; AN UN-OPENED HEART ;

Saturday, March 31, 2007Y

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :) HAHA. =p i'm still very very high. ;) very very high. =p shall update starting from yesterday. :) :) :) :)

30/03/2007

what can i say about today? :) i love my cca a lot a lot a lot. :) i really love them. had practice as usual. and of course. like last friday before prac. we went to shower. :) sher showered earlier, so left with me, sera & edith. :) sher accompanied us there and of course. to talk and have fun. =p after showering. jas gf came and join us as well. =p while waiting for sera darling to shower. we CAM-WHORED! ;) the usual us. =p

after showering. we went back for practice. :) did more cuttings for "DANCE FANTASY" then did the touch ups. ms wee ask me to do body movement for my solo. which i find it weird and difficult. haha! i will practice. :)

before we are "released" to go for dinner. ben made an announcement. he say, "tomorrow, its shirley's birthday. so lets sing her a song." when i hear that. i was like SHOCKED. and my heart thumped. =x i hear ben keep calling my name to ask me to go to the front. when i stand up. i hear claps. :) the first thing i saw when i stand up was... A PINK CAKE! ;)

then. i don't know why. tzekiat CANNOT STOP DISTURBING ME. i was rather embarassed luh. but its ok. I CAN STILL TAKE IT! wahaha. cos he has been disturbing me since BREAK TIME! its ok. i was just staring at the cake and holding it with shaky hands. =x until tuankiak came and take it over from me. and i realise. my hands are cold. HAHA! ashirah's bday is tomorrow. so ake celebrated for us together. :) the entire ake sang the birthday song for us. :) at that moment. when i look up at the entire ake group. i dont know why. i just feel like crying. i'm touched. i really am.

the best thing is... MISS WEE HAD A SPECIAL BDAY SONG FOR ME! wahaha. its the melody of my solo part in "DANCE FANTASY". :) when ms wee sang it. i was like "OH SHUCKS!" haha! =p but its a very personalised one for me. :) LOVE IT! haha. although its my "nightmare". :)

so so. THANK YOU AKE. THANK YOU MISS WEE. THANK YOU BEN FOR THE CAKE. :) i'm really touched. i'm really happy. :)

THANK YOU SHER GF, JAS GF & YIHONG, CUIJUN, AND JUNLONG for your presents. :) I LOVE THEM A LOT REALLY. :) and the gifts are PINK PINK PINK. :) lovelovelove. <3<3<3

after dinner was more practice and doing of logistics. we practice the shifting of instruments into the "conference hall" we made up with the school hall. HAHA! then after that. more more practice. then we get to listen to our rehersal track again. :) and we get to listen to our FIRST RUN THROUGH. its quite funny sounding. haha! but the final run through was the best. :)

WE CAN DO IT AKE! LETS WORK HARD TOGETHER OK? WE ARE GETTING THERE! :)

i ended off yesterday by thanking every single one. :) i love ake a lot a lot. :) i love every single one in there. :) i lovelovelove them. i really do. :)

at the school main gate. i received wishes from tzekiat, tuankiak, leong & mr pow. :) thanks again people! :)

31/03/2007

my phone didnt stop beeping since the moment midnight strikes. :) the first person to message me was CLARIS GF. :) I MISS HER LIKE MADNESS PLEASE! then more stream in. every single little message are all loved by me. :)

slept at like near to 2am last night. so i woke up at like 10.30am? haha! =p the moment i switch on my phone. MORE MORE BEEPS. haha. :)

THANK YOU TO:

CLARIS, HIDAYAH E., YZ, EDITH DARLING, ERVY SISTER, JUNLONG, BABAT SAYANG, CJ, YINWHEE SWEETS, TUANKIAK, HUDA SAYANG, IGNATIUS POK, HUIPING, YC DEARIE, DADDY, MUMMY, YANG, YIHONG, WENDY, HUI JUAN, SHERNISE, JANE, SYAZA PURPLE, PENG SIONG DEARIE, NURUL SAYANG & NASHATA for the sms-es. :) they are warm and sweet. THANK YOU! :)

THOMAS, SHIHUI, NICHOLAS & BAOHENG for the wish over msn. :) LOVES. <3

MY THREE GFs your msn nicks warmed me please. :)

those who added me a testimonial on friendster. THANK YOU! :)

went for dinner with dino darling & yz. :) they two sweeties. bought me a crumpler bag & treated me to dinner. THEY REFUSE TO LET ME PAY FOR MY DINNER LUH! and i feel so bad. =x i made them splurge on me so much. =x i made every single friend splurge on me. =x

so... no matter what present/no matter whether got present or not. i really dont mind. because its the thoughts that count. even if its a little sms, msn little wish or a testimonial, or just a word of "HAPPY BIRTHDAY", i will be very very happy already. :) really. :)

so so. thanks for everything people. :) you guys really made my life more and more colourful. and i feel more and more light in my life because of the presence of you guys. :) thank you for every little thing/big thing you guys have done. i really really appreciate everything. :)

I LOVE YOU ALL PEOPLE! I'M STILL HIGH. AND I'M STILL VERY HAPPY. :) i think. i'm the happiest girl in the whole wide world today. :) LOVELOVELOVE! <3<3<3

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10:59 PM

SHIRLEY IS A HAPPY GIRL TODAY! :) and I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE IN AKE A LOT A LOT. :)

