Monday, January 31, 2005Y
30/01/2005. ohh dearr.i dunnoee watt am i thinkkingg.reallii.dunnoe watts wrongg andd watts iin moiis miindd.arghh!neverr miindd.i doubtt.aniionee will understandd.nott evenn pengg siiongg.orr anii onee elsee.orr.maybee.me too.i justt dunnoee.dunn probee.pleasee.
yunn zhenn camee overr todaee.tuhh practicee ferr thee performancee iin MI onn CNY eve.oreadii gettiingg thee jitterrs.wonderr.watt iishh gonnaa happenn onn thatt daee.will we gett thee fullestt attentiionn?!or will we gett commentts?!i dunnoe.no matterr watt.i havee tuhh be theree onn thatt daee.andd i havee tuhh do iit.wonderr hu will justt standd behiindd muiis.andd tell muiis.i cann do itt.i reallii dunnoee.i am totallii att lostt.reallii hopee i dunn flopp onn thatt daee.pleasee.dunn lett muiis flopp iit.pleasee.dunn.
30/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[i amm shoo damnn nervouss abtt thatt performancee.i reallii dunnoee watt tuhh do tuhh keepp moiis selff calmm.i keptt playiingg thee wrongg keyys.i keppt doiing iit wrongglii.ohh mann.pleasee.lett iit be smoothh saiiliing onn thatt daee.]*
Sunday, January 30, 2005Y
29/01/2005. hadd a ratherr boriing daee todaee.wokee up at 10.thenn didd somee mathhs tutoriall.thenn hadd lunchh.hadd tuitionn at 4.30pm.didntt reallii do muchh.cos i didntt completee thee homeworkk bryann gavee.siighh.i dunnoee howw tuhh do mahhs.siighh.thenn.he saee.wantt tuhh go library withh muiis onee daee.tuhh teachh muiis how tuhh searchh ferr thee bookks.but.i dunn feell liikee goiingg wiithh hiim.liikee wiithh hiim.siighh.but.dunn go oso cannott.soonerr or laterr.oso havee tuhh go.forcee moiis selff norhhs.
wentt outt ferr dinnerr att changii viilagee.manii memoriies flowedd backk.campps tuhh ubiinn.waiitiingg of bus.andd everythiingg.they justt camee backk.thiis goess tuhh show.howw muchh i miishh NP andd thee campps.moiis cadetts andd thee instructorrs.thee traiiniinggs andd thee tekanninggs.but.all iishh now memoriiess.hopee tuhh reallii presevee them.cos.theyy aree moiis liifee.thiingss thatt keptt muiis moviingg onn backk thenn iin punggoll.
hadd a reallii 'hectiic' mass conversatiionn wiithh sk,nancy and iggy justt noww.wonderr iif sk cann takee iit.hahas.cos he seemms tuhh be lostt.hahas.realli lostt.but.iggy hadd a funn tiimee.hahas.cann see thatt.muiis too.hahas.pretty funn lahhs.but lehhs.marmiie iishh heree.so cantt reallii tokk muchh.
i am starttiingg tuhh worri ferr moiis GP projectt.thiinggs seemms tuhh nott beiingg riitee.dunnoee howw tuhh saee osoo.siighh.ratherr frustratedd.cann someeonee justt comee.andd gett muiis outt of thiis.anyonee will do.anyonee. :x
29/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[moiis entiiree miindd iishh filledd wiithh watt happennedd yestterdaee.backk at punggoll.hiim tokiing tuhh muiis.smiiliingg.nott forgettiingg sweett smiilee.he happennedd tuhh appearr att thee samee tiimee.whyy iishh all thesee happenniingg noww?i cantt takee iit.reallii. *vergee of loosiingg graspp.falliingg.* ]*
Saturday, January 29, 2005Y
28/01/2005. oriitees.i havee gott lotts tuhh saee todaee worrs.hahas.fiirsttli.ishh at schh todaee.hmm.hadd a pretti funn daee.saww iggnatiiuss iin the liibraryy todaee.cantt gett tuhh saee hii tuhh hiim.cos he was busii tokiingg tuhh hiis frenns.hahas.andd oso saww hiim afterr schh.thinkk he iishh gettingg readii tuhh go ferr hiis bowliing lessonn bahhs.cantt gett tuhh msgg hiim.cos moiis cabb comee liiaoos.hahas.
okiiees.nextt nehhs.wentt backk tuhh punggoll norhhs.ohh mann.i was so damnn exciitedd norhhs!reallii superr longg neverr go backk liiaoos worrs.hahas.thee momentt i aliightt fromm thee cabb.thenn i saww mdm phuaa liiaoos!hahas.shee wass liikee:"darliingg shiirrleyy andd yunn zhenn!".hahas.suchh a warmm welcomee siias.hahas.thenn wentt tuhh thee cannteenn.saww calviinn.andd oso moiis meii,lii fenn.hahas.theyy all still lookk thee samee norhhs.thenn.wentt tuhh the np roomm andd saww lii yiin,angiie,pat,weii kangg,pengg siiongg andd nichh.wentt ferr lunchh andd tell euu arhhs.thee lunchh iishh thee bestt of all liiaoos.hahas.hadd thee bestt lunchh!whees.afterr thatt.gavee outt thee iinviitatiionn cardds tuhh thee peoplee norhhs.firstt gavee tuhh shii hann.he saee he couldd be ablee tuhh makee iit.yeah!thenn passedd thee restt tuhh pat,weii kangg,ps andd benn.afterr manii triies.i fiinallii managedd tuhh piickk upp moiis couragee tuhh go tokk tuhh rodriickk liiaoos.wentt forrwardd tuhh hiim.andd tokk tuhh hiim.facee tuhh facee.siighh.iit wass quiitee a greatt attemptt norhhs.he smiileed.andd saidd okiees.hahas.he smiileed!iit hass reallii beenn agess everr siincee we lastt tokk andd he smiileed at muiis.nahhs.nott beiingg crazee or aniithiingg.but nehhs.iits reallii a greatt feellingg norhhs.iit hass reallii beenn longg siincee we lastt tokk andd reallii.iit hass beenn superr longg.everr siincee he smiileed at muiis.reallii longg.miishh thatt smiilee so muchh.andd of cos hiis voicee.but lehhs.all ishh iin thee pastt liiaoos norhhs.i oreadii dunn liikee hiim lerhhs.now.i onii hopee tuhh be frenns wiithh hiim.all overr agaiinn.be thee bestt of frenns.thankk godd.he acceptedd moiis iinvitationn.at leastt.i noee.theree ishh roomm ferr a betta converrsatiionn thee nxtt tiimee roundd.i wontt flopp iit agaiinn.i wontt.trustt muiis.
