Monday, January 29, 2007Y
im feeling very confused between PERMUTATIONS & PROBABILITY. because of these two chapters. i think its difficult to cope. ): ive never felt like this before. or is it that the common test is so near. and im unable to take the stress? im feeling scared and stressed. i feel as if i cant cope and difficult to breathe when i really get tense. is it the stress that im feeling? or is there something wrong with me?i feel sick for the entire of today. i cant stand the sick feeling during econs and have to msg sunshine. i dont know why him. but i just msg him. ): RAHS!just let me strive through the next 11 days. and i can have my CNY break.
Sunday, January 28, 2007Y
FTT practice is quite fun. its like. you log in. and do until you feel like stopping. HAHA! =p cool right? (; i cant wait to pass my FTT. i want to book my practical test date. was at the kiosk just now. and i realise. the EARLIEST practical test date is...11TH JULY 2007! =x thats like damn FAR away can? =x RAHS.im happy with myself. (: driving today was absolutely great. (: just that i knocked down one pole when i started off with parallel parking. =x but after that. the rest was OK! (: (: (: and im happy because...IM FINISHING MY CLA LIT REVISION! wooties! (; im left with one and a half more poems. and YES! FINISHED! (;gp lecture tml morning. and there's still LTT. =x ake is on for wed. but off for friday. in preparation for our CT. and ake will continue to take its OFFs will our CT week is over. thats like THREE AKE SESSIONS GONE! =x im sure to miss ake like crazy. =xim more or less done with my guest list. (: im satisfied with it. YAY! im excited for CNY. nyehehs. wait till the CTs are over. CNY MOOD WILL BE LIFTED UP! by me! (;
Saturday, January 27, 2007Y
holding hands can bring you warmth. (: trust me. it does. (: when i was under the cold sea water. a hand held me. and i feel the warmth from that hand to mine. (: but thats so long ago. the feeling has faded as time pass. but at least. the memory didnt fade. (: and im feeling good, carefree and happy now. (:小手拉大手 还记得那场音乐会的烟火还记得那个凉凉的深秋还记得人潮把你推向了我游乐园拥挤的正是时候一个夜晚坚持不睡的等候一起泡温泉奢侈的享受有一次日记里愚蠢的困惑因为你的微笑幻化成风你大大的勇敢保护着我我小小的关怀喋喋不休感谢我们一起走了那么久又再一次回到凉凉深秋给你我的手像温柔野兽把自由交给草原的辽阔我们小手拉大手一起交游今天别想太多你是我的梦像北方的风却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁我们小手拉大手今天加油向昨天挥挥手
还记得那场音乐会的烟火
还记得那个凉凉的深秋
还记得人潮把你推向了我
游乐园拥挤的正是时候一个夜晚坚持不睡的等候
一起泡温泉奢侈的享受
有一次日记里愚蠢的困惑
因为你的微笑幻化成风你大大的勇敢保护着我
我小小的关怀喋喋不休
感谢我们一起走了那么久
又再一起回到凉凉深秋
给你我的手
像温柔野兽
我们一直就这样向前走
我们小手拉大手
一起交游
今天别想太多
你是我的梦
像北方的风
却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁
我们小手拉大手
今天加油向昨天挥挥手lalala...lalalalala...给你我的手像温柔野兽我们一直就这样向前走我们小手拉大手一起交游今天别想太多oh la la la la...像北方的风却正能帮我悠扬的哀愁我们小手拉大手今天加油向昨天挥挥手我们小手拉大手今天为我加油舍不得挥挥手-END-studying for my cla lit. =x and the story 买卖 got like loads of things to remember. and im trying my best to really store as much of the things i can into my coconut. =p I CAN DO IT! (;
Friday, January 26, 2007Y
ok. i JUST got home. (: ake ended at like 5.30. and i reach home at like 8pm. while my dearest edith, cuijun, sera & junlong are ON THEIR WAY HOME. =x its super long right? the other ake-ians must have reached home. showered and finish DINNER. im just starting on mine. and the other four are JUST reaching home. =x the jam on the expressway is HORRIBLE/TERRIBLE/WHATEVER-BLE you can name. its not the first time that it jams on a FRIDAY. but it JAMS EVERY FRIDAY. so mama say. I HAVE TO GO HOME MYSELF ON EVERY FRIDAY AFTER AKE. (: (: (: im fine with it. cos i know ive got FIVE GREAT FRIENDS who will be willing to take the same bus as me. and i will have company throughout my entire 66 bus journey. (; thats why i say i LOVE their company to BITS & PIECES. (;the bird call makes me get headaches. =x as usual. ake is nothing but FUN! (: but that bird call is really making me giddy. i think im going to DREAM of those running notes tonight. tomorrow night. maybe EVERY NIGHT. =x me, nilam & grace are having a hard time trying to catch those running notes. sometimes we can. sometimes we cant. its just so difficult. =x but i know we can get it right. just that we need to devote TONS OF TIME onto those notes. LET US GET IT PLEASE!school's ok. and the week has ended AGAIN. thats fast. and with a BLINK. common test is coming in 10 DAYS. and CNY IS COMING IN 15 DAYS! yayness! haha. =p i cant wait for cny. especially the second day. where people FLOOD my place. at every single corner of my place. i hear. TALKS & ENDLESS LAUGHTERS. i cant wait. (: i miss the mood. i miss the atmosphere. (: i miss everything about cny. (: (: (:oh. i started my morning RIGHT. =x and i realise. ive got THREE WONDERFUL BUDDIES. who are willing to spend time composing songs & love letter for me. (: im so grateful & touched that i will "walk away" from them. HAHA! =p they are my THREE CRAZY FRIENDS. (;
Wednesday, January 24, 2007Y