BIG BIG LOVES & HEART-FELT THANK YOU TO THE ENTIRE AKE! :)

details & photos will be blogged later. :) because i need to sleep. =p

I LOVE TODAY. :) for every single reason. i love today. and I LOVE YOU, YOU & YOU.

especially YOU. ;)

12:55 AM

Thursday, March 29, 2007Y

I'VE GOT A NEW PHONE! :) :) :) my NOKIA 5300! :) yayness! ;) i'm like super happy please. its the phone i like. and daddy mummy got it for me as my birthday present. :) THANK YOU DADDY & MUMMY! :) :) :) i'm a happy girl. since yesterday. MY MOOD I LIFTED UP AND AGAIN. :)

had a talk by the auditory general this morning. and i got a terrible fright. =x i was super scared i swear. so scared that my heart kept thumping and my hands turn COLD. =x i was sooooo scared that HE will sit beside me. =x yichuang, xianyang, caihua & wendy were all like gasping & holding their breathe. caihua is already prepared to change place with me if HE sits beside me. =x and yichuang also tell me that if HE walk to the seat beside me, she will tell him that the seat is for her. THANK YOU DEARIES. :) thank you for being with me and being so ready to help me and save me. :) THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! :) *touched*

lessons were all ok. :)

ake tomorrow. and THERE WILL BE NIGHT PRACTICE! :) yayness. another AKE-FILLED day. :) yadayada. more more time with my DEARIES & DARLINGS & LOVELIES. :) :) :) :)

oh yah. i have to say this. TUANKIAK is a GREAT PAL! :) yesterday when i complain to tuankiak that james bully me. he go "confront" him. and in the end. out of james natural reaction. tuankiak got "hit" by james. OOPS! anyhow... THANK YOU TUANKIAK! :) LOVELOVE OK? :)

7:13 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007Y

miss wee say the last part of "DANCE FANTASY" a bit no kick. so she added four more bars. and she increased the speed. that makes the tempo EVEN FASTER. ok. practice hard shirley! :)

today's practice is not really an official practice. because only the year2s & me, grace, jannah, yihong, nilam & junlong are needed from the year3s. the year2s are there to orientate the year1s being arranged to be in ake. :) there are about 18 or 19 of them. we're facing a little short-handed luh. especially when band is forming up. =x we're still trying to get more members. :) and i'm sure we can do it. :) GO GO AKE! :)

we get to hear the recording of the entire session of rehersal at SCH today. :) we sounded GREAT! well. not like SUPER DEE DUPER WONDERFUL. but its good luh! to me it is very well done already. :) WE CAN DO EVEN BETTER AKE! GO GO GO! ;) i want to watch the video. i want to see how we all look like up there at the BIG BIG INTIMIDATING STAGE! =p i want to see if we all look funny when we are all stressed and serious. HAHA! =p i'm evil. =p

i love my SUNSHINE PLEASE! :) yadayada. I LOVE HIM MADLY. :) i promise him i will put an UPSIDE DOWN RAINBOW on my face today. and i did. :) he even make me smile more and more during ake. :) THANKS LOVE! <3

i see you. but i choose to look away. i got no choice. do i?

8:49 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007Y

better or worst? i'm also not very sure. =x well. it's over already. and i shan't be so bothered about it. i shall wait for the results released 6 weeks later. meanwhile. i've got a lot more things to bother over and be concerned over. what's over. it's over. :)

THANK YOU for those who cared & asked about me & wish me luck. :)

JASMINE & SHERLYNN GFs. :) thanks for being there for me over these few days. :) i know you girl-ies have been trying real hard to regain in me that confidence. and for that. i will work real hard to gain it back ok? :) and THANK YOU REALLY. for sticking by. and staying with me. :) LOVES. <3

HENDRA SUNSHINE. :) he's the brightest sunshine i've ever had. :) and really THANK YOU DARLING. you just got a way to make my day and put that curve on my face. :) I LOVE YOU TONS. :) of course. thanks for the encouragement & faith you put in me. :) LOVES to you as well! <3

to those who wished me luck, namely 05A2, sharinee sweets, hidayah sayang... the teachers, mr tan, mr lai, mr ser, mr ram... thank you. :) hope those lucks will make be my lucky charms. :) still. THANK YOU. :)

i missed lunch time training since last week. and mr ser was like saying "you ah! become lazy already! never go lunch time! never go health & fitness club! later your fitness level drop ah!" HAHA. =p okok! i will go starting on thursday ok? :) I PROMISE! :)

ake tomorrow. like what sher & jas darlings say. ake is a place where i find the most laughters & joy. ake is the place where i will find happiness. ake is the place that always brighten me up and bring me to the peak of my mood. :) so i should enjoy and look forward. I LOVE AKE. i really do. and i will continue loving it. :) let tomorrow be the day when i gain back the lively & bubbly me. :)

i love being mad. i miss the crazy me. and i want to be so mad that mama will being me to the shrink. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! =p *inside joke*

5:24 PM

Monday, March 26, 2007Y

i've been feeling really reallly down. really really useless. really really stressed up. really really helpless since friday. and on saturday. THAT HAVE TO HAPPEN TO KILL MY MOOD. there goes my bubbly self again. =x

ok. i need time. i think things are getting too much for me to handle. so much so that i feel freaking stressed up. freaking irritated. freaking moody. i need a CLEAN GOOD BREAK. a real break from EVERYTHING. i dont know. i need to be really alone and i need time for myself.

