`life is beautiful.`

SHIFTED. (:

2008-01-18T18:19:00.000+08:00

i've decided to abandon BS, and shift myself to LJ. (: all thanks to the lockable function, and now i'm addicted to LJ. (:

click : SHIRSWORLD.LJ

meanwhile, SHIRSWORLD.BS will continue to be available, for me to post up photo album links, the calendar of events, wish list, and links. (:

do RELINK me, and enjoy the lovely-ness of LJ. (:

HUGSHUGS!

andy lau! (:

2008-01-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

mrs rashied is on MC today, and i took over her lessons for 4OPAL. goodness me, they are a bunch of really hyper kids lah. their noise level is SUPERRRRRRRR high, and my voice is like half gone by the time we're done with the day. but they do make me smile a whole lot. haha! they are really cute when they say, "goodbye miss ng! see you tomorrow!" they are slowly opening up to me, and accepting my presence in class. (: most of them are talking to me, and even telling me stories, and what happens to their day. (: just as i'm starting to get use to the class, my shadowing period is ending soon. ): awwww. i'm seriously going to miss this class of kiddos after this week if i don't get to teach them anymore. ):

long hours of talking = drinking my nalgene clean. standing for a little too long, and walking a bit more than usual in heels = tired legs with red toes. ): but it's still worth it. (:

anyhow, after classes today, went with mummy to AMK HUB to collect my altered clothes. (: but i still haven't got myself new year clothes, and for this season, the fashion seems to be very much tunics-galore. most of the shops have got tunics placed at the front of their shops. *humphs* it's difficult for me, 'cos it's difficult to match tunics to working pants. ): need to comb more shops and places for more clothes for CNY!

OOOOHHHHH! mummy bought daddy a watch just now, and the aunty was really nice to give me ANDY LAU's 2008 CALENDAR! (; i was gaga-ing over andy lau's poster in those cupboards promoting his endorsed CYMA watch, so the aunty asked if i wanted his calendar. at first, i thought i heard andy lau's cupboard poster, and i was super high. but she repeated, his calendar. i said YES super quickly. haha! now andy lau's sitting on my table! (; 12 ANDY LAUs. (((((:

I'M WATCHING "DIM SUM DOLLIES"! (: 24th february '08 is the day! (; lovelove to caihua who's watching it with me, not forgetting, my little sister! (;

YADAYADA! ((:

SCH.

2008-01-13T00:29:00.000+08:00

KUDOS to "RESONANCE OF A THOUSAND STRINGS" for their enchanting performance tonight. (: YAYS to my little sister for being such an awesome player, and enjoying herself to the brim. (:

the performance was at SCH, and upon reaching, memories flood back like nobody's business. the moment i step into the lobby area, i could clearly remember where we lined up, and sat down to wait, the toilet we went to, the place where i got so nervous and leong had to hold my hands and give me warmth, the place where me & grace did our last minute practice on our birdy calls and running notes, the place where me & jasmine the two SLs gave our members our hugs and well-wishes. (: the flight of stairs linking to the concert hall's backstage brought me countless memories and the anxiety i felt on 26/04/2007 was all back once again.

when we proceed into the concert hall, i could remember the cold air, the huge stage with white walls that really project the entire stage. as i sit at the audience area, i could clearly remember behind the two side doors was the backstage. the area where i panicked till the point i cannot bring myself forward to watch NJC perform, and james had to hug me to cheer me on and calm me down. when the doors opened and closed to allow members to enter and exit the stage, reminds me of how the crews of SCH open up the doors for us to enter the stage, and before we enter, one of the crew said, "alright millennia, it's SHOW TIME and good luck!"

the stage clearly identified itself, and i could visualise myself standing right in the middle. i could imagine miss wee being there, right at the front of the stage, with her podium. i could feel the entire ensemble's presence, as though they are really there, with the angklungs surrounding the kulintangs. i could feel the tension on stage once again, and i could practically feel myself being on stage and catching up with those running notes, my own solo, and those birdy calls.

i miss MIAKE. ): the MIAKE that's full of bustling all over the place, the sound of drums jamming by kiat, the jumbled up noises from all the instruments during self-practice, the always warm and welcoming HARMONIS, the squeezy HARMONIS when we had our syf training, those night practice, and our MIAKE camp. i miss those chatty and gossipy moments, those fun and worry-less cca days filled with nothing but smiles and laughters. i miss the companion from MIAKE, those who can bring my mood from really pit bottom to the peak all the time and those who really stayed by. MIAKE is my miracle and happy pill from MI. i really wish for the MIAKE spirit of madness, fun and laughter to continue on and on... and never fade.

sexy voice. (;

2008-01-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

i've got a pretty sexy voice! haha. it's the aftermath of 1.5 hours of teaching, and about a total of 1 period of class controlling. the kids' voices are like louder than mine. no matter how much i shout to make them keep quiet and sit down and listen to me, they don't seem to bother about me. they just keep talking and shouting across the classroom, as if i'm not there at all. whenever i raise my voice a little, they raise theirs even more. in the end, they are the ones blabbering instead. best of all, it's not one or two kiddos talking. the whole class is super united, and they talk at the same time! goodness. just by shouting alone makes my voice sexier. haha!

but, teaching is really fun. (: i do enjoy teaching, especially when i have lessons with them. (: although i only have one period of mental sums and two periods of english with them, they do bring joy and laughter to me. (: i didn't feel good and hype today, so i went to school with a rather heavy heart. but during their maths lesson, the way they tease one another, the way they spur their classmates on, the way they want to win their group more stickers on their group charts really make me laugh my heart out. (:

the p4 class have really adorable kids to whom my heart goes out entirely to. like, wilbur, he talked to me and asked me about a lot of things, like how come i can work just after A levels, at what age can he start working. and there's yong yoon, who's really small and cute, and he loves to solve maths problems. the monitor, terence, another cutie who tells me that he is very "suay" on wednesday, because he got ink on his shirt and he fell during pe. there's dylan, who's definitely a swimmer judging from his tanned skin and goggles mark round his eye. there's melanie, who is really hyper and outspoken. there's boon pin, who's the noisiest in class, yet he can be really cute, by asking me about his art file, whether he did a good job at drawing. there's sin yee,who's really cute and sweet. 4 OPAL is really an awesome class. just that they need to learn how to quieten down and give me more attention. (:

i was asked to relief a p3 class today, and the kids there are really uber cute. (: they showed me how to make a president smile. they are referring to the president on our money. although i knew that trick already, but the way they try to tell me how to do it, and show it to me, and even borrow money from me to make one for me really makes me smile widely. (: they are really easily amused, although they claimed to be tired when coming to school 'cos they got to wake up early. haha. a really cute bunch of kiddos. and as compared to the p4 class, they are a lot more well-behaved. they don't talk when i'm talking, and they listen to my instructions. (: i guess different classes will have different styles of behaving, and i'm still learning in progress. (:

i think i've learnt quite a lot through these four days at work. (: although i left earlier on wednesday and friday, but i covered my minimum of 5.5 hours before i left. the staff are all really sweet and friendly, always on a lookout for me when i need help, always there to flash me their friendliest smile and greeting me in return when i greet them. (: most of the staff i met along the way asked if i'm new as they don't see me around before, and asked about what i did before i joined KEMING. (: they also made an effort to guide me along, helping me to get use to the school surrounding and operations at a faster pace, and they really make the effort to remember my name. (: i told them that they can call me by my name, and they raelly do. i feel warm and welcome. (: aunty alice is a real dear in the general office. she never fail to add "darling" whenever we meet, and the same applies when she meet other staff along her way to other places, or even while she's sitting in the general office. (: mr tay, mrs yip & mdm cheum have been really nice and caring as well. (: i had companion for lunch yesterday, if i'm not wrong, her name is mrs yap. (: she's 4 OPAL's science teacher, whom i bumped into while waiting for her to dismiss 4 OPAL and allow me to take over. (:

i'm really happy to be able to go to school everyday, although i'm quite free for the bulk of the day due to the shadowing part. but i think things are getting better and will get even better as days past. (: i'm looking forward to the official teaching period, which is when i will really be on my own handling classes. it's a new challenge waiting for me to embrace. (:

employed. (:

2008-01-07T16:27:00.000+08:00

SHIRLEY's EMPLOYED! (; i will be doing relief teaching at KEMING PRIMARY starting from tomorrow. (: starting off as a teacher aide for two weeks, before moving on to tutoring. the P & VP of KEMING are really nice. the two admin staff that helped me today were awesome as well. (: the female admin staff reminded me of MRS HENG! haha. she was like "morning dear, hello dear..." to the students who enter the office. and when i was asked to come back tomorrow, she went, "welcome to KEMING my dear, see you tommorrow my dear..." ((: a BIG thank you to mr tan, for recommending me this really wonderful opportunity, and to mr tay & mrs yip for accepting me into KEMING, to allow me to fulfil my ambition since young. (: i'm really excited for tomorrow! although i'm going to be a teacher aide for IT for the next two weeks, but at least i will get to learn something new while working. (:

yayness! i'm no longer slacking and living a boring life with absolutely nothing to do. (: with tuition classes on every tuesday & thursday, my week will be bustling with activities! but, i may face a tight schedule for tuition, and tuition days may need to be changed for a better arrangement. well, for the sake of the fun & experience i'm going to get from teaching, and the sponsoring of my own retail therapy sessions, it's definitely worthwhile! (:

i love being back to school, and i feel so near MI when i was at KEMING. (: both schools are not really like super far apart, but they are quite close to one another. actually, whenever i took bus 66 home from MI last year, i sure DID pass by KEMING, just that i didn't really go notice it. haha. the feeling is really awesome although i'm in a different position now. (: i still love school a lot a lot. (:

revamped my wardrobe again! more more clothes to choose from now! (; but i find working rather troublesome, because i got to try to avoid my attire from clashing and repeating within a short period of time. which means, i seriously need more clothes than i thought and as compared to in the past. those oversized tees are definitely out of the choice, and jeans are not allowed in school due to formality. okay, there's still a lot to work for. haha!

FACEBOOK application, "what your birth month reveals about you" seems to be pretty accurate when "revealing" me & my character. hmmmm...

MARCH REVEALS:

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

those in BLUE are really super true. those in BLACK, ehhhhh, i don't think so? the one in RED really pokes me and made me laugh. haha!

AWESOME! (:

2008-01-05T12:37:00.000+08:00

i had an AWESOME dinner last night. (: met up with some MIAKE dearies, to give those boys who will be enlisting this month a "farewell" dinner. (: awww. i miss them luh. it's really great to see them again. (: junlong's "disappearing" on the 9th, kiat, ben & tuankiak will be "disappearing" on the 11th, and leong's turn is on the 25th. (: byebye to their hair! haha. when they book out, we're so gonna dig them out again, and see their botak heads! haha. AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME! (;

leong, tuankiak, kiat, junlong, ben, claris, grace and cj. (:

my iPoot decided to die on me. ): got to get it repaired soon, if not i'm so gonna faint of boredom on bus rides. oh, and bus & train fares are really HEAVY now! no more 45cents, no more concession. ): everytime i hear the ez-link machine beep, my heart falls. i miss school, i miss my 45cents public transport fares! i NEED to pass my TP on the 23rd for goodness sake. if not, just transport fares are enough to bug me for weeks! *RAHS*

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new header photo! (: took the left angelic photo last night before we left town. yayness! (;

talking about missing school life, had my uniform on today when i went to receive my bursary award. the feeling of don-ing MI's uniform again is, GOOD. (: the student feel is all back and people really take me as a student. haha. i seriously miss school to the brim. ):

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SHIRLEY's THE WORLD DUMBEST COW, THE WORLD STUPIDEST PIG! ):

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goodbye 2007, HELLO 2008! (:

2008-01-01T13:45:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2007, HELLO 2008! (: a fresh new year to begin with, and may it be a year filled with a truckload full of fun and excitement waiting for me to embrace and uncover. (: crossing over from 2007 to 2008 made me think a lot about the wonderful '07 i've been through, and those who went through the year with me.

from 01/01/2007 to 31/12/2007, i grew up as days past, and i'm no longer the shirley of 01/01/2007. the shirley standing here right now, has grown up, more mature with new perspectives and aspirations. (:

along the way, new friendship blooms. i made a lot of new friends from TTC and widen-ed my social circle, especially my dearest 05a2 classmates and teachers, who made my last schooling year in MI even more interesting and fun-filled. (:
the many ups and downs made me a stronger girl, and at the same time, realising who are those who really stayed by and are willing to stick with you through everything and anything. i used to think, as long as i take out my true-est heart to treat others, others will reciprocate and do the same. but i was wrong and i ended up being really upset. well, at least true colours did reveal, and in the end, i didn't lose out by a lot, but gained a lot more instead. being able to realise who are those who really care and love me, and also deserve my care, concern and love in return, means a lot more than losing a couple of "so-called good friends". friends and loved ones who were with me through those darkest moments, especially during april '07, i sincerely thank you all a whole heap and i really love you all to the max. (:

2007 was a year filled with fun, love, tears, excitement and tension. i miss those mugging days before we set off for our 'A's, especially the last week of preparation before i had my CLA paper. mugging heads and butts off with ignatious and caihua, having consultation till as late as 8pm, and feeling those stress and tension from head to toe. it really wasn't easy, and we actually did it. amazing indeed.

a quick flashback for the highlights of '07. (:

January '07
WELCOME 2007
WELCOME to YEAR3
MIAKE performs at PAE parents meet
February '07
CNY '07
March '07
MIAKE training camp
MIAKE SYF rehersal at SCH
April '07
CIP '07
MIAKE SYF '07
May '07
phantom of the opera musical
Institute Day '07
sports day '07
PU3 retreat at Raffles Marina
June '07
macau holiday trip
MIAKE farewell party
July '07
MID YEAR EXAMS!
August '07
bowling SEP
MIAKE performs at esplanade library
September '07
grandma's 80th birthday
DKSYJ outing
PRELIMS!
October '07
graduation tea
A LEVELS!
November '07
A LEVELS!
December '07
MIAKE performs at SP
MIAKE BBQ
chiangmai holiday trip
GOODBYE 2007

so much for 2007. i'm missing those days, especially my beloved MIAKE. ): i'm missing school as well. today's the start of a new school year, and my house is empty with only me, my grandma and my maid. my sisters are off to school, and beginning to chiong for their new school year. watching them pack their bags and getting ready for school last night make me jealous. i've been getting ready for school reopen for 13 years, and now i no longer need to do so makes me feel empty and lost suddenly. i'm missing school days, missing those books and tutorial classes. although some lessons could really bore me to the brim and on the verge of dozing off, i still miss school. at least, i'm occupied with something to do and to think about. now are the days of slack-ness and trying to look for something to do out of nowhere in the house.

oh yea! my chiang mai trip. (: it was a pretty awesome one, and really an eye-opening experience. (: we didn't get to do much shopping because our main purpose for going to chiang mai is to pray. although we spend most of our time in the temple, and it does bore us out a little, but it was overall fun. (: we get to see FIREWORKS LIVE! (: live as in, those that burst out from those boxes after being lit and bursting into the air type. actually, i also don't know how to say. but we saw fireworks cracking up in front of us from those boxes into the skies. (: the bursting sensation could be felt and it was really cool. the fireworks bursted out just above our heads and the sparks fell onto the ground and above our heads as well. haha. we even get to lit mini fireworks from fireworks sticks. it was really fun and the sticks jerk backwards whenever one pops outs. (((((: we even saw firecrackers! hahaha. it was really fun and exciting, but i seriously don't know how to put them in words. it was a really awesome experience. (:

we counted down to 2008 twice while we were at chiang mai. (: once during our singapore timing, and another time for chiang mai's timing, which was one hour behind ours. (: we lit fireworks again! haha. we are the only singaporeans there, so the near to 40 of us were like super high and crazy. we were really really high and the "SHI FU" was super happy that we were there and making the entire event so high and joyous. (:

okay! i don't know what else to blog about for now. oh ya. i've listed down my resolutions for '08 on the left column. i hope to strike off as many as i can as i move along. (: another thing. from today, there's only 21 DAYS TO TP! ): it's time i get back to my practice at SSDC. oh man, i have to face the weird feeling of going back to SSDC again. *RAHS!*

