASH URBAN FRESH. (: i'm spotting on the PINK & WHITE FLORAL pair, at the bottom right hand corner, with the colour : blush rose. (: it's $49.90 per pair anyway. =x
[photo credits to NEWURBANMALE.COM]

HAPPY 19TH YICHUANG! (: haha. i love talking to her in CAPS! (: told her last night, since we can't talk in CAPS in school, then we shall SHOUT to one another, just like what we did with those CAPS in sms-es. =p

meiling gave me a really sweet gift today. (: love her to bits. (: saw the card that she wrote to me, and after reading it, i feel like crying... i miss ake... i miss ake a lot a lot a lot... ):

rahs! i feel that everything of mine is crumbling down and dying. =x whatever.

further buzz-es are posted at my LJ. HALO me for the link, and i give only when i think i can give. (: if not, sorry!

8:28 PM

Sunday, July 08, 2007Y

i'm so gonna faint. =x there are visitors over at my place from taiwan, and the parents brought along FOUR kids. so, now, my place is filled with KIDS. *faints-

finally, school starts officially tomorrow. the past two weeks were horrible weeks, where brain cells got killed and sleep is scarce. =x school's back to normal, and i will get to see all my lovelies everywhere again! (: yays!

my bluetooth adaptor is like spoilt? it's not working no matter how i pluck it into my laptop. now i can't send songs/photos from my phone to the lappy, or from the lappy to my phone. ):

driving was good today. (: the only weakness that i have now, is INSUFFICIENT ACCELERATION! =x ok. less than three weeks to correct this. *rahs-

i want that minnie mouse necklace! ((: i'm so gonna get it! whee~

5:31 PM

Saturday, July 07, 2007Y

after tuition today, went SHOPPING with EDITH SWEETS & JUNLONG WORMIE! ((: too bad, i didn't manage to get myself anything, but edith got herself a top. (: wanted to try the same top she bought as well, but the queue was super long, so i didn't try in the end. another regret! =x walked past adidas today, and i thought of the adidas jacket that i gave a miss when i was in HK. ahhhhh! that pink & white adidas jacket. ): next year, when we go HK, i'm so gonna get the adidas jacket, either the one i saw the other time, or a newer design. ((: whee~

i love shopping with edith sweets! (: haha. too bad i got to come home earlier today, because my parents are going out, and no one's home to look after my sisters. ): sighs... i still haven't get my pair of PINK & WHITE HAVAIANAS SANDALS! =x ok... i'm going crazy over that pair of sandals soon... =p

MORE MORE SHOPPING PLEASE! and of course, SHOPPING WITH RETURNS. (; i want a lot of things orh! =p now... i can't wait for steamboat-ing with my dearest GFs & SISTERS' CLUB members! (; yadayada!

check this out! (: me & sher gf are both having itchy hearts because of THESE! =p

i like this one the best! haha. it's very sweet looking luh. the whole thing like so "bling bling". =p it's going at $12.90, inclusive of shipping price. ((: maybe, i'll get it. HAHA! (;

[all photos, credit to ALL THE ACCESSORIES YOU WANT.]

11:06 PM

i'm going to get diabetes soon, tv drama diabetes. =p i think i choose the wrong show to watch at this moment. haha! it's too sweet already. sweet until really making me go crazy. =p

AHHHHHHH! I LOVE THE SHOW TO BITS! WOOHOO~

12:36 AM

Friday, July 06, 2007Y

LANE CHANGING IS SO NOT FUN! =x driving today was smooth all the way till i got to do lane change. ): was freaking nervous when i see the traffic flow behind my car please. after that, i will not know which mirror to look at, the rear view mirror, of my side mirror. =x now, i'm praying real hard that i won't get TEST ROUTE 8/9 for my TP test. if not... =x no no, even if i get test route 8/9, i will still do it. (: i got to pass it once and for all! (:

chiong-ing 花样少年少女 now. =p it's super cute luh the show. 瑞希 (ella) is super cute in the show luh! her facial expression make her character so bubbly. =p 泉 (吴尊) is the typical cool guy that girls will go gaga over. but, i prefer 秀伊 (汪东城). haha! he's super cute luh! like sher gf say, he may look "goondoo goondoo", but the way he talk and act really super funny. =p i'm determined to finish watching the entire thing by sunday! wahaha! =p totally going crazy over the show please. =p

6:33 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007Y

IT'S OVER! MIDS ARE OVER! haha. =p finally, the long two-week process is over. i swear, i studied harder for this mids than i even did for my Os! haha. =p hope the results will reflect what i've done over the past 3 weeks. if not... =x well, it's over! so shouldn't think so much of what has already happened. (:

today's paper to me, was a rather easy one, but a disappointment for myself. ): i didn't finish my TWO essay questions, because i spent too much time on the short questions. ): my teacher also knows that, and she say i don't bear to "let go" of not answering too much for my short questions. sighs... like sher gf says, got to learn from my mistake and move on... better strategy next time round! yadayada! (:

sisters' club steamboat-ing is POSTPONED. from tomorrow, to next friday, then to 20th, then to 21st. =p finalised date : 21st JULY 2007. so...

ATTENTION ALL SISTERS' CLUB MEMBERS & THE ONLY SNAKE:
steamboat-ing session - 21st JULY 2007
meeting time - 5PM
meeting place - MARINA BAY MRT CONTROL STATION
*excited! =p

ahhh. i badly need some retail therapy. it has been super long since i last shopped and buy things. but i think i'm going broke? no income for this week, since there's only one day of school, and i don't even stay in school for so long that i need money. HAHA! =p well, next week, money comes rolling in! (; woohoo~

4:35 PM

Wednesday, July 04, 2007Y

was talking to my dearest ervy sayang two nights ago, and we talked about like from NOW to the PAST. =p even little secrets that we didn't tell one another back then during our secondary school days, they were all out that night. =p we even went through those details, gossipy moments, bitch-y times, those ups & downs, those squabbles we had, those NP days, especially atc camps, school np camps, our likes and loves, our crushes and knock-overs, our this & that... just anything that we can think of at that very moment. =p i seriously do miss those good ol' punggol days, those horrible yet memorable NP trainings, especially when we train for our OSO! and not forgetting, those mee soto days, with either one hotdog/fish cutlet, and with spoons and spoons of chilli, after that, we are all downing bottles and bottles of water... =p haha. those days back then were really great times luh. i will never forget them, and those who were part of us back then. ((:

i can still remember, ervy dearie have got a little brother, eddy! (; he's super cute now, and i can't wait to see him! haha. cute little eddy is already in nursery! like how time flies please. he's already FOUR YEARS OLD OKAY! =p

(TOP: ervy susanti bte sudira & her little brother eddy!) & (BOTTOM: presenting, EDDY!) the main highlight is EDDY, not ERVY! =p wahahaha. =p told you! eddy is UBER UBER CUTE! (;

anyhow, i think i did a great job on chinese lit yesterday (03072007), cos i completed almost everything, and i'm left with one prose & half a story. ((: as usual, i'm the selfish girl, who wants her name on that board again for mids. ((: i don't care, i just want it there again, and for the sake of seeing it on the board, for the 3rd time in a row for mids, i'm so gonna do it! ((: the only time i would lose it for the past two years, and this year's common test, are the CTs. =x i don't know why, but i just lose it for CTs. last year's mids & promos, i made myself up there, and best of all, i got my bursary. ((: i want to keep it going for this year, although it might not be as easy, but i will still give my best shot. (;

i'm so excited for monday! ((: i can't wait for monday to come! ((: wahaha! =p

12:59 AM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007Y

i'm totally into the game "papa louie" these days. haha! =p as i take my usual break after studying for some time, i will play it to "relieve stress". HAHA! =p it's fun okay? if any of you are interested/bored to the max after papers or whatsoever, go try playing it at "PAPA LOUIE" *click to play!*. (;

finally done with ALL those that needs translating, and THREE STORIES! ((: now, TWO MORE STORIES & TWO PROSES, and i'm done with chinese lit. (: shall not complain about how terrible my mids schedule is anymore. because, if not for these SIX LONG BREAK DAYS, i would never be able to cover at least HALF of my chinese lie memorising. (; although i played TWO out of the FOUR days that has passed *oops!* , i got half of today & one tomorrow to finish up everything. ((: all the wayyyy! (;

3:35 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007Y

when one thing comes after another, i really feel sick and tired of living. especially when people closest to me, like my sisters, who fail to be considerate towards things, being petty over words and stuff when i'm already feeling frustrated and really shitty enough, i would really want to shut myself out from the whole world. i might jolly well crawl under my bed, stay there, and never come out. things are really becoming too heavy and burdensome for me to handle. having to meet expectations at home and in school, having to see people's face and do things, having to act like as though nothing has happened before when things HAVE and ARE happening... i know, this is the reality, the real world i'm supposed to face. and there are more coming my way when i finish school, and out in that bigger world. i just feel, tired and drained from having to cope with more than one thing. :(

thanks to leong & edith sweetie. (: they made me feel so much better. leong saved me from flooding my room further, and edith made me feel so loved. (: i'm really glad to have known leong this year, and really glad that he's always there these days. he said things that made me think, not only for myself, but for others as well. at the same time, he "smacked" into me senses, that i've never receive before. as for my edith sweetie, i got nothing to say, but that i'm really glad to be able to have her as my 'jie mei'. (: she always stay with me whenever i'm down, and make me feel really really loved. (: thank you again, to the two of you yea? (: BIG BIG LOVES. <3

driving just now was GREAT! (: the instructor says that i'm good already. (: today's driving was smooth, with minimal or near to zero hiccups. just that, my left hand is really not strong enough to pull up and let go the handbrake. =x as for the others, aside from doing lane-changing when there are like DOZENS of cars around, i'm okay. ((: the uncle today told me a lot of things, which made me feel as though i've already passed my TP test. =p and i feel so happy just by hearing them. HAHA! =p

4:56 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007Y

can someone tell me that whatever i've done all these while and worry for all these while is worthwhile? can someone just tell me and assure me that tomorrow's a better day, and everything will be ok? i really feel like crying out everything, and sleep everything off. one thing after another coming strong after me. tell me, what kind of good luck/good things are coming my way. yes, i'm disappointed. yes, i'm unhappy. yes, i'm sad. yes, i'm angry.

如果只要笑一笑，就没什么事情过不了，我可以笑一百遍，一千遍，一万遍...可是，我已经笑了这么久，事情始终没有过去.

can you come around that corner, and take me away from all these? this year has been a really bad year for me, with everything coming on so strongly. i'm afraid, i can't take it any longer. cos things are nearer to the edge, and i'm crumbling. i really am... :(

10:18 PM