; AN UN-OPENED HEART ;

Friday, June 30, 2006Y

karens right.
love stories in those serial
dramas are so sweet and loving.
but they just dont happen in the
real world.
im not in a good state now.
cant describe how that feeling is
like.
i cant take it as nothing has ever
happened before.
cos indeed.
something did happen.
i can smile it off.
but i cant take the pain away.
what else can i do? ):
school have been fine so far.
all the revisions and all.
something to be happy about.
scored 51 for my GP. (:
thats good isnt it?
hahas.
like finally i pass!
lols. =p
indeed very happy. (:
everything else is okes.
pw is now working on survey.
handed in our EoM already.
its in the process of being marked
i guess. (;
exams coming up next week!
OMG!
im like so not prepared.
have been working really hard over
the past few days.
but i seem to be feeling that ive
yet to study alot.
but i really did study.
sighs.
faster faster.
let it be over faster. (:
then i can go SHOPPING!
hahas. =p
and really CHIONG shopping
and cycling with diane.
to get all the sadness and unhappiness
off and away from me. (:
cant wait cant wait.
YAYS!
no school on monday.
one more day of break.
one more day of hard core studying. (:
greatness. (;
alrights.
shall head off to MUG further.
before i GO.
sharing a song with everyone.
VAN FAN'S LOVE STORY.
DAMN BEST.
hahas. (:
hearts the song.
and it suits what im feeling now.
take care everyone!
HEARTS. <3

SONG OF THE DAY : LOVE STORY
[by FAN YI CHEN]

爱的故事有很多
你一定听过他们说
最美的爱情像琥珀
美得忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落

放开手
往北方走
留下伤心的树
独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
像我的心我无法在冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

爱的故事有很多
你一定听过
他们说
最美的爱情像琥珀
美的忍不住停留
而任性的风
吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落

放开手
往北方走
留下伤心的树
独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
像我的心
我无法在冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

看今夜的流星
划过了天际
像我的心
我无法在冷静
请你要倾听
你是我的唯一
我不愿去相信
我们之间
隔着海洋的距离
我的爱
已融化在空气里

-END-

you came and go.
without anything to say.
it all just started.
and ended.
without any signals.
im gonna miss the times.
i sure will.
stay in my heart.
okes?

*[heart pain.]*

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6:30 PM

Monday, June 26, 2006Y

yays!
SHIRLEYS BACK TO SCHOOL!
hahas. (:
im so happy today.
cos YES!
im back to school. (:
and im wearing this BIG smile
as i walk into class.
and i receive a BIG smile from
ah wend. (:
she ask my why i so happy
today.
but i also dunnoe why.
back to school makes me HAPPY!
hahas. =p
school lifes back to normal.
and teachers start to brainwash
us about our coming mids.
they are telling us to make full
use of the 8 days we have left
before our mids.
and YAHS!
8 more days to my mids.
and 16 days to end of mids.
HOORAH!
breaks were made eventful today.
studied for my mgt. (:
while buddies go out for lunch.
dont have much appetite.
so didnt follow.
and WOWS.
believe what an hour and a half
can do.
it really made me cover HALF of
marketing. (:
anwar came to say BYE to me.
hes going to LASALLE.
and take up music tech.
ALL THE BEST ANWAR.
do come back to MI for your
NASI LEMAK.
and i promise to GUARD it still. (:
people come and go.
and before i know.
someone else is leaving too. ):
now that schoosl back.
studies are getting back on track.
ive to continue to mug.
and wait till mids are over.
blogging might take a break.
and may be back till weekends.
i hearts school. <3
i hearts you more.
your appearance today.
made my day. (:
i miss you.