1000th. (:

2007-12-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

i've started this blog for 3years and almost one month, and it's still going. (: this is my 1000th post, and i'm dedicating it to my beloved DKSYJ. (:

finally, we met up and had our x'mas celebration together again. (: we didn't get to do x'mas together last year because some of us were away and really busy. but it's our gathering again this year! (; headed down to town at 10.30am, and we left town at 9.30pm. eleven hours of town-ing, cam-waring, craziness and really precious DKSYJ time. (: lunch at TCC & dinner was at SEOUL GARDEN. (: after the whacky 11 hours, we were aching and really dead beat. we were soooo high that we got others' attention even when we were just walking down the street. we snapped photos like nobody's business, and like we've never taken photos before, as we roamed orchard road. it has been eons since i last stepped onto town's ground, and breathe town's air. (: it was really great shopping with my dearest DKSYJ. for the first time ever since we went out together did we buy so much stuff. we each got ourselves goodies and rewards, but diane was the overall winner for our shopping spree. (: we were really high with almost everything and anything, and dinner at seoul garden was superb. even the waiter can't stand us. haha! it's just us. no noise & craziness will not be DKSYJ. (:

bought for myself a few things. shopping is really a uber relaxing and fun thing to do. (: that's why i really need retail therapy to heal my whatever wounds and unhappiness. (: i bought:

a black top from LE RANGE
a pink 2008 organiser from KINOKUNIYA
"MAGICIANS OF LOVE" storybook from KINOKUNIYA
pink beanfan iPod pouch

i didn't get to buy my desired havaianas sandals because THERE'S NO SIZE OF MINE. ): now i'm hating my feet for being a size 6.5/7. it's so difficult for me to get a pair of havaianas. i really regret not splurging on it when i saw it in july. all outlets in singapore has ran out of stock of size 7 havaianas. flip-flops or sandals, both types' size 7 is OOS! ): i told karen, "can you all please pull my feet longer so that i can fit into size 9?" total madness. ):

alright, photos. (:

lunch @ TCC. (:

the DKSYJ ladies. (:

we are strong and going. (:

no, i'm not hungry.

take my unglam photos some more! *humphhhhs*

dino and her all-time favourite doing, weird faces at the absolutely wrong time. haha!

i love yz! ((:

after lunch. (:

merry x'mas! (:

shir & zhen, the look-alikes. (:

shir & jieyan, the "hao jie mei"s. (;

the circle of love. <3

me & my replica, sotong. (;

that cute little thing.

shir & dino, the ionic. (:

absolutely candid.

we love the neoprint machine. <3

us and the arty-farty wall.

after dinner. (:

shir & karen, the wonderful lovely. (:

when we have free time at hand and we all start to turn whacky… but this is just the beginning. (;

and we had jieyan joining in. (;

the couple of the year. (;

yes sir!

since i can’t get my pair of havaianas sandals that i’ve been eyeing for a super long while, i get to snap a bubble pair in exchange. *thank you NUM!*

some shaky sense of art. (: i’m an arts student after all. *pokes*

more dosages of me & karen. (:

more more look-alikes. (:

last snaps. (:

we did the following shots umpteen times before we manage to get it right, with many pairs of eyes staring at us doing these moves. haha. poor karen, diane & YZ. they took two rounds of these jumpy photos, with the camera-person switching from me to jieyan. haha. but it was really fun trying to catch the camera’s shutter timing and trying to be in the air at the same time. amongst us, YZ is the best jumper and has the best jumping style, ‘cos she’s a dancer, and a really awesome one. ((:

we didn’t mean to leave karen on the ground as we reach out for the skies.

i looked as though I didn’t lift myself off the ground, but i really did jump up. it’s just me looking a little more retarded than the rest. oh well, what’s new? i’m little miss retarded. (:

the DKSYJ. (:

we took this in the middle of orchard road at 8+ in the evening. while the human flow was really jamming, we went against all odds to snap our group photo by ourselves. (: that's our DKSYJ spirit. ((:

united we are. (: LOVES! <3

okay! that’s all for the more “highlighted” photos of sunday. there are more more photos from diane’s cammie, but sadly, her computer crashed. ): still waiting for her to send us her share of photos! ((:

daddy & mummy bought us a new computer set. the speed is like uber fast luh! and the memory space is like 250GB? I can store a few truckloads of stuff in the hard drive luh. and now, in my room, there’s the old computer set and a tv set as well! double shiok-ness and more entertainment in my room! haha. but i’m hating the wireless system in my room. it’s like OFF now? *boings* I got to type my post on word, and then transfer it to blogger through the laptop. *rahs* but at least, it’s better than nothing lah. can still play games and stuff OFFLINE. hehs! and! mummy bought us a new cammie too! We’re replacing our retarded Nikon camera away. (: CANON IXUS 70 is cool! (; the new cammie is going to chiangmai with us, and i’m gonna snap many pretty pictures home! ((:

x’mas this year is still a working day for me. payday is most prolly on thursday, and i’m super egg-cited about it. haha! now that my havaianas is off my list, I shall save up that money for something else! (: maybe… my onitsuka tiger? haha!

edith DAO GEI just messaged me, and she rewarded me with “THE LISTENING EAR” & “ASK FOR HELP” vouchers. (: she’s a real love & a dearie sweetie. (: she also asked if i want to join her, rae & yeewen over to taiwan in april next year. she say that rae & yeewen suggested to ask me along. *happy* although i don’t really know yeewen, and only in this year did we start talking, i’m really happy that the three of them thought of me and even asked me to join them. (: now, i need to wait for the approval for my teacher aide job, and once approved, i can check to see if i can get to join them. (: if i get to go with them, i’ll be super happy! (:

so much for a super long post! haha. i’m getting back to my “hammer heads” game. it’s addictive. (;

alright. byebye people! (:

my one & only hendra sunshine LOVELOVE! (:

2007-12-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

this post is for YOU, my dearest HENDRA SUNSHINE LOVE! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEARIE! (: you're FINALLY as OLD as i am! haha. i feel young again! (; anyhow, all the very best in ALL that you do. may you have TRUCKLOADs of love & happiness surrounding you daily, and may you have the best luck in everything you do. (: most importantly, please stay happy, be less emo & have fun while you can during your year of being 19. (: another important thing, please, be healthy and as fit as a fiddle. you got to take super good care of yourself, and no more asthma problems please, it really worries & scares me big time.

see how much YOU've grown over the past two years! because of you, i'm willing to put up my horrifying goldfish face! touched? hahaha. (; *phew! luckily there's only ONE goldfish face of mine with yours. HAHA!*

okay! hope you did have a great day today. (: your present is sitting on my table, waiting for you to embrace it. (; as for your cake, owe you first lah k? (; haha. as usual, LOVELOVE! ((:

fell. ):

2007-12-17T19:34:00.000+08:00

i fell off the chair last night because i was too high over seeing 明道 on teewee. super malu-ated. now, my right arm and right butt are hurting due to the fall. *WAH PIANG!*

shopping alone yesterday was rather boring. if not for the need to buy something really important, i definitely will not do shopping alone. no one to ask comments from, no one to talk to, and it's weird to walk down the rows of shops alone. okay, A-L-O-N-E is the word. went into vivocity's NUM yesterday, and i didn't see the pair of sandals that i'm dying to get. ): the sandals left on the racks are those plain ones. i want the pair that's pink with white flowers! when i get my pay NEXT WEEK, i'm so gonna zoom down to NUM again, and make sure the salesmen there dig out the pair of sandals that i want. hohoho~ (; but i came home with my favourite. (: bought myself a pair of shoes, really pretty shoes. i've been eyeing it for about, two weeks? haha. yes! it's now MINE! woohoo~ (;

last night's STAR AWARDS was a HIGH one. haha. i practically glued myself to the teewee for the full 3hours. (: 明道 appeared TWICE to give out award. WHEEWEET~ i wanted to catch 明道 LIVE! and i refuse to budge even when mama chase me to shower. haha!

meeting my dearest DKSYJ real soon! 23rd december. WOOHOO~ ((:

refurnishing. (:

2007-12-15T17:40:00.000+08:00

the NG family is currently refurnishing their house. ((: we've got painters coming over since thursday, and they will still be coming over till next week ends. (: i've got a new colour for our room, our room is now more spacious and comfy. (: we've got a new study room, and i've got a new study table. i made both my room & study room PINK, in different shades. (: whee~ we've been really busy packing till like 12 midnight since thursday, now i totally feel my legs being separated from my body. haha. but having a really new and comfy environment, worth it! ((:

byebye horrible bushy hair, hello straight long hair. ((: i've got my straight hair back and i'm lovin' it! haha. like finally. rebonded it on wednesday at TWISTER, and i must say it's like a thousand and one times better than where i did in the past. waiting for my hair to settle down and off i go to get it highlighted. (: then, my hair is ready to celebrate CNY! yay! haha.

i'm going shopping ALONE tomorrow! haha. actually i've already arranged with diane, and even plan to have dinner with her before we both head home. but LUCKILY i remembered, i must reach home by lates 6.55pm in order for me to catch star awards. i MUST stick and glue myself to the tv tomorrow evening because i want to catch 明道 & 183CLUB. haha. i'm mad already. haha!

photos from ake bbq on monday! only two due to the horrible rain, and people being scattered all over the place. ):

afidah. ((:

we're the LUNCHEONS. not edible, but lovable. (;

alright! last bit of MY OWN packing, although i've been slacking around the whole day. hehs! people, remember to catch 明道 & 183CLUB on channel8 tomorrow on star awards! haha. (;

我爱的人.

2007-12-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

我爱的人 - 林宥嘉

我知道
故事不会太曲折
我总会
遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好
祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我
怎样呢

我爱的人
不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸
都属于另一个人
她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱
怎么那么深

我爱的人
她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神
说明了我不可能
每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情

永恒的嘲笑声
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好
祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我
怎样呢

我爱的人
不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸
都属于另一个人
她真幸福
幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱
怎么那么深

我爱的人
她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神
说明了我不可能
每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情
永恒的嘲笑声

每当听见
她或他说我们
就像听见爱情
永恒的嘲笑声

-end-

i feel exactly like this. it's difficult not to think. ):

ake bbq last night was filled with rain water. we ate and bbq-ed with umbrellas in our hands. i had fun still, especially when the girlies crowd around or under one umbrella and started to talk. (: met up with seniors like YANI LUNCHEON, AFIDAH, XIAOXUAN & FARID! (: it's nice to see them again. (:

chu ting said this to me before we parted, "shirley, when you get married, remember to invite me okay?" i replied, "huh, i don't want to get married so early aye!" then she laugh and say, "then when you graduate from uni, must invite me okay?" i laughed and waved goodbye to this sweetie. (:

i'm seriously missing those bunch of kiddos in AKE like big time. ): and i miss miss wee too. ):

photos of yesterday's bbq will be up later. (: when i'm free to load them. we're revamping our house these days. a lot of shift abouts, a lot of moving up and down and packing to do. i'm busy! haha. plus, i want to LOSE KILOS! so i need to hit those tracks at hougang stadium soon. DINO TIONG, when's our date to run? i need to run! CNY is coming in LESS THAN TWO MONTHS! i want to lose kilos before CNY! ((:

partially employed. (:

2007-12-08T13:09:00.000+08:00

shirley's happily partially employed! (: i'm giving tuition to two kids now, and it's really not easy to teach. haha! first lesson, 3.5 hours in total, but after about 2 hours of talking non-stop, i realise that my voice starts to turn "weird". i'm actually losing my voice. haha! how to become a teacher like that right? haha! but it's fun to teach. when i see that they understand what i'm talking about, i feel a great sense of satisfaction. ((:

with my FIRST paycheck that's coming in at the end of december, i'm gonna get myself my havaianas sandals. (: woohoo~

6th december '07

2nd session of tuition. the kid is uber cute. haha! was "shooked up" from my sleep by ignatious love's sms at 6.15am. he's enlisted already, and "enjoying" himself at tekong. (;

7th december '07

i had a horrible facial. it was a battle. haha!

8th december '07

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YITING! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIAH, MY SWEET AKE JUNIOR! ((:

whee~ ake bbq is in TWO DAYS! although the response wasn't really good, but the year3s who are turning up that night will create the fun & madness. haha! yayness! and i'm so gonna see my LUNCHEON DEAREST on that day too. whee~

shirley's badly in need of proper and serious retail therapy.

emo.

2007-12-05T21:52:00.000+08:00

i feel so emo lately, or rather, since saturday. i don't know what's wrong with me, but i just feel super emo. nothing really excites me, not even shopping. i just want to drown myself with really sad songs and hide myself under my blanket and sleep like a pig till the day i want to wake up. ): there are like a thousand and one things going through my mind and i can't stop myself from thinking about them. i feel so sick. ):

a night to remember. (:

2007-12-02T01:23:00.000+08:00

last night was one of the best performing night ever, and i will never be able to forget it. (: my final performance with MIAKE ended off at SP, with hugs and well wishes exchanged before we all bid one another goodbye. all the "all the best", "take care", "i will miss you", "must keep in touch" etc. made me feel their warmth and really cared for. they were really so touching that they nearly made me cry. i really can't bear to leave this bunch of kiddos, whom i've spend my past 1.5 years with. although it's my first time performing with the year1s and some of the year2s today, i really thought tonight was a blast. (:

people have to part somehow, but it's the process and memories that are the most valuable. (: this bunch of kiddos i know today really left a deep mark within me and leaving me with the most precious memories ever. (: like i always say, my life in MI will never be complete and beautiful without the wonders made by MIAKE. (: MIAKE, always and forever my pillar of support, a place where i can never fail to seek solace from, a place that never fail to make me smile and make my day so much better, a place where numerous great friendships are formed, a place to let yourself know that you're valued... MIAKE is just the place where all MIAKE-ians can seek shelter and love from. (: no matter who you are, where you're from or where you are right now, once a MIAKE-ian, always a MIAKE-ian. (:

it's my last time playing "DANCE FANTASY" last night, and i didn't really screw it all up. (: me & grace were still panicking and worrying whether we will screw the entire song up even before we went on stage. but all ended well and we received great applauses from the audience. (: i will really miss my solo, BAR98 & 118 from today onwards. i will miss my vibraphone, that "used-to-be-so-irritating" metronome & my very first angklung.

when we ended our performance last night, and miss wee's about to leave, she came over to me and said, "i will miss you..." and the same to grace & tuankiak as well. i was really sad when i hear that. i hate to leave miss wee, i hate to leave MIAKE. ):

okay! let's look at the PHOTOS! ((:

grace, we're so done with the whole thing already. (: i'm glad although we may have screwed up a little here and there, but it wasn't really as bad as we were afraid that it would be. (: now that the entire thing is over, i'm really going to miss those birdy times and those notes rushing. i know i've been repeating this again and again, but this year was really a nerve-wrecking one for us. every single performance that follows after SYF seems to have "dance fantasy", and there we are all over again, rushing to meet the tempo, beats and notes, and scaring outselves to the max just before we go on stage. from today onwards, we need not have nerve-wrecking moments anymore. (: i will miss you tons and thanks for being willing to accompany me in last night's performance. (: these few days are really great, and you've been a really sweet darling. (: take care my birdy partner! and we'll meet real soon. ((: *LOVES!