afterr thatt.wentt tuhh the gymm wiithh charr.hahas.didntt do muchh norhhs.was ratherr slackk todaee.maybee.too happi liiaoos.hahas. :)
28/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[heiis.thanns ferr accepttiingg moiis iinvitatiionn.reallii.thanns loadds.iit hass beenn reallii longg everr siincee we lastt hadd a connversatiionn.hopee.frmm todaee onnwardds.thiinggs will turnn outt betta.reallii.i siincerelii hopee tuhh be truee frenns wiithh euu.all overr agaiin.all i wantt fromm euu noww andd onwardds.ishh tuhh be frenns.andd euu cann fiindd iit easii tuhh acceptt muiis as onee oncee moree. ~cann i heartts euu ferr thee lastt tiimee ferr todaee?!i justt hopee tuhh heartts euu.onee lastt tiimee.~]*
Friday, January 28, 2005Y
27/01/2005. whees.i hadd a reallii greatt daee iin schh.hahas.saww moiis sweett smiilee so manii tiimees!hahas.liikee 6 tiimees?!no no.7 tiimees.hahas.well.iit all begiinns thiis morniingg.beforee assemblii.i saww hiim comiingg intuhh thee gymm.gettiingg readii ferr flagg - raiisingg norhhs.thenn afterr thatt.i saw hiim agaiinn duriing ourr breakk ferr periiodd twoo.he walkedd pastt moiis class roomm.ferr twoo tiimees.hahas.greatt ayee?!thenn.duriingg moiis chiinesee periiodd.he walkkedd pastt moiis class agaiinn.hahas.shoo happi sehhs.hahas.thenn.duriingg moiis breakk.i happenn tuhh walkk pastt hiis class.thenn saww hiim agaiinn!whenn i was haviingg moiis breakk andd wass iin thee libraryy.i saww hiim iin thee libraryy agaiinn.ohhh mann.he ishh justt simplii shoo cooll andd reallii niicee.hahas.lastly.saw hiim agaiin.whenn i wass iin thee carr.gettiingg readii tuhh go off liiaoos.thenn i wass passiingg thee econns notess tuhh rachell.i saww hiim iin thee gymm.eatiingg!hahas.at fiirstt.he hadd hiis backk towardds thee outtsidee.thenn.he turnedd arndd.andd wass liikee 'starriingg'.hahas.endedd moiis daee onn a prettii hiighh notee.hahas.greatt daee tuhh havee.
todaee iishh liikee thee bestt daee of all cos i gott 5 superbb breakks.andd we practically didd nothiingg!hahas.too awesomee.
ohh yeshh.yesterrdaee.he raiisedd thee flagg osoo.hahas.
goiingg backk tuhh punggol tmll.yeahh.cantt waiitt liiaoos.hahas.miishh thee foodd.thee ppll andd everyythiingg theree!hahas.muackks.
27/01/2005. *wordds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[nthh tuhh saee todaee]*
Wednesday, January 26, 2005Y
25/01/2005. hadd pe todaee.hahas.quiitee tiriingg lahhs.hadd tuhh do 5BX.whichh iishh liikee i havenn donee iit ferr veryy longg liiaoos worrs.so.a bitt straiinningg norhhs.but lehhs.i managee tuhh striivee thruu iit.althoughh.gees.i playedd a littlee cheatt lahhs.hahas.watt tuhh do?!cann kill sehhs.hahas.wentt tuhh the schooll derhhs gymm tuhh see see lookk lookk.hahas.mr serr broughtt us theree lahhs.hahas.thenn hadd a gamee of 'eliimiinatorrs'.quiitee funn.todaee's pe wass liikee thee bestt ferr thesee twoo weekks liiaoos.
hadd a pretti okiiess daee ferr todaee.coss iits muchh muchh bettaa thann iit wass yesterrdaee.hahas.ms fongg wontt be heree on thurrs.so i gott liikee 5 periiodds of breakks.thatts reallii wow!hahas.breakk heree thenn breakk theree.shiiokk!hahas.
onn moiis wayy outt tuhh thee foyerr tuhh meett moiis mama.i saw iggnatiiuss iin hiis class.hahas.he's reallii actiivee iin class thoughh.hahas.
ohh yeshh!i saww moiis sweett smiilee thiis mornniingg!i wass walkiingg outt of thee gymm whenn i saww hiim onn thee tierrs wriitiingg sthh.thenn afterr thatt.whenn i gott outt of thee gymm.i saww hiim runniingg pastt muiis.hahas.ohh mann.thatt wass reallii cooll.hahas.ooooo.miishh hiis sweett smiilee loadds!hahas.
hmm.iits beenn daees everr siincee i lastt saww sk iin schooll worrs.hmm.weiirdd. :x
25/01/2005. *foodd ferr thoughhtt*.