I NEVER DROP HAIR! I NEVER DROP LIGHT BROWN HAIR! =x hendra love CLAIMS that i DROP hair. =x he's a person who can make me go CRAZY! and i really mean CRAZY! haha. =p alright. today's duty was fun. (: cos i LAUGH alot. and PLAY alot. HEHS! =p i think im mad. really mad. HAHA! i can forsee more and more fun-filled days especially when there's THIS FELLA who entertain me A LOT. (: YAY! i love him. <3ake was great! (: in between a thing or two sort of dampen our mood. but we believe that things will get better. (: BUT! there's ONE thing that will NEVER get any better. =x WHY THE HELL MUST HE COME AND ASK ME TO TELL BEN THAT HE'S GOING OFF? omg. i cannot stand him ANYMORE! rahs! someone SAVE me from this. i think one day i might just dig a hole on the ground of HARMONIS. sneak in and NEVER APPEAR AGAIN! =x RAHS! its either HE go. or I go! =x RAH RAH RAH! =xthe SYF piece is TOUGH! this time round. its NOT the RUNNING NOTES. its... the... BIRD CALL! man. i think me & grace need to go TALK to the BIRDS. in order to GRASP their COMMUNICATION SKILLS! =x oops. HAHA! =p but its still fun trying to catch the tempo and notes. HAHA! =pake duty is good. THANK YOU to ALL SAYANGs who came down to do their duty faithfully. (: although the SWEEP-ER keep disturbing me and sweeping my leg. but overall. today they did a WONDERFUL job. (: THANK YOU AGAIN & WELL DONE! (: LOVELOVE. <3<3schools alright. econs is sort of getting back on track cos of my "secret weapon". (: im happy for that. management has always been A LOT easier than econs. so no worries about that. (; CLA lit's memo work has started last night. a lot to remember but I CAN DO IT! (: and im gonna do it. (;
Sunday, January 21, 2007Y
just came back from "last minute" cny clothings shopping. HAHA. =p went to hougang mall's YORK BOUTIQUE to get my clothes. and i realise that MOST of my clothes for this year are RED in colour! wahaha. =p im going to dress myself up like a BIG BIG ANG BAO. =p yadayada! got MOST of my clothes already. left some bottoms and one white top that im STILL searching for. NYEHEHS! =pim trying to CHURN OUT my set of guests list for cny. so that i can give mama and she can get ready the amount of food to order. and my list just got LONGER AND LONGER AND LONGER. =xim feeling sinful like caihua now. =x over the weekends. i havent really study luh! and common test is like TWO WEEKS only from now. =x RAHS. i feel guilty for not studying. but i DID study for econs. but i DONT UNDERSTAND! =x its like super horrible luh! i've never ever had such a feelings for econs before. SOMEONE HELP ME! =x the engine for common test got to start tomorrow no matter what. DIE ALSO HAVE TO! =x driving was COOL today! (; i did parallel parking. and WOOHOOS! i almost clear this subject. after tomorrow. i think i can clear subject 30 as well? but DAMN. i cant book for practical test yet! =x my stupid FTT havent pass luh! better let me pass. cos today i saw the nearest practical test date. 2ND JULY!!!! thats like ok. after my mid years. BUT SO NEAR MY PRELIMS! let me pass PLEASE..... =x i need to pass this FTT like DIE DIE ALSO NEED. =x i want my liscence. i want it before As. =x
Saturday, January 20, 2007Y
had ake today. (: not really counted as a practice. but more towards a performing day. (: YUP! ake performed for the PAE parents' meet. (: we did GREAT! (: KUDOS TO AKE! (: (: (:
went to school with junlong. as in. he followed my parents' car. (: before that. daddy allow me to drive the car out of our house. (; and he made me turn right to the road end. then did directional change and back to outside our house. (; its damn cool can? haha! and i enjoyed myself like nobody's business. =p its really fun. and because of that. we delayed the time to leave home to get breakfast. =p while daddy is waiting for the traffic lights. we saw junlong waiting at the taxi stand already. HAHA! =p got breakfast for the two of us. picked junlong up. and OFF WE GO TO SCHOOL! (:
just as we were about to alight. we saw TWO DEARIES. (: my darling sunshine & nina. (: went up to HARMONIS. and had our breakfast outside while waiting for the key. people streamed in. oh! i think MIAKE-ians LOVE MCDONALDs BREAKFAST! ALMOST EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US CAME WITH MCDONALDs BREAKFAST. (: (: (: we support macdonalds. (; even when jannah babat and the rest place order for breakfast. its ALSO MCDONALDs! (: see! we LOVE mcdonalds. =p
nani mopped the floor. really quickly. soon we can all go in to practice. (: OH YES! when we were all having breakfast and talking to mr pow. mr tan came over to talk to us. (: and he ask if he could join us. HEHS! =p of course we say CAN! (: haha. after breakfast. we all practice till mr pow ask us to shift our instruments down. not easy luh! marimba, xylophone & big angklungs cant fit into the lift. so got to be "rolled" downstairs by the FAR AWAY SLOPE. our actions are counted FAST. (;
while waiting for our turn to perform. i start to CAM-WHORE in HARMONIS. hehs. =p i took photos with ALMOST EVERYONE in the ake room. (; you can practically see me "crawling" here and there. "kneeling" here and there. haha! by the time i decide to stop. im tired. and my socks are dirty. =x cam-whoring is as fun as usual! and I LOVE CAM-WHORING. especially with PEOPLE I LOVE! (;