mr noor hendra shahril. (: whenever i have to load photos up onto my blog and the photo that has him, i will never fail to shout out "SUNSHINE LOVE"! (: this dearie stayed by through the past 1.5 years. (: forever being the naughty one, the smiley one, the clown-y one, the playful one, the whatever-he-can-do one, just to bring back that smile on my face. (: he's just my happy pill. ((: what else can i ever ask for when i have such a great sunshine to bring me all the healthy & smiley sun-rays and colours into my life? if i ever have any regret throughout my entire stay in MIAKE, it would be, "why let me meet this fella only 1.5 years ago?" may you be granted the strength, ability & will to do well for you As, allowing you to shine wherever you are, and being able to fulfil all your dreams and aspirations with the best health you can ever have. (: i love you hendra, you know i do. (:

my sera sweets. (: another bubbly girl who never fail to add laughter into others' life. (: i'm glad i know her, and may she be granted the strength and ability as well, to score for her As and allow her to strive through 2008 smoothly and soundly. (:

kiat entertains whoever is near him. (; a great friend to have, because he never fail to stand up for you when you need someone to be with you. although he loves to make fun of others and whoever, i'm so gonna miss his crap, nonsense & jammings. ): and he finally manage a smile in our photo. (:

leong heals your sadness. even when he's at his lowest point in life, he never fail to brighten up others' life at the same time. he made me stronger, made me believe in myself and have the strength to overcome some really absurd stuff this year. (:

junlong is the "snake/wormie" & our FOC labourer. haha! he is just too kind at times that he gets "bullied" by us, the girls. but still, he's nice lah! (;

tuankiak. what shall i say? he's really a nice person to be with, and a really caring friend. (: knowing that my place is really dark & ulu at night, he make sure i leave for home earlier and not to wait for them to finish loading all the instruments last night. (:

yinwhee. she knows my secret best, and has kept it really well. always tahan-ing my madness and gaga-ing after some events, and she ALWAYS PEEP AT ME WHILE SHE PLAY MUSIC! haha!

atika. my FIRST & last time performing with this sweet darling. (: less than 4 months of friendship, but she's a real love. (;

nadiah & wani. they almost made me cry today with their words... we love to "beach" about others then laughing like mad together after "beach-ing". haha! they really know the best words to say to make you really touched and on the brim of crying and not leaving them at all.

xiaoxuan & pearlynn came to watch us perform today. (: missed them a whole truckload.
not forgetting, shuning & luqman too! ohhhh! and NANI! (:

my signature on the big board at SP. (:

i'm tired and aching all over. i think i'm old. but still, i had a great night last night. (:

thank you MIAKE, for everything. from the first day till today, and i believe every single day in the future, MIAKE will never be the place i regret stepping into, and i will never forget any single thing that has got to do with MIAKE & MIAKE-ians. (:

thank you MIAKE, for shaping a more confident shirley. thank you MIAKE, for giving shirley so many more friends and widening her social circle. thank you MIAKE, for making shirley feel loved, cared for and valued. thank you MIAKE, for giving shirley so many chances to shine, lead and excel. thank you MIAKE, for giving shirley a chance to be part of MIAKE, and being able to show her love, care & concern to every single member of MIAKE, and allowing her to learn how to care and share even more. (:

scared or nervous?

2007-11-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

i screwed my dance fantasy today. ): when i realise i can't let my notes ring, i know that's it. i admit that when i hear my own solo sound like as if i'm knocking on some metal bars, i'm even more nervous and scared. but i just can't let the whole thing ring. no matter how hard i try to let it ring, it just won't ring, and the notes just kept sounding like knocking on metal bars. my entire heart sank while i played through the entire song. i messed up my bars from BAR118 onwards. i didn't end properly. i just screw everything. ):

i hate myself for screwing dance fantasy again and again. i hate feeling screwed. i don't want to feel screwed even for my last performance. ):

all over again. (:

2007-11-28T22:39:00.000+08:00

ake was great today. (: it has been a really long while since i last had practice with the entire ensemble. and getting together with my section members like grace dear, nilam, nora, shahidah, tzekiat, leong, junlong & tuankiak, not forgetting my dearest year2s, was really a super good feeling. (: although i didn't get to eat dinner till 7+ all thanks to mac delivery, i still had a great time. (:

the moment i reach school today, the first person i saw was miss lim & miss wee. (: the moment miss wee saw me, she was smiling really widely and said, "i miss you man!" haha! that's really super sweet. (: and when we were having our run-through for DANCE FANTASY, she asked the year1s & year2s to welcome us back. (: she's really happy to see us back there helping her out. (: when mr pow saw me, he was like, "hey shirley! what are you up to? are you back to visit us? or are you back to play?" i replied, "you will see me on saturday as well!" he thought i will be watching them perform at SP, but i replied, "nah, i'll be performing." he was happy and smiling away as well! (; talked to miss lim too! awwwww, i miss my ake teachers and instructress!

i don't "blame" my hendra love anymore. (: i just love having him around, and it's really nice to play music with him again. (: he made my day lah as usual. he was the first ake member i saw the moment i enter HARMONIS. (: and hafirah. (: anyhow, i get to play on the angklungs! (: i'm playing on the BIG angklung for SURI RAM. ((((: although it's not me & yichuang's hubby angklung, but i finally get to play the angklung! haha. i'm excited!

saturday's so gonna be our cam-whore day! i'm gonna take photos with every single one i know, and that will really mark my end of service for ake. it will be my very last practice. i will surely miss playing music with my dearest section members, my hendra love, the year2s, and of course, miss wee! (: and our two cute teachers, miss lim & mr pow. (:

filling myself with more more dosages of 183CLUB! which also means... more more dosages of 明道! haha! i'm super into this band now, and i can't stop listening to them sing. (: blasting my "iPoot" with my latest favourite by them "MAGIC ROOM" & a really emo production "感情线"! ((((((((((: i've never been so into a band before. i love their voices please! ooooooooo...

爱情魔发师.

2007-11-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

i'm having my vcd spreeeeeeeeeee! haha. watching 爱情魔发师 now, and i'm really going gaga over the whole show. although i know i'm a little "outdated" in watching the show, but i'm really going mad over it. HAHA! anyhow, I LIKE 杜亚斯! wahahahahahahahahahaha! call me crazy, mad, nuts or... haha. but i still like 杜亚斯 or rather, 明道! haha! okay! i'm MAD! (:

[add]

感情线 - 183 CLUB

我想我已开始有点疑惑
好像被他说中些什么
难道已经没有别的选择
只能乖乖的束手就策

难过的是我们做了选择
是对是错谁也没把握
如果要我放手才能获得
为何在我心中
有舍不得

看着你要走
还装著笑容
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久
如果现在开口
如何挽留
感情这条线
注定只能这么远

不敢相信已经来到终点
想你爱他必定多一些
我们之间不可能再回到从前
我还傻傻画着
幸福线

看着你走远
还继续装笑脸
掩饰折磨我能撑多久
如果现在开口
怎么挽留
感情这条线
注定无法延长一点

你已不在
而我何时才清醒
相信一切都是命
不曾放弃你 (不曾放弃你)
我不会说什么
默默的承受
像个男子汉

看着你要走 (看着看着你要走)
还装着笑容 (多么多么笑容)
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久 (还要撑多久)
如果现在开口 (现在开口)
如何挽留 (如何挽留)
感情这条线
注定只能这么远

看着你要走 (woo~)
还装着笑容 (We will carry on)
掩饰的脆弱要撑多久 (knowing there were words i've never said baby)
如果现在开口 (现在开口)
如何挽留 (如何挽留)
感情这条线
注定只能这么远

let the words remain unsaid

-end-

daddy & mummy are home! (: they "swept" back bags of goodies! haha. they left with ONE luggage, but came back with THREE, and THREE plastic bags! haha! can guess how much goodies they manage to stuff inside those bags! hohoho! home alone no more! (; and mama's bringing me to get my black long sleeve top tomorrow for AKE's performance on saturday! (: that means, I GET TO GO SHOPPING! haha! ((((((:

anyhow, my main computer decided to go on strike and ditch me. it's NOT WORKING and i cannot do anything with it. now, me & my sisters, FOUR OF US, are "fighting" over the use of the laptop! daddy say, "it's time to get a new computer..." ((((((((: but i hate my main com for ditching me at this moment, when i have yet to finish copying of some stuff! and i haven't load my whole file of photos lah! ):

okay, nothing's gonna make my mood go down down down. i've got a week filled with FUN, LAUGHTER, EXCITEMENT & not forgetting GROOVE! (; DANCE FANTASYYYYYYYYY! haha. now, my priority is... CHECK OUT THOSE STUFF IN MY PARENTS' LUGGAGE! hahaha! LEONG & EDITH SWEETS! we MUST head to HK next year okay? and sweep those shops and shop till we drop yea? ((((((((: *egggggggg-cited!

sometimes, i think there's no need to flaunt what you have, what you can do, or what you wish for others to know you can do or have. people have eyes to see for themselves. if you really have it, people know. why flaunt it? it might end up being mere faking, and again, people will know. (:

time check : 11.40pm

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BORED!

2007-11-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

I'M FREAKING BORED! there's practically nothing for me to do luh! although i've got a whole lot of shows to watch, but i feel so bored! computer is no longer attractive like it used to during exam days, and the tv is also losing it's appeal! the bed is calling out to me, but i feel so sick and tired of sleeping, even when i haven't replenish my sleep. I'M BORED! SAVE ME! ):

[add]

i know what to do when i'm bored. (: ONLINE WINDOW SHOPPING! (: i'm falling in love with stuff and items from maple syrup! they are super pretty and really provoking my shopping-spree desire. haha!

[/add]

freed. (:

2007-11-23T00:59:00.000+08:00

I'M FREE-D! ((((((((((: free from the As and free from uniform life! no more uniform for the rest of my life! haha. i feel relieved for everything is over now, but at the same time, i'm beginning to worry about the results. okay, i know it's still early to think about that. now, it's time to PLAY, PARTY & INDULGE MYSELF IN A TRUCKLOAD OF ENTERTAINMENT! i feel so deprived of all these great stuff lah! not forgetting, catching up on my beauty sleep, and get rid of those horrible dark rings round my eyes! have been losing sleep since prelim days, and every night seems to be so long and draggy 'cos i just can't get to sleep. ): mdm siti says that this is a psychological barrier. well, now that As are over, i can get better sleep and replenish all that i've lost since september! my two months worth of sleep! ((:

daddy & mummy are both flying over to bangkok later in the evening, and back only on monday evening. so, it will be home alone for me & my sisters AGAIN! (: last year, diane & karen manage to come over to accompany us, this year, it will be just the four of us, my grandmama & my maid. (: INDEPENDENT I SHALL BE! (; i can cook hor! and i make sure i feed my sisters till they are fat fat! haha!

so... what am i suppose to do now? i need to do quite a number of things actually. i got to start packing my bookshelves and keep all the notes and books that i want to keep as memorial, 'cos mummy & daddy are going to refurnish our house! (: and i need to clear my own cupboards, throw unwanted clothes away, especially those over-sized ones. (; oh! and i need to keep those little gifts like soft toys, little notes, little cards and whatnots properly into a safe box so that i won't spoil them. especially my little red devil which has accompanied me through As & my 2nd TP! (;

most importantly, I'M OFFICIALLY UNEMPLOYED! yes! unemployed. i'm one of those who are able to work and are actively looking for a job. i need a job like superrrrrr badly. i need to work to earn money, and start being even more INDEPENDENT! after being taken care of for the past 19 years, it's time i take care of myself and to earn for my own retail therapy sessions. also, not forgetting my CAR! i need to feed that TOYOTA ALTIS that's parked outside my gate man! so, i need to work! anyone nice enough to give me lobang? i swear, i will LOVE you like crazy. (:

i think i'm mad from the As. i seem to be talking, nonsensical stuff? haha. i'm still quite high because i've completed my As. yay! haha. okay, it's time for me to go watch some drama before i sleep. (: oh! before i go, i remembered. there's another thing i need to do! BRUSH UP ON "DANCE FANTASY"! why why why? 'cos i'm helping AKE with their performance on the 1st of dec at SP. and miss wee wanted them to play "DANCE FANTASY", so me & gracie darling are back at it, and moving our robotic hands. (: ROCK SP WE WILL! (; that means, i'm STILL going back to school next week, and till next sat's performance is over. i miss ake practices and i miss my vibraphone. i miss my sunshine's disturbing, and i miss my section members. those good old days were really good old days...

old.

2007-11-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

i feel old, or maybe, i really am. just one hour at the vibraphone, my legs & back are aching. i used to stand there for hours, and am still super energetic. now, i feel as though my legs are breaking if i walk on. okay, just admit it, I'M OLD.

five hours of management consultation today. woohoo~ results better reflect!

two more days, just two more days, and i'm officially declared, FREE-D. ((: GANBATTE!

grace & shirley are back at it. (: let US rock YOUR life with DANCE FANTASY. (:

insecured. ):

2007-11-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

suddenly, i feel very insecure. now that As are ending, and i realise that i have been leaving the exam hall feeling rather good, at least, i feel as though i didn't meet much difficulties while i attempted the papers, except for econs. it's supposed to be something to be happy over, but i just feel scared with what i'm actually feeling. i don't wish to feel down and stuff, especially when i've already completed most of my papers, and i'm left with one last paper to dash for. so, there's really no point going down on my own morale. but as i think and wonder about the outcome i will have to face next march, i just can't help it, but feel the fear covering my anxiety for post-As. i really really really want to do well and allow myself to go to where i want to be in next august. apart from that, i also want to make up for all the blunders that i've made during the Os. i don't want to let what happened in march 2005 happen all over again three years later, crying at my shitty results, and regretting why didn't i work hard for my exams. but this time round, i did work at it over the past months, i really did. i just want my effort to pay off in a rewarding manner. i don't want to regret for insisting on staying in MI, i don't want to see my three years worth of effort and struggle to be up there going down the drain. i don't want others to point at me next march, and say, "told you! go to the poly, and you won't be facing this now! it was your choice back then!"

although after the common test last year, there were times when i really start to wonder if i should continue staying in MI and try once more, or should i just leave and do something else? but when i cleared midyears and promos with much better grades and making it to year3 with my own effort, i know, i didn't make the wrong decision to stay on. now that everything is coming to an end, i just hope that i really did make the best out of everything. if anything were to flop next march, i can jolly well say goodbye to my dreams and aspirations, and just accept whatever comes my way. afterall, it would be my own doing.

):

i believe in angels.something good in everything i see. (:

2007-11-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

i have a dream - westlife

i have a dream, a song to sing
to help me cope, with anything
if you see the wonder, of a fairytale
you can take the future, even if you fail
i believe in angels, something good in everything i see
i believe in angels, when i know the time is right for me
i'll cross the stream, i have a dream

oh yeah~

i have a dream, a fantasy
to help me through, reality
and my destination, makes it worth the while
pushing through the darkness, still another mile
i believe in angels, something good in everything is see
i believe in angels, when i know the time is right for me
i'll cross the stream, i have a dream

i have a dream, a song to sing
to help me cope, with anything
if you see the wonder, of a fairytale
you can take the future, even if you fail
i believe in angels, something good in everything i see
i believe in angels, when i know the time is right for me
i'll cross the stream, i have a dream

i'll cross the stream...
i have a dream...

