the other day when i went shopping with mama, i bought this handphone chain, which blinks whenever i have a message or phone call coming in. i was messaging jas gf & yinwhee darling at the same time, and the light keep blinking non-stop. =p and i really mean, NON-STOP.


it looks something like this. :) a cubic chain, and i can swop the position of the three cubes. ;)

mama was packing her room, and she found my BOWLING SHOES! :) the pair i bought like donkey years ago. =p i've been asking her to help me dig out my bowling shoes since the day i sign up for bowling as my term 3 SEM. =p it's super obvious my leg hasn't grown for donkey years as well, cos i can still fit into them, and... i can even stuff ONE finger inside. :) i'm not growing... =x


the colour not very nice. a bit man. =p *OOPS! i'm the man. uh-hmmm.* =p

I'M GOING TO VISIT MY AKE DEARIES & DARLINGS ON THE 6TH JUNE! :) :) :) i'm excited! I MISS THEM A LOT A LOT! =x

alright! my blogskin is back to status quo. :) still prefer this kind of layout. :) for the time being, will be using this, until i have the mood & time to change header photo etc., then decide on my own blog layout. :)

was mugging my econs, and hendra love buzz me. :) from him, i got to know that ake's AGM is held on the 8th june. :( yes, 8th june. the day i'm flying myself off to macau. :( i cannot join them for agm. i cannot be there with them to end my service in ake. :( i cannot be with them on my official last day. :( i'm away from them, i'm away in macau, i'm miles and miles and miles away. :( how am i going to cope on the day itself, when i sit myself on the aeroplane seat, with my mind, heart & soul with my beloved MIAKE? :( i got no idea. :(

i'm feeling a little better. :) but my flu ain't getting better. i still feel my nose blocked, and i can't breathe properly. =x got this super major headache after i blogged yesterday afternoon. =x laid on my bed, and "forced" myself to read through econs. international trade, balance of payments, foreign exchange... words spinned, and my eyes closed. slept for an hour & a half, woke up feeling soooo much better. :) i hate being sick. well, it has really been long since i last fell sick. =x ok. i'm a strong girl! ;)

being sick is no fun at all. :( i had a hard time getting myself to sleep last night because i couldn't breathe properly. and i had a hard time waking myself up this morning because my head was hurting like mad. =x it has been really long since i last felt so so sick. =x no appetite, no mood to study, no mood to sit up straight, i just want to lie down, sleep and do nothing at all. :( but the more i sleep, the worst the headache gets. :( *RAHS-

i really haven't been productive this week. :( i ain't following my schedule planned since monday. :( and i've got a lot more to catch up. PLEASE GRANT ME THE POWER TO START WORKING. =x

my blog song brings me back to those ake days. :( i miss ake. :( ok. i'm getting emo again. :(

sometimes i really wonder, if i've already classified you three to the last i would ever think of in my life. i think i have already done so, since the day, everything has changed...

i went shopping with mummy today! :) i love shopping with mummy. hehs. =p bought clothes & a pair of shoes. :) i have new things added into my wardrobe! ;)

went to the BOOK FAIR as well. it's boring. =x practically nothing to see there luh! so different from the past fairs. it's getting really dry and boring. =x all filled with CHINA stuffs, which don't interest me at all. =x

because of shopping, i didn't get to study at all today. =x loads to catch up on! *RAHS- can this holiday like speed up a little bit? i'm feeling so sick of holidays already. =x like as though i've been stuck at home for like weeks. and it's not even one week into the holidays. =x *RAH-RAH-RAH!

it's CONFIRMED! ;) I'M FLYING TO MACAU ON THE 8th JUNE 2007! ;) and i'll be back on the 11th JUNE 2007! :) flying off in the morning. and coming back in the afternoon. ;) whee~ a breather, and when i'm back, it's all about the books, the revision & the practice. *GO GO GO-

i'm sick. yes i am. flu and bad throat. i'm FINALLY SICK. :)

i receive a news today, which saddens me a lot. not because i'm leaving, but because i'm unable to be with them. i'm really very very very very sad. :(

ooo. i love PICASA WEB ALBUMS! ;) the uploading of photos are easy and quick. i'm almost done with uploading the photos i burn-ed onto cds. :) left with those in my main com. ;) now i've got my photo albums under my google account! yadayada! *beams*

was loading the hokkaido photos, and i realise how much i've changed. hehs. a good sign indeed. :) during those hokkaido days, my face is rounder than a burger. =x as for now, hehs, although still round, but definitely not as round as last year. hee! =p was trying to pho-shop the FIRST photo i took with hendra love last year and putting it together with the one i took with him this year during I-DAY, there's really a big difference. he has grown, more good-looking than before, but still as playful. =p and i no longer look like a burger. :) hehehe! =p in the end, i didn't pho-shop the photo. i cannot stand looking at my burger face. =x

i had a fruitful day at school today. :) what was taught using three weeks and me achieving nothing, was completely covered with full understanding within two hours. :) yayness! there's hope for econs! ;)

daddy & mummy bought a new tv for downstairs! ;) a flat screen plasma! ;) whoowheet! now when i watch tv downstairs, the picture is like BIG BIG! =p daddy also a new dvd recorder for upstairs. ;) they also bought a new dvd recorder. :) the recorder can use DVD +R/-R/RW. cool seh! ;) now i can record the shows that i can't get to watch during this period of time while i mug for my exams. ;) WHEE~

hope daddy is feeling alright over at work. :( he's really troubled. :( may sunshine appear after rain for him. seeing him like this make me so sad. :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER! ;) hehs. today's my sister's bday! ;) she's another year older already. i was still telling daddy, next year, SHE CAN LEARN DRIVING TOO! hehs. =p

I STUDIED YESTERDAY! :) i studied for my econs. :) "DEMAND & SUPPLY" & "MARKET PRICE DETERMINATION". :) hmmm. as i study, i realise that i didn't really forget everything for these two topics. =p and i'm really glad i can still recall the things that i've studied. ;) KEEP GOING! ;)

studying downstairs is so much better than upstairs. at least, i'm free from all distractions - tidbits, chewy chewys, radio, BED & COMPUTERS! well, i just lugged the lappy downstairs because i need a break. =p so here i am! =p

driving is not really alright yesterday. =x i actually forgot that i've to FULL LOCK to the left when i'm making my first turning for vertical parking. SHUCK-YS. i did my parallel so well luh! and i forgot my steps for vertical. instead of the FULL LOCK i'm suppose to do, i did only ONE ROUND turn, which is suppose to be the step for DIRECTIONAL CHANGE! =x super blur. from then on, my road driving wasn't very good also. i lack acceleration, and my lane-changing is still shaky. =x only my last road driving route was the best for today. =x so much lousier than last week. =x *RAHS-

got to go to school tomorrow morning. so got to sleep now. TATA PEOPLE! :)