performing time was of course the HIGHLIGHT for today. we played more than we were expected to. and we received thumbs up, cheers, claps and thanks. (: many people told me we did GREAT! like MR TAN (my HT), MR AZLAN, MR RAJ, my CLA LIT TEACHER CHEN LAO SHI and MR TAN (our principal). ms lim & mr pow too said that we were good! cos we SMILED! yay! (: (: (: (: OOOOHHHHH! and i saw MOTIVATION! wahaha. =p
after we finish performing. we had our turn to refresh. (: FOOD! (: you can see all of us sitting by the steps eating & talking. all having fun and time for ourselves. (: debriefed and OFF WE GO HOME! (;
oh yes! my jasmine gf got jealous today. HAHA! cos i was talking to hendra love. she came and ask "WHY YOU TWO STAND SO CLOSE?" haha! and we two purposely stood CLOSER to "anger" her. HEHS! =p its fun ok? (:
time for BIG THANK YOUs! (;
thank you SERA DARLING for waiting with me for my mama. (:
thank you HENDRA LOVE for making my day as usual. (: making me laugh and whatever. regardless of what. you just did made my day better. (: WELL DONE TODAY LOVE. (: you did GREAT. really. <3
thank you JASMINE GF for coming down to school early with me today to "supervise" the duty. (:
thank you SHERLYNN GF for bringing for me the keychains. which made me HIGH like crazy. (; and i show it around and continue to crazy over them. (:
thank you EDITH SISTER for making me "kneel" down for SO LONG just to take ONE photo. but the outcome was good. so still. THANK YOU! (;
thank you AKE for being a WONDERFUL BUNCH today. (:
thank you for all the THANK YOUs people gave that made us feel so great. (:
thank you DEARIES & DARLINGS who took photos with me today. (:
and still. THANK YOU EVERYONE! (: (: (:
some photos to SEE. the rest. ITS UNDER MY PHOTO ALBUM LINKS. (: feel free!
LOVES! <3
he's caught in action. =p
Friday, January 19, 2007Y
i feel my day today is filled with endless laughters. (: I LOVE TODAY! (: school's fine. cos pe isnt that bad. did the training for my FAILED 2.4. =x but its quite fun. and WE GOT MR SER! (: (: (: cant go for the re-test this coming monday. i got driving lesson lah. =x and i cant change it. so im down for LUNCH TIME! =x nvm. take as exercising. (:AKE IS OF COURSE THE BEST TODAY! (: although we didnt really do much. finish learning the 未了情. then after that we played through once of HAWAII 5 0. then thats all. although the ending of ake wasnt good. =x but the in between was great! (: haha. the part where i see tzekiat teaching sunshine & fahmi drums. and me telling ili about the "WAVE" joke. then me & jas troubling over how to make announcement. still got script ok? =p then when me & babat sayang joked about our game & things. when i see how poor thing my sunshine was when he went "missing" while playing the chinese song. then me making sure there are MORE rubbish inside the dustbin so that tuan kiak will have more rubbish to throw. HAHA! life in ake is just so damn fun. i dont wish and dont want to step down. i can step down from my position. but i dont want to leave ake. ): i cant bear to leave ake. ):oh yes. i think for this week right. ive been attracting the wrong attention. and always the wrong party. =x haha! but i think all these wrong attention are made my week even more fun-filled. HAHA! =p only those who are close to me will know! hehs! =pYAYNESS FOR SHER & SHER's BROTHER! (: sher just message me to tell me that her brother help me to collect my SONRIA PASTA KEY CHAIN! (: solely imported from TAIWAN! (: woohoos! finally! my keychains are here! and i get to see them TOMORROW! (: (: (: im sooooooooooo excited! hehs. =p LOVELOVE to SHER! (: and THANK YOU SHER's BROTHER! (:i want to watch "PHANTOM OF THE OPERA" musical!!!!! last night i went on to sistic to see the ticket price and seats availability. and the prices are SHOCKING-LY SHOCKING. i wanted to watch on my bday. and the price is like $160 for category A lah can? and when i tell my mama. she say its ok. but the $160 can buy me like TONS of things luh! i can get my long-awaited SHOE BAG/HEELS/THAT NIKE LIMITED EDITION BAG/NIKE MERGE LIFT/SWATCH WATCH/FOSSIL WATCH etc. see lah! thats why i say $160 is like HEAVEN to me. so im still deciding if i should go watch. BUT! even if i WANT. WHO WANTS TO GO WITH ME? i want to watch CAT A/B one. =x i know abit ex. but the best seats can let me get the best view ah. AND NOW! im HOPING SO HARD that AKE WILL GO WATCH THIS! cos ms lim say that we need to watch TWO musicals this year. and one is in the beginning of the year. SO I HOPE ITS "PHANTOM"! =x IF! ake's not going to watch. i will ask mama let me go. even if it means that i will go ALONE. =x thats how desperate i will go. =x RAHS!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007Y
