; AN UN-OPENED HEART ;

Monday, July 31, 2006Y

ive learnt something.
in this world.
when you are feeling down.
no one in this world will
ever pity you.
except for yourself.
its not that ive finally
learnt it.
but finally concluded.
everyone in this world is
biased and never fair.
so we just have to live
with it.
and stay strong.
not for anyone.
but ourselves.
ive to be strong.
for the sake of myself.

not in the mood of saying
anything today.
just that schools fine.

dont bother about me.
let me continue to hide
myself.
i dont need any concern.
just.
stay away.
unless you are my superman.
thanks.

*[all the more.i miss your presence.]*

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6:25 PM

Sunday, July 30, 2006Y

i hearts tomato flavoured
twistees. (:
they are sour and spicy at
one go.
hahas! (:
HEARTS HEARTS!
there seems to be something
wrong with my computer.
internet and the burner.
RAHS.
its time i send it to the
hospital for a thorough
check up.
but i need to do my pw!
so cannot send as yet. ):
mama say.
until i end my pw.
sighs. =/
completed my EoM.
finally ive rounded it up.
and i cant wait to hand it
in tml.
and get over and done with it.
hahas! =p
it seems to be a LONG
process.
so long that im getting tired
of it already. =x
mr pows choir concert is
cancelled.
no no.
not that hes not singing.
but theres no more tickets
for us to go and watch.
HIS CONCERT IS SELLING
HOT LUHS!
moreover.
its his last concert.
too bad then!
last night watched your last
episode of "save the last dance
for me" on vcd.
damn nice.
damn touching.
the show is a BEST. (:
worth watching it people!
was thinking of changing my
blog skin earlier.
but theres no nice nice one for
me to choose from.
and i want to have a very
personalised one.
with the things i want and all.
hahas. =p
but have to wait till promos
are over.
then get people to teach me.
(:
gp test tml.
got to SCORE.
hahas.
at least.
do better than usual ahs. (:
ALL THE WAY!

*[i want you to be around.]*

7:04 PM

Saturday, July 29, 2006Y

its more like a parents
afternoon i guess.
lols. =p
nothing much.
teachers all say that
im a good girl in school.
hahas!
and mama was like
"sure?"
hahas.=p
mdm siti is coming STRONG
and powerful.
hahas.
she wants me to get a B
for my promos. =x
and mrs wong say im doing
and progressing well. (:
and i can get into arts and
social science if i continue
to work hard. (:
yays!
lalalas.
shall continue to progress!
*claps*
im sooo proud of myself today.
hahas!
i completed my FIRST EVER
CROSS COUNTRY RUN/WALK
in my ENTIRE LIFE.
hahas!
PSS got hold cross country
before.
but im always on duty.
and never get the chance to
run/walk.
hahas! =p
and WOOHOOS!
had a great time walking through
the jungle and along the road. (:
especially when i did the walk
with my dearest 7B+T^2. (;
completed the whole thing.
and.....
GARNET CAME IN FIRST.
hahas.
and syaqir came in top for the
competitive boys' team.
WELL DONE SYAQIR! (;
went for lunch with 7B+T^2.
at pastamania over at J8. (:
had fun luhs in total.
hahas! (;
going to have dinner at some
seafood restaurant later.
yipees!
seafood.
im craving for BLACK PEPPER
CRAB! =p
but but.
im having a MASSIVE headache.
sighs.
dunnoe why suddenly so achy.
my whole head seems to be
bursting like mad.
and i napped for TWO full hours
just now.
and im still feeling horrible. =x
EoM is onto the fourth draft.
and mrs wong says that im almost
done for it!
hahas. (:
im super dee duper happy!
hahas. =p

*[i want to see you run. ): ]*

6:09 PM

Thursday, July 27, 2006Y

listen or not.
up to you.
i dont care.
AND WHATEVER!

school was alrights.
pretty tired after last night.
trying to RUSH out my dear
mr EoM.
then did mgt research and
chinese homework.
and OOOO.
i forget to bring my chinese
homework and photocopy the
mgt notes i promise my group
members.
hahas.
im SELENGE! =p
did a little presentation for
pw today.
okes lahs.
went on fine.
got released from maths class
earlier today.
cos we were only expected to
do up the entire DIY1.
so yupps!
finish chop chop.
and go home home. (;
piano lesson tonight.
YES!
on a thursday night.
and daddy is going to thailand
tml morning.
to get some things done.
so so.
yupps!
might be arriving in school
later than usual.
BUT IM GOING!
hahas. =p
got to finish up homework.
at least.
something before i go for piano
lessons.
AND UH OH!
got to do AURAL and SCALES
TODAY! =x
im so dead. =p
hahas. =p

i miss you even more when im
unhappy in school.
i need you around. ):