LOVES. <3

holidays = less of being stared at. :) i'm free-d, at least, for the next 30 days. :)

i'm looking for another place to host all my online photo albums. :( yahoo photos is closing. that's what i receive on an email ah. :( every time i need to change hosting place, i will have to re-load all my photos onto that new hosting web, and it's a damn long process la! =x now i don't know where to host my albums. :( i feel so lazy to want to shift all my photos here and there. sighs. =x anyone knows where would be a good place for me to host my online albums? please leave me a HALO yea? :) thanks. :)

i feel so maths-y and econs-y now. =x

i'm listening to the two SYF pieces now. :) and i love them. haha! =p although the period was tough & tiring. but i still love to listen to them. ;) i can practically hum both the angklungs & kulintangs parts already. HAHA! =p

was playing my playlist loudly, and the instrumental version of "YONG GAN DE XING FU" from "GREEN GREEN FOREST, MY HOME" played. there's this part where rolling on the instrument was played. it reminded me of the rolling from the angklungs, marimba, melodies, xylophone, PBs & bas. then there's this crystalic part that sounded like its played on the glockenspiel... i miss the music & sound made by MIAKE. i miss the angklungs. i miss the kulintangs. i miss the percussion. i miss the birdcalls. i miss "DANCE FANTASY"s bar 98... i miss "accidentally in love", where my hendra love played on the vibraphone, i miss "selemat hari raya" at the esplanade concourse... i miss the songs that i've learnt & played. i miss my MIAKE. :(

i'm going MACAU for a short holiday. :) three days to be away from the books & papers, and after that, i'll be back to mugging. *RAHS-

daddy told me that mummy say i've been more hardworking lately, been seriously studying & revising. i replied, "ya, no choice, i got to 'chiong'. after 'chiong-ing' i can have my break for as long as i want to." then he said, "ya, fight to maintain at where you are in the first semester right?" i replied, "of course! if i maintain, then i can see my name on the board leh!" daddy was beaming. :)

daddy ain't facing really smooth things at work. he seek comfort from home, and solace from us when he return back in singapore. all we can do, is to give him all the support we can, and to listen to his troubles, because we can't share his burden. :( what we kids can do aside from supporting and listening, is to study real hard, do really well, and get into the university, and win back the face for our parents. :)

the world is forever so realistic. just because you didn't make it to the uni, people think that you just can't make it in life, and you are useless. just because you change to a smaller car, people think that you're having financial problem, and your family is becoming poor. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS? well, that's the kind of people we're facing now. realistic people who look down on us.

honestly, i will just say, "WHO CARES?" true what. who cares whether others think that we're useful or rich, when we ourselves know that we're happy for what we are now. :) my family may not be super-duper rich, but i can say, we have more than enough to live by, with no troubles making ends meet. :) my parents may not be uni-grads, but they've got us, who will make things change. :)

to make things change, and to win back the face & glory, i've to continue my mugging, because, break time is UP! ;)

i JUST reach home. yes, just. the stupid jam on our way back spoilt my mood. or rather, from the moment i hop onto the car, my mood was already soured. =x don't ask me about it. i'm fed up enough. =x but a sms i receive when i'm on the car cheered me up a lot. :)

had our second part of the PU3 retreat today at RAFFLES MARINA. :) it's not a really convenient place if there's no chartered bus there. if mummy ask me to go home by myself from there, 100% i will get lost. :)

the retreat was quite fun. :) had my fill of laughters from the start till the end. :) of course i had fun, especially when there's KIAT & LEONG in our team! haha. =p me, kiat, leong, xianyang, wendy & caihua were in the same group for games & activities. during lunch & tea-break, we were also together. so, throughout, there was endless entertainment & laughters going on within our group. haha! =p and all the laughing gave me a headache after that. =x but still, it was a great one, with the two of them around. :)

get to meet my sher gf, jas gf & edith sweets only like during our tea & lunch breaks. didn't get to talk much, not to say cam-whore. =x i miss my GFs & sweetie... =x

i'm falling sick. :( i'm having bad headaches, giddy spells & i'm feeling really feverish. :( i feel so drained & tired after studying for a long while, and the best thing is, mid-years haven't even start, and i'm feeling soooo tired already. grant me the power to pull through... :(

sometimes, there's a limit to everything. not everyone can stand or take whatever you're doing. and, what's mine may not be yours. see the line, stand clear from it, and keep a distance. i will get really jealous, and i swear, i will hate you, more than ever... don't force me.

jasmine is a real dearie. :) she sent me this story last night, which made me feel really blessed & loved. :)


the story's title is - "THE ANGEL SLs". :)

me & jasmine are two emo SLs, who love MIAKE to bits and pieces, we love all our sons & daughters in our section, we just love to be in ake, we love all those who love us, and of course, we love one another. :)

received our year book today. :) yinwhee say i look very different. =p i love the new year book's layout. it's nicer than last year's. ;) i love our MIAKE photo. :) i love my 05b3 photo. :) i miss my MIAKE. :( i miss my 05b3. :(


MI's 2006 YEARBOOK. :)

i've found a new snack to indulge in. =p


TAO KAE NOI BIG SHEET! ;)

returned my SYF costume already. :( that officially marks my end of service for ake. :( i'm sad when i have to return my costume yesterday. i even ask chu ting see if i can tear away my name pasted on the costume cover to bring home as souvenier. =p too bad, it can't be teared out. :( if i force my way through and tear out my name, the costume cover will have a BIG lobang. :( well, like sher say, we got to move on... and, i didn't get to see my sunshine love & miss wee yesterday when i went to HARMONIS. :(

PU3 retreat tomorrow. 05a2 will be going in our class tee! ;) tomorrow will be another cam-whoring day with my GFs & sisters' club members! ;) woohoo~ i love cam-whoring with them! ;) yadayada!

be considerate, and think for the others. the school & class don't just surround you and evolve. :)

show your attitude by all means. from that day onwards, i know, everything has changed, and it would never be like before. it's ok. i've seen it coming, and i know i got to accept it. or rather, i've already accepted it. for myself, for my own sake, i can choose to ignore, and lead life my way. :) cos, i have others who are true and are bonded with my by heart. :) my edith sweets, my SISTERS' club, my girlfriends, my ake dearies & darlings, my 7B+T^2 & not forgetting, my heartiest DKSYJ. :) what more do i need when i have them? my life is more than complete. :)

hendra sunshine love is going to charge me $10 for every single second that i'm late for returning my costume. and still, from the day i know him till now, every single thing he is charging me at $10. :) but i still love my sunshine. :)

accompanied my edith sweetie & cj darling for their 2.4 today. didn't run their first 2 rounds with them, but i plan to run with them from their 3rd round onwards. when mr ram told me that they are slowing down, i was really worried that they can't make it. =x then mr ram & mr chong ask me to run with them, and mr chong taught me how to make them run faster. :)