-end-

although unreal, i still choose to believe that angels exist. (: at least, they never fail to bring along something good, or even, someone good. (:

ipod classic. ((:

2007-11-16T18:06:00.000+08:00

i lovelovelove my ipod classic! (: daddy & mummy bought it for me last weekend, and it's accompanying me through long bus rides and terrible econs since then. (: it's 80GB, and i'm so gonna load videos into it so that i can bring it on the plane when i fly off to chiangmai at the end of the year. (: and and! i added my lovelies photos inside it as well! (: so wherever i go now, i get to see my lovelies. whee~

this is how it looks like! (;

the front.

the back & side. i call it "the BACK-SIDE"! haha! (;

my pinky classic! (((((((((:

i ~~highly~~ strongly recommend this song sang by tay ping hui. (: it's super super nice and the lyrics are really good. (;

跟着我一起 - 郑斌辉

挺着胸走向
那装载梦想的天际
用汗水洗脸
坚持它在山颠屹立
骄傲地扛起
最倔强的勇气
我从不掩饰
胸中那颗狂热的心

日月在交替
每天十崭新的自己
风雨的洗礼
我微笑着继续前进
一张开双臂
就能拥抱天地
就算铜墙铁壁
也抵挡不住前行

跟着我一起分分秒秒梦想决不放弃
不相信命运相信快乐伤悲自己决定
跟着我一起时时刻刻都卯足了全力
一路的起落都是最美的风景

跟着我一起选择活出最精彩的生命
漫长的黑夜是为酝酿更绚烂的黎明
跟着我一起让时间写下壮阔的诗集
有天回头看
都是温暖的回忆

-end-

sometimes, things & feelings are just, more than words...

almost! (:

2007-11-14T23:09:00.000+08:00

one more paper to go, and i'm done with the BIG & HORRIBLE As! ((((((((((((: haha. i must admit that this entire process really stressed & tire me out. the whole journey ain't short and easy, but being able to walk all the way till where i am now, i think... that's really something. haha! okay, i just wanna rest like a pig now, before i start charging at management! hohoho.

there's something i really really really need to declare. I'VE BROKEN FREE FROM ECONOMICS! (((((((((: SHIRLEY NEED NOT DO ECONS ANYMORE! and... SHIRLEY WILL NEVER NEVER NEVER TOUCH ECONOMICS FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE! econs really make me go jelly and crazy. before the papers start these two days, my hands were like freaking icy cold before i enter the exam hall, and i get stomach pains and keep wanting to go to the toilet. weird lah! i've never get these kind of jitters before. now that it's over, i really feel one whole heap of burden off my chest and everything is like so relaxed already. (;

yay yay! i'm enjoying tv's companion today. (: been super long since i last stare at the black box, it's a super great feeling! best of all, SCV's showing my darling show! ((: whee~

companianship. (:

2007-11-06T18:49:00.000+08:00

sometimes, presence is more than enough. (: at least, to me, it's enough to make me smile, and feel good for the entire day. (:

maths was good today. (: i hope whatever i've done for today's paper is enough to make up for the blunders i made in paper 1. (: so far, after completing 1A and 2AO papers, maths is the paper that i have the greatest confidence in. but, that's provided careless mistakes are at the lowest level. i'm a careless worm, a very very very careless one. haha!

i miss fridays and our short yet wonderful shared moments.

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07/11/2007

i'm suppose to study for this friday's management paper, but i'm actually thinking about econs. ): i need to do something to break away from that consistent E grade. i don't want an E on my A levels cert. ): i'm scared. ):

okay, i'm sick, with a swollen throat. ): WHY NOW? ):

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what's new?

2007-10-31T21:17:00.000+08:00

i ain't leaving SSDC afterall AGAIN! ): yes, i flunked my TP again! ): this time round, i got NO ONE to blame for the failure, but only myself. i mounted that stupid horrible kerb, the kerb that EVERY single testee were afraid of. after learning driving for near to a year, although this is my second time mounting the kerb, but, WHY NOW? don't ask me, 'cos i don't know how to answer. ): everything was so freaking smooth can? and it's direction change which i mounted that freaking kerb. i can change my lanes, i can do my parking, i can do every single thing even when i'm on the road, i just flop at the direction change. and, IT's MY FIRST CIRCUIT COURSE THAT I'M TESTED FOR, AND THE ONE WHICH I'VE PRACTISED FOR LIKE AN HOUR YESTERDAY! okay, i feel like a total retard. i got my turning points, everything were so nicely done, but when i wanted to leave that direction change lot, i just got to MOUNT THAT STUPID HORRIBLE KERB! okay, i don't need to feel like a retard, 'cos i really am. what the hell lah! i could have passed it and get my license like today lor! damn! ):

although i failed TP today, and i feel so utterly disappointed with myself, i ain't sad anymore. remember the first time i flunked it? i was like sad for don't know how many days, and cried for don't know how many times like mad? this time round, I'M STRONGER? i cried twice only. haha! maybe because i know it's my freaking fault, so yea. ): i just feel so sorry for uncle salleh & paul "gor gor". uncle salleh even arrange for me my warm-up instructor! ): and when i return from my test route, uncle salleh even showed me the "good" sign, and at that moment, i feel like crying already. 'cos i know, i didn't clear it, and i can imagine that disappointing look on his face. ): oh well! i'm so gonna clear my TP the third time round! now, it's clearing my As that's the most "hot" thing on my list. I WANNA GO TO NTU! ((:

GP paper was okay i hope, though paper 1 was tough. i thought paper 2 was easier than paper 1. and i did my AQ properly this time round! (: my time management was so much better than during prelims! at least i've given myself 20 mins for both the SQ & AQ. (: i'm so happy when i handed in my p2, 'cos i did my AQ properly. (: work and effort of 3 full years are all over and done with within 3 hours time. the feeling is, complicated. it's just so nice to clear my table of those subjects that i've cleared for As. (: i've just sorted out my GP stuff nicely, and they are all in my sister's bookshelves! (:

the end.

2007-10-29T20:43:00.000+08:00

completed my CLA paper today, and honestly, i still can't believe that i've actually did CLA for three years! amazing huh! from the day i stepped into MI on 03/01/2005, i was so determined that i wanted to do CLA, despite people telling me how hard i need to study for this subject, and the kind of work that i have to go through, like having chinese literature classes? after PAE'05, i was still so determined that i wanted to do CLA, and i really did. (: i dozed off during chinese lit class in year one, 'cos everything was just so dry and boring. but i felt guilty after that, and i chiong-ed! haha! oh well, i'm still amazed that i've actually completed the entire course of it. (:

today is just a day of which i pour everything that i've learnt over the past three years out from within, and just wanting to score for the paper. (: i'm not sure what my grade would be like, but i know i've already put in my very best. (:

consultations with ignatious a week before our paper was really good, and i will seriously miss him, those consultation periods and us chiong-ing papers to let mrs tan mark them. (: i'll definitely miss my dearest CLA classmates, and the four teachers. (: i'm glad we've all strived through three years of CLA, and built such great friendship. (: KUDOS TO CLA! ((:

my other half. (:

2007-10-25T19:40:00.000+08:00

FINAL COUNTDOWN! ):

NO. OF DAYS TO START OF As : 4 DAYS!

NO. OF DAYS TO TP : 6 DAYS!

NO. OF DAYS TO END OF As : 29 DAYS! ((:

i'm looking forward to the end. (:

TP IS ONLY 6 DAYS AWAY? that's like super scary adding on to the stress & scary feeling i'm having over As! it's like after GP paper on wednesday. so, by the time i'm on my way for TP, i'm already near to being fully dead. okay, wish me luck! (: i wanna driveeeeee!

my other half these days are, my books, notes, pencil case & MY PINK NALGENE! ((:

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26/10/2007

you, your words & smile makes me go WOOOO~ ((:

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photos splash! ((:

2007-10-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

i enjoyed grad tea yesterday. (: thank you to all, for all the fun, cam-waring, and most importantly, making my last schooling day in MI such a blast. ((: i shall let the photos do the talking! ((:

the BEST class of 2007 : O5A2. ((: i'm so gonna miss you guys please! the noise especially! (;

mr tan! ((: he's my awesome gp tutor! ((:

mr thiang, my favourite maths tutor. ((:

jasmine girlfriend. (:

sher girlfriend. (:

jas & cj. *loves!

NADIA DARLING! ((:

our one & only pencil. (; she went through a lot with me in 2007, and i really love her to the max! ((:

JULIEEEEE! ((: she never fail to cheer me up with her smiley face followed by a hug to ensure that i feel better and i'm okay. (: i love julie sweets! and i'm so gonna miss her, her hugs and her big wide smile! (;

gracie darling. ((: i'll miss the times she do my hair for me... those great ake days, were when we start chiong-ing for our bars and chase after those birdies, and the times when we both got lost, together with nilam & jannah, we will just laugh our hearts out. ((: i miss those ake days, and i miss talking to gracie lulu!

jannah BABAT! ((: she loves to call me "WIJAYA AUNTY!" but recently, she invented "SHIRBAT!" haha! she's like another me, who can laugh and laugh non-stop. her laughter is like a spray that infects others, and we will all start laughing. ((: i will definitely miss this babat sayang of mine! (;

another sweetie, yinwhee. (: i miss gossiping with her lah! the little secret that she kept for me, all the way from march till now, haha, i hope i didn't burst her with it! (: thanks for being so ever protective towards me, and every little thing girl. (: i love you too! ((:

LEONG! ((: sweet right this photo? (; i seriously miss those times we chatted online till like 2am? and those wonderful times we had, talking heart to heart. i learnt a lot from leong, and he really did made me a stronger girl this year. (: thanks leong dearie, for everything from then till now, and i will never forget. (: i promise to tutor your kids in future okay? haha! (;

MISS WEEEEEEE! ((: the countless number of chances she gave me to let me shine, i'll never forget. ((:

MY BIGGEST SUNSHINE LOVE, NOOR HENDRA SHAHRIL BIN SUPA'AT! ((: i love him! to the coreeeee! i'll miss him like crazy, and i really will. ): there's nothing else i have to say, 'cos i just love this sunshine of mine. (: thanks love, for everything. (: you know what i want to say, so yup! take good care of yourself, and I LOVE YOU! ((:

last but not least, this greatest love of mine, ignatious cha! (: through the past 6 months especially, i'm really thankful for him to be with me. (: the endless encouragement, support and motivation he gave, really helped a lot. whenever i'm down, his words and actions really make me feel so much better all over again, and i really smile from ear to ear. aside from hendra love, he's another darling, who can really bring me that upside down rainbow. ((: at this very crucial moment, when we are really so close to the end, he still never fail to push me on to better myself. (:
thanks love! for all the great times, those mornings, those breakfast time, those wonderful talks we had, and everything that you've done. (: thanks for always making me smile, and making me feel really forturnate to have you with me. (: i love ignatious dearie! ((: *HUGS HUGS*

for more grad tea photos, click HERE! ((:

okay! ((: now, another photo! ((:

i'm proud to declare myself as a MIAKE-ian. ((: this is our glorious photo. GO MIAKE! ((:

it's kinda blur, 'cos i don't know how to operate the new scanner. well, for the clearer version, click HERE! ((:

wanted to add in the class photos, but they are blur as well. ): so, click HERE for class photos! ((:

okay! i'm done! exams are drawing super near, and i'm really mugging my head off. see you guys around! ((: LOVELOVE! ((:

i love ssdc. ((:

2007-10-14T03:07:00.000+08:00

can time not fly so fast please? i hardly have time to take a short break, let alone sleep. i'm freaking tired, and really zapped. i feel hopeless, maybe i really am. ):

revision & chiong-ing aside, i love driving practical on friday. (: was a little late due to the traffic jam, but the uncles at SSDC were really nice. when i reach the centre, i was practically running my way to the cars area, and the uncles there upon seeing me running across the zebra crossing, asked me for my car number and got my instructor waiting for me. (: as i was about to drive off, i saw paul "gor gor"! ((: the entire session was rather cool, although i was draggy here and there in my speed. plus point! the new instructor was really nice, and gave me endless dose of confidence pills. (: in short, i love friday's practice to the max.

well, just when i'm back to my "i love SSDC practices like madness" mood, i got to face the fact, again, that i'm leaving that place soon. although i really want to pass my freaking TP super badly, but i really hate to leave SSDC. the place where my unwillingness to learn driving was taken away, the place where the nice uncles & paul "gor gor" brought my confidence level higher, the place where i know more people, and also met up with those whom i've lost touch with... memories lah can? okay, emo is setting in, but i still hate to leave SSDC. ):

meals these days were rather bad and difficult for me, 'cos my wisdom tooth is GROWING AGAIN! ): i had difficulty chewing my food, so i took hours to eat. AND, mummy cooked a feast on friday lah! it was like a mini-CNY eve celebration. poor me ended up eating only about a quarter bowl of rice with two fried prawns. i took half an hour to eat those, and by the time i finish, the others are already almost done. ): and last night, we went for crabs feast again! a table of 12, with six big crabs cooked in four different ways and other side dishes. and poor me, again, i can't eat much, 'cos my mouth still hurts. ): and curry crab was the highlight lah! with my all-time favourite, OYSTER VERMICELLI! ): i hate my wisdom tooth! it's not even bringing me wisdom! all it knows is to GROW GROW GROW, and ALWAYS at the wrong time. ):

exam period always meant blogging at weird hours. i need to sleep already. eyes are like closing, and i feel so ugly with those dark rings. ): anyhow, stay tune for wednesday's grad tea photos! ((:

i love the song that's playing now. ((: will get the lyrics up soon! ((:

goodnight world, and i love you all. ((:

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i'm feeling like shit now. no one bothers to even understand what i'm going through, and stop bothering me with things and showing me faces & attitudes that are totally unnecessary now. i just feel that it's so unfair. ):

time check : 7.15pm.

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drawing near.

2007-10-11T16:52:00.000+08:00

the number of days are getting lesser and lesser, with my heart racing faster and faster. i'm feeling really tired & zapped, and a severe lack of proper sleep. but then again, it's ending already. (: after everything is over, all will fall back into place. (: PERSEVERE! ((:

let's do some count down...

NO. OF DAYS TO As : 18 DAYS!

NO. OF DAYS TO TP : 20 DAYS!

NO. OF DAYS TO END OF As : 26 DAYS! ((:

okay, not that bad. just keep going, just keep going, going going going GOING! ((:

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SSDC just sent me a red letter. yes, to inform me that TP is on the 31st. so nice of them to remind me of my terror. thank you.

three hours of chinese lit paper is no joke. my wrist is aching like madness, but i'm glad to say, i completed the paper within three hours, FOR THE FIRST TIME! and, without much reference to my notes! ((: YAYNESS! (;

time check : 10.43pm.
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tagged. (:

2007-10-07T16:50:00.000+08:00

syazaPURPLE tagged me this a LONG time ago, and i think hendra sunshine tagged me as well recently. HAHA! okay, time to "repay debt". (;

1. List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
good As grades. (:
NTU division of CHINESE/PSYCHOLOGY
onitsuka tiger norico pumps? *haha!*
more more retail therapy! (;
good health, less troubles & worries, stay happy
2. The person who tagged u is:
syazaPURPLE ((:
hendra SUNSHINE LOVE (;
3. Your relationship with them is:
syaza's my dearest PURPLE-darling. ((: she's one of the greatest love i've met in MI. (;
hendra is my SUNSHINE LOVE! and i really love him to bits. so, enough said. (:
4. Your 5 impressions of them:
syaza : lovely, PURPLE, sweetheart, smiley, MSN partner during maths class! (;
hendra : NAUGHTY BOY who loves to "ka jiao" me, sweet to the core, lovable, understanding, my one & only brightest & greatest sunshine. (:
5. The most memorable thing they have done for you:
syaza : surprising me on my birthday with a cute teddy on my table in class & staying with me through my toughest time. (:
hendra : bringing me that upside down rainbow on my face all the time & saying words that touched me so much that made me cry. (:
6. The most memorable words they have said to you:
syaza : i deserve the sweetest dream. (:
hendra : "anyways if you cry, there will always be me here. so dont worry..." ((:
7. If they become your lover, you will?:
syaza : make myself purple as well. HAHA! but things will be great. ((:
hendra : i will go bonkers with all the laughing. haha! but i believe, things would be good. (;
8. If they’re your lovers, what they have to improve on?:
syaza & hendra : nothing actually.
9. If they become your enemy, you will:
syaza & hendra : cry like a maddy, then make sure we're all okay afterwards. ((:
10. If they become your enemy, the reason is:
syaza & hendra : i'm the greatest fool on earth to let that happen. ):
11. The most desired thing you would like to do for them now is?:
syaza : GO GO GO FOR A LEVELS! ((:
hendra : sit beside one another again, and have a really good talk. ((:
12. Your overall impression of them:
syaza & hendra : BIG BIG LOVE. (;
13. How do you think people around you will feel about you:
a mad woman.
14. The character you love about yourself is:
laughing bad things away. (:
15. On the contrary, what character you hate about yourself:
VERY VERY emotional, retarded & always a tad slower. ):
16. The most ideal person I would like to be:
still, myself. (:
17. For the people who cared & liked you, say something to them:
i love every single one of you, no matter what. (: *hugs*
18. Pass this quiz to 10 people that u wish to know how they feel about you:
EDITH, nancy dear, shihui, claris girlfriend, yinwhee, yunzhen, nadia, farhana, jasmine girlfriend, dian sayang.
Who’s #2 having relationship with? : me! ((:
Is #9 a female/male? : female.
If #1 & #10 be together, will it be a good thing? : HAHA! i don't think so...
#3 and #4? : may click as friends, not as a couple. haha!
#2 studying about? : business, and is at SHANGHAI now!
When was the last time you chatted with #3? : long long ago... ):
What kind of music does # 8 like? : ehhhhh...? not sure. =p
Does #6 has any siblings? : yes! one sister. (;
Will u woo # 3? : why not? haha!
How about #7? : YES! ((: i love nadnad!
Is #4 single? : no. she's happily attached. (;
Surname of #5? : NG! ((: we're both NGs! (;
What’s the hobby of #5? : good question. music i guess?
#3 studying at? : NYP.
Have you tried developing feelings for #8? : haha! no.
What colour does #4 like? : green & orange.
Are #1 and #3 best friends? : superrrrr besties. (;
#5 have a pet? : i don't think so...