got the following from karen's blog. and i think its very true. sometimes. if we let our hearts do the leading, listening and talking. we will feel very different. and we see things in a very different way. no matter how hard it is to love. we will all still wish to let go and love. (: i guess. thats the power of love. (:perhaps the best thing in life is being able to choose the one you love.and perhaps the worst is not being able to choose the one who will love you in return.people continue to love in spite of the pain, tears and heart break.because pain made them stronger.tears made them braver.and heart break makes them wiser.love isnt like a train that when you miss it.you can say."i will just catch the next one."if love is everything we think it is.then maybe it comes along only once.the spaces between our fingers were created so that another person's fingers could fill them in.if someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you.but for some reasons he couldnt stay.dont cry too much.just be glad that your paths crossed and somehow.he made you happy.even for a while.it hurts to fall in love with a friend.you keep hiding your feelings.avoiding as much as you can until you cry your heart out.all out of fear of losing a friend.and a love you never had.sometimes the love we are looking for is right in front of us.but too close for our eys to see.so close your eyes.and let your heart see for itself.(:love is kind. it really is. whether its the first or the last. or the in between. love with all your heart, mind and soul. (: you will really find it the most beautiful thing in the world. (:
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im sun-burnt. my face is alittle lobster looking. adding on alittle black. =x its like dark luh. not my usual face colour. HEHS! =p im alittle tanned! (; but i know it will go away like the wind. ): sad sad. when the As are over at the end of the year. i want to go for REAL TANNING. (: really go BAKE myself under the HOT HOT SUN! (; ok. thats going to be like MONTHS LATER. =x and january havent even pass ok? =x econs is getting nowhere for me. i dont understand more than HALF the topic learnt so far luh! and i feel damn dead. =x common test is like coming. and i still dont know the major topic that will be coming. GOOD LUCK TO ME MAN! ):house meeting today. and ONYX's new vice-captain is FAHMI DARLING! (: he got MY VOTE. along with TUAN KIAK's, VEERA's, HUDA's & SYAHIDAH's. (; GO GO FAHMI DEARIE! (: you can do it! (;ake self practice today. and i didnt go for it. felt very tired. and the aftermath after yesterday's 2.4 was BAD. =x my butt aches. hehs! =p so after going to popular with mama. walked one round to look at the boutiques. and off we go off to fetch my sis. back home. wanted to nap awhile. but got carried away fiddling with my notebook. HAHA! =p
Tuesday, January 16, 2007Y
hohoho. i failed the 2.4k today. HAHA! =p failed it by like 20 - 25 seconds. =x the first three rounds were great luh! completed them with less than 7 mins. but when i finish my fourth and going on to my fifth round. i suddenly feel difficulty in breathing. =x i have to breathe in real hard before i can get the breathing proper. =x then my last round i cannot tahan already. got to slow down alot and walk abit to regulate my breathing. =x so i failed it just like that. =x two months of not training is bad i tell you. but at least i didnt fail like last time when i come in at 18+ mins. HEHS! =pkiat said i would pass my 2.4. BUT I DIDNT LUH! ): sad sad. =xschool's alright. just that some stupid/dumb/funny things are happening to me. =p so...let things stay this way. and shirley will be a happy girl. (:yesterday morning was a great one. (: saw my sunshine. he made my day. (: of course. i never forget fahmi dearie. (: im seeing him EVERY SINGLE MORNING! (: (: (:no ake tml. *pouts* i so miss all my ake dearies & darlings. ):
Sunday, January 14, 2007Y
SHIRLEY PASS HER TRIAL TEST FOR FTT TODAY! (; if not counting those trial test that i took before today. I PASS IT WITH ONE CLEARANCE! (; goody goody. BUT my official test date is 10/02. =x its like damn long i know. the nearest date is 05/02. and thats my common test week. so have to arrange it after common test. better. (: and the 10th will be a SUPER BUSY DAY! (; im looking forward to it. (:
好朋友 - 罗志祥
[hao peng you : SHOW luo zhi xiang]像两首节拍不同的歌却又同时被爱情合奏旋律勉强着愉快不能够假装快乐你心中有宽阔的天空比空气还稀薄曾经以为等待会改变什么你总会属于我但是最后时间证明了你只喜欢我你说我比较像你的好朋友只是不小心拥抱着你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞如果爱情是五线谱我只希望用全音符吟唱出爱上你那完整的幸福当你的心没有耳朵即使我为你唱着歌你也只看见我哭了你说我比较像你的好朋友只是不小心拥抱着你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞曾经以为等待会改变什么你总会属于我但是最后时间证明了你只喜欢我你说我比较像你的好朋友只是不小心拥抱着你道歉你难过于是我给你笑容谁在乎我的心ho...还会不会寂寞你说我我是你最好的朋友却不应该再拥抱着你退缩你冷漠于是我放开双手不在乎我的心会永远的寂寞-END-
Saturday, January 13, 2007Y
dont ask me about my FTT. i failed it. i guess i can never pass the theory test without having to do it TWICE. =x trial test tml cos my trial period for the actual test has ended. =x RAHS. the questions aint really tough. more than half or rather. more than three-quarter of them i can do. ITS JUST THAT THEY ONLY ALLOW FOR 5 MISTAKES! =x till now. i still dont know which are the qns that i get wrong. =x RAHS.