i'm suppose to do alternate rounds with them. run the 3rd & 5th round. so i ran with them their 3rd, and drop out on the 4th. then joined them in the 5th and continued with them for the 6th. :) i ran like crazy in front to make them chase after me and follow my pace. when on their 6th round, i was pretty tired when i was running round the bend. maybe i didn't run for too long already, that's why my stamina has dropped. =x

mr chong was running with edith, and rae was with cj. :) i was in front of them, and running like madness at my fastest speed ever. at the bend, i start to slow down a little, and i hear mr chong shouting, "YOU'RE SLOWING DOWN! WE'RE CATCHING UP! FASTER FASTER!" and i sprinted my way through till the end. OH MAN! =x by the time i reach the end point, edith came right through, and "PAK"! right onto the track. and just lie there. HAHA! =p i was cheering for cj when she did that. i quickly ran over to pull her up, and said, "FASTER STAND UP! CJ's COMING! SHE's GOING TO STOMP ONTO YOU!" haha. and very soon, just before the time went out, cj came in. :) THEY CLEARED THEIR 2.4! :) YAY YAY YAY! i'm so proud of the two of them. :) they did it! and i'm really happy that all of us cleared our NAPFA. :) YAY! NO MORE NAPFA! ;) and we can all enjoy our SEM in july. ;)

for SEM in july, i chose bowling. :) i have been wanting to learn bowling since like long long ago! =p i've already got my kayaking 1 star, and i know how to swim, so no point joining in these two. morever i've got my own pair of bowling shoes, i need not buy a pair, and once i know how to play, i can go play whenever i'm free during the hols. :) just hope that if i get into bowling, i don't bowl myself in while learning. :) hehs. =p

OH! guess who i saw today before my management consultation? MISS WEE!!!!! ;) she came to school with her mother-in-law and her son, REGAN. ;) regan's so cute luh! his grand-mummy even make him wave back at me. haha! i was so high when i saw miss wee please. and i just kept waving and smiling. AWWWW. i miss miss wee. :(

i just ballot-ed for the NDP tickets. :) caihua told me this morning, and i got really excited about balloting for them. haha! =p balloted for the preview show because daddy cannot watch the one on the actual day. :( he cannot come home from work. *rahs- well, at least preview is better than nothing luh! ;)

i'm getting really fed up for econs! =x luckily, there's always mr raj around for us to do consultation with. :) celebrated his birthday for him today with the rest of 05B3 econs students. :) he was really happy, and really hope he did enjoy himself. :) his birthday wish this year, is that we will do well for our A levels this year, do well for econs, and all of us will go to the university. :)

secret recipe's cakes are awesomely delicious please. ordered the ROYAL CHOCOLATE CAKE for mr raj, and man! the cake is made out of thick chocolate cream and they are like "ice-cream" luh! =p it's really really nice. :) thanks to my hendra love, who recommended it. ;) for the past two times that ake ordered it for miss wee's birthday & ake syf, i didn't eat the cake. so this time, i get to try it, and it's really yummy. ;) promised sher gf that for our next outing, we're so gonna hit secret recipe! ;) *SLURPS-

was browsing on some online shops, and i spot on a few things. :) but currently, my pocket is burning a hole, and it seems to be getting bigger. so... i got to curb my temptations! =x

i realise, these few days, i've been blogging at weird hours. look at the clock now. it's going to be 12.30am soon. i'm getting weirder. HAHA! =p blogging away at wee hours. =p

received my class tee last tuesday! ;) the first tee to be admitted into my wardrobe. :)


the back of it. :) i'm no. 12. i wanted no. 8, because it's FRANK LAMPARD's number. ;) but sadly, that's not my register number. :(

it's an adidas football jersey. :) my first ever jersey in my cupboard. :)

just finish loading more photos, but i'm lazy to post them. HAHA! =p

i'm fed up with my econs. =x *RAHS-

i got really tired of studying for my econs test, and i decided to meddle with the photos i took on i-day. ;) pho-shopped some of the photos, and i came up with these. ;)

PRESENTING... *drum roll...*


my one & only sunshine. LOVES! <3


my two ultimately incredible girlfriends. ;) *i miss my claris tan...


the KULINTANG SLs! :)


he's like my "confidence & encouragement pill". ;)

last, but not the least,


nani, the girl who never fail to flash me her BIG smile. :) and i love to go, "HELLO NANI!!!!!" =p

photoshop is fun please. just that my com is a little laggy, it might get jam here and there. =x but still, i love photoshop. HEHS!

i'm so happy. :) i manage to improve a lot a lot for my econs mcq practice. :) as compared to the practice i had last sunday, today's results are like so much better. :) BIG BIG CREDITS to my SHER GF! :) love her like crazeh! ;)

i love "boiling phone porridge" with sher gf! hehs. =p supposedly to be calling her to ask her about econs... but after she coach me, we ended up talking... and talking... and talking! =p we chatted till it's almost 2am. HAHAHA! =p

didn't go for O5A2's bbq yesterday. :( i wanted to go... but i got tuition. and i have dinner with my family to celebrate my grandfather's birthday, which made it even more impossible for me to attend the bbq. :( but it's ok. i believe, there's always next time. :)

i'm still like super awake now please. and for heaven's sake, i need to sleep! i've got driving tomorrow! =x i don't want to drive with half-opened/half-closed eyes! *bahs-

i'm a very very happy girl today! :) all the little things mount up to make a great beautiful day. ;) WHEE~

had my GP MYE today. it was alright i guess. did "globalisation" for my compo, and the compre was on marriage. i didn't finish my AQ though. =x i spent too much time on the short questions, those re-phrasing(s) are making me mad. =x and my vocab bank is really limited, the supply is like so damn pathetic please. =x *rahs- well, it's over already. got to start studying & revising for my remaining papers. *go go go! aleh aleh aleh!* =p

for the FIRST time, MI have got its own sports day held in our own school. :) i think this year's sports day is better than the past two years. although it's held in the evening, it's still a lot better than before. :) ONYX is the CHAMP for cheerleading again. :) and GARNET emerged as overall house champ. :)

crashed myself at the sapphire area, and hendra sunshine love was just about 5 - 6 people away from me. :) jas gf is just behind me. :) had a great time gossiping & talking away, and also watched caihua's "movie production". :)

today's sports day reminds me of our MIAKE night pracs we had before our SYF. those late friday nights... those noisy bunch of MIAKE-IANs trying in vain to watch out for our steps as we walk down the staircase in the dark... *here i go again...*

talking about cheerleading, i can still remember, the last time i was a cheerleader & a relay runner was back then when i was in sec 3. =p i was sort of the i/c of cheerleading with shimin, riccia & rechel. :) the four of us are also together in the same team for the relay event, 4 x 100m. ;) we were the consistent winning team for cheerleading, and also a consistent bronze winner for our relay. :) haha! =p maybe i ran too slow. =x rechel is the 1st runner, i'm 2nd, riccia is 3rd, and our fastest runner shimin is 4th. :) i'm like so enjoying cheerleading & relay practices at that time. and i miss those practices. i so wanna run again. hmmm... will i improve? or will i still remain as slow as i was? =x