*[let this stay.please.]*

6:14 PM

Sunday, June 25, 2006Y

one more day.
and shirleys BACK TO SCHOOL!
RAAAAAA.
have been mugging for my
econs last night.
finally got my concepts for
labour market and P&C. (:
hahas.
and i had a late night last
night.
slept at almost 3.
and i woke up at like 12 today.
hahas! =p
alrights.
continue to MUGGGGG. (:
lovelove.
<3<3

*[you are no longer there.]*

1:42 PM

Saturday, June 24, 2006Y

was watching the youth day
show on tv.
and i know why i love going
for ake practices and school.
i go to school.
because of the things i want
to learn.
because of the friends i make
in school.
and of course.
because of ake. (:
the passion for music is there.
thats why i hearts going for
ake practices. (:
passion is stronger than like
and love.
the passion is burning in me. (:
the passion for music for me
will not burn out i think.
i hope it wont.
and KEEP BURNING. (:

*[i dont passion you.I LOVE YOU.]*

9:51 PM

yes.
im hurt emotionally.
by someone.
and somethings i dont wish
to say about.
i dont know.
but sometimes.
i just think that things in life
aint fair at all.
i may think that im the most
fortunate person with everything
i want for one moment.
but not at another moment.
life is hard to predict.
and its hard for me to handle.
sometimes i just lose control.
but what to do?
thats life.
and im really fortunate to have
a friend like DIANE TIONG LING YING.
she practically stood by me whenever
i need her to be around.
and shes really the bestest friend i
can ever have. (:
i HEARTS my DINO DARLING. <3
yes yes.
no one else.
but my DINO DARLING. (:
the one staying at HOUGANG.
yes.
the dino.
the diane.
the one and only ah shin sao. (;
LUB LUB. <3

*[i hearts DINO. (: ]*

5:41 PM

shall post something before
i start chewing the notes and
books laid in front of me. (:
woke up at 10.15 today.
and mama dont allow me to
sleep anymore.
wahahas! =p
but its really running LATE in
the morning.
so i might as well just pull
myself off bed.
hurhurs. =p
rained heavily last night.
before i went to sleep.
was watching the last few mins
of world cup between ukraine and
tunisia.
quite interesting.
especially when you see them trying
to score goals.
wahahas. =p
yes!
RAIN performance watching tonight.
with 05b3. (:
great.
been a month since i last saw
them yahs?
and gonna meet buddies at 5.30
at city hall mrt station for dinner
before going to watch the performance.
hmmmms.
and because of that.
im missing the chance to go to
auntie yue'ers house for dinner.
gosh gosh. =x
yays!
all photos are uploaded.
and computers are soon getting out
of my sight. (:
wonderful.
alrights.
go study.
*COME ON GO GO GO!* (;

*[mind is running wild.]*

11:12 AM

Friday, June 23, 2006Y

yays!
ive uploaded ALL the hokkaido
trips photos onto the web. (:
they are under the link.
and im uploading the ake bbq
photos.
WOOHOOS!
hahas. (x
im soooo happy.
was telling ah wend.
while looking through the
hokkaido photos.
i miss there alot.
and i really want to go back
there AGAIN.
and as soon as possible.
get the fun back.
the atmosphere.
and everything.
be mesmerised by the beautiful
scenery and the food.
and the little little things.
hahas.
im dreaming.
im back for less than a month.
and i want to go back again.
hahas! (x
come on!
let the two years to be over
sooner.
and i can go AGAIN! (:
alrights.
i need to get back to MUG.
mug mug mug.
days to end of mids : 19 days.
YAYS!
count down count down. (:

*[i need to say.i miss you.]*

8:16 PM

im feeling better already.
and probably.
near to alright condition. (:
thanks to those who asked
and showed their concern. (:
*hearts*
woke up pretty early today.
intending to go for piano.
and to the market with mama
before lesson.
but its raining so heavily.
that mama dont allow me to go.
cos im still not really well yet.
so slept again.
until 9.30.
hahas. =p
then woke up.
quick breakfast.
and studied econs.
great!
i understand the part on demand
for the labour market. (:
*sense of achievement*
then went NTUC with mama.
bought more chips for sisters.
and necessities.
after that.
lesson. (:
a great lesson i can say.
im left with tying up the pieces
nicely with no mistakes.
the correct tempo.
and TAH DAH!
bang on scales and sight reading.
ooo.
i better pass the exam.
its $370 lahs! =x
and oooo.
singapore post is releasing this
set of disney stamps.
damn nice. (:
gonna call to order the WHOLE
set later. (:
yada yada.
EoM done.
survey questions done.
left putting them into my thumby
drivey.
and YES!
done for PW over the hols. (:
left with serious mugging for the
next two and a half weeks.
and IM FREED FROM MIDS. (:
but but but.
school reopens means my fate for
the gp paper is going to be
released.
oh great!
i think im so going to flunk my
paper two.
lets see.