tuition is satisfying today. the philosophy compre that i did for the second time after more than one year. I GOT 11/19! (; IM SUPER HAPPY! =p
thats all for today? ya. nothing much. LOVELOVE TO ALL! (: (: (:
Friday, January 12, 2007Y
my stomache hurts like crazy after ake can? when ake was about to end. when we are learning our last song. my cramps got like hell worst. and i think i nearly faint while waiting for my mama. =x its damn painful. so pain until i dont feel like talking and moving. =xpe today is a WOOHOO! (; we did our "favourite" 5BX. bartley-ians were familiar with it. so its not a tough thing to do. and i think we aint as tired. (: been long since we start our training huh! but i hope there's no "SNAKE & LADDER". the new campus also got A LOT of staircases. =x haha! =p oh yes. and that medicine ball. =x it better not appear. no 2.4k today. its like raining CATS & DOGS. MONKEYS WITH BANANAS. =pschool's fine too! cos there are only like TWO other lessons. maths & gp. oh yes! our school's canteen is going CASHLESS. we're using CASH CARDS to pay for our food. and we must top it up with NETS. so...today's lunch. i officially start to use my card. but the process to buy lunch was rather long and stupid. the man insist i try using my cash card. and i have to top up like immediately. i miss the queue for like three/four times before i get my food. =x and im already hungry and starving like crazy. i didnt eat anything since morning ok?! =xake was GREAT! (: saw my sunshine lovelove. (: and the smile on his face is so missed since wed. (: LOVELOVE! (: (: a group of japanese students came to watch us perform. i think they are amazed by how we play the instruments. and they wanted to try as well. they too took photos with some of us. like JAS GF, LEONG, TUANKIAK & TZE KIAT etc. there's this girl who's very pretty. HEHS! =p and when they take photos. they very auto-ly did the "TWEECE" sign. and we disturb kiat to do the same. HAHA! =pleong is damn funny today luh! he's like the person who bring MORE life to the ALREADY LIVEN-ED UP ake. haha! =p he sing and talk alot. and even go around helping people to massage their backs with the chimes mallets. nice right? he's a really nice company to have around. (: THANKS LEONG FOR JOINING US! (;FTT TML! i feel quite dead. i DID study. i GOT study. i HAVE to clear tml. I HAVE TO! =x lucks to me people. i will do my best.LOVELOVE TO ALL! (: especially my 7B+T^2, GFs, SISTERS, HENDRA LOVELOVE, & all my OTHER AKE DEARIES & DARLINGS. (: MUACKIES & HUGGIES! (;
Thursday, January 11, 2007Y
school's pretty ok. i finish another day in school. (: i understand things well. and i can catch up. but maybe i need more focus. =x alot alot more.this morning is a bad morning. ): i got a super BIG present and it made me cry my way to school. and also when im in the canteen after im dropped off. i just cant control my tears. told dino darling that im feeling very sick and tired of everything. yes. EVERYTHING. the things that i have to handle seems to not only be studies and cca alone. im feeling rather fed up already. and for goodness sake. look at the calendar. IM ONLY IN SCHOOL FOR LESS THAN 10 DAYS OK? =x i guess im really an EMOTIONAL MOUSE like how i drew my mouse during HTP yesterday. ):i want the rain to keep going. till tml morning's 10am. HEHS! cos tml doing 2.4km pre-test. and I HAVENT BEEN RUNNING FOR QUITE SOME TIME. =x rahs. so let the rain keep going! =prandom blogging aint working at all. =x and i miss all the people i love.就算全世界的人都看不起我，我也不会放弃。我会证明给全世界看，我可以。(:GO SHIRLEY GO!