when i saw ONYX do their cheerleading competition today, i was really thinking back about those days, where JULIUS had our cheerleading competition too. when i'm in sec 4, i'm suppose to be part of the cheerleading team. but being the usual clumsy poke, i slipped & fell from my house's staircase, and i sprained my ankle. it was a few days before sports day. :( i was damn sad that i can't be part of cheerleading luh! and on the day itself, i can only waddle like a duck to watch JULIUS did their competition. :( it's suppose to be my last cheerleading with JULIUS, yet i missed it. i was damn damn sad. :( but they did well that day! :) and yes! i'm so proud of the team. :)

yayness please. blogger is finally back to normal, and i can edit my posts too! :) WHEE~

anyhow, i'm suppose to be mugging away for my GP paper tomorrow. but i've run through the notes mr tan gave, the family & the arts notes i printed for myself... just taking a short break. HEHS! =p

yesterday was my official first day not having ake practice. i feel very empty and loss. :( went to collect my costume & file from HARMONIS. i stepped into the room with nothing to look forward to, nothing to be high & excited over... no more the usual routine of taking off shoes, and running all over HARMONIS, talking and laughing, stuffing my barang-barang into the cupboards, dishing out my scores & mallets and start playing on the vibraphone... no more of talking across the room to jas & sher gf, no more of looking to my left and see my sunshine love, no more of looking at the front and see miss wee conducting and talking, no more of looking to the back and talk to the PB & BASS players... no more...

i miss my section. i miss AKE playing music. i miss every single MIAKE-IANs. i think just by missing them, i can go crazy. =x

after i've collected my things, i just put on my shoes and went off. :( it's really sad to make me leave HARMONIS yesterday. i so don't want to leave. when i see hafirah & ili playing on the marimba, i just want to do all the things that i would do on a normal wednesday & friday over the past two & half years... but things cannot always remain that way right? time got to pass, and we got to move on. well, it takes time for me to get use & over it...

the smiles did the trick and gave me the power. :)

i've got many angels that are god-sent. :) my sunshine love, my girlfriends, my sisters' club, my gossip club, my dksyj, my 7b+t^2, my ake dearies & darlings, my lovely class & school mates... i really love them, a lot, a lot. :)

hendra love sent me this last tues.
"i m on a mission.
mission to forget you.
mission to never talk to you.
mission to break our friendship.
you know what is my MISSION name?
MISSION IMPOSSIBLE!
gd night!"

its just a little message, and it brought tears to my eyes. i feel so blessed to have him. :)

he sent me this on friday, after a long day of crying endlessly during the hand-over.
"anyways if you cry, there will always be me here. so dont worry..."

it made my tears well-ed up again, and i cry as i prepare myself to leave home for the phantom of the opera. i just feel so fortunate to have this sweet darling with me all these while. for the one & half years i've known him, he never fail to stay really sweet and by me. :)

he just got his way of knowing when i'm feeling good, when i'm feeling bad, when i'm feeling happy, when i'm feeling down and irritated and angry and frustrated etc. and he never fail to bring the upside down rainbow on my face again. :)

that's why, i really love this sunshine a lot. a sunshine that lit up my entire life, a sunshine that brought more light to my life, and make my life even more worthwhile, more precious, more beautiful. :)

blogger is just going HAYWIRE! =x

hafiz just sent me two photos he snapped on I-DAY on friendster. and i swear, when i saw the photos, i laughed like crazeh. =p *see below!*


and hafiz left this comment under the photo : "i'm so not gonna listen to you, jannah! was that in our mind then, shirley wijaya kumar? hehehe. :) "

ask shukri why he called me "shirley wijaya kumar". the rest just merely called me that after shukri gave me that name. :) even babat sayang also know luh! wahaha! =p

i feel even more satisfied with our performance on saturday today. :) i received many "well done!", "great job!", "you guys were awesome!", "great performance!", "you guys were great!" and so on... i was so happy please! =p i'm happy for myself, and happy for my dearest all-time lovelove MIAKE. ;)

IGNATIOUS, that BULLY, told me that we played well. ;) and he say that there were people saying that we played even better on saturday, than on our SYF day. well, i don't know. i think we did great on both days. :) maybe saturday was an even better one, because i didn't screw up my solo. =p

many said that me & gracie darling's hands are like going at super fast speed. nadia darling can even remember the tune luh! ;) and she says that when i dam my vibes, it was cool. haha! many people were like WHOO~ =p and i told her, i could still remember when i'm first told to learn how to dam my vibes, i was laughing my head off, because i thought it was damn comical. =p and even during rehersals, i still thought i looked funny, and kept laughing. miss wee was still telling me, no matter how funny i look, let the audience laugh. as long as there's no more ringing sound, no one will care whether i look weird or not. :) well, to the audience on saturday, they thought it was style. ;) YAYS MIAKE! ;)

mr lai says, "i love to see shirley play with her ensemble. they were great!" ;) thank you mr lai! he thought that the bird call made by tzekiat was a real bird. when i told him that it's actually a porcelain bird blowed by kiat, he was like amazed. haha! and i proudly declared that there are FOUR birds for that piece of music, and i'm one of them. ;) wahahaha! =p showing the bird-ies off! =p

i'm missing my fella MIAKE-IANs already... :(

this is going to be a really LONGGGGG post. =p it will be filled with ALL that happened yesterday and today. ;) re-consider before you read on. because, it's really going to be LONGGGGG. =p

YESTERDAY, 11/05/2007.

OK! before i begin on any other things else, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YZ DARLING! :) you're finally 19, just like me, karen & diane! ;) whees~ i can't wait for my exams to end please. i so wanna meet up with you four goodies luh! well, lucks for you in your year of 19, and of course, ENDLESS LOVELOVE! <3<3

yesterday was my official last day as a kulintang section leader. had the hand-over ceremony after school, during the year1 & year2s' ake practice time. all the year3 exco members appeared in HARMONIS by surprise, and till the last moment before they are informed about the hand-over, they all thought we just happen to drop by after our consultation. =p

before the year3 exco went into HARMONIS, ben say, he will read from the bottom of the list, which means, he will start off with the section leaders. i ask him if he can don't put the section leaders first, because i can never take it. :( but he say no. :(

we went into HARMONIS, and stood around while the year1s & year2s settle themselves down. then all year3 excos stood in front by the whiteboard, and he start to announce... "we'll start off with the section leaders. first up is the kulintang section leader." very unwillingly, i stepped forward, and stared at the ground. ben then announced, "MEILING!" everyone was clapping and cheering for her. :) i'm really really very happy for her. as she stood up, and walked towards me, i really feel my feet being very heavy. every step i walk forward, my heart just sank even more. i have absolutely no qualms about who will take over me, because i know and believe that they will put in their very best once they take over my position. :) i just feel sad. because the moment i hand the letter i prepared for meiling, it is equals to myself being a graduate from ake. :(

i handed meiling the letter, and i told her, "now, you're the new kulintang section leader. congrats girl!" and i gave her a really big hug. she wished me all the very best in everything, as well as my As, and to take care. i wish her good luck and all the way in being a section leader. :) we look at one another in the eyes, and my tears welled up. she say i cannot cry, and musn't cry. i held back my tears. i know once i start to cry, everything just messed up, and i cannot control. so i walk back to the whiteboard, and i just struggle to control my tears.