*[you are my pillar of support.]*

5:50 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006Y

friends make up a big part of
our lives. (:
well.
at least to me.
they do. (:
good friends stay by you.
and never leave.
no matter what.
they are there. (:
long lost friends who care are
those who are by you when you
really really need them to be.
thats friends. (:

SONG OF THE DAY :
YI GE XIANG XIA TIAN YI GE XIANG QIU TIAN
[FAN WEI QI]

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天
一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后
生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你
我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你
我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意
我的有口无心
我离不开darling
更离不开你

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后
生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你
我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你
我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意
我的有口无心
我离不开darling
更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形

你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

如果不是你
我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌
地就算我忙恋爱
把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我
只是骂我几句

如果不是你
我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意
我的有口无心
我离不开darling
更离不开你

-END-

*[you are my prince.my superman. (: ]*

9:37 PM

ooo.
im falling in love with BUBBLE
TEA!
hahas. =p
and i simply hearts PEARL
MILK TEA.
woots!
my top favourite!
hahas. =p
ake ended pretty early today.
so got to come home earlier.
hahas!
went to collect mgt books for
ben and cj.
so on the way went to buy
my dearest PEARL MILK TEA!
hahas. =p
pe was cool today.
had free games.
and me,wendy and yang went
to the fitness corner to play
BADMINTON.
yes.
badminton at the fitness corner.
with the wind blowing our
shuttlecocks all over the place.
lols. =p
lessons were alrights.
just that HTP was alittle boring
today.
hahas. =p
cos we did NE lesson.
and 05B4 came to join our class.
and we almost tore the roof down.
hahas! =p
we really made a DIN. (;
went for ake after that.
the bus was LATE.
really really LATE! =x
and while waiting for ben.
went to look at the EXAM MATTERS
BOARD. (:
im super dee duper happy.
because....
IM IN THE TOP 10% OF MI for
mid years! (:
and and.
i top chinese A.
finally.
my name is back there.
and ive squeezed my way to the
top 10% of the cohort. (:
im really very very happy.
im not being proud or boasting
my way through.
but im really very very happy.
really. (:
my hard work paid off.
and im getting my results.
*APPLAUSE*
hahas. =p
friday is parents meet.
hmmms. (:
not going for ake this friday.
might not make it on time for
parents meet if i go for ake.
and im sooo gonna miss ake. (:

i hope.
to share my joy.
with you.
and you to be there.
to share it with me. (:

*[reaped what i sow. (; ]*

7:16 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006Y

i dont have the urge to go
to school today.
i dunnoe why.
but i still had a fun day in
schoo.
i think i did have.
but in fact.
no i didnt.

back to a schooling monday.
and i think im suffering from
severe monday blues. ):
i keep looking out of the class
windows.
hoping to see someone walk
past.
and flash me a smile. (:
but no one came.
and no one was there.
i miss you.
i miss seeing you around. ):
school ended early today.
1.30!
hahas. =p
cause mrs wong is not in school
today.
shes not feeling well.
so so.
we ended school super early.
and im sooo excited.
the moment the school bell rang.
i pack my bag already.
hahas!
ive never had such a shiok day
before luhs! =p
and i kept looking forward to 1.30.
hahas! =p
after that.
went shopping at heartland mall
and hougang mall with mama. (:
bought new pencil case!
hahas.
and its GREEN!
woots. (;
bought magnets and two new
pens.
ooo.
they are so OOOO gelly. (:
and i had a great great choco
milkshake from macs too!
hahas.
simply hearts that choco milkshake
loads loads.
<3<3
'mr fighting' is on scv now.
and it will be showed on channel
u starting on thurs.
oooo. (:
its showing the saddest part of
all now on scv.
hmmms.
watched it before already.
i mean.
this particular episode.
and and.
cai hua will be lending me her
'green forest, my home'.
nyehehs!
im feeling god thirsty now.
hurhurs.
got to go get something to drink.
lalalalas. (:

i cant stop myself.
im sorry.