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OKAY! i'm done with it. haha. it's kinda long and all. but it took me just nice 20mins to complete it. and that's it! break time ends! ((:

SEE YOU ALL AROUND! ((: lovelove!

slipped.

2007-10-05T23:30:00.000+08:00

happy birthday hidayah sayang. ((:

that's me (with super small eyes) and hidayah! (;

i'm feeling better already. (: thanks to those who asked & cared. (: i'm no longer feeling as breathless like the past few days, and the pressure at the chest area is less intense. i just need to walk and climb those staircases slower, like an old woman. haha! still, thanks lovelies! ((:

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look at my "the wants '07" list, and spot "onitsuka tiger norico pumps"! ((: i finally got hold of it's "look-alike" picture! (;

photo credits : ONITSUKA TIGER AUSTRALIA

these two colours are sweet, but the pair that i wanted is pinkish-orange in colour, or maybe it's fuschia. the design is something like this, and i seriously love it. (; i can't wait to see the pumps live, so that i can decide if i should or should not get it. anyhow, i still love it. (:

shirley & caihua are madness over ONITSUKA TIGERRRRRRR! (; it reminds me of leong's SHUS! ((:
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suffocated-ness.

2007-10-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

i got this super suffocated feeling as i mug these days. or rather, over the past few days. whenever i get into real hardcore mugging, making myself think really hard, i will find difficulty in breathing properly, and i can't think. then i would be like fighting for air and have a really tight feeling. like as though i will collapse the next moment because i don't have enough air. okay, i must be having illusions. i just hope they won't become bad, that's all!

daddyLOW turns another year older today! YAY! let me help him with a birthday wish. may he find me a mummyLOW soon! haha! (; i hope daddy's fine. it has been exactly 9 MONTHS since i last saw him on the first day of school this year. YES! THAT'S "AWESOMELY" LONG PLEASE.

tuankiak, don't say i not fair ah! tomorrow's TUANKIAK's BIRTHDAY, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUANKIAK! (:

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03/10/2007

today is not just suffocated-ness. or rather, from last night, it is more than suffocated-ness. i can't breathe properly, and practically fighting for my own share of air. i feel as though asthma is acting out of nowhere, and i was so scared i can't wake up this morning if i sleep last night. okay, i know it's dumb/weird/mad to feel that way. but i was really feeling terrible last night.

mummy made me visit Dr Pow in the evening, 'cos she said i was really pale and i can't talk without breaking up my sentence into parts, and breathing really deeply in between the parts. Dr Pow says that it's due to stress. and he gave me pills for regulating my breathing and relaxaion. i think the pills are working, although i still feel breathless once in awhile, and the pressure is still there. i hope the condition will improve, and i will feel better really soon. it's sucky for this to happen like now, when it's so near exams. ):

*BOO-

time check: 11.58pm
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cravings.

2007-09-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

i'm craving for BLACK PEPPER & CHILLI CRABS! ((: last night's dinner was not really good, and it didn't satisfy my cravings. so... i want to eat them NOW! wahaha! =p

the week that just past was rather well-spent. (: completed revision:

one & a half chinese lit story
business finance & decision making for
management
international trade, balance of payment & foreign
exchange for econs
did one compre & two essays for GP
one set of maths (full paper)

i feel accomplished. ((:

almost all papers were returned, and among all, the most satisfying ones are CLA & maths. (: as for the others, i can't do anything about them now. i can only move forward, and do better during As. i shall depend on myself for econs, and strive for at least a C. mdm siti expects at least a B from me, but i hope i can do well enough for an A. i may sound a little greedy, but i hope to achieve an AAC & B4A1 in march next year. okay, actions speak louder than words. mug real hard is the best way for me to achieve what i want. ((: GOOOOO!

i'm gonna run with diane later in the evening! woohoo! we're determined to shed more kilos, and we're gonna run 7 rounds together. (; the number of rounds will keep increasing every week. (; all these running shall make up for my not running for the standard chartered marathon in december. daddy don't allow me to take part in the marathon, 'cos he's scared that as i run for the 10K, i might faint/collapse halfway through. oh well, since he don't like me to run, then i shall be a good girl. (:

GRACIE DARLING's BIRTHDAY TOMORROW! ((: happy happy birthday gracie birdie. and i seriously miss you & those bird calls + running notes like madness! *hugshugs love! (;

tomorrow's also CHILDRENS' DAY! ((: shannon's a lucky girl, 'cos she need not go to school tomorrow! ): friday was pre-childrens' day celebration in school i guess. 'cos on my way to SSDC for driving, i saw many kiddos with bags of goodies in their hands, and they are smiling from ear to ear. ((: i miss childrens' day party during primary school days. those parties and concerts... anyhow, there's a kid in everyone, regardless of how old you are. so, enjoy the day, and feel like a kid all over again. (:

partial hiatus.

2007-09-26T18:51:00.000+08:00

today is not a good day. morning started off a little haywire, followed by more papers being returned when lessons start. things are not really fantastic, and it's just one disappointment after another. now, i just feel like crying my entire heart out, then force myself to sleep everything away. wake up, start everything all over again, and work like a maddy over the next 33 days.

over the next one month in or outside of school, i may have serious mood swings and even a weird/bad temper. do shake me & rail at me if things get out of hand. or, maybe give me some space when i don't look like & don't act like my usual self. i really need to push myself to the ultimate, and strive through the next one month. after that, i'll be fine all over again.

from today onwards, SHIRS-WORLD will be on partial hiatus, till As are over. may come back now & then, to pop some updates, or rant some frustrations.

take care, good luck, and thank you. (:

two years ago...

2007-09-25T18:52:00.000+08:00

two years ago, for mid-autumn festival celebration at bartley campus...

we had 10 suns shining in our little audi...

our "hou yi" came to save us! (;
*i miss hari. ): *

we had an astronaut to bring us on a space tour...

and a super cute rabbit who accompanied "chang e" on the moon! ((:

the CLA girls collaborated with CCS, and we had the entire show going. ((: ignatius was really nice to be our "bartley bunny", who hopped all the way from the back of the audi to the stage. he really made the entire bunch of audience burst out with laughter. (;

i had a chair reserved for me that day. ((:

i miss bartley. the little audi that accomodated us all, the air-y classrooms with BIG windows & small doors, the cooling gym, and the toilet with no doors. =p

happy mid-autumn! ((:

DKSYJ! (:

2007-09-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

i'm a happy girl today! are you? (: haha. i think today's the HIGHEST moment for this entire week. after a few weeks of feeling down & rather shitty, whatever i had today just made me really happy. happiness was extended from friday till today. ((: LOVES!

DKSYJ outing today! ((: was so happy & excited that i didn't have the mood to really sit down and study. did only like one gp outline, and a set of maths. most of the time, i was just waiting for the clock to strike 5.15. =p

running with my dino darling was cool-ness. we did 2.4km today! haha. 6 rounds round the stadium was rather a "challenge" for us, especially when we haven't been running for like 5 months? haha! but, we finished 6 rounds! ((: after running, we went back to her house for our shower. before showering, she fed me with a bowl of dessert that her mama prepared for me *aunty is super sweet! ((: *, and a piece of 老婆饼. ((:

oh! after our run today, we bumped into MR WU, who taught in PSS. (: diane remembers him, but i only have some vague memory. he asked what are we doing now, while diane proudly declares NTU, i proudly declares MI. (: he even asked if it was my last year, and also about this particular tall girl who plays volleyball. diane & i gathered that he's referring to riccia. haha! (; well, i kinda miss PSS's teachers, whom i've not seen for ages. ): mrs gan arranged for this gathering for all her chem students which i missed last year, due to piano practical exam. and this year? i missed teachers' day visiting AGAIN, due to driving at SSDC. =x okay, i will TRY not to miss it next year. i wanna see the teachers who are still in PSS. (:

i keep having to chase after buses today. =x ran after 107 when i went to meet diane, and ran after 62 when we both went to meet the rest of DKSYJ. and we chased for 62 after we showered lah! so we were all perspire-y when we reach hougang mall. still, we exchanged hugs & hellos. ((: KAREN MANAGED TO JOIN US! ((: finally, the entire DKSYJ is back. ((:

karen is still as pretty & fair as ever. (: yun zhen still as laugh-y as ever. (: diane is still as mad as ever. (: and jieyan still as cranky as ever. (: BUT! i don't get to see jieyan's BOTAK head! ): i asked him to snip off his hair, so that i can see him BOTAK. =p but he did become fitter than before, and he claimed that he put on weight after serving NS. haha! =p

had AJISEN RAMEN for dinner tonight! and we had a great time laughing, teasing one another & not forgetting, YAKKING! ((: the entire place was filled with our voice and laughter, and we didn't bother about the people around us. that's just US making a little noise. want more than this noise level? wait till year end. (; we promise endless joy & noise, and sure, no one can stand us. HAHA! =p

after our dinner and fun, we started cam-waring! ((: our favourite past-time! ((: we can never leave for home without taking photos with one another. so now, we all have got updated photos of DKSYJ! yay! (:

she's my dino darling. (: cute hor! finally, i'm no longer un-glam/retarded in our cranky photos! =p

karen's a dearie. (: i miss her like truckies loadies, including lorries & buses. =p

yz's my look-alike from some angle. (; and i miss her A LOT too! ((:

jieyan! HOW CAN HE HAVE HAIR WHEN I HAVE YET TO SEE HIS BOTAK HEAD? =x

when it's a MUST for her to bully me. (;

i really had a lot of fun today. (: although it's just a short 2 hour plus gathering, i'm really happy that DKSYJ is back together again. (: all the talks and laughter we had just now, were really awesome. (: thanks for the hugs & lucks for my As before we went home just now. (: they will be my greatest booster as well, for the remaining days of mugging & chiong-ing! (: and i'll be looking forward to year end, when we all meet again, and have more more fun. (: hopefully, by then, i would have already cleared TP, then we can drive round town without having to squeeze with people on the buses & trains. (: thank you DKSYJ, for the wonderful night. (: i really love every single one of you, and i really can't wait for year end to come. (: LOVES & HUGS TO YOU FOUR DEARIES. ((: truckloads of misses!

chelsea & manchester united was having a game just now. lampard didn't play i guess, 'cos i don't see him on the field. ): just before half-time, Man U scored a goal, with chelsea scoring none. IT's OKAY! go chelsea! ((: daddy's asleep i guess, so can't check the score with him. whatever it is, GO CHELSEA! (;

enough of happy times & great enjoyment. time to get back to real serious mugging. later today, it will be the beginning of serious business, and it's just for the next 35 days. (: i'll strive through it! YES I WILL! ((: i wanna be diane's junior, and jieyan's senior! wahaha. i want to be in the same school as diane again, so that she can help me with all the administration stuff when i get into NTU, and i want to drive her to school! ((: i wanna be in the course i want to be in, i wanna do what i want to do. (: for these, i'm gonna strive! WOOHOO! ((: go go go shirley! ((:

keep dreaming, the sky's the limit. ((:

don't.

2007-09-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

was helping clar gf with "the phantom of the opera" 's OST, and the cd played. i miss the musical and i wanna catch it again! of course, with better sitting area! ((:

school was dry today. but, my day started off really great, with a box of candies, that really sweeten everything, including all the bitter-ness i had before this morning arrived. (: now the pink piggy is sitting on top of that box of candies, accompanying me through all the revisions & papers i'll be ploughing through. (: they are my greatest encouragement and will be my best "stress remedy"! ((: lovelove to the sweet boy who gave them to me. *hugs* ((:

please, don't bring me up there, and let me fall to pit bottom. i can't take it, and i do not have the will and energy to play in this game. at least, not for the next two months.

i can!

2007-09-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

as much as i hate for it to happen, two parts of two papers were returned to us today. one made me smiled really widely, the other brought me a frown and disappointment. chinese language was done with a much seen improvement as compared to mids, and i really smiled at the grade i received. (: it has been super long, since i last saw that grade i received, and i'm really happy with it. (: econs mcq was below my expectation, and worst of all, below my own "self-set-threshold". i didn't clear it again, and i nearly cried when i saw my paper with only 10/30. although there's something wrong with the OAS machine, and i actually scored 13/30 instead, it's still way below expectation. ): i know it's too late for me to regret taking up econs, especially when i have only 39 days left to my big As. i can only push myself even further, and harder to ensure at least i secure at least a C grade for the As if possible. ):

well, dino darling says, i must say, "I CAN DO IT!", and i sure can do it. (: i can i can i can!

dino darling is my greatest love, and DKSYJ is my greatest pillar of support. (: when i face really terrible and shitty days in MI, especially this year, although DKSYJ can't be with me, i've found myself a bunch of lovelies to tide through all the ups & downs, be with me, support me and never left. (: after three full weeks of not seeing people like EDITH, IGNATIOUS, SHER, JAS, YICHUANG, LEONG, KIAT, JUNLONG, TK, SYAZA, FAD, HIDAYAH W, SERA, HENDRA SUNSHINE, FAHMI etc., when i get to see them all around in school today, i feel really happy. (: they are like my daily dose of happiness and love in school, and i really feel blessed to have them in my life. ((:

time really flies. i've been in MI for three full years. these three years are ending like so quickly, and i seem to haven't have enough of school days, where days are filled with playing, talking, learning & not forgetting all those little gossips & secrets that we spill to one another... and those times when we start to talk about this this this, that that that... =p school life is filled with endless wonderful moments. (: from the start of being part of MI, to being part of MIAKE, to meeting those wonderful lovelies whom i've crossed path with, and to all those whom i've built really great & close friendship with, i really really really enjoy and appreciate every single moment. (: how i wish time could just stop, and never go on, so that i can keep on enjoying what i am enjoying now. yes, how i wish...

whatever, i had my fair share of fun, and all the changes & obstacles that i've faced, especially this year, i hope they did make me stronger & braver? and also a better friend, and a better person to be with? i got to really say, i'm really thankful for being able to know people like all 05a2-ians, leong, ignatious and many others only this year. these are the people who made life a really different experience when i'm in an all new environment, and facing really different things and people. they made life easier, and much more fun-loving. (;

okay, enough of all the emo-y good days. daddy's undergoing a mini operation tomorrow, to remove a little lump at his neck. may the op be smooth, and daddy will be safe & sound. (:

the long awaited. (:

2007-09-19T20:38:00.000+08:00

after like donkey years, i'm finally meeting my dearest DKSYJ. (: the last time we really really met as an entire group is last year during yz's birthday celebration? after that, it was more of our separated meet ups. ): or rather, they meet up together without me, because of my busy schedule. ): ake pracs for syf and i-day made me lose the chances of being with them to celebrate their birthdays, because all our bdays fall between jan - may. and after that, i got to mug for mids, then prelims, and now, As. and it's really difficult for me to set aside time to meet up with them. ): anyhow, i'm meeting them this sunday for dinner! ((: it's time i make up to them huh! so yes! i'm gonna meet diane & jieyan for a run at the stadium in the evening, and then over to diane's place to shower, then meet up yz and hopefully, karen at hougang mall for dinner! ((: i'm so excited about sunday! woohoo! (;

didn't do much shopping today, 'cos mummy went to OG to do her point redemption thingy. what's there for me to see/buy at OG? nothing, 'cos that place don't suit me. haha! well, cannot really say i didn't buy anything. i bought a paper tray, and mummy bought us a new set of bedsheet, which i've decided to call it the "moomoo bedsheet", 'cos of the design. (; it's cute luh! the pillow case is PINK, with a cow in the middle. (; it's good to have young siblings, 'cos i get to use cute bedsheet! =p okay, i know, i'm still like a kid. =x

i love my new blogskin! haha. a simpler one and easy-to-work-with. i can change my header photo anyhow i want it to be. (; yadayada!