*[be there for me.]*

3:35 PM

Thursday, June 22, 2006Y

ooo.
im feeling damn sick now luhs. =x
my nose is horrible blocked.
and i cant have a proper nights
sleep. =x
im feeling very very terrible.
sakae dinner was okes.
didnt have much appetite.
but manage to eat a little. (:
gonna have an early night today.
have to wake up very early tml.
piano at 9.15. =x
very early sehs.
but never mind lahs. (:
ooo.
yani luncheon dearie gave me sth
very nice last night.
a photo edited with a little message.
i hearts her luhs! (:
completed my EoM liaos. (:
yays!
hahas.
first draft.
hope its not TOO bad. (:
then left with altering.
and YES!
IM DONE WITH MY EoM!
hahas. (x

*[let me be the one.can?]*

7:37 PM

Wednesday, June 21, 2006Y

woohoos!
ake bbq today was a total BLAST. (:
met B^7+T^2 at outram park mrt
station at 5pm.
and we had our nails painted BLACK. (:
and i change into the ripples slippers
they help me to buy. (:
after that.
headed to queenstown mrt after that.
where we met yani luncheon and huda
sayang. (:
went to ms teh's house.
and everything started. (:
after jun long started the fire.
B^7+T^2 went to take photos.
and we went into the jacuzzi.
and someone came to tell us that the
guard is coming.
and me, edith and ben were still in the
jacuzzi.
struggle to get out asap.
hahas! =p
and after that.
my shorts are WET.
went to help xiao xuan with the water
bomb preparations.
and xiao xuan happily poured bags of
water over me. (:
and yes!
IM WETTER! =p
after that.
continued to fill in water.
until clar dear say im HIGH on filling
water bags.
HURHURS. (;
went to had some food.
and HENDRA, yes, MR SUNSHINE.
he slam one bag of water on my back.
ALRIGHTS.
and he keep wanting to do that.
and i just sat there.
not moving.
and laugh.
hahas! =p
had some food like BEEHOON, sambal
fishballs, hotdogs and crab meat. (:
and some stingray. (:
drank LOADS of water.
hahas.
and had a great time laughing.
and taking photos.
and seeing people kena water bombs.
HAHAS! =p
talked and all.
and we started to clear up at around
9.30.
and took more photos with the entire
exco committee and everyone.
and said good bye. (:
im soooo gonna miss them.
huda, dian, yani, pok, pearlynn...
and so many many more. (;
had loads of fun today.
and my flu got worse. =x
cos i didnt change out after being
sooo wet.
but i still enjoy myself. (:
will only get to see my dearest ake
peeps like one week later.
and meanwhile.
AKE.
LETS CHIONG FOR OUR MIDS YAHS? (:
lovelovelove.
<3<3<3
big THANK YOU to all for the fun today.
especially B^2+T^2.
and my GIRLFRIENDS. (:
HEARTS.
<3

*[just be you.and me.]*

11:58 PM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006Y

todays world refugees day. (:
mrs low told us today during
class.
and i think todays class was
pretty short and sweet.
but time of course overshot.
as usual. (:
but i didnt feel as if its draggy
or naggy or long.
so yupps!
im soooo excited again.
hahas.
all high for tmls bbq. (:
wonderful.
hahas. =p
im sooooo going to ENJOY.
hahas. (:
YAYNESS! (;
counting down to ake bbq:
17 hours.
YAYNESS.
woosa woosa. (:

*[count on me.]*

11:39 PM

nahs.
im not any better. =x
the flu is still there.
and now.
im having the coughs.
RAAAAAAA.
i want to get well before
the ake bbq.
BUT I DONT SEEM TO BE!
*sulks*
but i will try. (:
nothing much today.
but more studying.
and today.
i did real practise for maths.
was doing trigonometry.
and its making my head big. =x
but theres something for maths
thats making my head even
BIGGER.
series and sequences.
FOR GOODNESS SAKE.
i dont know how to do.
HURHURS.
got my toe nails painted yesterday.
its BRIGHT DARK PINK. (;
bought by diane.
from hong kong.
LOVE IT. (:
and ive got two more colours to
try out on someday.
hehes. =p
after my mids. (:
oh yes.
did i say before?
THE NEO PRINT MACHINE IN JAPAN
IS AS CHEAP AS $4 PER TAKE?
hahas.
was sorting out the neo print
that we took while at hokkaido.
and mans!
its the same quality.
but CHEAPER! (:
yays mans.
if DKSYJ ever go to japan together.
im sure the machines are going to
make TONS of money from us luhs!
hahas! =p
yadayada.
counting down to ake bbq : ONE DAY.
counting down to end of mids:
22 days. (:
just keep counting.
just keep counting.
counting.
COUNTING.
COUNTING! (:

*[hearts choco coated strawberries.]*

5:06 PM

Monday, June 19, 2006Y

i blame myself.
for not having the courage to
face you directly.
i so much wanted to stop
avoiding you and your stares.
i hate to avoid this.
and that.
and everything.
but i just dont have the courage
to look back at you.
smile.
and say that everything is okes
for me.
i dont see the usual chemistry
between us.
i dont see the usual smiles and
jokes we have.
i dont see anything.
i see darkness.
and gloominess.
please someone.
bring me out of all these.
and let me have some good days.
please.
and thank you. (:
i too know.
when school starts.
another fresh new chapter for me.
i have to face it.
the fact.
just slapped me in the face.

*[it wont be the same anymore.]*

2:01 PM

bad bad bad.
ive got a bad bad flu.
and its really BAD. =x
i haven got great nights sleep
because of my stoopid flu. ):
and im so so tired. ):
woke up this morning.
and mama steamed paus. (:
yummsy.
nothing much to blog about for
now.
but im very satisfied with
myself. (:
ive more or less completed
marketing. (:
oh yes.
did i mention?
sakae lunch buffet with sisters
on thurs!
hahas!
ooo.
i miss the unagi sushi.
and the chawamushi.
and the cha soba.
wahahas. (x
and i hope hope HOPE.
my flu will get well before wed.
i want to enjoy myself to
the fullest for the ake bbq.
and of course.
my sakae lunch buffet on thurs. (:

*[dont say sorry.]*

10:11 AM

Sunday, June 18, 2006Y

i guess im seriously sick.
last night hit the bed while im
trying to memorize some mgt
notes on marketing. =x
lousy.
and my nose seems to be clogging
up badly.
cant seem to blow it clear. =x
and it runs like a spoilt tap. =x
wonderful.
headed down to PS aft brunch
with family today. (:
dim sum was awesome this morning.
and yes yes.
i hearts the siew mais and california
maki!
woohoos! x)
back to PS shopping.
its like AGES since i went shopping
luhs!
and i miss the shop-till-i-drop
feeling.
hahas!
cos need to come home to study.
so left after gathering my things.
headed to CARREFOUR first.
to get my long awaited FBTs.
mans.
they are SHORT.
hahas! =p
yes yes.
bought a black square cut one. (:
and headed to PMK.
a GREAT place.
cos new tees.
but due to MOOLAH constrict.
no more moolahs to buy new pmk
tee shirts.
*sulks* ):
there's this damn nice MOO MOO
tee luhs!
but the wealth is not with me. =/
OKAYS.
IM SOOO GOING TO GET THAT TEE
WHEN I GO SHOPPING WITH DINO
DEARIE. (:
yays.
went IP ZONE to get that red shirt
that im going to wear on the ake
bbq night.
cant wait for ake bbq luhs!
and just when im thinking that
oh!
im so ready for ake bbq.
edith sweets remind me.
i forgot the black nail polish.
great! =x
i think got to borrow from edith
on that day itself.
*CARELESSNESS IS EATING ME UP!*
headed home after buying the tees.
dino dearie date me!
hahas.
after my mids. (:
we are going for SHOPPING!
yeah man. (;
got to go get a cake for daddy later.
its daddys day today!
HAPPY DADDYS DAY TO ALL
DADDY! (:
of course.
to my THREE DEAREST DADDYS.
my own DADDY. (:
my own GOD - DADDY. (:
and my DADDY LOW. (:
yada yada.
more mgt notes to SQUEEZE.
*scurries off*

*[patience.i need. =p ]*

4:27 PM

Saturday, June 17, 2006Y

yes yes.
i believe in the saying.
"what goes around.comes around."
its sth i always hear rodrick saying
during days of NP.
and "100% hardwork.100% returns."
hahas.
YES!
I REMEMBERED. (:
cos they are meaningful.
well.
maybe to me luhs. (:
YAYNESS to B^7+T^2.
hahas.
its B to the power of 7 plus T squared.
hahas! x)
thats an encoding for US nehs! (:
cant wait for ake bbq luhs!
hahas.
then B^7+T^2 can show their POWER!
hahas.
nanny nanny POO POO. =p
*stop acting childish*
hahas! =p
got to know THREE year ones alittle
better?
ehs.
at least i talk to them. (:
they are:
HENDRA. (:
he got this super big smile lahs.
hahas!
*MR SUNSHINE SMILE* i shall call
him. =p
JERINE. (:
shes sweet.
and hardworking too lahs!
MUI WOON. (:
shes from jun longs communication
circle.
hahas!
but we are in charge of FOOD for
the ake bbq. (:
and while deciding for the ake shirt
colour.
me and hendra were having fun pulling
one anothers hand up for the colour
we each support.
hahas!
he grab my hand to make sure i raise.
cannot ahs.
then he try to raise my leg!
hahas.
see lahs!
mr sunshine.
damn playful. =p
but ake went on GREAT!
AWESOME!
hahas.
shenandoah gets tougher.
but completed. (:
ms wee will be FLYING AWAY` on
monday. (:
to sydney with mbs band members. (:
maybe.
im.
going.
SHOPPING.
TML!
hahas.
got to go get the IP ZONE shirt.
and the shorts. (:
yayness!
someone go with me?
hahas.
maybe my sister. (:
we need to SHOP!
hahas. =p
hard core studying starts TODAY.
and yes.
RIGHT AWAY.
harder than last week.
and more serious.
cos memorizing work starts today.
uh oh.
more memory space PLEASE! (:
BOO BOO.
shir is down with a serious FLU!
wow. =x

*[B^7 + T^2.we rock. (; ]*

2:13 PM

Friday, June 16, 2006Y

*poofs*
finally completed my mgt online
homework.
hmmms. (:
hahas!
but ive got some problem sending it
out to mdm siti arhs.
but i dunnoe.
i just send.
hahas! =p
hope she receives it. (:
lalalalalas.
suddenly one load off my mind.
and i seem to have BRIEFLY read
through mgt.
hahas!
but its way too BRIEF!
come on shir.
WORK HARD!
*nods nods*
i will i will. (:

*[be the light note on my piano.]*

9:47 PM

had a hair cut today. (:
and my hair is now so much shorter.
and fluffier.
hahas! =p
its half or more than half of what
i use to have before my cut luhs! =x
but when tied up.
hahas.
like a little tail behind.
wahahas =p
cute also lahs! =p
had piano lesson today.
and mrs lee hearts the goodies i
gave her.
hahas! =p
and her student after me is cute?
ehs.
not really.
but really made me laugh like mad
for the last 15 mins of lesson.
hahas! =p
have to complete my mgt online hw
by today.
and really get back to hard core studying
for mgt. =x
im still not very familiar with the
concepts.
especially for mkting and econs labour
mkt.
mans!
two deadly topics. =x
have to really BUCK UP on those
two topics.
went back to school to get back my
mgt and chinese file.
saw mr tan.
and the new VP.
shes mrs seah.
ehs.
i think is like that spell. =p
mr tan asked whether ive been
studying.
well well.
OF COURSE I DID!
hurhurs. (:
but more effort is needed for
the nxt two weeks.
really need MORE effort.
i dowan to collapse while i perform.
and between mids.
ALL THE WAY SHIR.
ALL THE WAY AKE! (:
ooo lala.
youtube got the video clips for
"green forest, my home".
hahas! x)
cant wait for mids to end.
AND I CAN WATCH ONLINE!
hahas.
but but but.
IM STILL GETTING THE VCDs. (:
YAHOOS! (:

*[leon jay williams. (: ]*

6:47 PM

Thursday, June 15, 2006Y

hehes.
did a GREAT spring cleaning
for my wardrobe.
hurhurs.
picked away tons of old clothings.
and found out that my cupboard
will be left with only a few pieces
of HOME-ALONE clothes.
hahas! =p
but ive got loads of IM-GOING-OUT
CLOTHES!
hahas. =p
but my wardrobe looks SOOOO clean
after the clearing up. (:
went out with mama for awhile today.
and sisters bought watches.
mama bought shoes.
me?
i bought magazines.
whees!
more more mags. (:
and OH YAYS!
mama ask me to go get a new school
bag. (:
hahas!
cos the one i bought in thailand
is spoilt liaos. =p
so mama ask me to go get a new one.
to get ready for school start.
BUT!
where the toot do i get the time nehs?
hmmmhmmms.
shall get it after my mids then.
lols.
with my dino darling. (:
cant wait for mids to end luhs!
i badly need to do shopping.
and i badly need to go out and
really really CHILL. (:
cant wait cant wait.
DAYS TO END OF MIDS : 27 DAYS!
alrights.
wait and wait.
be patient.
be patient.
AHHHHH!
i still cant wait. =x

*[green forest.my home. (: ]*

8:28 PM

Wednesday, June 14, 2006Y

girls were here to do pw.
yays.
my buddies. (:
hahas.
had a great time squeezing
our brain juices out to get
our 50 survey questions.
BUT.
hehes.
we managed to get at least
45 of them done!
hahas. x)
yes mans.
more then enough luhs! =p
and most of the time we were
busy chit chatting.
and trying to catch up with
everything we have missed. (:
miss them loads luhs!
(:
thats why they rock my MI life
to the max aside from things
i have in ake. (:
YAYNESS! x)
*poof*
another day gone for pw.
and tons to catch up for studies.
and mdm siti already send the
mgt worksheet already.
its on the MI commontown.
have to hand in by the 18th!
OH MANS!
hahas.
that means.
IVE TO STUDY FOR MY MGT FOR
THE NEXT FEW DAYS!
uh oh....
anyone want to do our survey?
hehes. =p

*[you are special.]*

4:44 PM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006Y

ooo.
ive became a little BABI again.
=p
i slept from 3.45 to 5.15 luhs!
hahas. =p
so JANNAH!
should it still be babat?
or babi?
hahas.
*pokes*
ake was okes.
the year twos had our practice
first before the year ones come in.
clar dear is playing on the bells
beside me for "shenandoah".
YAYNESS! (:
and the two of us had a great time
laughing and trying to figure out
where and what and when to play.
hahas! =p
but overall.
its fun. (:
need to go back to school one of
the weds when school start
to get ready our "the lord of the dance".
ahhhh.
its okes.
for ake.
its okes. (:
so....
MS WEE IS BRINGING 60 MBS STUDENTS
TO SYDNEY!
hahas.
yes yes.
my sister is right.
ms wee is bringing them there!
hahas.
CAN THEY BRING ME TOO?
wait long long. =p
was damn early for these few days prac.
actually reaching sch as early as 8.30!
hahas.
tuition later.
and oops!
i only did one compo.
hahas!
good luck to me again.
WELL.
i seem to be needing loads of luck
recently.
HMMMS!

*[more lucks.]*

6:20 PM

Monday, June 12, 2006Y

got the score for shenandoah
today. (:
i got my beloved vibs back.
hahas!
thanks BEN. (:
<3
ake was alright.
did sectionals.
and practised on "one moment
in time","di tanjong katong"
and "the lord of the dance".
finally.
got the tempo for most part of
the song liaos.
hahas.
sense of satisfaction lehs! =p
like edith.
when we manage to play through
the entire "one moment in time"
on the marimba.
the moment the song end.
she hugged me luhs!
hahas. =p
yes.
thats the form of satisfaction. (:
to say that prac was smooth today
is not true to the max.
ms wee did 'scold' the kulintang
sections somehow or another.
and some voices raised.
and actions got bad.
and something irritates me alittle.
"dont bully her or you die."
wahs.
im getting worried.
hahas.
but im cool with it. (:
tuition tml.
good luck to me okes?
hahas. x)
cos ive got 2 pending essays.
one compre.
and vocab.
wahahahas. =p
good luck to me.
really.
and...
mummy gave our room a new
look again!
hahas. x)
gym-ing with diane on thurs.
WONDERUFUL.
i miss the gym. (:
and most probably doing pw
on wed. (:
great too!
gonna continue with my serious
studying. (:
feels good to have started.
and the motivation to keep going.
YAYS! (:

*[dont vie with me.]*

6:14 PM

im hungry. =x
hahas.
yes yes.
i did eat dinner.
but not alot.
cos i ate alot of junkies since
after breakfast.
hahas! =p
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
a hungry man is an angry man.
woohoos.
CAI HUA.
hahas!
yays!
ake tml.
what shall i say?
YES!
I HEARTS AKE!
lols. =p
cant wait.
YADAYADA. (:

*[printed dreams.printed castles.]*

12:00 AM

Sunday, June 11, 2006Y

im getting damn fed up luhs.
aiyohs.
ask ppl do things can be very
difficult and make me very
irritated easily lahs!
stupid.
why cant he just reply?
ARGH! =x
tons to study.
but little time.
SAVE ME SOMEONE! =x
i miss hokkaido BADLY.
ahhhh!
i so want to go back. (:
2 years time!
AH WEND!
2 years time! x)
we hit there okes?
hahas. x)
ANA HOLIDAY. (:
yes.
IM COMING! (:

*[the weather.the food.the you.]*

1:55 PM

ive been having quite a number
of heart to heart talks with
people over msn.
hahas.
and im loving it. (:
i miss huda.
badly...
jie yan is asking me to do a blog
for him.
wahahas.
he's the last person in DKSYJ to
actually own a blog.
lols. =p
shucks.
im sooooo dead.
ive got tons of tuition hw to complete!
lucks to me peeps.
and oh yes.
I TALKED TO NICH DEARIE JUST NOW.
hahas.
my greatest silent pillar of support.
a silent.
but bestest friend to get.
THANKS NICH. (;

*[loves.]*

12:31 AM

Saturday, June 10, 2006Y

im strong.
im stronger than you think.
im stronger than you expect.
im going to be very very strong.
and brave everything on my
own.
no.
im lying.
im not strong.
im not as strong as everyone thought
of me to be.
i may be smiling here.
but deep in me.
im crying.
very badly.
im tired of everything.
im tired of being strong.
im tired of trying to take things in my
own stride.
im too tired.
really very very tired.
i want everything to stop at where it
was when im happy and all.
but i cant.
im stuck.
stuck at this point.
where i dunnoe where to go on next.
i may just break down any moment.
the more things i keep to myself.
the worse i feel.
i just want...
to take a break.
from everything.

*[leave me alone.]*

8:31 PM