Wednesday, January 10, 2007Y
im feeling like super guilty now. so guilty that my heart really aches. ): i shouted at sunshine love today. ): he did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG. all the fault lies in me. im the freaking hell one who shouted at him for practically no reason at all. ): he's like a super nice guy that i dont even bear to talk to him sternly. how the hell will i shout at him for zero reasons? when i shout. his face change! he has NEVER been like this before. and when i see that. my heart just sank. i know im wrong to shout already. i really know im not suppose to flare up at the wrong person. im not suppose to. my heart ache like crazy can?lunch time is when i start to feel super horrible. i cant even finish lunch. and after lunch. i feel as if im going to puke all that ive eaten. im so irritated on the inside and the "DEAR!" thing have to come. all the more irritated and pissed i got. and the anger rise all the way to the top that i would rather myself to just shut up. i shouted at sunshine BEFORE the stupid "DEAR!" thing. and luckily i shouted at no one else after that. i dont wish for myself to hurt any others after ive already did something so bad. ):i really really really didnt mean to shout. i know even though its not on purpose. i have to admit that im wrong to flare at the wrong person. and the wrong person happen to be him. ): ): ): im feeling very very guilty. my heart is aching like nobodys business. and nothing can lift my mood back up again. ): ): ):
Monday, January 08, 2007Y
today's SSDCL was like RAHRAHRAH! =x assessment for subject 2 today. and im already like so damn nervous. and the instructor made me even more nervous luh! =x i made like DAMN ALOT OF MISTAKES. my heart nearly stopped. =x and i think if today's the test day. i will FAIL with like ALL DEMERIT POINTS. =x RAHRAHRAH! =xschool's fine. FINALLY! i think school's good! (: CLA wasnt that bad afterall. (; at least i know what im doing and where im heading at. (: GREATNESS RIGHT?! (: econs was alright too! did keynes. cant really remember alot. but i can remember A BIT. =p then the rest. i think i returned them somehow. =x gp was alright. essay discussion. SCHOOL ENDED WITH MOUNTAINS OF HW. =x tons to complete & revise. RAH!this sat's performance is post-poned to like next sat. and because of that. since i can perform. claris dearie cant get to perform. =x but she says she's fine with it. (: so PHEW! (: wed ake will be back on. (: YAYNESS! i miss my dearies & darlings already. ): LOVELOVE.P.S: MIAKE-ians, PLEASE REFER TO THE NOTE PASTED ON THE DOOR OF 'HARMONIS' FOR THIS WED & FRI's DUTY ROSTER! PLEASE MEET ON TIME AND DONT BE LATE TO ENSURE EFFECTIVE CLEANING. (: LOVELOVE! <3<3
Sunday, January 07, 2007Y
超喜欢你 - 飞轮海
[chao xi huan ni - farenheit]
心跳快得很可怕
呼吸大到有气压
手心冒汗可以浇花
(可以浇花)
生活变四格漫画
喜怒哀乐被放大
身不由己没有办法
(没有办法)
怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样疯狂
怎么可以这样
怎么可以这样爱超出了想像
就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒
这个恶作剧
想要对你说的话
身体已替我表达
一旦爱了不能作假
(不能作假)
一度觉得很头大
怀疑细胞有偏差
可是爱了没有办法
(没有办法)
就是可以这样
就是可以这样疯狂
就是可以这样
就是可以这样爱超出了想像
就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒
这个恶作剧
我超喜欢你
是我放在心里好久的秘密
我不敢告诉你
甚至没有勇气说服我自己
我问一问上帝
要怎么突破我们之间的距离
站在原地是友谊
往前一步又怕吓到你
我号称黄金右脚横冲直撞
天下无敌自由来去
怎么踏进这个禁区
马上败在你手里
就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒
这个恶作剧
就算世界与我为敌
我超喜欢你
超喜欢你不能分离
我只相信这个真理
百无禁忌万夫莫敌
我超喜欢你
我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒这个恶作剧
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today's SSDCL is absolutely COOL-NESS! (: no engine stalls. near to perfect turns. except that sometimes i think im damn forgetful. haha. and forget to turn here turn there. oh yes! no mounting of kerbs! hehs. =p satisfaction. (;WOOTIES! im informed that once i pass my FTT. i can arrange for my practical test date. (: i want to get my liscence way before my As luh. so i HAVE TO PASS MY FTT this coming sat. so that i can book my test date. (: ALL THE WAY! (;doing my cla lit revision since last night. (: or rather. since friday night. too much to absorb. and too much to remember. =x have to go quite slowly ah. since its still a rather raw topic.school life begins again on a new week. (: hope this new week will be a smooth and trouble-less one. (: 05a2! remember to bring $10 ok? (: LOVELOVE. <3<3
Saturday, January 06, 2007Y
went to victoria concert hall to watch my sister perform with her guzheng ensemble. (: they are GOOD! (; and the performance make me think of our esplanade performance in the coming august. (: i really really hope we can get to perform. and make it the best of our last performance. i really really hope we can. (: and we will make sure we can cope well for both our school work and the performance. (:nothing much happened today. slept till like 11am. and its like. SHIOK! haha. =p woke up and had lunch. showered and get ready for tuition. (: mama reminded me that must wear nice nice. cos going for the performance just now. so so. i tried like alot of clothes. and papa was like rushing me to go. HAHA! =p in the end. no choice. drew out a pair of jeans and a black top. and SHROOM! off i go OUT of the house. hehs. =pSSDCL tml. (: im excited. HEHS! =p as if i really am. but i am. HAHA! =p
Friday, January 05, 2007Y
THIS IS OUT TO ALL MIAKE-IANS!
here is the AKE DUTY ROSTER. please take note of the week you are on for HARMONIS's CLEANINESS ACTION. (:
WEEK 2 : 12/01/2007 & 13/01/2007
WEEK 3 : 17/01/2007 & 19/01/2007
WEEK 4 : 24/01/2007 & 26/01/2007
PLEASE TAKE NOTE OF THE FOLLOWING AS WELL! (:
FOR DUTIES ON WEDNESDAYs, MEET OUTSIDE HARMONIS @ 2.00PM, to carry out duty. (:
FOR DUTIES ON FRIDAYs, MEET OUTSIDE HARMONIS @ 1.00PM, to carry out duty. (:
HAVE YOUR LUNCH BETWEEN 1.30 - 2.00pm [wednesday] & 12.30 - 1.00pm [friday].