on our way to fetch my little sister from school today, we went pass the SINGAPORE FLYER, and we saw the near-to-completion flyer. ((:

FLY ME TO THE MOON... =p i wanna go up there one day! (;

that heart-shape reflection is my little pillow on the car. ((: i love this image. haha! cool! =p

i'm still all high & egg-cited about this sunday's meet up! ((: FINALLY, WE'RE MEETING UP! haha. we're go gonna cam-war together on that day luh! it has been ages, and it's really time to update some photos on DKSYJ! ((: ohhh! that means, I GET TO SEE JIEYAN's NEAR TO BOTAK HEAD! haha! i'm evil. =p

over over over! ((:

2007-09-18T23:18:00.000+08:00

YAYYYY! (((((: prelims are over! relieved that they are all over. whatever the results are going to be like, they are all over. i hope i did okay, i really hope i did and gave my best.

after days of mugging and being in total madness, i'm so gonna give myself a good day break. (: mama's bringing me shopping tomorrow, and i can sleep in tomorrow too! there's no school on monday and tuesday due to marking day, so more days to sleep in! (; haha. i feel so deprived of sleep totally. =x i went for my econs paper yesterday, and chinese lit paper today with a super bad headache, and i feel terrible while doing the paper. ): i nearly cried 'cos my head was really hurting like nuts, and it seems to be bursting as i tried to focus on the papers. ):

satuday night's dinner was great. (: i had a great time downing myself with laughters while looking at aunty yvonne & uncle raymond's kids, and talking to wenqian, wanting, wan xing & jon. ryan & roy are like super cute please. they can fight and eat at the same time, and they are really a pair of loving brothers. ((: grandma's happy, and she even get to sit in daddy's newly bought mercs benz. (; she really had a great great time enjoying the wonderful food, and receiving all the wishes & ang-baos the guests gave. (:

some photos from that night, although the quality is not like superb, 'cos my camera's as retarded as i am, and the restaurant person dosen't know how to operate it, so it's kinda blur. =x

big cake! (; highly recommended cake from PRIMA DELI. (:

daddy & mummy with grandma. ((:

our happy family, with daddy's god-sister. (: the two little sisters are real loves, and aunty & uncle are real nice. ((:

oh! big thankies to the waiter who served my table. ((: when he know that he's supposed to serve the 5 tables that we had that night, upon seeing me arriving, he asked if i needed this/that, if i'm okay with this and that, and helped me with the arrangement and stuff, helping me check that the utensils are all in position and enough, and of course, playing his part. (: he was really nice and helpful. ((:

there's a typhoon going on in taiwan, and it's heading towards "zhe jiang" in china, and its going towards shanghai too! and, nancy dear dear is in SHANGHAI! =x she's now at home, waiting for typhoon to come. =x she didn't paste her windows with big big masking tape-d "X", 'cos she don't have masking tape. she get to leave early from work today because of the typhoon, and she's hoping the typhoon last, so she won't have to work tomorrow. =x that girl is crazy, who think's that it's an exciting process. =x hope things are okay for her there, and the typhoon won't be scary.

i think i am really slow. i open this blog page since 8pm. it's 11+ already, and i'm still blogging. haha! ok, i am really slow. =p

now, i wish for today to be 22nd nov, whereby my As are all over, and i can really give myself a big good break. but, it's not 22nd nov, it's only, 18th sept! =x it's okay, it's ending. (: i see the end, do you? ((((:

remember love. <3

2007-09-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

my current love on my playlist! (;

记得爱 - 阿沁

天空不断下着无声的雪
而我只有思念
勉强能温暖黑夜

拥抱离我已经千山万水
每个男人都有
说不出的心碎
oh yeah

我还爱着一个人
但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退
oh～

记得爱
所有幸福的片段
所以才
一直忘记要离开
伸出手
继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱

记得爱
是我给过的答案
就不再
考虑应该不应该
一滴泪
落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾

我还爱着一个人
但愿
回到美好的从前
也许痛的感觉
证明了爱的深浅
不然为什么我还不撤退
oh～

记得爱
所有幸福的片段
所以才
一直忘记要离开
伸出手
继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱

记得爱
是我给过的答案
就不再
考虑应该不应该
一滴泪
落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾

记得爱

记得爱
所有幸福的片段
所以才
一直忘记要离开
伸出手
继续勇敢付出我的爱
原地不动的等待
就算风把我的头发吹乱

记得爱
是我给过的答案
就不再
考虑应该不应该
一滴泪
落进无边无际的大海
至少我们都活得没有遗憾

只要记得爱
就无所谓孤单

-END-

enjoy! ((:

TWO MORE! ((:

2007-09-14T19:05:00.000+08:00

two more to go, and shirley's done with prelims! ((: so far, papers were okay, i hope they really are. but i feel pretty good everytime i leave the exam hall, although there are little regrets here and there la, but still better than those exams i took over the past years. so... really hope the grades will make me feel really better. (:

tonight & tomorrow got to mug for chinese lit, celebrating my grandmother's 80th bday tomorrow night, mugging for econs with edith sweets on sunday. and there goes weekends! it's okay. i got real good weekends coming in less than two months. ((:

i'm on waiting list! ((: egggggg-cited! haha. i'm turning mad soon! =p anyhow, i need to get cash rolling in. if not, WHO's GONNA SPONSOR ME FOR MY SHOPPING & FEED MY FUTURE CAR? ): still, i'm egggggg-cited about post As. time fly faster faster! ((:

departure.

2007-09-11T18:11:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldn't be here like now, but, NANCY DEARDEAR IS LEAVING FOR SHANGHAI TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!! ): i'm so gonna miss her lahhhhhhh! ): she better ship herself back 2.5 months from now! and she better come back in one BIG piece, and be fatter too! ((: GET IT DEAR? i'm really gonna miss you, and, i will look forward to the you come back ok? ((: cos it means... MY As HAVE ENDED! ((((: i promise, when you return, we'll go for our long-awaited GELARE, and we'll meet up with PAE 05B9! (: stay healthy and well, drink more water, and rest whenever you can. (: BON VOYAGE MY DEAREST, and... I LOVE MY NANCY DEARDEAR LOTSA LOTSA! (((((((: *hugggggggggs-

i will. (:

2007-09-09T21:22:00.000+08:00

that's it, TOMORROW's IT. two weeks later, it's either i bring home a smile, or i bring home a frown, and be ready to bang myself into whatever walls i can find, or just jump into the drain outside my house. =x

i will survive these two weeks! i will! so, ALL THE WAY! ((((:

i've got to move on, and be who i am. i just don't belong here, i hope you understand. we might find a place in this world somday, but at least for now, i got to go my own way... [High School Musical 2 - Got To Move On (Vanessa Hudgens & Zac Efron)]

short hair! ((:

2007-09-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

SHORT HAIR! ((: i've got short hair now! yay! =p but, i guess i'll miss my long hair soon... especially how great it looked during CNY early this year. =p still, i like my SHORT hair. since sec2, i haven't had short hair till now. haha! =p

let's see how i've progressed for my prelims preparation so far. ((:

MATHS 8174 : yr 1&2 work - COVERED, yr 3 work - left with sampling.
MANAGEMENT : 3/4 COVERED
ECONS : 1/2 COVERED
CLA : ALL POEMS & 1 STORY COVERED

progressing rather well, but i really hope it means quality as well. =x i'm just worried how much stuff i can really remember by the time i sit for my papers. =x

ALL THE WAY SHIRLEY! ((:

SSDC yesterday was a total blast. ((: people i met and know there were like uber great please. really glad that we crossed path somehow. ((: and, I SAW WEIKANG THERE AS WELL! (; miss PSS peeps like total madness. =x GATHERINGS are what we're gonna do at the end of the year! my year end will be eventful & packed! ((: so EGG-CITED for post As! ((:

ok, as i'm talking to diane over the phone, i can hear sandar's screams! haha! "SHIRLEY-LEY-LEY-LEY-LEY" haha. miss her lah! especially her "SHUCKS!" =p these days, as i take my break from the books and all, people like ervy sister & shannon darling were all popping me messages online. ((: really miss them like madness. the number of times we meet up a year, no need to use ONE hand, cos ONE finger is enough. =x pathetic right? and the next best thing, YZ DEARIE IS GOING TO AMERICA NEXT YEAR TO STUDY MUSIC! ):

inspiration begins with simplicity. ((: simplicity has it's beauty too! so, live simple & enjoy simplicity! ((:

hitting peak. ):

2007-09-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

i'm so near to jumping around all over the house, scream at the top of my voice and throw all my books away. ):

i so badly need to do retail therapy & i want to go swimming NOWWWWWWWW!!! ):

[add]

PSS OSO '03. try spotting the horribly goldfish-y me. *hint : row nine* =p

yes, it's a photo taken YEARS ago. my beloved GOH squad in 2003. till now, if i didn't remember wrongly, we're the only 30-ish NP cadets who don our NO.1 in PSS. ((: we look smart, don't we? (; this is the result slip we're returning to shi han, rodrick & low wei, after ENDLESS trainings over saturdays, even during camps and after school hours. it was tiring, torturous, yet, a memorable one. i can remember on that OSO night, we were all so excited about don-ing our NO.1, and none of us are willing to let ourself slip out of that uniform. even though that night's dinner was COLD FILLET O' FISH, it tasted awesomely yummy. ((:

that day was the FIRST time daddy & mummy went to school to watch me "perform" after kindergarten days. and i also remember, i invited moses over that night, and he watched me march through the entire thing, and cheered me on while i'm marching out. (: that was the last night when things were peaceful & great between us. any day after that, we screwed them up totally & horribly. =x

i solved maths problems MYSELF today! ((: without my sister's help, cos she refuse to help me, and i started to let my tears bag run again. ): i was super lost when she didn't want to teach me, and i feel stupid all over again. ): but! there are things and people that made me cheer up again, and they made me move even further. ((: YAY!

alright! it's 2.45am now. and time for me to sleep. ever since thursday, i've been having late nights. my eye rings are worst off than those pandas, but I'M PERSEVERING! (:

GO GO GO!
[/add]

mugging madness. ):

2007-09-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

teachers' day wasn't as "high" as compared to the past two years. anyhow, i enjoyed the breakfast-with-HT session. (: it's the best part of the entire celebration i guess. (:

the one and only photo for that day.

i'm working towards the honours board. (:

mugging madness.

friends are special, so important they make the world go round. (:

expectations. =x

2007-08-30T20:40:00.000+08:00

expectations may be good and bad at the same time. at the moment, to me, they ain't really good. =x the stress is mounting, and i'm really scared. =x what if, i can't make it. what if, i don't make it. what if, i slip off that board. what if... too many "what if(s)". and it's pointless to think of the "what if(s)" now. =x

papers were not really fantastic, or rather, not really ok. i made them a disappointment. ): i can only blame myself for really lousy time management. ): *RAHS-

my wisdom tooth is growing again. ): it's giving me problems and now i can't really talk properly. =x i hate it. it LOVES to grow during my exam period. people are telling me that it will give me wisdom. i doubt so, after today's papers. ): whatever it is, it's painful. *RAHS-

don't ask me, cos i won't say. ask me again, i will blast. try me.

feigning ignorance? or is it really over? no one new came by. i'm just leaving the door unopen. that's all.

87 points! ((:

2007-08-28T20:11:00.000+08:00

last day of SEP today. super super cool game played. ((: i scored 87 POINTS! ((: was a super super high bowler today. for every ball i bowled, if i score, i will jump and laugh, then keep adding my points. wahaha! =p the last few bowl was great. hitting either 7/8/9 pins down straight. (; the instructor too said i improved. heh! sense of achievement luh! (; i lovelovelove bowling to bits! ((: awwww. now that it's the end of SEP, i kinda miss THE CHEVRONS' ORCHID BOWL & the two nice nice instructors...

approved! ((:

2007-08-26T21:29:00.000+08:00

application APPROVED! ((: happy happy! awaiting the experience with eager. ((:

nancy dear is going to shanghai. ): 12th sept. 10am flight. back only at the end of november. i'm so gonna miss her. ):

i'm going to cut my hair this week! ((: cutting it SHORTTTT. (; i hate the messy state i'm in now. i look like a total maddy. =p

teacher wannabe! ((:

2007-08-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

a teacher wannabe! ((: i'm egg-cited! are you? (;

i hate exam period. they give me horrible headaches. ):

i have a weird body system. i don't react to coffee. they make me feel puke-y and sleepy. i react weirdly to milo. they make me too awake to even sleep.

media & censorship. singapore & singaporeans. marriage : romance & love VS economic reasons. science VS art. globalisation or poverty. free-will or determinism.

live the dream. ((:

2007-08-23T23:59:00.000+08:00

watch "LIVE THE DREAM" and VOTE FOR SHAUNA SIMONS! ((: yay! she got into the top 10! yadayada! (;

hectic days filled with books, papers and late nights. i've got panda eyes. i swear i've never studied so hard before in my entire life. and i just hope that this will keep going, till the 70 odd days are over, and i'll be free-d.

bowling on tuesday started off bad. i was being sent to the bowling centre with only myself on the bus. yes, the whole bus is mine, because i'm "special". the teacher said so. =x and when i reach the centre, i saw "some people" that made me felt worst. BUT! the game was good. (: i scored 18 points that day! all by myself ok! so happy. haha! =p i love the three-step-drill. and i love rolling the ball down the alley. haha! =p

consultation-less today, so i get to go home at 1.25. (: it has been really longggg since i last get to go home soooo early. =p

no SSDC tomorrow. gonna "roll" home to mug. one whole day to catch up on my lagging schedule. (: it's lagging because make-up tuition on tuesday night ended at 10, and i reach home at near 10.30. didn't get to cover what i wanted to that night, so got to push things backwards. =x sian-ded.

a conclusion that i gathered last night. no econs mcq practice at 12.30am. it is demoralising. =x

empty or occupied?

2007-08-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

ask me, what was my reaction when i saw that line of words. i was a little sad, but not as sad as i thought or expected myself to be. i suddenly feel far and away, and there seem to be so many differences in between. so much differences that it covers all the similarites we share. maybe, it's a form of relief for me. or maybe, it's the start of another something. whatever it is, things and feelings are no longer like in the past, and i'm moving on. (: over the past two years plus, memories were really beautiful. i'm thankful for every single moment. (:

some things just got to come when i'm going through the toughest point of my journey. words spread, things are turning haywire... they are just not what i want them to be, and i'm trying really hard to swallow them down, alone.

this is my final turning point, and it's either a do or die. i cannot afford the latter, and i need to work even harder than the others to achieve the first. well, who ask me to always be a tad slower than the rest, and always a little more retarded?

i love my sunshine! ((:

2007-08-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

a quick sum up for the past two days, cos the highlight is TODAY! ((:

thursday & friday was as usual. school and back home to mug. just that, yesterday, i'm back at SSDC for my driving practical. saw paul "gor gor" when i was walking towards my car. exchanged a quick hello. (: when uncle salleh open the driver's door, he saw me and his face showed a "shocked" look. when he asked me what happen, and what went wrong, my tears just welled up. ): i know i disappointed a few instructors. ): when he ask me if uncle ang knows about it, i said, "no, haven't seen him for quite some time already." but after my lesson, uncle salleh saw uncle ang, and i guess, he told him? sighs. =x

and the entire driving session was rather bad. =x i keep getting engine stalls when i'm doing slope. i just can't get the clutch right. and the thing is, slope is one of the easiest circuit course, and the one that i'm best at. ): i drive until "pek cek", and i really want to scream. =x

enough of my "pek cek-ism". now, TODAY! ((: MIAKE performed at the esplanade's library. (: my LOVELY MIAKE! ((: i bluff-ed some of them that i won't be going, cos i'm having tuition, and can't make it on time to watch and support them. they really believe. but actually, i already arrange with leong dearie & sisters' club to go together. =p so, when they saw me, and the rest of us, they were like, "I THOUGHT YOU SAY YOU NOT COMING?!" hahahahahahahahaha! =p so nice to see their shock faces & "screaming" at me. HAHA! =p

woke up pretty early today, and had a quick breakfast and went down to meet leong. i thought it would take quite long for me to travel down to city hall from potong pasir, so i left home at 9.45am. but leong messaged me when i was already on the way that he will be late. so i waited for him till around 11.30am? haha. but well, i brought along things to do, so time flew past. ((: after meeting him, we went down to the library to meet yihong & yichuang. (: got seats, and we start to study. ((:

but as time pass, and MIAKE's performance time drew near, i got even more excited, and i totally lose it. HAHA! i went nutty in the library, jumping and talking non-stop. =p especially after yihong told me that our SYF photo is pinned on the board. i rushed to the board to see, and got so high about it. =p i took photos of the poster, and i keep poking at the picture because i spot myself. =p and i start to think, which part of the song are we at, cos the angklungs and some kulintangs are not playing. =p

the mini poster. (:

MIAKE SYF '07. ((:

MIAKE's performance is suppose to start at 3pm. but when i saw mr pow at around 2.20, i rush back to our studying area and ask the rest if we want to go sit at their performance area. =p so... at 2.30pm, we're like sitting right in front! =p i sat at the first row, and slowly, the year1s & 2s came into the library. when they saw us, they were like waving! =p i got even more excited and high. =p

the whole thing started with a presentation by atika (MY NEW AKE FRIEND!), yinwhee sweets & fanndly, a year1. (: after that, was the teach-and-learn how to play the angklung time. (: they taught the audience "twinkle twinkle little star". after the teaching time, they performed with the kulintangs, as an ensemble. GUESS WHO'S THE CONDUCTOR FOR THE SONG? ((: ((: ((:

HENDRA SUNSHINE LOVEEEEEE! ((:

during the second time they played "twinkle twinkle little star" together, atika asked the audience to sing along. then, hendra turn & pointed at me, and say, "sing ah!" haha! he's really cute today. =p and he kept smiling luh! i finally feel his sunrays again! WHEE~ (; I LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE MY HENDRA SUNSHINE LIKE MADNESS! I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZEH! (: haha. i'm nuts. really nutty. =p

i want to say AGAIN, I LOVE MY MR SUNSHINE LOVE, HENDRA! ((:

after interaction with the audience, it's MIAKE's showtime! ((: they played 8 songs, and they were good. (: i got really high and i'm really super happy while watching the whole thing, because... THE VIBRAPHONE IS JUST IN FRONT OF ME! ((: and the whole ensemble is so near me! ((: hendra love is playing just right in front of me too! (: wahahahahahahahaha. =p

hendra love on the vibraphone! ((: my two lovelove(s).

took photos with some of the lovelies, and also snapped some of them while they are performing. ((: i really miss MIAKE a lot, and i miss AKE music a lot. watching them perform now, is like watching myself performing in the past. watching them now, is such a different feeling that i have in the past. i used to be up there, as a performer. now, i'm an audience below, watching my beloved cca mates playing. (: they sounded great. and i really feel great watching and hearing them play. ((: I LOVE MY MIAKE! ((:

she's my new cutie ake friend, ATIKA! ((:

more more loves of my life! ((: cj, edith, yichuang, yihong & sera. <3

more of today's photos at : MIAKE PERFORMANCE @ ESPLANADE LIBRARY '
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these few days, i was pretty emo. worried for SSDC practical, worried for studies and all. i feel so down. but i can say that i'm really a lucky girl, with really awesome friends like ignatious love, leong dear, hendra love, claris gf, sher gf, edith sweetie sister, sera dear and a lot more. they are really great people for me to have in my life. (: they never fail to bring an upside down rainbow up on my face. (:

enough of playing. really played & high-ed a lot today. haha! i think i'm really going mad. got to switch back to mugger mode already.

SEIZE THE DAY LOVES! ((:

sick.zero points.ake photo-shoot.

2007-08-15T19:55:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T DONATE BLOOD TOMORROW! ): down with flu on monday night, it got really bad on tues. a little better today, but i still can't donate blood. ): i must be as fit as a fiddle THREE days before the donation. ): i realise, everytime i say i want to donate blood, i WILL fall sick. =x

bowling was baaaaaad yesterday. =x i didn't score a single point. i kept washing the "long kang". i guess, i'm the lousiest bowler ever. *RAHS-

ake photo taking today! (: we got our ake tee shirt. it's BLACK with our ALL-TIME EMBROIDERY, with LIME GREEN PRINTINGS at the back. (: niceeeeeee! will take a photo of it soon. ((: ake rock socks! we got like 6 informal shots? haha. and our group is BIGGGGGG. =p we were allowed to hold "props" when we do informal shots. at first, i took the red vibes hard mallets. then my dearest meiling came and ask me if i want the pair of dark green hard mallets. the pair i used for syf. ((: she's a real darling. so i got my "terror" mallets for photo-shoot! (;

after photo taking, was in HARMONIS waiting for my mummy to come. watch them practice, and talked to my sunshine love. (: miss him truckies! he's on the vibes for "accidentally in love". woohoo~ i still miss ake music a lot. =x

2006 GP paper. worst compre ever done this year. really sad-ed. ): WAKE UP & BUCK UP PLEASE! =x

prelims schedule is out. papers on EVERY SINGLE DAY, except the last day. madness schedule! =x

back to mugger world. =x

your smile is engraved deep within. (:

madness galore. =x

2007-08-12T02:17:00.000+08:00

maths makes me mad. i'm stuck at TP's maths p1 for 2.5 hours. the paper was tough. i nearly went mad. =x

econs makes me mad. monopoly mcq is the worst market structure mcq i've ever done. someone, save me. =x

i think before i even try getting into NTU's division of psychology, i would have already turned psycho-tic, and need to be psycholog-ised. ok, that's so not funny.

econs + maths = psycho-tic shirley with a whole load of rubbish. (:
*thank goodness, A levels schedule didn't put these two subjects together. (:

munchy donuts! ((:

2007-08-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

after dinner last night, mummy & daddy wanted to buy durians home. we were at katong area, and my little sister's cravings for her MUNCHY DONUTS were knocking again. she "made noise" to mummy & daddy, and they bought a box home. ((: they come in a dozen per box, with each donut of any flavour at $1. they are really nice. ((: the donut is really different from those at the bread shops. MUNCHY's are really soft with thick coating above. really really nice. ((:

12 donuts : choc-o-late, oreo, chocolate & almond, chocolate & banana, choco rainbow, strawberry (supposedly is sitted in the hole there! but my little sissy took it immediately when she open the box. HAHA! =p ) & original. *YUMMS-

MUNCHY DONUTS - ONE IS NOT ENOUGH. i'm serious. ((:

i feel accomplished. (: over the past three days, i manage to do:

ALL my homework
1 GP essay
revised for CLA poems
revised for econs : INTERNATIONAL TRADE, MARKET STRUCTURE

((:

hope this drive just keep going, and not die off anytime till As are over. i'm so near to the end already. LAST TWO LAPS. *ALL THE WAYYYYYYYY! ((:

will you?

2007-08-09T20:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARID! ((:

just finish watching the parade. it was really beautiful. (: i love march-past. whenever i watch the parade, i will miss those good old NP days, the NO.1 uniform i once don, and that NO.12 MARK 16 i once held. (:

yesterday, i get to watch MIAKE perform for the first time, without myself being on stage with them. the feeling off-stage was, different. for the whole of yesterday's celebration, i look forward to MIAKE's performance the most. =p they were great. i really thought they were. (: i love MIAKE, and i really miss them so... i hear hendra sunshine on the vibraphone. the vibraphone that i miss. at that moment when they were playing, i wish i was part of them. haha! =p when the curtains draw open, and when they push/carry their instruments forward, it reminds me of our I-DAY performance...

this is how they look when they were on stage, and from where i sit. (: sadly, the photo ain't really clear. all thanks to my phone's only 1.3 megapixel camera. =x still, they look great. (:

the RED MIAKE-IANs. ((:

for the whole of today, i'm indulging myself with endless AKE recordings. (: i really miss them...

will you swim the current? will you scale new heights? ((:

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DADDY'S HOME FROM BEIJING! ((: and he swept a whole big bag of really cheap & cute stuffs back. ((: i had a GREATTTTT time choosing the things i like luh! no one supports daddy's shopping as much as i do please. hahaha! =p was telling daddy, if he goes to CHINA again at the end of the year to do his stock searching, i'm so gonna tagggggg along. =p i want to sweep cheap & good stuffs too! WAHAHA! =p

time check: 1.36am.
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zapped.

2007-08-07T12:06:00.000+08:00

i feel zapped. =x

manage to finish up my CLA & management tutorials, and on the way revised while i did the questions. could remember most of what i've studied for mids, and i'm happy. (:

i hate to be wronged when i'm just concerned. i don't deserve to be shout at, just because i care. if that's the case, i shall not bother/care about you, and let you be.

i guess, i won't be blogging too often as of now. intensive mugging has started, and i will try to curb my temptation of going anywhere near the computer. keep the tags rolling in as usual, i will pop by to check once in awhile. (:

bowling later in the afternoon! ((: i love to bowl, and may i bowl myself in later. ((:

i'm getting ready for take off. i'm in my cockpit, waiting to direct myself onto the exact path for flying. watch me fly, will you? (:

MY CHUMPY! ((:

2007-08-05T15:55:00.000+08:00

I'VE BOUGHT MY CHUMPY! ((: i bought the RED CHUMPY! ((: I LOVE MY RED CHUMPY! ((:

decided to buy the red one, because it matches my red glamour bag. ((: went down to PARAGON to get my youngest sister her limited edition purple messenger bag. so on the way i can get my chumpy! ((: but because of these two items, my "account" is 80 bucks lower in value. ): got to really start saving up. if not, at the end of the year, i will be under deficit. ):

ok, i think i'm seriously too "poisoned" by econs. ): i feel super dumb over this subject please. i don't seem to be able to get my facts right, and it's really getting on my nerves when i don't. ): *RAHS-

empty weekends. ):

2007-08-04T17:56:00.000+08:00

friday & weekends are empty without daddy. ): i miss daddy like a whole lot please! may wednesday come soon, so that he'll be back home safe & sound. (: but, for the sake of our living, daddy got to really work. ): well, just for the next few months i guess. once my As are over, it's time i start contributing to the household income as well. but, i've got NO working experience, and i seriously don't know how working life is like. hurhurhur.

tuition class was like "flooded" with people today. rare case, especially on a saturday...

i manage to convince myself finally to "face" international trade. happy to say, i've succumbed "why trade, absolute & comparative advantage". ((: although it's one whole big chunk, at least i made progress for it. (: i'm so gonna beat international trade down. *ALL THE WAYYYYYYYY-

gonna whip up western dinner for my sisters & mummy tonight. (; yadayada!

i love my new blogskin, do you? ((: will change the header photo soon, when i got the time. (: meanwhile, let it be! =p

was browsing through crumpler's website, and guess what i saw? ((:

red chumpy! (:

blue chumpy! (:

black chumpy! (:

[photo credits to CRUMPLER.COM.SG]

THE CHUMPY! (: it comes in FOUR different colours, but i LIKE these three moreeeee. =p there goes the temptation again. =p it's $30 per chumpy, and i thought the price is rather reasonable for a crumpler product? i don't know. but i think i will most probably get it. i need a proper and decent wallet anyway. ok, all the more determined that i MIGHT get it, and i SHALL get it, real soon. =p

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MUMMY GAVE ME THE "GREEN LIGHT" TO BUY CHUMPY! ((: i'm sooooooo happy! (; wahaha. YAYNESS! ((:

*beams with joy*

on a sadder note, my dino darling is bunking in tomorrow into her NTU hostel. ): she's starting school on monday. i'm so gonna miss my dearest dino.

time check: 9.15pm
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new clothes! (:

2007-08-03T17:45:00.000+08:00

i love shopping with mummy. (: cos it means, NEW CLOTHES ADDED INTO WARDROBE! (; haha. bought two tops & one leggings today. (; whee~

didn't study in school today, cos edith wasn't in school, and i didn't want to study alone in the library. so mummy came to fetch me for lunch, and bought clothes, and did shopping at NTUC. =p

ake's performing on national day celebration & on the 18th at the esplanade library. (: i'm giving my strength, support, energy & love to meiling. and i'm giving my courage and loves to YINWHEE DEARIE & HENDRA SUNSHINE LOVE. <3 yinwhee's playing on the bells, and my one & only sunshine love is playing on the vibes. (: my dearest kulintang SL is the student conductor. (: of course, i didn't forget the rest of MIAKE. (: all of them have my BIG LOVES too! ((: PLEASE SUPPORT MIAKE! ((:

FIVE MORE WEEKS TO PRELIMS. and i'm not bucking up enough. ): *RAHS-

i "love" random-ing.

2007-08-01T19:54:00.000+08:00

i love bowling! (: scored for myself 11 points, after many many "long-kang" balls. =p still, I LOVE TO BOWL! (;
i love "competing" with julie love. i promise not to laugh at you ok? (: *hugs-
leong's my life teacher. (: he taught me a lot ever since the day i know him. (: a great friend to have, i'm serious. (:
21/40 for econs mcq mock test. (: i'm happy because it's my own effort, and i'm really happy because there are various concepts that i can still remember really well. of course, more more hard work for econs. *rahs-
i love edith sweetie, my study companion. (:
ake had sectionals today, and i hear the kulintang section rehersed before i left school. (: i miss ake.
i feel soooo tired & exhausted. barely 3.5 hours of sleep last night. =x
daddy flew off to beijing this morning. back only on national day. ): i miss daddy... ):
after torturing the pig yesterday in the library, on my way for SEP, after SEP and on my way home, i decide to love the pig today. (: it's sitting there on my table, watching me study. =p
i love the person who gave the piggy. (: *hugs-
i love the pig. 'cos it's PINK & it's a PIG. (;

gain.

2007-07-31T00:17:00.000+08:00

i may have lost something i used to cherish and hold dear. but what i've gained in return for the loss, is definitely more worthwhile and a million times better. (: a lot really happen, and like edith sweets says, it's all meant to be. well, what's mine will be mine, what's not, will never be. at least, i've gotten myself a really what-more-to-ask 'jie mei', edith, and a really wonderful bunch of lovelies, whom i never thought and expected to get along so well with. (: i love my lovelies, and we've got better things to plan for, and look forward to, then to think and worry about those unnecessary. (: KUDOS TO US! ((:

since it's all over, and i've decided to really let go and let things be, i shall be an even happier girl. (: no matter what, i don't go to school to see others' faces, and make my mood go down down down. like what i told paul "gor gor", i go to school with a happy heart every day. ((:

ignatious love's birthday yesterday! (: HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ((: *BIG LOVES-

dino darling will be bunking into her NTU hostel next monday. ): that means i won't get to see her room's window wide open during weekdays, and she is like so much further from me, and from home. ): i'm gonna miss her like crazeh! =x

chinese lit is making me dizzy. =x international trade is making me worst. *RAHS-

ultra sweet fan club. ((:

2007-07-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT! (: from SUPER TK at my HALOSCAN. ((:

" Structure of SHIR's Driving Fan Club:

Central Figure : Shirley of course...

Main Committee : Shirs' GFs (n Sisters Club)

Patron : erhm... the GP Tutor of course

Cheerleading Body : those who are not part of Shirs' GFs n Sisters Club but supports her...

Innocent passer-by : Me of course...

hahaha :D

now tt ur SUPER SHIR's Driving Fan Club is established by SUPER TK, there's no reason why u should fail ur next test...

hahaha :D "

it's like super sweet luh! thank you tk! ((: LOVELOVE!

missing.