i'm scared that i can't strive through this period. especially for syf. i have really very low confidence for myself. yet i don't wish to see all my efforts going down the drain. maybe because it's my first time. and it will also be my last. i want it to end beautifully & perfectly with no qualms & regrets. but i'm really very very scared. =x

tomorrow's my piano exam. the last time i can re-take without having to change pieces. my scales are still as shitty as ever. and mrs lee say i didn't play as well as i did yesterday. i'm scared. =x

YES! I'M A SCARED-Y CAT. I'M SCARED FOR PRACTICALLY EVERYTHING. EVERY SINGLE THING IN MY LIFE.

i'm freaking out.

sher's msn nick : "hey shir! sorry for making u worried about me (: and HAVE MORE CONFIDENCE oks! u can do it de! wi-ja-ya AUNTY, 加油!!"

jas's msg : "you are not useless. if you are. you wouldn't come this far. i know you can do it."

these are warm messages from my lovelies. yet. i'm still like this. tell me WHAT TO DO? :(

you are the one i'm thinking of right now. and i hope you would appear right now. and not go away...

8:20 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007Y

had driving today. the instructor say that i'm fine with almost everything. just that i'm scared to do lane changing when there are many cars. =x when there are less cars. i can do my lane changing like so well. but when there are MANY MANY CARS. i freaked out and don't dare to move out. fearing others car will whack me on the car's backside. =x and i tend do delay my moving off. also because i scared other cars will hit me. =x but something to be happy over. :) no engine stalls! parking are all good! :) everything is getting better. :) and i'm happy. hopefully by the time i take my test... :) i can pass it at ONE GO. :)

ake might not be watching "THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA" together. :( and i might not be able to watch it with those who want to watch in ake if we're going on our own. :( might be watching with diane. but... sighs. =x i don't know. i don't wish to miss it. even if it means i will be going and watch alone. i just don't wish to miss it. well. see how it goes. I BADLY WANT TO WATCH IT. =x

I HAVEN'T BEEN STUDYING FOR THE WHOLE OF THIS WEEK. goodness. i don't know what the hell is going on with myself. i just feel tired & lethargic. i just don't feel like touching my books/notes/whatever. i just don't get the motivation and synergy to study. =x and this can't carry on. i will get myself to study this week. i will force myself to find back that momentum i have during the start of this year. i just need that momentum for the next 8 months. just that 8 months. till all is over. I WILL TRY! I PROMISE.

8:17 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007Y

rehersal today was COOLNESS please! it's not my first time being to SCH. but it's my FIRST time being on the stage. it's SUPER BIG. and the hall is SUPER COLD. =x i can't help being nervous & scared the moment i step into the hall. before i even step into the hall. i was still jumping & running around. cam-whoring & choosing my endless postcards & taking those bookmarks. =p but the moment we are asked to go inside the hall. it's just a different me. i became so nervous & felt super cold. my hands and fingers were already stiff! =x *shirley is useless*

we took quite long to move in onto the stage. 5 MINUTES! =x like what ben say. we're still unfamiliar with the stage and the whole set up. but we moved out REALLY FAST because we've already associate ourselves with the stage. :) hopefully. on that day itself. we can associate faster with the stage and move in QUICK. :)

rehersing was the part where i really become so tense & "stressed up". =x miss wee's husband, mr tan, was the one giving the comments on what can be heard/cannot be heard. what needs to do what arrangement. what needs to be improved on and how to improve on. and i received QUITE A LOT of comments. i have to "dam" this "dam" that. i have to play louder. clearer and stuff. and i feel soooo scared that i nearly teared. i am really scared & nervous. my hands are not listening to me. my heart thumps like mad. my eyes keep sticking onto my hands and whenever i look up at miss wee. i will have the tendency to play WRONG NOTE! =x i was really tensed. and i heard people from behind saying "oh! she's stressed already!", "that's difficult!" and i heard this that really warmed me, "SHIRLEY, DONT CRY!" :) i mean. i'm not crying. but ya. i already feel like crying. cos it's pretty tough to concentrate when i'm in my super dee duper nervous state. =x

that's for myself only luh. as for the rest of the ensemble. i don't know. but i definitely know something. for today's rehersal. every single one of them put in their very very best effort & hard work. they really did very very well from what i've manage to hear throughout the entire session. they really did work hard & paid full attention. :) *KUDOS TO AKE! :) *

i'm very glad that everyone is putting in their own effort. :) and i'm really very happy. :) was talking to my darling sunshine. and we both believe that consistent hard work & practice will do ourselves good. we will improve more than what we've produced today. and we will clinch the GOLD WITH HONOURS. :) we both are confident of that. i hope the entire ake will think that way as well. :) we can do it ake. WE CAN DO IT! :)

today. i'm not feeling very good. at first i'm high and all. but i heard SOMETHING. that changed my mood & feeling for the entire day. PLEASE GET AWAY FROM ME! i dont want to see or hear you if possible. and wipe that SMILE OFF YOUR FACE! IM FREAKING OUT BECAUSE OF YOU! =x

hendra dearie keep asking me to cool down and don't bother about HIM. but i was really irritated & badly shooken. especially when he SHOUTED ACROSS THE ROOM. and it was "ANNOUNCED". =x i just feel very awkward & uncomfortable. very very unwell feeling. i just feel. embarrassed. angry. frustrated. even sera thinks that i'm not my normal self. and indeed i'm not. i'm not what i am yesterday. i'm not what i have been like throughout. and i hate being like this. :(