TRY NOT TO BE LATE. time is precious. remaining ake members can go to HARMONIS at 2.30pm. (:
PLEASE! WEAR SOCKS/BATHROOM SLIPPERS IN HARMONIS TO MAINTAIN CLEANINESS. (:
ROSTER IS ALSO AVAILABLE @:
DO CONTACT ME/JASMINE/JANNAH IF IN DOUBT.
till then.LOVELOVE! (:
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whats the best thing of this whole week of school? (: for once. im not going to say its ake first. although ake did make my week from bad to good. (: the best thing is... I SAW DADDYLOW! (; yes yes. DADDYLOW. (: he came to see our new school i think. i didnt see him as i walk up the stairs. he shouted out to me when i was up the stairs. and we talked. (: i miss him like mad lah can? and i told him about school. he consoled me and gave me the move on. (: thanks daddy. i guess you never know how much it really meant to me. (: THANK YOU & LOVELOVE. <3ake of course DID made my week a better one aside daddylow's appearance. (: no matter what im facing out there, in class or wherever. ake never fail to bring my life back to happiness & joy. (: today we practice the continued version of our SYF piece. (: im loving it! me & grace got this pretty tough running notes part. but when we play as an ensemble. you will never know how nice the whole thing sounded. (: and and! there's this part which when i play. it sounds like a bird chirping. HAHA! that really brought laughters to the rest. cos laughing at me right? haha! =p but its ok. if i can make everyone in ake laugh. i will be very very happy. (: (: (: i cant wait to see them again on monday. (: LOVELOVE AKE! <3<3<3sadly. next sat we got a mini performance for the parents' of the pae batch. and i cant perform cos of my FTT. so so. i told ms wee that hendra lovelove can take over my place for "accidentally in love". and ms wee suggest that i ask claris gf to take over me for the other three pieces. clar dearie agreed to it. and hendra too! (: so yay yay! although i cant perform. but im sure my two dearies will do a great job on my behalf. (: WOOTIES~me, jas gf & babat sayang drew up the ake duty roster. (: we had like utmost fun can? =p we did the drawing of lots for the jobs distributed to others after we draw for ourselves. im in charge of "CLEANING THE WHITEBOARD" on the first week of jan. *thats like OVER ALREADY! =p * but ms wee suggest that the first week's group divide ourselves to the three other weeks to be fair. (: and im enjoying the entire process of drawing up the roster. HEHS! =plessons will all officially begin next week. i forsee even more tiring days. =x im already feeling tired now. and its only just three days since school start. =x just let me strive through 2007 please. its too early to say "IM TIRED!" its way too early. =xmany more happy days will come right? (: i know they will. today's not a bad day after all. smiles & laughters at ake. and the curve on my face was brought back today. (: LOVELOVE DADDY & AKE! (:
Thursday, January 04, 2007Y
one thing i can NEVER EVER TOLERATE is people's INCONSIDERATE-NESS! =x i dont like and I DONT LIKE IT TO HAPPEN AROUND ME! =x RAHS!1. schools fine? i think it is. and i HOPE it is.2. im the treasurer AGAIN!3. i cant wait for ake tml. (: i miss my ake-ians. ):4. SSDCL was COOL-NESS! (: i love today's practice. but the instructor say i MUST build up my self-confidence. hohoho. =p i will try. i promise. (: today's instructor was good. (:5. being considerate MUST be a cultivated morale. please people. just be more considerate and spare a thought for those around you. THANK YOU!6. THANK YOU JAS GF for listening to my grumbles. (:7. THANK YOU SHER GF for asking me to relax & cool down. (:8. im here not to blog purposely. im doing my econs. HAHA! =p
Wednesday, January 03, 2007Y
school has started. and i think i will be doing random blogging except on friday nights & weekends. (: got to really start studying hard core-ly. and common tests are like next month! =x coming fast & strong luh. so really got to FIGHT! (: so so. schooling days will be random blogging. and serious and more detailed stuffs will be left for the weekends. (;1. schools great! (: new class. new classmates & new teachers. everything seems to be new all around. HAHA! =p2. the canteen is like WOW! many stalls. like finally! (;3. ake is the HIGHLIGHT of today. (: year2s did "accidentally in love". <3>
year3s helped out. (: LOVELOVE to ake. i think the year2s are AWESOME.
(: keep going ok? (;
4. hendra sunshine took over the vibes for "accidentally in love". (: HAVE
CONFIDENCE LOVE! (: you can do it. (: ili & jerine are cool on marimba. and
fahmi looks cute on the PBs. (: yinwhee is HIGH when playing on the bass!
haha. I TOLD YOU! THEY ARE AWESOME! (;
5. ms wee started on the SYF pieces already. for the first piece released so far.
im on the vibes. (: and im suppose to use a BOW to bow the music out.