then was jasmine's turn. when she return, she look at me, and i look at her. our tears welled up, and we just hug and cry. we "dragged" one another to the little corner on the right hand side of the room, and cried like crazy. tears flowed and never ended. i don't know we've cried for how long, sher gf, edith darling & jannah babat saw us cry, and came over to comfort us. but we just cried and cried. non-stop. then sher say, we have to witness the emerging of the two chairman(s), then we went back to stand at the whiteboard area. many people saw the two red-eyed SLs. =x

ILI is the new vice-chairman, and HAFIRAH was promoted to be the chairman. :) i clapped and cried. then hafirah gave her little speech. the moment i hear her say, "thank you to the year3s..." i turned away and walk to the little corner again, and cried. i saw jasmine tagging behind me, and we both hugged and cried. we cried even harder. and again, non-stop. sher gf & junlong came over, and really comfort us with all the words they can have. *thanks guys!* as we cry, tuankiak was giving his speech, about how he felt over the three & half years he has been with ake. his words really touched me, and i just sniffled a bit.

after tuankiak's speech, the year3s are dismissed, and the year1s & 2s got to carry on with their practice. i walked over to meiling, and i saw hendra love. as i talk to meiling, telling her of what she is supposed to do and stuff, i choked and cried. i cannot help it, because i cannot take the fact that i'm leaving ake already. :( hendra love ask me not to cry anymore, and to stay strong. but my tears just flow. it's not that i don't wish to part with my post, i just feel the strong sadness and unbear-ness to leave ake, which has been part of my life for two & half years. :( after letting meiling know her duties and stuffs, i received hugs, hand-shakes & well-wishes from some year2s. i was really warm-ed and touched. :)

mr pow saw me cry, and when i walk past him, he asked, "shirley, are you ok?" i replied, "yeah, i'm fine. thanks. :) " then he flash me his BIG USUAL SMILE. :)

thank you MIAKE, for the wonderful & great two & half years. over these two & half years, i've really enjoyed every single moment. :) those memories, those touching & warm-ed moments, they will never be forgotten. :) i love ake because i love you all. i really do. :) no matter what is to come after the year3s have left, stay strong and united. as long as you all have common goals & belief, you guys can overcome every single ordeal. :) no matter what results we've reaped in the past, you guys are the future. work for the future, and not the past. :) take real good care of yourself, the instruments and every single member in AKE. from now till forever, ake remains within me. :)


my beloved MIAKE '07. :)

watched "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA" last night. :) it's damn cool please. and i really love this musical like madness. the vocals of the performers are really wonderful. the female lead & the performer who acts as the soprano singer is damn good luh! she can really hit a damn high pitch! and i'm really amazed by their singing. it's really really great. a musical i never regret watching after "FORBIDDEN CITY". ;) it's really worth the money.

although our seats ain't really good seats, we got to lean forward, bend up and down to catch parts of the show, and spotting the phantom's appearance, we still love the whole thing. :) the sound effect, the movements and stuff, its really good. LOVE IT! ;) and of course, i love the companions who went with me. ;)

THANK YOU : JAS & CLARIS GF, PEARLYNN DEARIE, GRACIE DARLING, FATHIAH SWEETS, TZE KIAT, TZE KIAT's FRIEND & BEN, for watching it with me. :) i had a great night. :) LOVES. <3

TODAY, 12/05/2007.

slept near 1.30am last night, and woke up at 6.30am this morning to get ready for school. MI's INSTITUTE DAY TODAY! and it's also my official last ake performance, official last ake day. :( my mood wasn't really lift up, because i'm really leaving ake. :(

ordered MAC breakfast whilst on the car. then i reached school. there were already people around, and more people streamed into school as time past. :) when HARMONIS is opened up, we all went in to settle down. i was still high over last night's phantom musical, and kept humming "the phantom of the opera". =p jas gf came, and we kept singing with sher gf. grace came, and she sang as well. HAHA! =p we're all "posison-ed" by the musical. =p

the school catered breakfast for us. i didnt take the school's breakfast because i had MAC! ;) but i was so full that i started distributing out my burger to other people. =p in the end, i ate less than a quarter of my fish burger. HAHA! =p

after breakfast was changing & make-up time! ;) me & jas wanted to change at the toilet near the lecture theatre. but people and guests are streaming in, and it looks weird to walk around. hehs. =p so tzekiat ask us to change in the boys' toilet. but when he enter the toilet and come out, he say he wouldn't want us to change in there. because... haha! it's dirty. =p so we went to the library toilet, and change, then come down, and started putting on make-up. ;)

after making up, me & jas started our cam-whoring session! ;) many people were all cam-whoring luh! and the two of us managed to achieve our aim of taking photos with EVERY SINGLE MIAKE-IANs. ;) snapped a total of 185 photos today, inclusive of the year3s' lunch-dinner outing. ;) POWER~


my sunshine darling. he's my BIG BIG LOVE! <3 face="verdana">

me & cuijun!


she's my edith darling. ;)


my babat sayang. :)


she's the new kulintang SL. :)


i love him, because he's ever so nice, so encouraging and so helpful. :) i will miss him, and his CRAPS! =p


HILMI! I MISS HIM TONS!


shir&sher. GIRLFRIENDS! ;)


shir&jas. GIRLFRIENDS! ;)


i love her. because she never fail to be with me all the time. :)


he's the wormie. ;)

soon, it's SHOW TIME! my heart thumps like crazy, and as usual, my hands turned cold. i keep wanting to go toilet. =p when we were at the back-stage, i got even more scared. scared i will play wrong notes and stuff. scared that the scenario at SYF will happen again. =x and when we were on stage behind those red curtains, i was really freaking out. =x then when the drama people end, and the helpers were helping to shift away the benches, some helper was really "helpful". as he carry the bench away, he pulled the red curtain open! =x and i'm standing right in the middle of the stage. RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE! and when the curtain open up, everyone is sure to see me. i GASPED! =x jannah & grace quickly close the curtain back. =x GOSH! i wonder if i was doing anything funny at that time. =x