11:17 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007Y

I SURVIVED PE TODAY! :) ain't i clever? hehs. =p the first person i told the news to was HENDRA SUNSHINE! ;) he teased me yesterday luh! so i HAVE to let him know that I SURVIVED! =p

pe wasnt bad. HOW BAD CAN BADMINTON BE WHEN I LOVE IT? ;) but i didnt perform well luh. i was below standard. and i feel bad because i couldnt let yichuang play well also. =x i was scared luh. and i really mean. SCARED. =x

couldnt get to blog yesterday because i was SO DEPRESSED. not only because there's pe today. but also other things that boil up and over. people around me and stuff. my mood swings are here. and i know because i get irritated and dissatisfied SUPER EASILY. i'm touchy & edgy & moody. but i managed to control myself and not let myself flare at ANY SINGLE PERSON. i did controlled. :)

ake makes up the BULK of my today. :) practice was alright. ran through the pieces as usual. and we did touch ups. no much difference as compared to the last practice that we had. just that TOMORROW WE WILL BE REHERSING AT SCH.

AKE's SYF COMPETITION IS ON 26TH APRIL 2007, in the morning. :) we're the LAST group on the list for the competition. and i'm FREAKING NERVOUS. =x i look forward to that day. yet i hate to let that day pass. once that day is over. that means. i will be leaving ake soon. :( i dont want to leave ake so soon. :(

hendra darling is a REAL DARLING. he hides my phone into PBs. he make me angry, laugh, mad and stuff. he help me to listen to my playing and tell me my left hand is S-L-O-W. =x ok. he's a REAL DARLING lah. to make me smile and all. :) LOVELOVE. <3

celebrated nurul's bday today. :) we got her the cake she spot on at prima deli. :) the one with the tiara & the wand. :) she loves it. and she even teared. :) I LOVE NURUL! <3

对你有感觉

我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你
给我安慰

看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉
竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕
会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契
转身不见
矛盾着
犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的
危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美

眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕
会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契
转身不见
矛盾着
犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的
危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着
犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的
危险
你和我
拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧
星光唯美
把爱放心里面

把爱放心里面

把爱放心里面

-END-

i'm feeling VERY VERY lost now. =x i'm like stuck in between a confusion of feelings. i don't know what i'm exactly feeling right now. i just know that. i dont wish to lose you. i don't want to lose you. I CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE YOU. and i really can't afford to lose what we've built up so far. :( i'm just very confused. i need to let this thing end. before i fall deeper.

SOMEONE. PLEASE. GUIDE & LEAD ME. :(

10:57 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007Y

tze kiat is our conductor for today! ;) haha. he took over the conducting for the cca open house performance. :) he did a GREAT JOB! :) he look "funny" while conducting. so when i perform and smile. its because i look at him. and i cant help laughing. cos he is VERY VERY SERIOUS. and i really mean serious. serious and smiling at the same time. so he look different. =p but he really did a great job. :) KUDOS TO TZE KIAT! ;) oh yes. he look fierce ok? now i know why he always say he scold his boys. HAHA! =p actually he no need to scold. i already feel the tension. =p especially when he tell me about my triplets. he is stern ok? haha! =p but i scared scared. then ok already. HAHA! =p he's good lah. :)

performance today is not really a fantastic wooha job. i still think we all can do so much better. "one moment in time" is not too bad. is the "dance fantasy". i think there are a lot of brushing ups. and AKE! WE CAN DO IT YA? :) i have the faith and confidence in us. :)

jasmine gf is not really happy today. :( and i'm still feeling depressed over what news i have received yesterday. :( i cant help being depressed. and nothing seems to be able to tide my depression away. :( i so dont look forward to friday. although i look forward to ake. :) but i dont know lah. i still feel depressed. still feel unhappy. still feel moody. :(

but luckily. there are NICE NICE PEOPLE like NANI, TZE KIAT & HENDRA LOVE to brighten my day up. :) nani totally feel what i feel. and we love our nilam. :) and tze kiat. he still try to make me feel ok. feel good. and of course. he ask me if he's good and stuff. HAHA! =p YOU'RE GOOD KIAT! :) and of course. my lovelove hendra is never failing to "IRRITATE" me and bring the smile on my face. :) I LOVE DISTURBING HIM AS MUCH AS HE LOVE TO DISTURB ME. :) and he can understand how moody i am. he can understand how i feel. he can understand what am i feeling right there and then. he just got a way to make my day better. :) LOVES. <3

cla test tomorrow. and here i am. OK! BYE!