*[do watt euu cann tuhh showw thatt euu caree aboutt otherrs andd euu will makee thee worldd a betta placee.]*
Tuesday, January 25, 2005Y
24/01/2005. hadd a reallii damnn longg daee todaee.hadd lessonns untill three siias.todaee iishh thee worstt tiimee of all.hadd thee mostt boriingg todaee.outt of thee entiiree weekk i thiinkk.mondaee iishh thee worstt daee of all!hahas.watt tuhh do?!havee tuhh tahann ferr 6 moree weekks.hahas.but lehhs.i noee.i cann do iit.cos i seemms tuhh be reallii falliinng iin lurbbs wiithh thee schh.hahas.
thiss morniingg hadd tuhh singg thee schh songg ferr liikee three tiimees.hahas.but.nvmm osoo.liikee thee schh songg quiitee alott.hahas.veryy niicee lahhs.hahas. "ourr spiiriitt will nvv falterr.wiithh dilliigiiencee we striivee.wiithh heartt we servee.ourr diiliigenncee will neverr fallterr.we briingg glorry tuhh miilenniia." whees.MI rockks biigg tiimee.hahas.
saww ignatiiuss thiis mornniingg.hahas.he wass standdiingg rightt iin frontt of so manyy ppl.hahas.todaee.gott spott checkk ayee.luckiilii nv 'tiio' muiis agaiinn.iif nott.i tiinkk i will flaree upp sehhs.correctt mahhs.watts wrongg wiithh ppl haviingg naturallii liighhtt colouredd haiir?!euur probblemm mehhs?as longg as i am innocentt andd i noee.i neverr.no onee cann changee thee factt.hahas.cos i am a superr 'guaii' giirll.liikee everyyonee noees.hahas. *bleahhs*
onii gett tuhh see moiis sweett smiilee iin thee morniingg beforee assemblii startts.thenn thee restt of thee daee.neverr see liiaoos. *boohoos* sadds sadds.hmm.tml will be a betterr daee.hahas.
24/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokkenn*.
*[tuhdaee mr kohh cutt haiir liiaoos.shoo cartoonn sehhs.hahas.]*
Monday, January 24, 2005Y
23/01/2005. hohoho.wentt tuhh compass todaee.hehes.library gott moiis bookks i wantt.thenn go off ferr somee shoppiingg.hahas.boughtt a cd.thenn hp chaiinn.thenn osoo onee hairr cliip.thenn chaoos.tuhh meett dianee ferr gymm agaiinn.yeshh.thee gymm agaiinn!hahas.beenn reallii siiaoos wiithh dianne overr thee gymm.hahas.tuhh keepp fiitt mahhs.hahas.rann 5.2 lapps todaee.reachedd moiis targett.hahas.planniingg tuhh do 5.5 laps tomorroww.kekes.mustt havee a goall.thenn cann succeedd. *gannbattee*.
whees!tomorroww go backk schh liiaoos.cann see hiim lerhhs!whees!hahas.i giilaa i noee.hahas.but.iits longg awaiitedd.hahas.nott reallii lonng.3 daees niiass. *ohh mann.thatt iishh superr dee duperr longg worrs!*hahas.crazee fellaa.hahas.
heardd thatt weii jiiann iishh iin NS liiaoos.thatts prettii fastt.well.watt tuhh do?!he iishh a guyy.andd iit iishh partt andd parcell of hiis liifee.kekes.
23/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[wootts.cantt waiitt ferr friidaee tuhh comee asapp!miishh schh andd everryonee theree.muackks!]*
Sunday, January 23, 2005Y
22/01/2005. hahas.foundd thee songg lyriics ferr marcc anthonnyy derhhs 'i niid tuhh noee'.hahas.postt iit ayee?!hahas.enjoyy arhhs. :) *wiinkkos*.
I niid tuhh noee - marcc anthonnyy
theyy saee aroundd thee wayy euu've askedd ferr me.
theree's evenn talkk aboutt euu wanttingg me.
i mustt addmiitt thatt's whatt i wantt tuhh hearr.
but thatt's justt talkk untill euu takee me theree.
iif iit's truee don'tt leavee me all alonee outt heree.
wonderriingg if euu're everr gonnaa takee me theree.
tell me whatt euu're feeliingg cos i niid tuhh noee.
giirll euu gottaa lett me noee whichh wayy tuhh go.
cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
my everyy thoughtt ishh of thiis beiing truee.
iit's gettiingg harderr nott tuhh thiinkk of euu.
giirll i'm exacttlyy wheree i wantt tuhh be.
thee onlii thiing's i niid euu heree withh me.
iif iit's truee don'tt leavee me all alonee outt heree.
wonderriingg iif euu're everr gonnaa takee me theree.
tell me whatt euu're feeliingg cos i niid tuhh noee.
giirll euu gottaa lett me noee whiichh wayy tuhh go.
cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
*beats*
cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
iif iit's truee don'tt leavee me all alonee outt heree.
wonderiingg iif euu're everr gonna takee me theree.
tell me whatt euu're feeliingg cos i niid tuhh noee.
giirll euu gottaa lett me noee whiichh wayy tuhh go.
cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
iif iit's truee don'tt leavee me all alonee outt heree.
wonderiingg iif euu're everr gonna takee me theree.
tell me whatt euu're feeliingg cos i niid tuhh noee.
giirll euu gotta lett me noee whiichh wayy tuhh go.
cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
i niid tuhh noee.
tell me babii giirll cos i niid tuhh noee.
===endd===
Y
22/01/2005. wokee upp att arndd.9.30 todaee.hahas.wass reallii damnn tiredd.but lehhs.still havee tuhh wakee upp so earlii.siighh.laterr still gott GP tuiitiionn.siians.hadd mac ferr breakkfastt andd now.i am slackkiing away.althoughh.i am supposeddlii doiing moiis tutoriials.ohh mann.workk loadd gettiing reallii heavii ferr muiis liiaoos.diee diee diee.hopee tuhh fiiniishh all moiis workk by todaee.so thatt i cann go enjoyy moiis weekendd tml tuhh thee greatestt extendd!hahas.
yesterdaee.onn moiis wayy tuhh meett diinoo ferr gym.saww moiis dearestt weii kangg.hahas.iits beenn longg siincee i lastt mett hiim.20 daees exactlii.miishh hiim andd thee otherrs loadds mann!hmm.cantt waiit ferr nxtt fridaee tuhh comee fasterr.so i cann go backk andd see all moiis baoo beiis.gees.
meetiing diinoo tmll agaiin.yepps.ferr gym.gettiingg hookk onn tuhh iit liiaoos.ohh yeshh.no moree achees ferr muiis worrs.feeliingg reallii greatt.hahas.