tough & challenging. but interesting. (:
6. I LOVE ALL OF YOU! (: (: (:
7. bye bye! (: *rush off to start work! (; *
Tuesday, January 02, 2007Y
its my last day of full enjoyment. =x from tomorrow onwards. life will be back to the stressful & busy times. days where i can hardly get time to really sit down in front of the tv/computer will no longer be within my reach. days that really can make me suffocate and lose near to all enjoyment will be much much nearer instead. =x but its my final year. a year that might change my life forever. its going to determine the type of life i will be leading in future. and i always believe that hard work pays off. (: for the past two years. ive witnessed it. and i know i can. (:didnt go swimming with diane this morning. my dad forbids me to go. =x the reasons behind it made me very very irritated & unhappy. but no matter what. they are words from my dad. i have to obey. and i dont get to go swimming. ): i feel utterly bad to my dino darling. its like our last day together before i get back to school. but its just dashed. ): IM SORRY... ):went to vivocity with my mum & sisters to get my sister her bag & sports shoes. i saw the limited edition's nike bag. the one thats similar to mine but is the latest design & its limited. white base with pink wordings. its super nice please. but i know i cant ask for it. although mum did ask me if i want to get it. the desire for it is like burning in me. but to avoid what i want to avoid. i chose to shake my head and say no. ):today seems to be a really bad day. i just hope for tomorrow to be much much better. at least. give me a good start for my school year. thats all i want and hope for now. i dont dare to have any great things to happen. just let me pass through my last year in MI smoothly & safely. no troubles. no nothing. just good grades both academically & non-academically. thats all.
Monday, January 01, 2007Y
HAPPY 2007 EVERYONE! (: there's like a major 'sms-jam' last night. with messages not being able to be sent out and received in. =p well well. alot to say to alot of people. so shall make it a short and sweet one for every single one who has touched me greatly in 2006. (: HERE GOES! (:TO: MY FAMILY.thanks for being such a great bunch of people. (: LOVES & little words but lots of hearts. (: you guys are the most important people in my life. (: LOVELOVELOVE.TO: DKSYJ.
you guys have been a really awesome group of friends. whom i really enjoyed being with. (: the laughters that we've got during our outings in 2006 are really memorable. (: although we're now facing some sort of "crisis". but im sure we will be able to work it out together. (: cos we're the ONE & ONLY DKSYJ. (:
TO: 7B + T^2.
i know i owe you guys A LOT in 2006. i promise to make up in 2007. and especially after our As. (: you guys are damn cool you know? haha. and its really really really my most wonderful luck to be able to know you all. all the craps & jokes & teasings. we are people who really CAN PLAY & MAKE NOISE! (: thanks for rocking my life people. LOVES. <3
TO: MY 3 GFs.
you girls are my precious. (: 2006 has been a great year because there's the 3 of you. (: all my sorrows & unhappiness & doubts are spilled in front of you girls. and you girls never shoo me away. (: im really thankful that i've got three wonderful gfs. (: i think no one will ever be more thankful than me for having so many. (; but still. my life is beautiful because of you three. CHEERS & TRUCKLOADS OF LOVES! (:TO: MY HENDRA SUNSHINE.
hey love. you never know how much difference you've brought into my life. (: 2006 has been a really wonderful year because there's you. (: you & your body-wrap, your jokes, your care & concern. they never end because there's you. you're one of the sweetest & best thing life has slapped me in 2006. keep going & i know you're a gift i will forever appreciate & treasure. I LOVE SUNSHINE! (: (: (:TO: ALL MY AKE DEARIES & DARLINGS.
you guys rock i tell you. 2006 may be a busy year. but 2007 is even busier. as we all hope to clinch what we desire in the SYF. we got to work together. (: as a team. (: i know we can do it. cos we're the MI-AKEians. (: we're gonna soar and touch the sky. and i know. august's concert will be a damn success. we'll tear down esplanade's roofs alright? LOVELOVE AKE! (:
TO: MY DEARDEAR NANCY.
dear. you've always been behind-the-scenes in 2006. or rather. since 2005. you're just there for me. (: no matter how HIGH/how LOW i am. you are just there. thanks a million for being part of my 2006. and thanks a zillion for being my great listening ear & grumbe-to-me-bag. (: I LOVE YOU ALWAYS. like never before. (: (: (:
TO: MY 3 MI-SISTERS.
you guys are also a wonderful bunch of MAD-IES. 2006 has been a really moody year for me. but you guys are always there to let me "SWEEP" my mood. (: i guess next year will be even worst? haha. but i promise to be more self-controlled. (: thanks for being there and all those crazy moments. (:TO: MY CLASSMATES OF 05B3.
although we're going to different classes in 2007. you know how much you guys have an impact on me. (: i love every single moment. because there's you bunch of buddies & friends. the hugs & love i receive. they are remembered. forever. (: thanks for being my classmates. and thanks for those wonderful times. (:TO: MY DADDYLOW.
daddy. you say that im one of the best thing you've got in MI. and you got to know that you're also one of the best thing i've got in MI. (: those short 7 months back in 2006 when you're in MI. you've been great. (: even after you leave. there's still you where i can pour my troubles to. (: you've been a really good daddy. please take care of yourself wherever you go. and remember. YOU STILL HAVE A DAUGTHER TO TAKE CARE OF! =p but still. you're loved by me. (;
TO: MY SMS-PAL WEIQIANG.
pal. you've been there for 3 YEARS! a good three years indeed. the friendship will stay. cos the sms-es are the connections. (: you're loved too! (: and take care alright? MEET UP SOON PAL! (;
TO: THE REST WHOM I'VE MISSED OUT!i never forget you guys. there are just too many to list. still. you guys are too great and thanks for being part of me. (: i love you guys too! (: TILL WE MEET. TAKE CARE & KEEP GOING! (:
