Monday, October 31, 2005Y
31/10/2005. *stupid*
honestly.
im freaking angry.
im freaking pissed off! =/
its as if.
the whole worlds damn
busy.
and im the only one
thats free!
im free!
full of time for me to
spend on.
but thats nort true kaes?
i oso have things to do!
sighs.
never mind.
forget it.
i dun care.
as long as that thing
is done.
and handed in.
and im done with it. =/
ake prac was GREAT
today. =)
practised my "simple serenade"
today. =)
and i gort it!
i noe the entire thing liaos!
with the help of DIAN! x)
hahas! x)
thans dearie. =)
me and yc didnt disappoint
eu ayes? =p
hees. =p
and we gort prac again on
wed! x)
2-5.30.
hahas.
i just lurve ake to bits! x)
ake made my day today.
despite it starting off
with a bad day. =/
went to ask mr ng about the
diploma course.
and....
mr ng say.
have to talk to home tutor
first.
hope i can get in arhhs. =)
wells.
if cannot.
i can go take up FLUTE!
hahas! x)
okes. x)
im going CYCLING tml!
whees!
im gonna enjoy myself
to the fullest mans! x)
teehees. =p
*[i say eye candy! =) ]*
Sunday, October 30, 2005Y
30/10/2005. *gateux*
was watching a hk drama.
about cakes baking derhhs.
hees.
quite nice larhhs.
i like the shop name.
"gatueux". =p
like damn classy that kind.
hahas! x)
nice nice name.
hahas!
and the littleb boy
in that show.
the name also cute cute
derhhs sias.
"bun zai".
hahas. =p
going cycling with
diane,karen and jy
o tues. =)
but zz is going to join
us for dinner i suppose.
hahas! x)
miss them larhhs.
like finally.
we can get together. =)
hees.
gonna take loads and
loads of pictures. =)
*[photo spree]*
Saturday, October 29, 2005Y
29/10/2005. *mgt project*
phews.
have been working on
the mgt projct since the
afternoon till now larhhs.
and thank god that
we are making good
progress larhhs.
teehees.
actually hope to finish
the whole thing by
tonight derhhs.
but its sort of impossible
larhhs.
cos hidayah and wend
still haven hand me
their info for the proj
as yet. =)
all shld be ready by
tml larhhs.
hope that theres
time for me to hit the
gym tml/ =)
ooo.
im getting the hang of
the gym again.
woohoos!
hahas! x)
*[the way i see it.
if eu want the rainbow.
eu have to put up
with the rai. =) ]*
Y
29/10/2005. *diploma at millennia*
im taking up the diploma course
that millennia is going to offer.
it can be as a form of back
up for my As larhhs.
just in the very suay case.
that i cant use my A levels
to get into the uni.
*although i die die oso hope
to use the As results to
get into the uni. =p *
hees.
gonna meet mr ng/mrs
joy tan on monday.
to get things done.
hees.
so excited! x)
*[champion.]*
Y
29/10/2005. *if we hold on together*
rehersed for this song during
ake prac today.
almost broke into tears.
amanda noe that i dun wish
to listen to this song.
when the song is done with.
she turned and ensure that
im okes. =)
*thans dear*
feeling more and more belonged
to ake lerhhs. =)
relationship between ake mates
are better and better.
we are talking. =)
we are helping each other out. =)
i realli realli enjoy every
single pracs.
music makes all sadness
go away.
ake makes me happy.
frens i meet there.
are a form of comfort.
a form of encouragement.
i simply lurve ake to bits.
to the ultimate bits. x)
went to look at the exams
board in ttc todae.
and saw my name. =)
but its nort for chinese.
cos i didnt get a distinction
for the overall. =/
im just 3 marks away.
that close yarhhs?
cos i didnt do up
to my standard for promos.
=/
but ill make sure ill get the
distinction back to me
next year.
im determined to do so.
im gonna make it. =)
dunnoe y.
i dun seem to be talking
todae.
when huda talked to me todae.
i was like.
answer a bit.
then thats it. =/
i feel bad larhhs.
cos im feeling down.
and actually.
im beginning to vent
it out on others.
and refuse to talk.
sighs.
im hating myself liaos ooo.
ARGH!!!!!!!! =/
*[cant stop thinking.]*
shir.riyana. [ill miss my baby girl.]
thomas.shir. [boo!]
Friday, October 28, 2005Y
28/10/2005. *last day*
its the last day of sch
todae. =/
its a pretty tough day
for me todae. =/
yes.
i didnt get to see ss.
and i felt terrible.
cos ppl arnd me are
leaving.
thomas.
my buddy.
its hard to see him go.
riyana.
my darling.
shes oso leaving.
when we hug.
i almost cried.
but i cant.
i cant bear to make
her feel bads. =/
in short.
todays a tough dae.
i noe.
its nort going to be
wasy for me.
to adapt to a new life.
and noe wat?
nxt year.
my class will become
05b3!!!
mans!
im sure to miss 05b4
alot larhhs. =(
sighs.
i need time ppl.
i realli need alot
of time to get use to the
new life that im going to
face.
i just need alot and alot
of time.
pls ppl.
dun force me to move
on so fast.
i dun want to force
myself to do sth
that im so unwilling to.
i just want time.
and alot of personal
space.
may be more or less
temperantal for the coming
days.
weeks.
or even months.
hereby.
say a big sorry to all first.
and hope that all of eu
will understand. =)
but im realli grateful
to all my frens.
who will be tahan-ing
my weird mood.
im realli realli sories.
*[slow.but steady.]*
Thursday, October 27, 2005Y
27/10/2005. *promoted*
whees!
im promoted looos. x)
hahas.
yes!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahas.
my hard work nort wasted
arhhs.
hees. =p
yeahs!
but oso quite sads
todae larhhs.
cos alot of ppl are
leaving lerhhs. =(
im very very sads larhhs.
classmates that i lurve
so dearly.
they are all leaving.
no matter what.
i realli hope that they
will have a better route.
thomas.
all the very very best.
will miss eu loads.
riyana.
my bao bei.
my sayang.
im gonna miss eu loads.
dun be sads.
we can owaes meet up
derhhs kaes?
muacks-
*[i harts everyone.]*
Wednesday, October 26, 2005Y
26/10/2005. *disappointment*
sometimes.
i dunnoe why.
people may be of a great
disappointment.
for no reasons.
i guess.
we will all come to a point
whereby all of us will
feel sick and tired of feeling
disappointment.
*[it hurts.to see eu.]*
Y
26/10/2005. *leaving*
i think its pretty sad.
cos many people will
be leaving MI.
be it students.
or even teachers. =(
my class.
many of my dearest
classmates will be leaving
in order to have sth
better in return. =(
and mr heikal is leaving
too!
hes going to RP.
to be a lecturer there. =(
and mrs ong is also
leaving. =(
so many people are
leaving.
and i find it hard to
accept it at first.
sighs.
but if they are all going
on for a better journey.
shall just wish them all
the very best in all that
they do. =)
received an award for
the NAPFA test. =)
hees.
wells.
i trained realli hards
to get pass larhhs.
and i passed! x)
hees.
shall start training over
the hols.
and make sure i pass
again next year.
and....
its nort for the award.
but for the sake of
getting a pass again! x)
*[story books mania.]*
Tuesday, October 25, 2005Y
25/10/2005. *passed*
whees!
im damn happy todae
larhhs! x)
cos i passed promos!
hahas! X)
but to noe whether
i realli realli clear
my year one.
will have to wait
until thurs arhhs.
the day i receive my
report card! =p
as for results for promos.
i gort 3 A level passes.
and 1 AO pass. =)
but!
i didnt clear GP! =/
thats my worst subj larhhs.
and my econs and maths
gort improvements wors. =)
econs.
i gort an AO pass for
mid years.
and now.
i gort an A pass. =)
for maths.
i gort 75 for mid years.
and now.
i gort 89!
whees!
hahas! x)
im going to start work in
the nov and dec hols
larhhs.
have to work double hards
for my sch work
liaos ooo.
i dun wish to survive with
jus mere passes.
yupps.
its my first year.
and things are going to
get even better.
and better. =)
im sure to make it
happen yarhhs?
im going to make it happen. x)
but!
i wont forgo music for that!
hahas! x)
music still remain my passion.
and im going to stive for FLUTE!
ORGAN!
and nort forgetting.
my dearest.
PIANO. x)
*[kaaaboooooom!]*
Monday, October 24, 2005Y
24/10/2005. *work attachment*
went for the work attachment
at the moe teachers network
today. =)
okes larhhs.
nort too bad.
quite simple a job. =)
just some shading job. =)
its nancy dear dear's bdae
todae wors.
HAPPY BDAE DEAR! x)
muacks-
i lurve eu wors. x)
its realisation day tml.
whether im going to
make it or nort.
its going to be seen tml.
i might make it.
i might nort.
i realli realli want to
make it.
i realli hope i can.
*[im tired and slpy.]*
Sunday, October 23, 2005Y
23/10/2005. *photos*
some photos to share.
hahas! x)
taken at snow city.
and the group photos
of class and ake. =)
ooo.
lurve the class and ake
photos like mads! x)
ake. [formal].
ake. [informal].
05b4. [formal].
05b4. [informal].
buddies. [snow city].
snowman. [snow city].
Y
23/10/2005. *happy bdae huda. =) *
todays a special day.
cos its my sayangs bdae. =)
HAPPY BDAE HUDA! x)
went to yamaha jus now.
and marmie and daddie want me
to consider deeply.
abt me learning flute. =/
they prefer me learning organ.
as compared to flute.
cos organs more related to piano.
although i oso want to learn
organ.
but nort now.
cos i want to learn flute first. =(
realli dunnoe wat to do.
or rather.
which to choose.
it seems so difficult. =(
i had a great night last night
online.
talked to someone special. =)
which made my day great.
thats my first time talking
to him. =)
so it is super nice. =)
hahas.
maddening again. x)
*[thoughts makes me mad.]*
Saturday, October 22, 2005Y
22/10/2005. *happy bdae daddie. =) *
happy bdae daddie. =)
went over to god daddies hse
todae for steamboat.
and celebrated his bdae. =)
hahas!
hurshurs.
tmls huda sayangs bdae.
and mondays nancy dears
bdae.
whoas! x)
oct is bdae mth.
hahas! x)
slacking now.
wells.
thats wat i always do after the
exams. =p
but pretty worried for the results.
arghhhhhh!
cant help it. =/
*[talks can be sweet.]*
Y
22/10/2005. *simple serenade.country gardens*practice was fun todae.gort to play on the kulintang. =)thans to farid and the rest ofthe seniors larhhs.recommended me to ms wee totake pearlynns place inplaying "the simple serenade".its nort easy larhhs in fact.but ill try my very very bestderhhs yupps? =)moreover.im going to get to play besidehuda! x)hahas.and taking over pearlynn!both my dearies. =pso im feeling damn fortunate. =)and for "country gardens".im playing the bass with sbenand fadina. =)and farid was like."oh!shirley finally get to playthe bass!" =phahas.thans arhhs farid. =pwe also rehersed for the othersongs that im playing on theangklung.and todays prac is just playingand playing and playing. =)hahas! x)im sure.ake is going to bring down theroofs of lau pa sat again! x)we're going to rock the floors! ;)*[my spirit flew when im into music.]*
Friday, October 21, 2005Y
21/10/2005. *security*
i dun feel secured now.
i dunnoe why.
but i just dun feel secured
when i go over to ttc todae
and on wed.
i feel kinda weird larhhs.
nort the usual feeling that
im feeling norhhs. =/
pretty sads to feel that way
larhhs.
prac was okes larhhs.
tml have to go down.
for prac and theory.
guess.
ill leave before the theory
lesson begins bahhs.
since i dun need theory.
sighs!
tml no need to go down
to yamaha to check out
flute and all.
cos marmie nort free.
going to change to sun. =)
as long as gort go down
can liaos larhhs.
and i get to start my
flute course in nov can looos.
yadayada!
whees! x)
*[lapidapt.]*
Thursday, October 20, 2005Y
20/10/2005. *worries*
im filled with tons and tons
of worries.
ever since i noe abt the
papers.
ive been worrying till now.
i gort to noe yesterdae
that ive most probably
secured an AO pass.
my maths. =)
most probably.
with no gurantees.
but i noe.
i dun tink ill fail. =)
even if i dun do as well as
ive done for mid years.
but i noe.
ill pass. =)
and today.
i gort to noe oso.
that ive secured another
A level pass.
my chinese. =)
heehees.
i gort the highest! x)
for chi lit as well ooo. =)
happies nehhs.
now.
im left with another AO pass.
and ill clear year one.
and get promoted to year two.
i realli realli want to be
promoted to year two.
i realli reall want to.
i dun want to retain! =/
its either econs or mgt.
jus any one of these will do.
give me that AO pass.
ive worked so hard for the
exams.
i realli dun wish to see
myself failing and getting
retained larhhs. =/
sighs.
its so true.
targets may seem so near.
yet they are so far away.
sighs! =/
*[thinking of eye candy.]*
Wednesday, October 19, 2005Y
19/10/2005. *deeparaya.prac*
celebrated deeparaya in sch
todae.
hahas. =)
its deepavali + hari raya.
didnt get to watch the
entire performance though. =/
cos have to go to ttc.
prac is okes.
gort to do warm up and
practice how to roll. =)
fun fun! x)
and ms wee allow me to
learn "mission impossible"
ferr pb. x)
hahas! x)
the rest of the time.
was practising the angklung
ferr the songs ferr lau pa sat.
ooo.
saw "man" todae.
hehes. =p
hahas.
okes.
im mads. =p
hmmms.
hilmis sweet. =)
see that i taking the angklung.
and i injured my finger.
so i carry with a little uncomfy arhhs.
and he offered to help me! x)
hahas.
and say that my face very red.
he thot its becos of the angklung.
hahas! x)
alahs.
hes still sweet and nice larhhs.
offer to help me. =)
hehes.
new eye candy.
"hilmi". =p
hees.
mans!
and farid asked my
why rommance nort there
for ake prac todae!
how would i noe farid?
hahas! x)
and.
YES!
IM GOING TO SLEEP SOON!
hahas. x)
ake ppls are nice ppls. x)
*[im forgetting eu.but keeping
the memories. =) ]*
Tuesday, October 18, 2005Y
18/10/2005. *snow city*
fun fun fun!
hahas! x)
its realli fun todae.
and damn cold inside the
snow chamber larhhs! =p
and i forget to bring in
the gloves that cais
brought for me.
and when i go inside
the snow chamber.
my fingers straight away
numb larhhs. =/
and my ears pain pain. =/
and we went ferr the float
tingy.
20 ppl in a group.
and have to slide down the
slope together using only
15 floats.
whees!
our class jus nice 20 ppl go
today marhhs.
so jus nice the 20 of us one
group. =)
and we are the only group that
came down as a group.
without any breaks in between!
*cheers for 05b4* x)
and we had fun with the snow.
hahas! x)
we are like big babies larhhs.
fight with snow.
play with snow. =)
my face is peeling!
its painful.
and itchy! =/
god.
when i sweat arhhs.
its more itchy larhhs.
and tmls ake prac is in the
HALL!!!!!
manns.
im sure to sweat like a pig.
and im going to itch badly. =/
better find a nice place.
with fan tml. =p
lols! x)
but at least.
PRAC IS STARTING! x)
*happies*
*[itch.pain.peel.]*
Monday, October 17, 2005Y
17/10/2005. *post exams activities*
todaes the first dae of the activities.
the first part was pretty boring larhhs.
the rest gort to watch movie.
but the maths students.
have to go ferr tutorial!
how great is that mans! =/
and had a damn dry lesson
on INTERESTS! =s
god larhhs.
cos im totally no link with
money derhhs norhhs!
now ask me to werk with
interests = asking me to die. =/
arghh!
second part was first aid course.
the talk on feats and asthma
probably made me slpy.
so i doze off ferr a while.
and woke up.
then yang thot i still slping.
so woke me up.
wells.
in fact.
i aint slping anymore.
cos its damn cold in the audi. =/
ooo lala.
saw ss when i was having break.
and again in the gym. =)
ss is a great student.
hes one of the best performer
ferr prelims wors. ;)
and his gp is gud! x)
gort b4 nehhs. =)
and he was also one of the best
ferr eng lit.
wooties! x)
yeahhs!
going snow city tml! x)
hahas.
we are like little kids larhhs.
go snow city.
see snow.
play snow.
hahas! =p
i guess.
tml will be better than today.
hopefully larhhs. =)
*[every single glance.
brings about a skip of my
heartbeat.]*
Sunday, October 16, 2005Y
15/10/2005. *burnt*
god!
im burnt!
hahas.
ehhs.
im nort peeling.
but my face and two
arms are burning hot. =/
my face oso itchy itchy
derhhs nehhs. =/
mans.
didn expect myself to be
like tanned after such
a short while. =/
but its nice to be tanned.
hahas.
like black black and
red red at the same time. =p
hahas! x)
*[im a lobster.jus gort
promoted to be one
frm a sotong. =p ]*
Y
16/10/2005. *sun.sea.sand.rain*
oooooooooo.
i had loads of fun todae larhhs!
went to sentosa with yang and
wend dearest.
woohoos!
to go see MI play rugby.
hahas! x)
and saw grace.
enos and the rest of the ruggers
there. =)
whoas.
played awhile of volleyball.
but aint in the realli state
and mood to play larhhs.
hahas!
but i still played.
fun fun fun!
and....
the best part of all is.......
I SAW SHANNON! =)
YEAHS!
ONG SHANNON OF 4A OF
PGSS 2004 BATCH! =)
hahas.
mans.
i realli realli miss her.
and i realli realli hate to
leave her larhhs.
mans.
its like.
SO LONG! ='(
die die oso have to meet up
with her someday with the
rest lerhhs. =)
i miss all of them.
loadies. =/
ooo.
i gort a minor sun burn on my
face lerhhs ooo. =p
wend is damn fast.
she very fast tan liaos.
yang.
dun worries.
nxt time.
we go again.
and stay long long! x)
and get ourselves tanned
like BAKED LOBSTERS! =p
hahas. x)
i realli had fun. =)
*[can i see eu?]*
Saturday, October 15, 2005Y
15/10/2005. *let it be*
all i can do now.
is probably to let things
take their own natural
course.
and nort bother about
trying to get things
done bahhs.
wells.
im still holding onto the
want of moving on.
i guess.
im starting on the journey.
taking my first step.
slowly.
but steadily. =)
*[love dosent make the world
go round.passion does.
love jus makes the ride
worthwhile. =) ]*
Friday, October 14, 2005Y
14/10/2005. *stairway to heaven*
was watching "stairway to heaven".
oh mans!
the show is damn saddening
larhhs! =(
first episode only sias.
i oreadi cry dunnoe how many
times lerhhs. =(
damn emotional of me yupps?
but its damn touching.
damn saddening larhhs! =(
gonna wait ferr marmie.
and we watch together again.
cannot let marmie miss such
a damn nice show! =)
boohoos. ='(
now watching "little bride".
a major contrast of feeling. x)
hahas! x)
wells.
shall continue tv-ing.
hahas. =)
nort going out with yang
they all tml lerhhs. =(
damn sads. ='(
*[wheres my drim eu?]*
Thursday, October 13, 2005Y
13/10/2005. *over*
whees!
exams are all over! x)
wooties! x)
can go and play and relax
and wait "patiently"
ferr my results lerhhs yupps?
hahas! x)
hmmms.
going outs with yang they
all on sat wors. ;)
yeahs! =)
meanwhile.
im extending all special thans
to the following ppls. =)
nich - my angel.
thans boy.
ferr staying by me all these
while and giving me so much
encouragements. =)
nancy & komala - buddies.
thans girls.
ferr staying by.
and all the lucks. =)
yang,wend,cais.
thans ferr all. x)
huda sayang & pearlynn dearie.
thans ferr all the encouragements.
and the lucks as well. =)
muacks-
hugs-
to everyone.
the next thing that i want
to do now.
is to get back to pracs
asap. =)
i cant wait to see all ake
buddies.
i miss then loads. =)
*[i miss eu loads too. =( ]*