22/01/2005. *wordds leftt unnspokkenn*.
*[i miishh euu.]*
Saturday, January 22, 2005Y
21/01/2005. guess.todaee iishh goiingg tuhh be anotherr boriingg daee ferr muiis.goiing tuhh the gymm laterr agaiin.wiithh diinoo.thee two of us recentlii reallii liikee fall iin lovee wiithh thee gymm liiaoss.hahas.osoo goodd norhhs.thenn no niid tuhh scaredd mr heiikall torturee.hahas.
lots of tutoriials comiingg.andd theree iishh an econns testt osoo.siighh.shoo tiredd.luckilii i dunn havee anyy cca yett.if nott arhhs.reallii dunnoee howw to copee sehhs.hahas.oh yeshh.changedd a neww songg iin moiis blogg.hehes.iishh avriil laviignnee derhhs happii enddiingg.cann still rememberr onn promm niitee.iimahh goodiie sangg thee songg onn stagee.hahas.muackks.
21/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokkenn*.
*[nthh muchh tuhh saee actuallii.hahas.justt thatt todaee iishh loww weii derhhs birthhdaee.hahas.wishh hiim happi biirthhdaee norhhs. -iif he happenns tuhh see thiis lahh-.hahas.winkos.miishh moiis sweett smiilee.]
Friday, January 21, 2005Y
20/01/2005. wentt tuhh thee gymm todaee.wiithh yz andd diinoo.hadd a reall workk outt andd hoppe.i wontt feel thatt mr heiikall iishh torturouss anymoree.hahas.hadd funn todaee.thenn wentt tuhh hougangg mall ferr diinnerr wiithh diinoo,yz andd jiie yann.thenn shopp shopp a whiilee.thenn chaoos liiaoos.moiis bothh leggs aree reallii breakkiingg.hahas.
sthh badd happennedd todaee.earlii iin thee morniinng someemoree.siighh.i kenna caughht by ms gann ferr moiis haiir.shee saee iit looks liighht.shee dunn seemm tuhh beliievee muiis lehhs.evenn iif yz oreadii helpp muiis tuhh explaiinn.siighh.shee saee.moiis haiirr iishh too dryy liiaoos.mustt add moiisturriezeerr.but.pleasee norhhs.moiis haiir havee beenn liikee thatt ferr liikee thee pastt 10 yearrs.thenn euu wantt muiis tuhh dyee iitt blacckk or gett iit backk tuhh moiis oriigiinall natiionn colourr.thiis iishh watt i havee mahhs.howw to gett iit backk tuhh natiionn colourr whenn moiis natiionn colourr iishh watt i am haviingg noww.siighh.everytiimee osoo liikee thatt.i noee.evenn iif mr siinggh thatt daee nv 'tiio' muiis.soonnerr or latterr.oso will havee ppl comee andd kenna muiis derhhs.aiyahhs.iin onee worrdd.expectedd.
saww moiis sweett smiilee todaee worrs.he wass haviingg hiis lessonns.whiilee i wass goiingg ferr moiis lastt perriodd.hahas.he looks shoo attentiivee iin class worrs.hahas.
20/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[whenn euu shoott muiis thatt lookk.askkiingg ferr an answerr.all i cann do iishh tryy.i oreadii gavee moiis bestt iin fergettiinng.hopee euu will giivee iin euur bestt.tuhh acceptt muiis as a frenn.siincerelii.i hopee so.]*
*[i dunn daree tuhh connfiirmm thatt euu will agree tuhh moiis iinviitatiionn.but.i noee.euu will giivee iin andd tryy.i trustt andd havee faiithh iin euu.]*
Thursday, January 20, 2005Y
19/01/2005. siighh.siickk agaiinn.watt thee hell iishh wrongg withh muiis sehhs.keepp gettiingg unwell derhhs.i oreadii driinkk waterr liikee a stoopidd waterr buckett.yett.still siickk.siighh.dunnoee watts wronngg wiithh moiis bodii liiaoss.gettiingg siickk andd tiiredd of beiingg siickk. *siianns* todaee wass a pretty shortt daee ferr 05B9.coss mr kohh lett us off earlii.coss he gott nthh tuhh saee tuhh us.hahass.well.he iishh reallii superr farrniee todaee.wass laughhiingg thruu outt hiis lessonn untiil kenna suann by hiim.hahass.saeiingg thatt moiis laughhingg gass iishh still nott off.but.ferr thosee thatt noee muiis.shldd noee arhhs.how euu expectt muiis tuhh stopp laughhiingg whenn i m oreadii laughhingg likee madd.
yestterrdaee wass bothh gudd andd badd arhhs.hadd PE.andd mr heiikall iishh a reall torturee.hahass.he maddee us runn iin thee hall liikee tenn roundds.thenn still havee tuhh runn aroundd iin thee schh.thenn laterr.still playy gamess.whoass sehhs.he iishh reallii tryiingg tuhh 'wann sii woo menn' sehhs.but lehhs.yesterrdaee.saww moiis sweett smiilee worrs.ferr quitee a lonng tiimee thoughh.hahass.he wass workkiingg outt iin thee gymm.thatts y saww hiim.kekes. *happiis* thenn.whenn i fiiniishh moiis pe lessonn liiaoos.saww hiim osoo.hahas.realii superr dee duperr overr thee moonn liiaoss.todaee osoo.hahas.walkedd pastt hiis class a feww tiimees andd saww hiim iin class.hehes.thenn.whenn i haviingg moiis breakk.osoo see hiim.coss he comiingg downn ferr breakk.ohh mann.i amm realii goiingg gaga overr hiis smiilee andd omgg.hiis heightt andd everythingg.hahas. *shiirr.relax manns* well.i cannt.hahas.
mr heiikall iishh shoo muchh liikee "starr starr" sehhs.hahas.thee wayy he tokk.thee wayy he do stuffs.hahas.reallii quiitee liikee.hahass.sizee andd heiightt osoo aboutt thee samee.shoo.muiis see hiim lehhs.will startt laughhingg.hahas.oso dunnoe y.hahas.he reallii remindds muiis of "starr starr".
19/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokenn*.
*[23 will owaees be moiis memorrii withh euu.andd i havee oreaddii lett goo.i madee moiis promiisee comee truee.whiichh iishh fiinallii.]*
Monday, January 17, 2005Y
16/01/2005. hmphh.hadd a reallii borriingg daee tuhhdaee.havee tuhh wakee upp att 9.30am whenn i sleepp att 1.30am thee nitee beforee.siianss sehhs.kenna diggedd outt of bedd.coss moiis graddfatherr wantedd muiis tuhh attendd a weddiingg lunchh withh moiis parentts.aw mann.cann guess as muchh thatt itt ishh goiingg tuhh be a reallii boredd onee.coss.nonee of itt ishh likee bestt beforee.kekes. *shiirr ishh so cheekii*. but.itts thee truthh watt.wentt theree.no goodd foodd.but somee stoopidd ppl tryingg to siingg andd tokk as iif theyy aree att homee.siighh.didd nott havee sufficientt to fill moiis poor tummii andd still havee to bearr wiithh thee unbearrablee.siighh.poor muiis ayee?!fiinallyy.cann go hmee.andd i m indeedd growliingg.but.cantt eatt.cos eatiingg dinnerr soonn.siighh.boredd stiff liiaoos.camee hmee andd didd somee touchh up onn moiis econns workk andd startt onn moiis researchh ferr bryan's derhhs homeworkk.aw mann.econns ishh reallii gettiingg onn moiis nervess!finallii i underrstandd watt ishh opportuniity costt,the PPC curvee andd microo andd macroo econns.thenn comee thiss stoopidd positivee andd normattivee stateementts.andd i noee nthh abtt itt moree thann askkinngg muiis to testt ferr itt!OMG!i cann reallii go bonkerrs onn thiis mann.cann somee onee justt be a reallii kiindd soull tuhh helpp muiis wiithh thiis?!siighh.econns cann gett reallii difficultt mann. *dunn askk muiis tuhh givee upp arhhs.euu noee.i wontt.kekes.* i will owaess rememberr watt diinoo saee tuhh muiis: "buu yaoo qinngg yann fanngg qii.fouu zee duii buu qii zii jii...zhee shii wo geii nii derhh yuuann qii...".thans diinoo dearriee.i will owaeess rememberr watt euu saee derhhs.andd i wonn givee upp.coss i justt wontt.econns.euu betta waiitt andd see.i suree squeezee euu iintoo piecess! *hehes.
*16/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokkenn*.*[i miishh moiis sweett smiilee untill liikee hell liiaoos.cantt waitt ferr tmll to comee andd thenn cann see hiim lerhhs worrs.yeahh.]*
Saturday, January 15, 2005Y
14/01/2005. hmph.endedd moiis longg daee ferr todaee.andd managedd to be moree disciplinee to startt workk onn moiis mathhs andd econss tutorialls.but.i feell thatt i shhldd still comee andd blogg ferr a whiilee.hahas. *so cheekii*.thiis morniingg.i hadd a terriblee flag - raisiingg.hahas.cos.theree ishh thiis guyy frmm 05B10.thatt happenn to singg so loudlii andd so farniie!i hadd to controll moiis laughterr andd euu noee.howw terriiblee itt ishh to havee to controll euur laughterr whenn euu reallii wantt to burstt outt laughingg likee siaoss.hahas.well.muiis andd YZ managedd to strivee thruu thoughh.hahas.oreadii to ourr verry wiitss endd wantiingg to controll liaoss.whenn we siitt downn.waitiingg ferr annoucements to be madee.hahas.muiis andd YZ as well as ourr HT mr kohh.justt cantt controll ourselvess andd laughedd.hahas.soundds so stoopidd ayee?!hahas.well.thatss watt i havee to facee iin thee morningg.firstt timee iin moiis lifee.somethiingg ishh actuallii forciingg muiis to refraiinn frmm laughhiingg outt loudd.hahas.superr dee duperr hiilarrious! xD
mett ms gann todaee ferr thee class combii tiingyy.thee class managedd to be sett upp.but.theree ishh goingg to be changess ferr thee otherrs too!watt to do?!i havee to be reallii selffishh iin moiis deciisiionn thiis timee roundd cos.itt ishh goingg to affectt moiis futuree studiies.be iit ishh itt in MI orr evenn iin SRJC.i reallii havee to be selffishh ferr thiis oncee.soriis duddes.missedd outt 1/2 hourr of econns becausee of thatt.sighh.diid new topiic onn maths todaee.partiiall fractiionns.hahas.soundss easii.but.nahhs.itts nott ass easii as itt seemms.hahas.accountingg wass ratherr funn todaee.coss.we wentt tuhh thee libraryy to see see look look.
madee moiis MI library cardd todaee.juss somee cardd boardd tingyy.free derhhs.so.dunn expectt sthh likee watt punggoll madee.kekes.borrowedd an econns bookk.andd i m reallii andd seriousslii goingg to photoo copyy itt.hahas.still waitingg ferr mr kohh to returnn thee mathss bookk thatt he iishh holddinngg onn tuhh.hahas.goiingg to borrow thatt bookk onn mondaee.andd zapp itt alsoo.kekes.i soundd superr ks ayee?!but.watt to do?!i dunn havee anyy elderr siblinggs to borrow frmm.andd euu dunn expectt muiis to go tuhh thee libraryy everydaee ayee?!i will go crazee sehhs.
wrotee iin a longg entryy todaee. xD
14/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspookeen*.
*[neverr gett to see euur sweett smiilee todaee.miishhiing itt liikee siiaoos liiaoos.havee to waiitt till monndaee thenn cann gett to see sehhs.hmm.thatts prettyy lonng.siighh. *sobbs sobbs*]*
Thursday, January 13, 2005Y
12/01/2005. whees.muiis todaee ishh iin hiighh spiiriits worrs.kekess.moiis sweett smiilee hass acceptedd moiis frennsterr requestt liiaoos.hahass.so happii!hahas.sweett smiilee alsoo heldd todaee derhhs morniingg assemblyy.so cool!simplyy too greatt.kekes.hadd PE todae.thatt mr heikall remiindds muiis of "starr starr".kekes.cos hiis actiionns andd thee wayy he liikee tokk.likee reallii samee liikee thatt.hahas.but.hadd lottsa funn forr todaee derhhs PE.veryy lonng nvv enjoyy PE thiis muchh liiaoos.hahas.mishh ms liim so muchh.hadd a no. of lecturess todaee osoo.but.thee lastt periodd whichh ishh thee POA.wass cancelledd.changedd to homee tutor's lessonn.gees.moiis homee tutorr lookk so muchh liikee godd daddiee.hahas.cann imagiinee thatt godd daddiee ishh teachhiingg muiis mathss liiaoss.kekes.but.muiis, yz andd nancyy intendd to changee to thee proposedd combii by somee otherr ppl frmm dunnoee watt OG derhhs.whichh compriisess econns, maths, geog, gp andd chinesee.hahas.hopee thatt ms gann cann gett ourr wantedd class combii norhhs.
wentt homee todaee.withh yz afterr thee meetingg wiithh ms gann.whenn i walkk outt of thee schh towardds thee buss stopp.saww moiis sweett smiilee att thee buss stopp withh thee grpp off trackk andd fieldd ppl.waiitiingg ferr thee buss thatt will fettchh themm to tohh tuckk.saw hiim!hahas.whenn i reachhedd thee oppositte sidee of thee buss stopp thatt hee wass att.i cann see hiim frmm wheree i wass standdingg.kekes.itts so clearr.hahas.thenn.whenn thee bus camee.hee boardedd itt andd beforee thee bus leftt.hee lookedd outt of itt andd.THERE!i saww hiim agaiinn.kekes.all thanss to hiis smiilee.iit madee moiis daee.
pheww.todaee finally gott homeeworkk liiaoos.ferr GP derhhs.ishh tuhh draww upp ourr familyy tree.whenn i dunn evenn noee watt to do.kekes.itt hass beenn agess sincee i lastt dreww upp moiis family tree.kekes.findingg itt ratherr difficultt to do itt thoughh.jus do sthh andd thenn.handd itt iin to thee teacherr andd tell thee teacherr.thatss thee bestt i cann do.coss.theree isntt any possiblee wayy ferr muiis to contactt moiis relatiives.hahas.goodd explanatiionn?!hopee thatt itt ishh nott somee presenttatiionn iin frontt of thee wholee class.i dunn wishh to liikee embarrass moiis selff ferr nthh.kekes.
12/01/2005. *worrdds leftt unnspokkenn.*
*[whenn euu aree downn iin euur pitts.theree iishh owaees someeonee beesidee euu.williingg tuhh lenndd euu a handd tuhh pull euu upp andd givee euu a pushh tuhh makee euu movee onn iin liifee.]*
*[euu mayy nott be thee pushh factorr thatt madee muiis go tuhh schh.coss.itss moiis schh workk thatt madee muiis do so.but.euur smiilee ishh watt i wantt tuhh see everyy morniingg.i feell thatt.iit jux madee muiis startt moiis daee ritee.]*
Wednesday, January 12, 2005Y
11/01/2005. phews.jus gott homee afterr moiis pianoo lessonn.sighh.todaee derhhs lecturess.all superr sianss onee.kekes.especially history.hahas.lovee geog andd econns.kekes.luckilii i broughtt alongg a book to readd duringg thee historyy lecturee.if nott arhhs.suree havee to stayy theree to stonee forr likee 45 minss.i suree cantt tahann andd fall asleepp liaoos.kekes.moiis sweet smiilee didntt holdd thee morningg assemblii todaee.nott likee yesterdaee.whootts.so cooll sehss.hahas.hmm.saw hiim befforee i wentt forr moiis firstt lecturee.cos.he haviingg a trackk andd fieldd meetiingg mahhs.thenn.afterr moiis firstt lecturee.ishh breakk liaoos.coss thee teacherr endedd herr lessonn earlii.so.shee lett uss go off ferr ann earlii breakk of 15 minss.andd thanss to thee litt teacherr.i gett to see moiis sweett smiilee iin thee cannteenn.but.neverr gett to see ferr longg.coss.he hadd to go ferr hiis lessonns mahs.whenn he walkedd pastt muiis.i wass likee lookk upp.ohh mann.he ishh so damnn tall andd well builtt.kekes.cantt tahann hiss heightt siass.kekes.thenn whenn he wentt ferr hiis lessonn.i thott.i cantt gett to see hiim untill tmll morniingg.hahas.but lehhs.i wass wrongg liiaoos.frmm moiis seatt.whenn i turnn backk to lookk att thee class blockss.i cann see hiim ritee theree.payingg attentiioonn to hiis lessoon.urghh.he look so just damnn cool evenn whenn he ishh studyiingg. *i feell thatt i seemss to be reallii exxaggerattiingg too muchh.hahas.but seriouslii.i amm reallii goiingg gaga liiaoss.* addedd hiim severrall timeess in frennsterr.but.still neverr gett hiis replii.but.he acceptedd komala's worrs.hmm.hopee he will acceptt iin thee endd norhhs.if nott.thenn no choiicee oso.siighh.
ooooo.cantt waiit ferr tmll to comee asap sehhs.gott PE.jus wonderriingg whatt Mr Heikal ishh gonna do.hmm.headd frmm nancyy thatt he doess conditiionniingg.watt thee hell ishh thatt?!kekes.will onii noee whenn tmll comes.waiit patientlii girll.hahas.cantt waiit to see moiis sweett smilee agaiinn.kekes.cheekii muiis ayee?!yeshh i amm.hahas.