10:38 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007Y

I CLEARED NAPFA! :) so i get to play games during pe lessons from friday onwards! :) BUT! I GOT BADMINTON! =x ok. i LOVE badminton. i love it madly. i was still telling hidayah sayang that i miss those badminton sessions back at bartley. before our maths lessons. =p and. i miss playing badminton with DADDYLOW. ;) BUT! NOW I DONT WANT MYSELF TO GET BADMINTON! oh my god! can someone please save me? can someone please bring me out of this? its the worst thing i can have can? I DONT WANT BADMINTON! i would rather play volleyball/softball or whatever ball. i dont want badminton already! :( even though i will be having pe with my dearest SYAZA PURPLE & FAD DEARIE & JUNLONG & JAS GF & TUAN KIAK & many more! but i dont want to be in badminton now. :( please get me out of it. please. :( i crazied myself to junlong just now. :( i was super noisy. i was super mad. i just went CRAZY. =x i was wailing & screaming. i am going NUTS. =x and i am at the stadium. with junlong beside me. cant do anything except to ask me to cool down. HOW TO? :( someone save me! =x

will i still get to have pe with you? =x

6:35 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007Y

the new term BEGINS! and i'm determined to make a difference for myself. :)

my new timetable is OUT. and i can say that i prefer this much more than the one i had last term. =p although. its not as good as what i have for the last two years. i go home later and stuff. but ITS OK! cos in between lessons. i got more breaks. :) and i've already arranged with hidayah sayang. :) we will make use of those breaks to do consultation & study together. :) for ourselves. for our As. for our future. :) we will and we can make a difference. :)

I HEARTS MY HIDAYAH SAYANG! :) she's always there for me no matter what. whatever i'm facing. whenever i feel down. she's just there. :) she's there to encourage. she's there to motivate. she's there to tell me "I'M GOOD MYSELF. AND I DONT NEED FOR OTHERS TO MAKE MYSELF GOOD. :) " i love her. i love her because she instilled in me the confidence that i didnt manage to instill in myself. i love her because. SHE'S HIDAYAH. MY ONE AND ONLY HIDAYAH SAYANG. <3<3<3

to the YOU. :) thanks for making my morning start off right. :) my entire day went right. and good. :) because. of. YOU. <3

4:54 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007Y

im addicted. very very addicted. =p addicted to "DANCE FANTASY"! haha. =p the song is super stuck in my head. and i keep humming it. especially the part when the angklungs need to come in and do their rainbow. the part where i dont have to play and i can just watch people play. =p i keep humming that part. and sub-consciously. i will do the rainbow action. WAHAHA! =p i feel like a retard. but i still love that part. ;) or rather. i love the entire song. :)

爱 x 无限大
元若蓝

九九乘法
整个复杂
恋爱的公式有够瞎
大胆假设
小心求证
幸福要欧趴

暑假不想
自high收场
陪你到海边光脚ㄚ
我能想像
我加你呀
画面就像天堂

你为我朗诵诗句
我为你弹奏钢琴
我们的气质
根本没人能比

自拍有你当背景
在一起没有难题
你加我
我加你
所向无敌

你爱我学张曼玉
我爱你学周星星
我们的剧本别人
非请勿进

你为我打抱不平
我为你设计造型
oh my god
简直是金童玉女

爱 x 无限大
大到连爱神都皮皮挫
手牵
着手啦
管他变王子变青蛙

梦 x 无限大
大到连宇宙都放不下
两个麻瓜
不懂魔法
也能把童话变神话

课文没讲
老师没上
恋爱的公式有够瞎
大胆假设
小心求证
幸福要欧趴

暑假不想
自high收场
陪你到海边光脚ㄚ
我能想像
我加你呀
画面就像天堂

你为我朗诵诗句
我为你弹奏钢琴
我们的气质
根本没人能比

自拍有你当背景
在一起没有难题
你加我
我加你
所向无敌

你爱我学张曼玉
我爱你学周星星
我们的剧本别人
非请勿进

你为我打抱不平
我为你设计造型
oh my god
简直是金童玉女

爱 x 无限大
大到连爱神都皮皮挫
手牵
着手啦
管他变王子变青蛙

梦 x 无限大
大到连宇宙都放不下
两个麻瓜
不懂魔法
也能把童话变神话

爱 x 无限大
大到连爱神都皮皮挫
手牵
着手啦
管他变王子变青蛙

梦 x 无限大
大到连宇宙都放不下
两个麻瓜
不懂魔法
也能把童话变神话

喔～
爱 x 无限大
大到连爱神都皮皮挫
手牵
着手啦
管他变王子变青蛙

梦 x 无限大
大到连宇宙都放不下
两个麻瓜
不懂魔法
也能把童话变神话

-END-

3:39 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007Y

during tuition today, mrs low let us watched a movie. "DEAD POETS SOCIETY". its nice! i would give it 4.5 LOVES. the movie is about arts education system and a teacher who teaches poetry, introduces ways and ways of interesting ideas of learning to his students. the teacher even helped his students to uncover their fear & helped them to make poems. :) the ending isn't really a happy one. but its a touching movie. :) its worth watching. :)

didnt manage to sleep in this morning. i woke up at like 9.15am. wanted to continue sleeping. but i cant get back to sleep. so might as well wake up to study and rush out holiday assignments. i've not been studying since wednesday luh! and i really got a hell lot to catch up. =x

OH! yesterday. PEARLYNN DARLING came to see us. :) it has been a LONG LONG time since i last see her luh! and its really nice to see her. :) when she's about to leave. i looked really sad and don't bear to see her leave. so i hugged her. :) i miss her! and i miss ah pok, huda sayang, yani luncheon, dian sweetheart, xiaxuan, hui juan darling & many many more. =x really hope to see them real soon. and i seriously DO miss playing music with them...

school's starting! can you believe it? my holidays are over. with barely a full day for me to rest. every day is filled with things & activities. but i seriously did enjoy my holiday despite being so so busy. :) for once. my march holidays are activities-filled. YES! its tiring. but i enjoyed. :)

holidays are ending. new term is starting. its time my engine start working. i'm going to begin my revision & start preparing for my A levels. it may seem still far away. but its actually... less than 8 months left. =x SHIRLEY GO GO GO! :)

i got this from jas gf's blog. and im laughing like a mad woman. =p

" Let me elaborate about the PRANK…

Went to find the rest of the AKE Peeps as they were having dinner at Kopitiam. Asked them about the progress of the practice, and shir told me that she and nilam was scolded, because my angklung section.