*[loads of misses.truckloads of it.]*

7:31 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006Y

cai hua suggested that we play
badminton tml.
suddenly think of the times i
played badminton with you.
sighs sighs sighs.
when can i still play with you?
i really miss the times. ):

*[heart pain again.]*

10:16 PM

bbq yesterday was a great
deal of fun and mess. (:
when 7B+T^2 gets together.
it means = BUSINESS,MESS
and loads of FUN!
hahas. =p
started off my day with piano
lesson. (:
two hours of sitting down.
and banging on the keys
hurt my butt. =x
then on my way home.
ben messaged me.
ask me if im in town.
getting ediths prezzie.
and i replied NO!
hahas. =p
then we arranged to meet
together with yi chuang at
town to get the present. (:
while junlong,sera and cj
are busy making cookies,
brownies,muffins and everything. (:
bought part of the present already.
then ben got to go for his
rehersal. (:
and his rehersal is at....
STARBUCKS!
hahas.
sitting there.
and singing away.
lols. =p
me and yi chuang finish buying the
presents.
then off we go.
to meet sera they all.
at the library.
cos stupid snake need to return
books.
HURHURS. =p
ate the cookies they make.
me and yc are DAMN HUNGRY!
hahas.
and soon.
we gobbled up one bottle of
the COOKIES.
hahas.
nice nice. (;
met ben.
and OFF WE GO!
hahas.
we had a great time squeezing
on the train.
and i feel as if im going to fall
off anytime soon.
lols. =p
cos its super dee duper SQUEEZY!
after that.
changed train to go over to pasir
ris and meet edith. (:
we even trick her that we are not
going to go.
cos all of us cant make it.
hahas!
in the end.
she was surprised to see us there.
and of course.
a great time trashing us.
hahas! =p
ate dinner.
and talk and joke.
and we had a great time with
WHIPPED CREAM!
they played a prank on edith arhs.
and yc was the first to kena.
then the rest except me and cj.
and they start to target me. =x
and its horrible.
im in BENs SHOES.
and hes in my slippers.
*we exchanged our footwear*
and i cant run.
cos the shoes are big.
hahas!
and i got smack on the head.
face.
and shirt and everywhere!
and i smell like cream. (:
it smell okes at first.
but worst at the end.
smelly!
hahas. =p
and i smell horrible while im on
my way to the toilet to wash up.
and to auntie yue' ers house.
hahas!
luckily nice nice auntie yue er
ask me to wash up a little.
but i still smell of whipped cream.
and while im waiting for my turn
to get a really nice shower.
im still smelling like cream. =x
im so creamy!
*like how i told yc*
hahas.
but overall.
we had loads of fun. (:
and shopping was like a haven
to me and yc yesterday.
yc bought her moo moo and meh meh
shoes. (:
too bad i got no intention on
getting them.
but they are real cool!
i bought a pair of slippers which ive
been eyeing for VERY VERY LONG.
and i finally got it.
i still havent buy the pair of heels that
cai hua saw the other day.
should have bought it then.
its like so nice.
and i regret not buying then.
lols. =p
and me and yc made a deal.
we shall go shopping together when
new year draws near!
hahas. =p
and get new clothes.
shoes.
bag and everything!
YAYS!
i hearts my 7B+T^2.
yayness! (:

my heart danced.
my heart melts.
all because.
of you. (:

*[happiness in progress.]*

4:14 PM

Friday, July 21, 2006Y

its daddy low's last day in
school today. ):
yes!
my daddy is LEAVING school! ):
he was "treated" with water and
balls today.
AND IM A GOOD GIRL.
i didnt do anything.
hahas! =p
we took photos with him too! (:

yeahs.
those are the photos. (:
im so gonna miss my daddy luhs!
):

pe was a great session today.
daddy played with us.
and we got all HIGH!
hahas. =p
its really fun.
and and.
we had our celebration for racial
harmony today.
many people wore their ethnic
costumes. (:
bringing colours to the whole school.
and the performances were good!
had our bit of fun.
ate in the canteen.
and off we go to ttc for ake. (:
taught the pandan primary school kids
to play on the kulintangs today. (:
fun luhs!
especially my fast learning mentee.
JOEY!
shes cute. (:
and sera and grace say she looks like
my sister.
as in.
shes my sister.
hahas! =p
and the other joey is also sweet!
she come into the room.
and start waving and smiling to
everyone!
hahas. =p
cute aights? (;
and hendra and fahmi are a great
mix today. (:
had a great deal of fun playing and
joking around with them.
and OOOOO.
im playing the angklungs for
ACCIDENTALLY IN LOVE!
hahas.
so cool! =p
bbq over at pasir ris tml. (:
yays!
with 7B + T^2.
WOOTS! (:
i hearts today.
to the core.
it will be the most memorable
and sweet day of all. (:

I LOVE YOU.
(:

*[i had a great time. (: ]*

7:58 PM

Thursday, July 20, 2006Y

i had a dream last night.
a really nice dream.
but dreams are always never
true.
and i know.
this dream of mine will never
ever be true.
but its still nice to have such
a sweet dream. (:

got back my mids papers today.
ALL of them.
got disappointment.
got happiness. (:
management paper 2 = 30.
total marks for mgt = 53.4.
A MARK IMPROVEMENT!
hahas.
from a F to a D.
good job shir! (:
econs is a total disappointment.
and im damn sad over it.
paper 1 = 14.
paper 2 = 14!
paper 3 = 36.5.
the best paper done is paper 3.
and im so near to a pass in
the essay paper.
and i know im a great
disappointment for that.
i never expect my results to be
so bad.
and i should have seen it coming.
i shouldnt have chosen qn 2 for
essay and should have chosen
qn 3 instead.
maybe.
i might score better. ):
but its over.
take it as a lesson to be taken.
and i will do better the next time
round. (:
maths.
its the second best success. (:
91.
hahas.
not concerned if i top the class
or not.
but i just know that i did my
very very best.
and ive reaped all that i sow.
and YES!
ive done well for my papers.
and its time to celebrate a little. (:
i understand and know that.
the maximum efforts i put in for my
mids this time round.
ive reaped everything back. (:
WELL DONE SHIR! (:
pw was alrights.
handed in my second draft for my
EoM.
and we did our contents page for
our WR. (:
glad that we are progressing well.
and ALL THE WAY! (:
counted just now.
if i want to have a nicer result slip
at the end of 2006.
i have 9 WEEKS to make a difference.
and a greater difference. (:
yes.
its now proven that i can do it.
i just need time.
more effort.
and confidence. (:
come on GO GO GO!
i can do it.
i sure can! (:

why on earth am i so careless?
to let you enter my dream?
i really dreamt of you.
and i saw you today.
but you didnt catch me i guess.
im disappointed.
but im still happy.
you are still around.
for me to catch. (:
at least.
i can still catch you.
although not the other way.
but im really happy enough. (:

*[enter and dont leave. (: ]*

6:19 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006Y

its polling day holiday for
MI today. (:
so yupps yupps!
no school. (;
and tml.
when im back to school tml.
not only is my EoM due.
my death date is also drawing
nearer.
getting back all our papers tml.
and i shall look at the type of
certificate that im going
to receive.
good luck to me!
even if theres a dozen of lucks.
it might be too late already.
no no.
not that i dont appreciate.
its because.
all is over.
shall keep the lucks for my
promos then! (;
met CJ this morning.
to pass her the ake tee design.
so that she can pass it to
sera dear. (:
because of the SOTONG me.
i actually forget to bring it
to school yesterday as i promised
sera i would. =x
and yes.
i forget all about it.
and ive to wake up early to meet
cj.
only myself to blame.
while waiting for CJ.
saw this really familiar looking guy
going down the escalator.
and i still thought i see wrongly.
until i see the back view.
and the way that person walk.
i know im correct.
TEO TEE WEI.
hahas! =p
and i confirmed its him after a sms.
and he start searching.
while i stand there.
laughing.
hahas!
he look so damn sleepy.
and we start to converse.
yes.
one upstairs.
one downstairs.
hahas!
and when his train is here.
he rushed me to go home.
"ahhh go back home go back home.
faster go home."
and yes.
I NEED TO WAKE UP SOOO EARLY
TO PASS THINGS TO MY FRIEND.
ALL THANKS TO MY CARELESSNESS.
hahas. (x
after that.
went home.
and saw mamas car.
she just came back from market.
did a really interesting thing today.
having lunch on the car.
by the bus stop.
hahas! (:
nice experience hurs.
but its fun. (;
after that.
went hougang mall.
got my handphone a pouch.
WHEES!
now im back here.
staring at the computer screen.
my brain working hard on squeezing
juices for my EoM.
and im waiting for yang to send me
her article.
IM STILL WAITING.
long day at school tml.
can we have another day of holiday?
i guess i badly need it.
cos i need to SLEEP!
hahas. =p
im just being a PIG.
nyhehs!
<3

paper castles.
printed dreams.
you are my the castle.
and the dream. (:

*[PW IS HORRIBLE! =x ]*

4:14 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006Y

im in a damn good mood now. (:
and i mean it.
not because of other people.
but because of MYSELF. (:
im soooooo happy luhs!
hahas. =p
i scored 57 for my mgt paper
one! (:
highest in class.
YAYNESS!
but...
theres still paper 2.
hope it aint that bad.
bad till it pull down my entire
paper's results luhs.
still having that hope. (;
and chinese?
its quite a disappointment for
my compo.
got only 22.
and its all thanks to my character's
characteristics.
i cant come to a perfect one.
and im blurring the marker's view
about the character.
and TADAH!
lose my marks for that. ):
but language paper.
is something im happy about.
didnt pass is gracefully or whatever.
but HEYS!
I FINALLY PASS LUHS! (:
29.5.
not a FANTASTIC grade.
but its a mark improvement. (;
thats more than sufficient to cheer
for aights?
more improvements will come!
i promise!
and mdm siti say my papers are getting
more "meaty".
and yes!
hahas.
im happy that im doing okes.
and progressing well. (;
listening today was okes.
but im scared i think too much.
hahas! =p
and mr raj wished me luck before
the papers start. (:
THANK YOU MR RAJ!
oh oh.
and theres poor mr enos koh ming zhi.
he sprain his ankle while playing...
FRISBEE!
yes!
FRISBEE!
not RUGBY!
he is a RUGGER.
but he sprained his ankle not because
of rugby.
but because of FRISBEE! =x
and that poor boy.
got his left ankles bone poking out.
and i still think that its very amazing.
and im damn amused by that bone
protruding out.
hahas! =p
and im like his nurse.
ask him to call me when hes ready to
head to the function room for his
listening exam.
he practically screamed for me luhs!
and thank goodness.
our class is just beside one anothers.
if not the whole school will know that
this poor boy shouted for me. =p
poor thing lahs he.
and can tell he's in pain.
really in pain.
TAKE CARE BOY!
and yes.
see a doctor okes enos boy! (;
tuition tonight.
seems soooo relaxed luhs.
maybe can touch my dearie piano
alittle afterwards.
been weeks since i last touched it.
and MY EXAM IS ON THE 17TH OF
AUGUST!
oh great.
and im soooo not prepared.
good luck to me please! (:
RHD is this friday.
encouraged to put on ethnic costumes.
but im not going to wear anything.
ake after school.
imagine me wearing something so
fanciful for ake.
wahs! =x
alrighty.
got to BANG BANG BANG on my
EoM!
i dont want it to get NOWHERE.
cos i know its getting somewhere. (:
and im happy that it is getting somewhere.
at least.
i know it is. (:
ALL THE WAY SHIR! (;
life is smooth for me so far.
hope econs dont screw everything
up for me yahs?
*snickers*

you are my SUPERMAN! (:

*[stop being so striking.]*

4:41 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006Y

ooo.
got back my FIRST mye
paper so far. (:
my chinese lit paper.
70/100.
WOOTS! (:
happy that my effort for
chinese lit is paid off.
and im back to the normal
self.
trying my best to score for
chinese lit. (:
im determined to get back
up there on the board.
im not greedy.
its just my wish whilst im
still in MI. (:
i just want to remain there.
and not go away.
not greedy.
really.
mr raj make it sounds like our
econs is a great BUANG.
but i also not sure.
must wait till i see the paper
for myself.
so what if its BUANG.
mama say its over and done
with.
and i just have to learn from
my own mistakes.
i sure will.
but ive studied so damn hard
for my papers this time round.
and if i dont score.
i will really be very very depressed.
and i will be damn disappointed
in myself luhs! ):
whatever it is.
im going to start BANGING on
my promos NOW.
playing time is over.
and time for me to really carry on
with studying.
and all the way for my promos.
i just want to pass my promos.
get promoted to year three
peacefully and rightfully.
and go for my FIRST SYF performance
in my entire life.
and get that GOLD WITH HONOURS
WITH TEAM AKE @ MI.
get that A levels cert thats beautiful.
get into that university that i want
to go in so badly.
and carry on with whatever i want
to do. (:
im so gonna do it.
ALL THE WAY SHIR! (;

saw you at the canteen.
during recess.
you are smiling. (:
finally.
that smile is BACK.
i love and miss it. (:

*[i miss and love it.i really do.]*

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