11/01/2005.*worrddss leftt unspokkenn.*
*[a smiilee euu flasshh.a wiinkk euu giivee.cann meltt moiis entiiree heartt...]*
Monday, January 10, 2005Y
09/01/2005. humphh.todaee.wokee upp ratherr earlii againn.abtt 9 am bahhs.hahas.thenn hadd McDonald's ferr breakfastt.nott muchh moodd to swalloww downn thee foodd.wass gettingg siickerr andd siickerr.whenn i wokee upp.moiis entiree throatt ishh likee bursttingg andd keptt coughhingg.hadd a superr irritatinng runny nosee.runningg a slightt feverr noww.sighh.hatee to be sickk whenn likee.i havee to go to schh tmll.sighh.tmll ishh anotherr longg daee.hahas.althoughh lexonns endd at 1.45 pm.earlierr thann iin schh.kekes.
ohh mann.its onii likee.2 daees awayy frmm schh.andd i amm actuallii feeliingg boredd andd sickk of slackingg onn moiis bedd andd starringg iintoo thee computterr.kekes.i realli wonderr.watt ishh goingg to happenn to thosee whoo dunn havee to studii andd servee theirr PAE or evenn workk.watt ishh lifee ferr them thenn?!hahas.cantt waitt ferr thursdaee to comee fasterr.att thee verii leastt.i havee somee workk to do.andd i wontt feel so boredd.kekes.usedd to hatee homeworkk.exams andd thee testss.now.i amm actualli miishhingg it untill likee wowo.hahas.humann beingg aree jus so uncertaiinn.theirr mindd setts cann likee changee iin a spliit secondd andd makee anotherr deciisiion.kekes.so.contradiictiingg.
whees.finnallii gott moiis blogg skiinn changedd.hahas.actualli.yesterdaee gott changee tuhh onee tattyy bearr derhhs.likee itt alott.coss the bearr ishh playingg peekk a boo.kekes.andd its iin PINK!hahas.by euur wonderrfull iimagiinatiionn euu possess.hahas.euu shouldd be ablee to piicturee the cutee scenee lerhhs bahhs.kekes.but.sthh wrongg jus happenn tuhh it.andd thatt all moiis posts,tagg boardd andd linkss thatt i madee so wonderfullii.hass all disappearedd miraculouslii.hahas.spentt abtt an hourr workiingg onn moiis neww blogg skiinn.andd finallii.i gott iit donee liiaoos worrs.kekes.so happi.
09/01/2005.*quotee of thee daee*.
*[thee pathh tuhh ourr destiinatiionn ishh nott owaes a straiightt onee.we go downn thee wrongg wayy.we gett lostt.we turnn backk.maybee iit dosentt matterr whichh roadd we embarkk onn.maybee.watt matterrss ishh thatt we embarkk.]*
Sunday, January 09, 2005Y
08/01/2004. hadd a superr boringg daee todaee.beforee.moiis marmiee toldd muiis sthh.wokee upp at 10am todaee.hadd moiis breakfastt and afterr thatt.slackk byy watchingg tv andd tapp onn the computerr keyboardd.still thinkingg thatt todaee will be jus anotherr boringg daee like everyy satt sincee moiis lastt O levell paperr.hahas.but.sadlii.nopes.its nott likee watt i tinkk itt ishh.marmiee askkedd sheenaa's tuitionn teacherr aboutt havingg to tuitionn muiis onn moiis GP paperr.althougghh.i noee thatt itt ishh heree soonerr or laterr.i dunn seem to caree so muchh thoughh.nott untill marmie tell muiis to thinkk carefullii abtt moiis subjectt thatt i will wantt to takee whenn afterr i receivee moiis O levelss resultss.shee seemss to be wantingg muiis to go intoo a JC.althoughh i veryy muchh wantedd to.but.theree ishh sthh thatt ishh consistentlii pullingg muiis backk.itss thee fearr of beingg unablee to do well in moiis firstt yearr.andd resultingg in havingg to stayy backk forr a yearr.i dunn wantt thatt to happenn andd neverr will i lett it happenn to muiis.
dunnoee whyy.everr sincee i stepp intoo MI forr moiis PAE.i fearr forr thee daee of thee collectionn of moiis resultss to comee.i badlii wantt to noee howw i didd andd whetherr moiis effortss of hardd workk ishh paidd off.but.i oso fearr thatt.if i scoree well.i cantt do as well whenn i enterr a JC.mr rajj, moiis econss teacherr in MI saee.thatt afterr ourr firstt three mthhs.if we enterr a JC.we will onlii havee aboutt 6 mthss to catch up withh all moiis subjectss thatt i will be takingg in thatt particularr JC and completee moiis projectt workk and afterr the 6 mthss.will be thee promotionall examss.i startt to wonderr.if i realli cann makee it forr moiis promotional examss whenn i havee to squeeze everythingg intoo moiis brainn within 6 mthss and havingg to copee withh moiis projectt workk andd moiis cca.i am startingg to doubtt moiis ability.i feel so scaredd andd so lackedd of confidencee.
dunnoee watt hass actualli runn overr muiis.fancii losingg confidencee.andd feel likee thee wholee worldd ishh comingg downn onn muiis.i feell so useless andd so unsecuredd.no onee seemss to be ablee to understandd moiis feelinggs andd watt i am actuallii goingg thruu.i dunnoee who to turnn to att thiss pointt of timee andd i feel jus so lostt.
cann anyonee jus.tell me watt i shldd do?!i am realli lostt.of cuss.partt of muiis.i hopee to stayy in MI.andd slowlyy climbb upp moiis stairss of sucess.but.sometimess.i jus feel thatt.no onee.seems to noee watt i wantt andd watt i realli hopee to havee in moiis lifee.i wantt to take moiis ownn timee.at moiis ownn timee.ownn targett.slowly gett thruu moiis JC lifee.andd gett a good A levell certt.andd movee onn intoo the U.maybe.ppl will tinkk thatt MI ishh nott as goodd as a JC.but.at leastt.i cann slowlii makee moiis resultss.jus thatt.i dunnoee howw to openn moiis mouthh and tell himm andd herr.thatt i wantt to takee thinggs slowly.i jus cantt pluckk upp moiis couragee to saee thatt to themm.i'm so sorixx.reallii verii sorixx...