The rest joined in and said:
“Ms wee very angry with the angklung players. she went through the rainbow method again and again..scolded the players..threw duster to the two angklung players..changed cuijun to the base angklung.. the angklungs were not playing good..messy.. because i didnt conduct and teach them well…”

so i did a double confirm with MR ENG TZE KIAT whether the angklung players were scolded by ms wee. I went to look for him because he was sitting far away from shir and gang. So even if shir and gang ganged up and bluff me, tze kiat wouldnt know. So i asked Tze Kiat.

ME: TZE KIAT!! my angklung members kena scolded by ms wee is it?
Tzekiat: Ya lar.. you never teach properly. Ms wee very angry. "

&

" THE BLACKLIST

copyrighted : september-love.net "

ok. i SERIOUSLY didnt expect tzekiat to say "YA LAH!" cos i was hinting to LEONG only. =x and tzekiat's back is facing me luh! i cant get the chance to drop hints at him. and jas gf is damn clever to ask tzekiat instead of leong luh! =p

BUT. girlfriend. don't angry le ok? :) we really don't mean to upset you or what de. don't angry le ok? :) SMILES! :)

6:41 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007Y

ask me what 37 hours can do. i will tell you. A GREAT, FANTASTIC & AWESOME AKE CAMP. :) :) :) from THURSDAY's 8.45am till TODAY's 9.45pm. from the moment i step INTO harmonis on thursday till the moment i step OUT of harmonis today. i spent a total of 37 HOURS WITH MY ALL TIME LOVELOVE AKE. :) a full 37 hours of fun & joy. honestly speaking. i spent my 37 hours greatly & fruitfully. i really am happy & i really enjoyed the 37 hours i have with ake. :)

FIRST DAY [15/03/2007]

reached HARMONIS at 8.45am. :) did my CHECKING IN of my belongings into the cupboards. and off i started talking & playing with people i see. :) had a GREAT talk with yichuang dearie. :)

people streamed in. and by around 9.15am. most or rather ALL who are supposed to be there are all in HARMONIS already. :) had our BRIEFING for the entire camp. and then we had our SECTIONALS. :) the kulintangs get to stay inside HARMONIS to practice. while the angklungs shifted out. ;) sectionals were good & we really worked on our pieces and parts. :) then we had our FIRST combined for "DANCE FANTASY" with the kulintangs INSIDE harmonis. and the angklungs OUTSIDE harmonis. :) we did a WONDERFUL job! :) after that. is LUNCH TIME! ;)

lunch was at WEST MALL. ok. i think i'm a mountain tortoise. i've NEVER been to west mall before. so its my FIRST time there. =p took a bus down with BEN, JUNLONG, EDITH, SERAPHINE, JASMINE, YIHONG, TZEKIAT, LEONG, TUANKIAK etc. we were "noisy" luh! talked & stuff. the bus is filled with OUR voices. HAHA! =p

after lunch. back in school. its preparation for CCA OPEN HOUSE. the year2s are involved in the preparation. and the year3s get to study. :) we used the classroom of 05S2 for our study period. everyone did their own work pretty quietly. until when its about near to 4pm. when we all start to make noise & talk instead of working. HAHA! =p typical & expected. =p i ain't really efficient that day. i only manage to do ONE question of econs case study. and DISCUSS with tuankiak & sher ONE econs essay question. =x now i still got LOADS to catch up for over the weekends before school starts. =x mummy already drop me a BIG BIG HINT. she hopes that i can & i will study super hard after this ake camp. :) alright. i will. :)

dinner is BBQ @ MISS WEE's PLACE! :) it was RAINING DAMN HEAVILY when we return back to harmonis after study period. :( and we cant go out of school because of that. =x we thought we cant go to miss wee's place already. so miss lim & mr pow seeked approval from GOODY GOODY MR SINGH for us to have a mini indoor bbq in the canteen. :) BUT!!!! i think HEAVEN LOVES ALL MI-AKEians. :) the rain STOPPED at 6pm. ;) and soon. we are all on our way to miss wee's place. ;) YAYS! :) again. the bus is filled with MI-AKEians. :) this time round. MORE MORE MI-AKEians. :) we filled the bus with endless bubblies & noise. :) HEY! WE BROUGHT LIFE TO THE ENTIRE BUS OK? haha! =p

bbq was alright. they had games. and i helped out with the cooking & serving. :) despite the bad weather. we still had our fill of fun. :) i think i over-hunger myself AGAIN. =x and i had a shitty gastric pain. =x it was very painful. but i still carried on to play. until near to the end of the bbq. when at the bus stop going back to school. i feel even shitty-ier. i keep feeling as if i'm going to puke. and my hands are cold. =x hendra sunshine keep asking me if i'm ok and even make sure that i am ok. :) THANK YOU DARLING! :) junlong & ben helped me to find milo & made milo for me. :) THANK YOU to YOU TWO AS WELL! :) minhui, joleen & yihong too made sure that i'm ok. :) and YES! I AM OK. :) tzekiat thought i was crying because i keep tear-ing and tear-ing when i feel like i want to puke. he asked me TWICE when i see him TWICE with teary eyes. haha! =p but I'M OK! and I DIDNT CRY. :) i dont cry easily kiat! ;) unless... something... happens luh. which nothing did happen at all. HAHA! =p