the emcees intro-ed MIAKE, and the curtains draw open slowly. i saw a sea of faces. and my heart thumped even harder. =x pushed my vibes to the front, locked the wheels, and got ready. my last performance with MIAKE for MI. i've got to make it a really good one. the audience clapped for us when the curtains open. then we played. "DI TANJONG KATONG" was good. :) we were all together. :) then the audience clapped. :) "DANCE FANTASY" was great as well. i can hear every single one of them playing behind, beside or infront of me. :) when we ended, the audience clapped and cheered. at that very moment, i smiled. :) i feel a great sense of achievement & satisfaction. honestly speaking, i've played the SYF pieces for TONS of times, this is the once and only time i feel so satisfied. :) i'm really proud of MIAKE. :) when singing the institute song, i can hear every single MIAKE-IANs singing. :) we're proud to be on stage, we're proud to be MIAKE-IANs, we're proud to be part of MI. :)

oh yes. guess who i saw when i was on stage, and the VIPs moved to the gallery area for their reception. MR CHEW! maha bodhi school's previous principal. the principal who praised me in public, at the coffee shop outside our school. =p

shifted our instruments back, and we had de-brief. :) that marks the end of the year3s last ake day, last performance. :( i really hate to leave. :( but i still got to... :(

cam-whored further, at the reception area and stuff. took tons of photos, with A LOT of people. ;) finally, i'm willing to go and change out of my beautiful syf costume. went up to HARMONIS, and many of them have already finish changing. changed and come out, packed my stuff, and more photo shoots! ;) took photos with my dearest BIG angklung, as well as my darling vibraphone. ;)


i used to play on the BIG ANGKLUNG with yichuang. i play the lower part, she plays the higher part. :) i miss those angklung days...


my dearest vibraphone. :) i will miss it like mad once i leave, although i feel so stressed up whenever i have a new song to play on it. but it has been with me for one year. :) can i bring it home? =p


this is the group of year3s MIAKE-IANs. :) my sons & daughters. :) i will miss them a lot. those not in the photo : NILAM, ROMMANCE & TZEKIAT! =x

left school at 1.30pm, and we're on our way for LUNCH! ;) but stupid 174 refuse to co-operate with us. and when it came finally at like 2+, not ALL of us can board it. it's too packed please. =x so we were separated. =x met the rest at the station after bukit batok interchange, where we change to 174 and head down to orchard. on our way there, jas gf called and tell me that PIZZA HUT @ PLAZA SINGAPURA HAS CLOSED DOWN! =x we were all SHOCKED luh! =x in the end, we decided on SWENSENS! ;) been AGES since i last went there. haha! =p

the bus journey was super long. about near to an hour? most of us fell asleep on the bus. i slept too! =p but i was woken up by... MYSELF! =x cos as i sleep, i knocked my head against the window. DAMN HARD PLEASE! =x i cannot scream or shout, so i just *poof* and rub my head. =x then i can't sleep already. but also good lah, cos when i wake up, we're already in town. hehs. =p

FINALLY! we reached. was messaging my sunshine love on the bus, and he say that i cried too much yesterday. because my eyes were puffy, and they were tired looking. =p anyhow, i love my sunshine like madness luh! he's like so damn sweet, so damn nice, and so damn great. :) he sent me this yesterday, "if you cry, there will always be me here. so dont worry..." thats so damn sweet right? i'm like super touched and warm-ed. :) LOVELOVE SUNSHINE! ;)

ok... back to our LUNCH-DINNER MEAL! ;) so so, we were at SWENSENS, and i can say, no other group is bigger than ours. hahaha! =p we've got 16 NOISY PEOPLE together on one long stretch of table luh! =p big group is fun, cos we can laugh and joke and play together. ;) but the trouble is when ordering food, and paying money. HAHAHAHA! =p

the best part of the whole meal was the part when we all disturbed JANNAH BABAT SAYANG! ;) because the table opposite ours, and the table beside ours celebrated their friend's birthday for them consecutively. and we as the ACTIVE MIAKE-IANs, we clapped and sang birthday song for them as well. :) then it was OUR dessert time! ;) jannah suddenly tell me, she's scared of nora. and i didn't know why. then when our ice-cream came, i know why. ;)

jannah ordered a FIREHOUSE HAPPY BIRTHDAY ICE-CREAM, and the ice-cream came with a candle as usual. then, when the waitress asked, "firehouse happy birthday?" nora, shahidah, nani, ashirah and fathiah pointed to jannah. then the person lit the candle, and as she place the ice cream in front of jannah, nora ask us to sing birthday song for jannah. and we really sing and clap. =p it's not jannah's bday luh! we are just joking and playing with her. HAHAHA! =p and we all sing and clap so loudly that the other two tables also join in. =p and the table on our RIGHT, i think he's the birthday boy, came over and gave the balloon he received from the restaurant to jannah! HAHAHAHA! from then on, we cannot stop laughing like crazy. =p and we just laugh and laugh and laugh. =p

then we started thinking of ways to message/call miss wee to tell her happy birthday, since it's her birthday tomorrow. =p the more we think, the higher we get, the more we laugh. =p hahaha! cannot stand us please! =p

anyhow, when at swensens, and looking at the menu, then there's this mothers' day menu package. we all saw something, for every package we order, we can get a FREE GOODIE BAG WORTH $260 FOR MOTHERS. ;) and jas gf was saying, because the year3s are regarded as under my section, i'm like their mummy. :) so when i order the package, i can get the goodie bag. HAHAHA! =p and i happily tell jas, if i ever get the bag because i'm the mummy of the year3s, i will share with her the goodie bag stuff, cos she's the mummy of the year2s. hehs! =p well, i'm really lucky to have so many sons & daughters with me, on this mothers' day. HAHAHA! =p

OKAY! I SO WANNA SAY THIS. jannah told me yesterday, that she message tzekiat that if he don't turn up for today's year3s meal, i will "KILL" him. and he replied, "wah! shirley also want to screw me up if i don't turn up for phantom! so many people want to screw me..." so... now... ENG TZE KIAT, CAN I SCREW YOU PLEASE? make me disappointed luh! one of my son never turn up. :( *RAHS-

alright. i'm done with my posting for today. :) if you've read till here, really, i LOVE you. :) and i will really say, YOU'RE AWESOME! ;)

AKE YOU LOOK SO GOOD, YOU LOOK LIKE WHOO~
AKE YOU LOOK SO GOOD, YOU LOOK LIKE WHOO~
AKE WE WANT YOU.
AKE WE NEED YOU.
AKE WE LOVE YOU.
OOOOOOOOOO~

I FEEL... OOOH AHH... SO GOOD.... OOOH AHH... ALL THE TIME... OOOH AHH... SO GOOD... OOOH AHH... ALL THE TIME...
WE've GOT A FEVER, WE're HOT, WE CAN't BE STOP.
WE've GOT A FEVER, WE're HOT, WE CAN't BE STOP.
WE've GOT A OHHH-EHHHH-OHHH-EHHHH HOT HOT HOT.
OHHH-EHHHH-OHHH-EHHHH HOT HOT HOT.
WE've GOT A FEVER!

:)

more photos at : "INSTITUTE DAY '07" & "YEAR3s LUNCH-DINNER AFTER I-DAY '07" under [MEMORIES ALIVE]. ;)

yesterday was my last day of service at ake, as a kulintang section leader. :( i've passed my role on to meiling. :) may the force be with her, to allow her to do her very best in helping the section, and contributing to bringing ake even higher, further, and better. :)

phantom of the opera is a WOOHOO~ please. its DAMN NICE. the effects are DAMN GOOD. and i love the whole thing. :) i'm still so HIGH over it please. =p

shall elaborate more later, after i wake up, go for i-day, have lunch with my dearest year3s, come back and rest. :) the later part of this day is even more eventful and fun-filled. and even more tears filled. =x

stay tune darlings! ;)

i'm feeling better today. :) thanks for the smile, i really love it. <3

huggies to my gfs! haha. and of course, my edith darling. ;)

to my hendra sunshine love : hey love, don't worry/brood over me about yesterday ok? i'm fine and better already. :) and please, don't say sorry... cos it's not your fault. :) whenever i'm down or unhappy, you'll always be able to find out so easily, and you never fail to bring my spirits back up. :) so, how can it ever be you who make me feel down? don't worry ok? LOVELOVE. <3<3

next week is an exam week. =x chinese oral, chinese listening, gp mid years. many many exams! *all the way shir!* ;)

COUNTING DOWN :
1 DAY --- THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA! ;)
2 DAYS --- MI's 4th INSTITUTE DAY! [year3s last performance & cca day. :( ]

rehersal today was alright. we just need to smile more, and i just need to be less nervous. :) we'll do fine. i so don't want saturday to come so soon. :( i know, i will cry on that day. i know, all my emotions and feelings will never be well controlled. i know, how much i cant bear to leave ake... :(

school was ok. i enjoyed management. :) during econs, mr lai asked me, what did i do last night. i said, "i read through my international trade notes, to get ready for the mcq test." he nodded. i feel the pressure coming from everywhere. starting from yesterday, i've already revised a bit here and there. but there are still so much more things to be covered and to remember. hope i have the will and energy to strive through this big exams. i just need more will and power. i hope i have them.

i really see the need for myself to sort out all my feelings. i just feel so lost, and losing all the courage i have. i don't need to be alone, i just need to find out the best way to present myself.

tell me, what is the best way to let myself stop loving you more and more.

when the heart within me goes haywire.

i had a BIG wake up call today. a really BIG one to wake me up, and let me feel the sense of urgency in the need to buck up and start studying. i scored only 5/25 for today's econs mcq quiz. :( i "manage" to be the lowest in class for this quiz. i'm disappointed in myself, and i got no one to blame for this result i've received. i didn't study much last night for this quiz. i didn't even study for "market structure", which is the BIGGEST topic that is being questioned on today. i don't like market structure, that's why i left it to the last to be revised for. but, for those that i've BRIEFLY REVISED THROUGH, i didn't do well also. =x what more to say when i've got only 5 out of 25. i can jollly well go "jump into the drain". =x

whatever, it's already over. and from this incident, i really get what i deserve for not studying hard enough, and not revising enough. i've got the signal, and i have to move on from here. a brand new day tomorrow, and may everything be going according to my plan : to complete ALL daily task i'm supposed to do as written down in my notebook. i got to start, before it's too late, and everything come crushing down. i got no time to waste.

98.7FM came down to school today. :) CARRIE CHONG & SHAN WEE were down too! ;) ok lah, i still thought last year's CLASS 95's visit was HIGHER. haha. =p maybe because we were all in that cosy audi of ours back in bartley. :) everyone is just packed in there, and everyone is so close together. :) i miss those days...

during assembly, hendra love was sitting THREE people away from me. :) i miss my lovely. ;) and yinwhee darling was sitting outside HARMONIS, ONE table away from me. :) whee! i miss my dearies & darlings. i miss them A LOT. =x

breakfast with GFs, edith & wormie is AWESOME. :) the canteen is filled with our noises luh! haha. =p and i love having breakfast with them. when gossips, laughters & joy fly ALL OVER. :) i just love their companion. :) *dearies, we shall do it again ok? :) LOVELOVE.

i seriously am glad that i've got edith darling with me all these while. :) thank you dearie for the little advices you gave me. :) i'll remember them, and be really careful. :) thanks dearie, i'm really glad i've got you. :)

ITS YANI LUNCHEON SAYANG's BIRTHDAY TODAY! ;) HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG. i love you a lot a lot, and i miss you a lot a lot too! ;) MUACKS & HUG.

at "BROADWAY BENG", he pronounced DIVIDENDS as divi-ends. ;)

i came home myself today. :) KUDOS! ;)

COUNTING DOWN : 4 DAYS TO "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA". ;)

what is better than seeing you every morning? :)

i don't need anyone to tell me that i'm BLUR. i know how BLUR i am myself. i don't need another person to repeat that to me, and make me feel like shit. thanks though, for making my NIGHT! i still thought i can enjoy throughout tonight, with my ear-phones stuck in my ears, and finish up my chinese lit questions. *RAHS-

i'm so gonna have "YOU TIAO" & PORRIDGE for breakfast tomorrow morning. :) and i'll be having breakfast with JAS & SHER GFs, EDITH LOVE & JUNLONG WORMIE! ;) and kudos to wormie for the "you tiao". ;)

haven't been studying AT ALL over the weekends. i just feel freaking lethargic, and i just want to sleep. =x i keep having headache spells and they make me want to sleep even more. anyhow, i attended driving lesson with eyes half-closed, or rather, barely open. =x

stop staring, or else, i POKE your eyes. i mean what i say. so, co-operate, and we'll all be happy. :)

watched "BROADWAY BENG RETURNS" with 05a2 just now. :) it's a musical, and i suppose almost everyone in the drama centre had a great laugh. :) the whole musical is in a mixture of english, chinese & hokkien. and as i watch, i can hear yichuang translating those lines in dialects to hidayah. ;) sebestian tan have got a really good vocal. he sing damn well please.

there's this part of the musical, where they acted out "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA", but re-named it as "THE PHANTOM OF THE CHINESE OPERA". it's super funny. =p they even played "the phantom of the opera" & "all i ask of you". sebestian tan sang luh! it's damn nice, really! ;) best of all, the whole musical's music and songs are all played LIVE! ;) reminds me of "FORBIDDEN CITY". yadayada.

ok. i'm tired. got to rest early, if i can. and there's still driving tomorrow. :)

oh, i feel superbly artistic for this week. ;) because... today, i watched "BROADWAY BENG RETURNS", and this coming friday, i'm watching "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA"! ;) whoowheet~