Saturday, January 08, 2005Y
07/01/2005. hmm.finally.thee orientationn ishh overr liaoxx.mass lecturee has oreadii startedd lerhxx norhxx.hmm.basically ishh all still okiexx lahxx.juxx thatt.sometimexx.thee lecturexx may gett a littlee way too boringg.kekexx.but.thatt ishh jc lifee mahxx.so.juxx havee to acceptt and bearr withh it norhxx.had a reallii funn timee duringg thee lastt daee of thee orientationn.dancedd the MI dancee.ohh mann.muiixx mishh belindaa andd lynn loadxx liaoxx.kekexx.theyy weree so nicee sehxx.hmm.feel likee makingg MI moiixx futuree placee to be.bt.if i can affordd to do betaa.of cuxx.i will chaoxx arhxx.bt.thee schh seemxx to be likee.thee placee i wantt to be inn.hahaxx.betaa nott lett marmiee see thiss.if nott.shee suree blasttss muiixx off sehxx.hahaxx.well.belindaa saee.if i m in MI.i will gett onee moree yearr to preparee moixx selff in MI forr moiixx A levelxx.thatxx goodd oso.hahaxx.ooppxx.hahax.see how bahxx.see moiixx resultxx how norhxx.hehexx.walkk onee stepp.see onee stepp norhxx. :p
hmm.muiixx arhxx.gott a seriouss probb goingg on inn schh liaoxx.muiixx fancyy fallingg forr someone's sweett smilee!omgg.dunn wishh to saee outt thee namee arhxx.juxx thatt.hiss namee ishh spelledd as _ _ _ _ _ _.kekexx.happy guessingg guyxx.kekexx.well.hiss smilee ishh so superr damnn sweett andd he ishh sooo superr damnn nicee andd cooll andd omgg.he ishh so well built!arghh!thiss ishh reallii crazee.hahaxx.actually arhxx.thee ppl iin MI arhxx.aree muchh muchh betaa andd nicerr!hahaxx.not meantt to hurtt anyonee.ishh juxx thee truthh.hahaxx.omgg.cantt waitt forr mondaee to comee.thenn cann see hiss sweett smilee againn liaoxx.kekexx.i cheekii ayee?!hehexx.
07/01/2005.*quotee of thee daee*.
*[drimm watt euu wantt to drimm.go wheree euu wantt to go.be watt euu wantt to be.becausee euu onlii havee onee lifee andd onee chancee to do all thee thinggxx euu wantt to do...]*
Wednesday, January 05, 2005Y
04/01/2005. todaee at schh.quitee funn arhxx.gott play gamexx.then learnn to dancee the Indiann dance.best sehxx.like fun.hahax.then we did thee mass dancee of the three songxx learntt.very nicee.cos changee partnerr liaoxx mahxx.kekexx.hmm.thenn did somee evacuationn tingii.makee us look sooo stuppidd.hahaxx.after that.can go hmee liaoxx norhxx.hmm.endedd todaee like fastt.itxx the bestt orientationn daee i havee in MI bahxx.kekexx.oh yeshh.todaee.oso gott listenn to the PE teacherr tokk.he quitee interestingg.actionxx andd thee way he tokk.like 'starr starr'.see.i tinkk of him againn liaoxx.thenn like farniexx farniexx.crankii crankii.u saee lahxx.how to nott tinkk of 'starr starr'.sighh.
keptt tellingg moixx selff.neww startingg liaoxx lehxx.cannot tinkk of the pastt anymorexx.bt.i juxx cantt gett euu outt of moixx mindd.everythingg i do.seemxx to be in concernedd wiff euu derhxx.dunnoe y sehxx.shld stopp moixx selff liaoxx.bt.juxx cantt control moixx selff.cann someonee teachh muixx watt to do att thiss pointt of timee.underr this typee of circumstancexx?!the scenee whenn we were att the kayakingg coursee keptt flashingg thruu moixx mindd.thatxx probably thee sweetestt tingxx thatt cann everr happenn betweenn thee two of us bahxx.sigh... :x
04/01/2004.*quotee of thee daee*.
*[e worstt partt of lovingg euu.ishh whenn i m juxx besidee euu.yett.euu dunnoexx.]*
Tuesday, January 04, 2005Y
03/01/2005. hmm.schh startxx lerhxx worxx.reachh schh verii earlii todae.arrnd 7+.thenn wait for yz to comee.then wentt to check the noticee board togetherr.i iin OG5.yz in OG 3.thenn saw xuann yii.he ishh oso iin thee same schh mahx.he ishh in OG 2.so.all differentt grpxx.we havee to buy thiss orientationn packagee.insidee got tee-shirt,collar pin,towel,file and foolscap.hahax.$12 forr that norhxx.did somee gamexx.thenn wentt to thee coldd auditorium.to listenn to thee subjectt introo.quitee boringg thoughh.kekexx.thenn go forr lunchh.nthh to eat derhxx sehxx.likee two stallxx niaxx.thenn so many ppl.how to queuee sehxx?soo nvv eatt norhxx.afterr lunch ishh to learnn the MI dancee.quite fun sehxx.the dancee ish oso quitee nicee.jux that.i gott a verii disgustingg partnerr!so yikexx sehxx.learntt two dancexx todaee.thenn afterr thatt.listenn to the principal talkk.she quitee nice lahx.but.seemx to bee ratherr strictt oso norhxx.afterr that.go hmee liaoxx.thatx how we endedd the daee.ourr firstt daee at MI.hehex.
03/01/2005.*quotee of thee daee*.
*[whenn i firstt saw eu.i saw lovee.andd thee firstt timee eu touchedd me.i feltt lovee.andd afterr all this timee.eu aree still thee onee i lovee.]*
Monday, January 03, 2005Y
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02/01/2004.*qUoT3 Of Th3 dA3*.
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