showered at like 12+. and slept at 2+. my nose was terribly blocked because of the SUPER DEE DUPER COLD AIR CON. =x and i cant breathe. but i dont really dare to increase the aircon temperature. in case the rest feel warm. so i tried breathing with my mouth. i still feel breathless. and i'm practically gasping for air. =x i was so scared i would wake jas & sher gfs up. but luckily i didnt "scared" them with my breathing. HAHA! =p i still continue to sleep until like 6.15am. when diane messaged me. THAT MARKS THE BEGINNING OF MY DAY TWO IN AKE CAMP! ;)

SECOND DAY [16/03/2007]

woke up early. and accompanied my dearie sher to shower. :) went back to harmonis to wake the rest up. :) accompanied jas & sera down to the toilet again. :) on our way to the toilet. i saw four guys waving to me from the highest floor of the classroom block. i couldn't really see clearly who they are. but they kept waving. then i see a yellow bag. i went "OH!" its leong's bag. HAHA! so i confirmed they are TZEKIAT, LEONG, TUANKIAK & ROMMANCE. i re-confirmed myself again. when i saw kiat & tuankiak waving again. and i try to see their faces. HAHA! =p

breakfast is MACDONALD's! :) our BULK ordering made the delivery-men deliver our breakfast using a CAR. not a bike. but a CAR. ;) cool isn't it? BUT! we received disappointment from mac. we didnt get all that we want. they left out my hashbrown & miss lim's breakfast. =x they delievered what they left out to us only later. causing me & sera to only have breakfast at near to 9am. =x but still. we had our breakfast. ;)

after breakfast is PRACTICE AGAIN! today's practice is ALL THEY WAY from 9am - 9pm. =x had once or twice of combined before ms wee came. after that was real intensive training and brushing up on the parts that we didnt do really well. the balancing & doing the piece in detail was really tough. me & nilam were quite frustrated & irritated when playing "DI TANJONG KATONG". we feel really bad and tired of practising. i even felt like i want to stop playing and go home. =x but after awhile. everything was ok again. we had our laughs & "entertainment". :) actually. practice isn't bad at all. its the process of having to go through the little little details. and PURPOSELY. you just DIE DIE also cannot get those notes right. things just go haywire. and really get irritated. =x

miss wee briefed us about what it is going to be like during SYF. and im feeling damn nervous already. =x my heart is like thumping. HAHA! =p and i really feel scared. scared i will forget my notes. scared i will make mistakes. =x i just feel scared. =x ms wee also tell us about the criteria & stuffs. pretty interesting things to listen about. but it also make me feel nervous at the same time. =p

lunch was at the coffee shop near our school. and dinner is at WEST MALL again. :) while having dinner. jas & junlong came back from their attachment and met us in west mall. :) i played a prank on jas gf. telling her i got scolded, i got said, i this i that. all because of her angklung section bla bla bla. and the rest joined in and bluff her as well. =p and when i told her the truth. she was "angry" and even black-listed our names. HAHA! =p GF! its just a little joke ya? don't be angry ok? :) i still LOVELOVELOVE you no matter what. ;)

night practice is one word. COOLNESS! ;) i've never practised in school till so so late. and we sounded so so much LOUDER than during the afternoon. =p when we all leave harmonis. outside the room and all the way to the gate was PITCH DARK. =x but we all got home safely of course! ;)

we kinda dont want to go home when we were about to end practice. dont know why. maybe night practice is fun or everyone are still high & wide awake. we hope we can stay over for another night. HAHA! =p but i think if we really get to stay over for another night. the second night would be a MADNESS night. where we all play or talk or whatever till LATE LATE LATE. =p

a little message out to all MI-AKEians. :)

thank you SO SO MUCH for the precious & memorable 37 hours. :) these 37 hours may be short short. but i still had my utmost share of fun & joy. :) i really really do. and we shall do this again. :) and this time round. a longer period. 3D2N? haha. =p a madness camp we shall make. :) and this camp is really a great one. and i really love it. <3

thank you to all MI-AKEians for making the 37 hours great. :) no matter is a little "HELLO!", or a little question, or a little "GOOD NIGHT!" & "BYE BYE!", or a little smile you flash, or a little joke you guys made. they just got to make my day. :) they made my 37 hours the best 37 hours i can ever have & find. :)

thank you for allowing me to communicate with many many more people like JERINE, VALERIE, MEILING, MUIWOON, YINWHEE, JAMES, YVONNE, ASRIDA, HAJAR etc. those whom i seldom talk to in the past. at least. throught this camp. i talked to you for at least two to three sentences. :) and of course! for giving me face and eat whatever i show in front of you all. :)

the list of thank you & fun i had will never end. but to everyone who really make me feel so so warm & loved. THANK YOU! :)

and I LOVE YOU ALL TOO. :) every single one of YOU. :) ESPECIALLY. YOU! :)