COUNTING DOWN TO "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA" : 6 DAYS! ;)

chinese paper today was pretty tough, but definitely easier than the common test one. =p well, like what miss wee say, it's over already. so don't talk about it. :)

i didn't know that all the CLAO & CLA people are taking our papers in the same container classroom until tzekiat told me. hmmm... ok lah, at first the room was stuffy, then it became really cold... *brrrrrr...*

before paper starts, was outside HARMONIS revising, and then the year2s shifted the kulintangs out. :) for the first time, i'm not there practising or helping, but only standing there and watch. =x then my hands got itchy, i went to the marimba, and started playing "DANCE FANTASY"s BAR 98. :) the more i play, the more i cannot get away from it. i have to "FORCE" myself away from the vibraphone, because i know, once i start, i cannot stop. =x

after my paper, was back at HARMONIS again, to put my stack of notes there because it's too heavy for me to lug home. =x and before yinwhee, yvonne & james went off, they said something that really warm-ed me. :) "if anyone dares to bully you, or if anyone bully you, tell us ok? the whole ake will go and beat that person up." :) when i hear this, i admit, i nearly cried. i feel so touched to have the whole ake behind me. :) and i'm sure, this offer don't stand only for me, but for ALL MIAKE-IANs. :) so try, try and bully ANY ONE of us. :) i'm sure you'll love the aftermath. :)

P.S.: to yinwhee darling, no worries, he didn't bully me at all today. :)

as i sat at the stadium, i did a lot of thinking. it has been so fast that the two and a half years have past by, with myself not even being aware of it. or rather, i'm aware of it, just that i chose to ignore how fast it has past by...

for the twice or thrice i've been into HARMONIS today, i just feel as though i've left the place where i use to be at every single wednesday & friday over the past two and a half years. i feel something amiss. being able to participate in every single ake practice have been borned in me. i cannot accept the fact that i have to stop attending cca soon, because my service for ake is ending, and a new group of people will be taking over us, and continue bringing ake even higher with miss wee, mr pow & miss lim.

from next saturday onwards, it will be time for me to get use to myself not having to attend ake pracs and gong into HARMONIS on every wednesday & friday. :( i just know that, i will need a lot a lot a lot of time, to get use of what i will be letting go, which have been part of my life over the past two and a half years. probably, it's because i've grown up a lot more than before, i feel that stepping down from ake, the feeling is so much more worst than stepping down from npcc. :(

so, for next week, i will do my best of the best as a section leader, making sure that whatever i fight for all of you is done, and all in place. before i leave, i will do that little bit more, just to make MIAKE an even better place than before. :) not that it's not good now, it's already a superb, wonderful & cosy place. i just hope that it can continue like what it is now, and even better. :) i promise to make sure that. :) taking it as my final duty for ake...

even if someone comes along, i will say "sorry, but the heart inside is already taken up."

we're supposed to write out our own CURRICULUM VITAE (CV)/RESUME during wed's htp period. but i didn't bring the cut out of the job i'm interested in on that day, so i need to do it at home, and submit tomorrow. so here i am, typing my CV away as i blog. =p i was telling my mama, i feel as though i'm really going to apply for a job as i type out my CV. =p it's quite fun ah. got the feeling as though i'm already going out to work in the society. hurhurhur. =x that's like going to be another 5 to 6 years down the road luh! =x i'm just thinking too far. way too far...

i only have at the most, two more ake practices & one last performance left before i officially graduate from ake. :( it's really saddening to think that i'm actually left with only two more pracs to continue seeing my ake dearies & darlings. i hate to leave, i really hate to... i'm so gonna miss those times we had fun, laughters & not forgetting, the late night pracs. i miss night pracs already. =x and when i leave ake, i will miss every single one of them there. i'm bound to miss those times when hendra love & fahmi dearie combined their effort to "BULLY" me and disturb me... those gossiping times i had with those little girl-ies, those laughters i had with ili, hafirah, hajar... those toilet trips, those break times, those gossiping periods... those endless happy moments. i just don't want to leave ake, i just don't bear to leave them...

my engine is starting, and i believe, i'm on my way. :) i really hope for all these to carry on & continue for the next 179 days. :) i'm left with only 179 days, before my first paper begins. i have at least 179 days to make a difference to myself & my future. :) *ALL THE WAY SHIRLEY!* i can do it. :)

thank you hendra. :) i'm fine. <3 please take good care of yourself ok? :) and get well soon dearie! :) LOVES. <3

"CLEAR YOUR SHAMPOO, CUP NOODLES, DRINKS ETC.!" whatever, my mood just went down the drain even before ake starts. PLEASE, STOP IT. its getting on my nerves, and if i were to say my piece, i will make sure you have a hard time. :) cos i've tolerated for VERY VERY LONG. so, before i flare up, and start SCREAMING & RAILING at you like nobody's business, kindly SHUT UP, AND KEEP THAT FACE OUT OF MY SIGHT. thank you. :)

like i say, mood was ALL GONE even before ake starts. we didn't even get a proper lunch. because of the RESPECT that we want to give, it caused our day to become bad. well, i don't wish to talk about it anymore. =x RAHS! *blood boil blood boil*

had a GOSSIP CLUB today! ;) with grace dearie, jannah babat, jas gf, yichuang darling & me. HAHA! =p we shall continue to gather MORE people to join our club. HEHS! ;)

a happy thing to blog about despite the down mood. the last gp essay that i did was photocopied out! :) although i didn't score like FANTASTIC for it, 29/50 only, but it's the FIRST time my essay is being photocopied out. :) I'M SO HAPPY! haha. =p sense of achievement luh! may there be more please! ;)

nothing else, but continue mugging for CLA. =x

i still feel "stared". EDITH DARLING, PLEASE, stop laughing ok? :) i still love you no matter what. MUACKS-

oh yes oh yes! my dino darling got accepted by NTU! :) well done love, i told you, you can do it, and they sure want you. :) I MISS YOU PLEASE! i can't wait for 22nd nov to come like the wind, and we can drive around, and shop till we drop. RAHS! i will work hard for the next 180 days, just to join you in the UNDERGRAD TEAM. :) lovelove darling! ;)

my public holiday is ending. and i only finish ONE SET of chi paper. =x damn lag please.

went to NTUC with mama just now. :) i love shopping with her. bought A LOT of things back. haha! i manage to splurge on choco minis, 8-days, jack&jill salsa chilli potato chips, van houten rasin choco & vitasoy mini. OOO. vitasoy is YUMMSY! ;) haha. =p i know i'm like a little kid. been long since i last drank vitasoy luh! the last time was when i was in sec4, and punggol's canteen sells it. ;) i've already forgotten how it taste like, so i decide to buy the mini packs to try first. =p drank one mini pack just now, and OOO! i love it! haha. =p

mama's cooking sphagetti tonight! WHEE-WEET! ;)

alright. back to hit my books. CHINESE MYE ON FRI. omg please. i'm so not prepared. RAHS! =x

teach me how to not think of you.

lovelies came & went. ((:



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