photos @ : ake camp '07

11:56 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007Y

celebrated my sister shannon's 14th birthday today. :) bought her a haagen-dazs ice cream cake. and its NICE! very very nice. :) chocolate chip flavour. ooo. i think i would know what cake to order when its my 21st birthday. HEHS! =p and mama just tell me that I CAN HAVE MY 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY AT HOME! :) :) :) *beams* hehs. =p

ake was quite good today. :) FULL ATTENDANCE FROM THE YEAR TWOs! :) *CLAP CLAP CLAP* good job dearies! :) we cant get full attendance from the year threes today because of the attachments. =x but still. we manage to do a lot of touch ups. :) now me, nilam & yihong are supposed to work on the speed & timing for our "DANCE FANTASY". :) we will JIA YOU & work together ok? :) now i hope that the following practices attendance will get better and better. :) keep going ake! :)

THE CAMP IS TOMORROW! haha. can YOU believe it? :) ITS TOMORROW! ;) okok. im excited over it ya? its my FIRST time having training camp. and training for SYF some more. =p im still feeling excited over it. :) the bbq will be tomorrow night. :) and because of the change in day for the bbq. night practice will be on friday night. :)

miss wee just told us that on every friday nights. there will be night practice. because only on this day. and at that period of time. then will there be FULL ATTENDANCE. well. for the sake of what we hope to achieve. ITS OK! :) and we are all ok with the idea. :) YAYS! ;)

OFF I GO TO PACK MY CAMP BAG. hehs. i will TAKE A LOT OF PHOTOS. and i will UPLOAD THEM ONCE I'VE LOADED THEM. :)

meanwhile. TAKE CARE PEOPLE! :) you will all be MISSED! :) *muacks*

8:18 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007Y

NLB attachment today is GREAT! :) ok. not really good. a little boring. but well. overall its GOOD. :) especially the second part of the programme. :) when i get to sit at the information counter. and watch the human flow. and see how the people working there handle the people who walk in with questions and enquiries. :) its cool ok? HAHA! =p

reached NLB super early please. at around 8am. im there already. =x cos mummy drop daddy off at habourfront first. the next. its my turn. and its only 8am. =x i sat outside the library. where there are many steps. i just sat there. and listened to radio till 8.45am. before i walked into the library area. yang reached very soon after i step into the library. and we waited for the librarian to bring us around. :)

the librarian, NABILA, brought us round the entire LEE KONG CHIAN REFERENCE LIBRARY. :) its BIG & RESOURCEFUL! :) a lot of things there to use luh! and its a really great place for research and stuff. especially for pw. its the best place to ever be at man! too bad. =x we didnt go there to do our pw. =x but well. for future uses/researches/whatsoever. that place is a GREAT place. :)

then we are brought to the offices. where there is this REFERENCE POINT. its an area where provides sms enquiry. people will message in their enquiries. and the respective person in charge of the refernce point at that time will look up the answers. and message them back through the computer. COOL RIGHT? =p i dont even know there's such a service luh! haha. =p here. we are taught to look up the answers to people's questions. and how to send the answers to them. :) we stayed there till noon. and OFF WE GO! :) for our LUNCH BREAK! ;) and lunch break is 1 HOUR & HALF! never had such a LONGGGGGGG lunch break since school start can? HAHA! =p

had lunch at MOS BURGER. :) unagi rice burger. :) *yumms!* after lunch is SHOPPING! :) :) :) i miss shopping please! =x bought a few cards. and browse around with yang. :) back at NLB. since its still early. me & yang look around at those push-cart stalls. and guess who i saw! KAREN TOH TOH! :) :) :) she called out to me when i happened to stop at her stall. :) :) :) I MISS HER PLEASE! and its so nice to see her again. :) chatted with her for awhile. and im glad that she's ok now. :) I MISS YOU DARLING! :)

second part of the programme at NLB is to be attached to one of the level of the library. :) i was attached to level 7. the area filled with resources for social sciences & humanities. :) didnt do much except that MDM LIM-ONG & IVY taught me quite some stuffs. :) the rest of the time. i just sit at the counter. and see how they deal with different people. :) something caught my eye the moment i sit doen. :) they have this "CS TIPS" at the table wall area. and their first step for the tips is "SMILE!" with a BIG BIG SMILEY FACE in front. :) the moment i see that smiley face. i smile already luh! dont even need to see the word "SMILE". haha! =p but thats a really great face to make people smile. :) :) :)

oh oh oh! i was asked to help out to look for misplaced/traced books. :) mdm lim-ong sees that im bored sitting around. she asked me to help her. :) and its quite fun actually. going around the shelves and shelves of books to look for missing books. HAHA! =p by the time i finish looking for them. its already 4pm! haha. =p my attachment ends at 5pm. =p continues sitting around till 5. :) and go home! :)

went home by myself today. :) these few days. IM INDEPENDENT! :) :) :) *kudos*

yes yes! i saw JULIE SWEETIE & ISKANDAR on monday. :) when im waiting for bus 142 to come. they were on bus 985. :) *waves* i really miss having management lessons with them. and pe as well. :) i miss those good old bartley days...

mr azlan is leaving MI. :( he's transferred to ping yi sec. well. im sad that he's leaving. another familiar face GONE. =x

ake tomorrow! WOOHA! :) i miss them already. :)

and i miss you too! :) *oops*

9:32 PM