2007-07-29T02:27:00.000+08:00

i'm tired, and i want to sleep. but still, i want to blog. HAHA! =p

new things added on WISHLIST. i should stop reading magazines & surfing the net. no, i MUST stop. =x
my wants and savings are facing an INVERSE RELATIONSHIP, just like price & quantity demanded. =x
moolahs are always going out whenever some comes in. *AH BISH-
i saw this star necklace in mama's mag's SK brochure. its $269. =x
suddenly, i want to go cycling at ECP.
i want to eat BEARD PAPA. i miss the "FLOUR" that falls from the puff. (;
dino darling is home! (: she's turning into an undergrad in DAYS time! ((:
i "hate" my sunshine, for making me miss him so much. ): *RAHS-
i hate to see CARS & TRIANGLE-PLATES NOW! i feel so unhappy. ):

goodnight world.

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29TH JULY. THREE FREAKING MONTHS TO MY FIRST A LEVELS PAPER. ok. wish me luck! *RAHS-

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driving fan club. (:

2007-07-28T00:32:00.000+08:00

behind me always, and all the way, i've got a fantastic SHIR's DRIVING FAN CLUB. (: they are my encourage-ers, supporters, confidence instill-ers & cheerleaders.(: tuankiak named this club for me, and it's established YESTERDAY. ((: i love this club of mine. (;

sometimes, we just got to witness things ourselves, before really believing and realising that things and people around us are no longer like they used to be. things are constantly on the move, and people are always changing. one moment ago, they're your good friends. the next moment, they may be the ones hurting you the most. but this is part of our growing up. and growing, is never easy.

words matter. they either do wonders, or they simply just hurt you right deep into your heart, which you sincerely brought out and share with everyone you know and love. things may not be the way we want them to be, but we just got to admit, once those hurting words made their exit, everything changes. disappointment surge up, and relationship turned sour. whatever plans made beforehand are smashed and gone. whatever happy moments and laughing times have all turned into hurtful memories. hurtful not because of not being able to continue with those happy times, but because they are no longer going to happen.

no matter how strong a person may seem to be, there are times whereby he/she crumbles and falls, and lose the will and power to carry on. i guess, i'm on the brink of feeling so.

thankful. (:

2007-07-26T19:47:00.001+08:00

i'm thankful for all the support i receive from my dearest friends. (: edith sweets, leong, junlong, tuankiak, sher gf, ignatious love, yichuang, cheryl, nich, dino darling... they didn't bring up anything that would make me fall into sadness and disappointment again. they encouraged me, and cheered me up a lot. (: i love them to the max. (:

i felt like a polar bear/penguin during CLA consultation today. =x

failed.

2007-07-25T17:56:00.000+08:00

i flunk my TP. period.

don't ask me about it, don't talk to me about it, don't probe about it. i'm depressed enough, disappointed enough, sad enough. and i cried buckets.

thank you for those who wished me luck. mr tan, 05a2-ians, sher gf, junlong wormie, edith sweets, nich superman, dino darling, and not forgetting paul "gor gor" & my family. (: i'm sorry for not clearing TP at one go. sorry for disappointing all of you. ):

saw zul at SSDC. hope he cleared his. (:

i feel even more like a goldfish now. especially with two puffy & swelling eyes.

oh. now i don't have to leave SSDC already. i can still stay with them for another 2 months plus. oh well.

steamboat. (: last practical at ssdc. ):

2007-07-22T21:00:00.000+08:00

had a blast yesterday. (: been really long since i last had a busy yet enjoyahle day. yesterday was filled with activities one after another, and continuously. i got so tired that the moment i came home, after showering and talking to leong for awhile, i slept all the way till this morning 11am. =p

a LONGGGG sum up for yesterday. =p had driving at 8.15am. which is like darn early. =x had to wake up at 6.45 to get ready, and a quick breakfast. driving was ok, but i was nervous, so i made a few mistakes. not those super serious ones, but those like insufficient acceleration, delay moving off etc. =x got to go home myself again yesterday. was so tired that i fell asleep on the bus. some more it was raining, so the weather was like shiokkk. =x luckily mummy called, if not, i would have overshot the bus stop. =x

had tuition in the afternoon, and i had to rush through my lunch because i spent a pretty long time changing. =p well, i'm a girl what. HAHA! =p during tuition, time seems to pass like super slowly. with much difficulty, managed to strive through that 2 & half hours. =x after tuition, time seems to start flying. =x

met up with LEONG! (: then headed to marina. (: met the rest, and off we go, to cheng huat! ((:

welcome to CHENG HUAT! ((:

the person was nice enough to gave us a SUPER GOOD SEAT. (: we wanted to be there early because we want to be able to have a good seat to watch the fireworks for the NDP rehersal. (; and our position was SUPER DUPER GOOD! (: fireworks were beautiful. (: we also manage to catch parachut-ing, and those big helicoptors and planes flying. (: nice nice! we shall go again together next year during national day ok? (; CHECK OUT THE FIREWORKS VIDEO BELOW! ((:

FIREWORKS [1]

FIREWORKS [2]

steamboat-ing with dearies were great luh! i really had a tons load of laughter & enjoyment. (: really glad that i was sitting BESIDE LEONG, and IN FRONT OF EDITH, with YC & YH dearie between leong & edith. they provided a lot of entertainment, and i really had great talks with leong. (: edith was there to cook her special noodles, yc & yh keep filling my plate, and i just kept playing with the bbq food. =p i don't like to cook, but i still had fun letting the melted butter splat at me, and hoping that the food i cook is edible. =p

before we left, we celebrated edith sweets bday and gave her the present we bought for her. (: had to wait for a while for leong to finish up the crabs & two hard boil eggs. haha! while waiting, we talked, laughed and cam-war-ed. =p we're all oily, smelly and we all smell of BBQ. =p

i miss my claris gf! (: she's still sooooo skinny please.

my jas gf! (: she's "unhappy" when i didn't sit beside her. =p

sher gf! she's my darling. ((:

PENCIL LOW. WE LOVE TALKING IN CAPS! ((:

cj dearie. quiet she may be, but a real fun girl to be with. (: she can disturb people really well too. haha! =p

i love edith sweets to bits. ((:

yihong can pay the kid's meal price the next time round. (;

the snake is really good at moving about, so much that the photos i took with him are BLUR! =x

he manage to join us in the end. (:

after steamboat-ing, we went across the road to the big field to play with the sparkles that edith sweets brought along. i got "jammed" because of the muddy and "hole-y" field. i don't like walking on grass patches, and also the BEACHHHH! =x omg. so i got "stuck", and i didn't play with the rest.

after that, we were deciding where to go. when at dohby ghaut mrt station, was on the escalator, and i dropped my ez-link into the hole in between the two escalator that were heading to different places. i was like, "OMG!" then leong & junlong went back to help me get it back. THANK YOU! (: but the others were "bad" luh. none waited for leong & me, cos i waited for leong. but well, haha! it's ok. (: went down to PS, but there weren't any places for us to accomodate 11 people. so went down to cathay, and guess what i saw? NEWURBANMALE SHOP! leong saw the shop as well, and said, "don't see... don't see... go go... don't see..." in the end, i didn't control my temptation to walk into the shop. =p but after i saw the pink havaianas sandals, i don't think it's really nice after all. the prints are faint, and i thought the blue one was nicer. =p clar gf also say the blue is nicer. haha! but the blue i don't think suits me. it's a little, man. =p so havaianas pink with white floral prints sandals will be OFF my "wanted list". (:

we got like nowhere to go? so we went to the highest floor, and sat outside the cinema. that area got those cushion seats, so we sat there and chill for awhile. (: mummy & daddy were really nice last night. they let me play till really late. (: LOVELOVE! but after awhile, i got really tired and restless, so i decided to leave first. asked edith & leong how to walk back to PS, but they suggested that we all leave together. (: so off we go, back home. (:

had a really really wonderful night last night, and i really had a great time. (: thanks to my THREE GFs, for being such great companions. (: although we didn't really talk much, but still, your presence made me happy already. (: thanks to JUNLONG, who keep DISTURBING ME! I DON'T WANT TO SIT WITH JUNLONGGGGG! =p yea, i don't want to sit with him, don't want to talk to him... haha! =p thanks to SUPER TK! he sat beside me during steamboat-ing & bus ride, and kept me entertained. (: thanks to YC, YH & CJ dearies for the nice nice food fed into my stomach. (: thanks to LEONG DEAR, for the wonderful time i had last night, with all those laughters you brought along. (: last but not the least, EDITH SWEETS. (: i really had a great time gossiping with you, talking about EVERYTHING & ANYTHING. (: you're really a great sister to have! ((:

came back home, after showering, talked to leong online for awhile and loaded all the photos. after that, slept like a pig till this morning. =p

after lunch, had driving. my last practical lesson at SSDC, if i clear my TP on wed. saw paul "gor gor" again, and he smiled. HAHA! =p while doing my circuit today, i keep seeing him around also. (: i'm so gonna miss him please. i guess, after i leave SSDC, i'll miss him the most luh. i will miss uncle salleh & uncle ang as well. (: and not forgetting the other instructors who taught me. (: i somehow left SSDC with a pretty heavy heart. suddenly, i don't feel like leaving SSDC. sighs... =x had ONE engine stall today, before i park back my car and end lesson. uncle salleh says that it is a closing ceremony for me. ): I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE SSDC! ):

i'm soooo nervous for TP on wed. =x *RAHS-

didn't get to study today, cos was too tired. and after driving, daddy got to fetch my sister & mummy. then i slept on the car. =p after playing so hard over the weekends, it's really time to get back to my books. 100 DAYS TO As! it will be over in a jiffy. and after our As, it's time to plan for MORE MORE SISTERS' CLUB OUTING, and all those fun that i'm so gonna have with my dearies. (:

I LOVELOVELOVELOVE ALL OF YOUUUU! ((:

don't shoot meeee! =p

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i love my blog song. but it makes me cry, especially when it's being blasted in my ears. ): i'm turning emo, again. =x

can things stay like now please? i hate for things to change, and i don't want them to change. i miss a lot of people, suddenly. =x

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wonderful today.

2007-07-20T20:16:00.000+08:00

today is a really wonderful day. (: i have been smiling ever since i exit the classroom after meeting up with mr tan. (: hahaha. i'm HIGH already. =p

had this MOE quality survey on our school. well, i guess i gave really positive comments for the survey. haha! =p after that, while waiting for mummy to come, i went to HARMONIS. got to know from sera darling that they're having practice today. it has been really long since i last went inside HARMONIS, so when i went back today, just like tuankiak says, "we're home. (: " i feel so home-ly and warm inside. it's really nice to see them all again, with new members, and being able to hear the sound of angklungs & kulintangs were really great. (:

messaged leong this morning to tell him about ake having practice. he missed miss wee, and want to go for one ake practice. so he was there with kiat, and i manage to catch them before my mummy came. (: i started playing on the marimba. played a little of "one moment in time", a little of "accidentally in love", and i played "simple serenade". (: as i played "simple serenade", kiat was like, "SIMPLE SERENADE!" haha. then he hummed a little along, then he was jamming away. honestly, i miss those jammings he did during break-time, before & after practices. those jammings were noisy in the past, but now, they're really nice. ever since the year3s graduate from ake, i really long to hear those jammings on the drums, the mixture of music from self-practices... i really miss ake like madness. =x and of course, those people i got to know through ake. (: i really really love every single one of them in there. (:

before mummy came, i was with junlong & tuankiak outside the library. collected money from nilam, and was talking to the other two. (: darshini saw me, and she came over to congratulate me. (: i was surprised why she did that, and she told me that she saw my name on the exam notice board. so when mummy came, i ask mummy to go with me to the notice board after meeting mr tan. (: i was already smiling like crazy when mummy told me she reach school already. =p

mr tan taught me ways to improve my weaker subjects, and even thank me for helping out in the money collections for stuffs. mr tan even asked me how's everything for me in class. haha! i'm like a mad girl in class lah! and i think i mix around well with my new classmates. (: so no problem at all, i guess. HAHA! =p

after meeting mr tan, went down to the notice board with mummy. with really great surprise and satisfaction, i saw my name on the board. (: i saw ignatious's name as well! (: he's a BIG LOVE lah. he told me he saw my name as well. haha! and we've a common goal. work even harder, and make sure we appear there again, together for prelims. (: WHEE~ the MT HOD was behind me & mummy as we were looking at the board. and we overheard him telling another parent that the list is the TOP 10% list. (: i made it there AGAIN! ((: i'm like super duper happy please. i didn't lose it afterall, and my effort for this mids did paid of. (: mr tan says i got to put in even more effort, and work even harder, to do even better. (: he will help me as much as he can, to achieve what i want. honestly, when i see my name on the board, i feel the pressure. oh well, it's just for the next 100 days. once i'm done with the BIG As this year, i can enjoy life for the next few months. ((:

before i left school, went back to HARMONIS to collect my stuff. hafirah greeted me with a really warm "HELLO SHIRLEY!". sunshine love & some others waved to me. (: before i really walk out of the room, they just nice started their combined for "DI TANJONG KATONG". when i said "BYE!", they reacted. sunshine waved, and i listen to them play at the door. memories please! at that moment, if i was alone, i would have cried already. i really can't bear to step out o HARMONIS at that point of time. i just wish, to stay inside there, for as long as i can, and never leave...

had driving today, and even before i saw my name on the tv screen, i saw VILA's. (: she's taking her TP tomorrow. LUCKS GIRL! YOU CAN DO IT! ((:

uncle salleh said that i did pretty well today. (: he even say that judging from my performance from the past till now, i'm gonna make it on the day of my TP. (; uncle ang always say that to me as well luh! but i was like super nervous & scared today even before i started my practical lesson. =x don't know why, i just feel like freaking nervous, and i'm trembling. =x but today's lesson was great! haha. minimal mistakes, just that there's this uncle who kept walking so close to my car as i'm passing and he wants to jay-walk across the road. =x i was like super scared he will stick his toes under my wheels, cos he's like SUPER CLOSE? =x acceleration was good! haha. uncle salleh says that i've improved a lot for today, and my gear shifting got no problem. (: saw paul "gor gor" teaching motorbike today. (: missed him luh! he always call me "MEI MEI" when he sees me. HAHA! =p still remember the day i had practical lesson with me. he kept singing on the car, and make me sing with him. even ask me a lot of lame questions, and made me laugh like nobody's business. =p he's the one who instilled in me a lot of confidence in driving, and making it a point to me that driving is fun, and i shouldn't give myself so much pressure. (: although i only had once practical with him, it's the most memorable one. ((:

TWO MORE PRACTICALS LEFT, and once i clear TP on wed, i'm "graduating" myself from SSDC. i've been with them for more than half a year, and it's really sad to have to leave actually. those instructors are like so nice & friendly. always putting on that smile, making people's day better. (: well, no matter how sad i am to leave SSDC, i still got to leave one day, and parting has always been part of people's life. we just got to accept it. at least, there were wonderful memories. ((:

STEAMBOAT-ing is like TOMORROW? wahaha. so far, no bad news! (: may there be no bad news all the way till like i sleep ok? ((: i'm so gonna enjoy myself like to BITS & PIECES tomorrow. after that, i promise, i will mug and mug and mug. i've thought of what to wear already, and i'm really EGG-CITED! GIRLIES! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? IT'S JUST TOMORROW! hahaha. =p i'm really mad. going totally nutsssss. =p SAVE ME SOMEONE! =p

SISTERS' CLUB MEMBERS! do bring camera tomorrow ok? WE'RE SO GONNE CAM-WAR!!! haha. been long since we last CAM-WAR-ED! =p oooo. i'm really HIGH! woosa woosa! (;

i love my friends. (: i love ignatious cha! he sent me this on friendster, that made my day, and make me smile even wider. (:

when the sun is down
and the skies are grey

im gonna be here for you.

hugs.

SIX DAYS TO TP! =x

2007-07-19T18:01:00.000+08:00

just SIX more days, and it's my TP test. worried, scared, nervous... every feeling also have. may i not ~~STRIKE/MOUNT KERB, STRIKE POLES, KNOCK DOWN POLES...~~ and most importantly, MAY I LANE CHANGE SMOOTHLY! that's the most important one. lane change have always been my MAJOR PROBLEM throughout all the revisions i had. =x *RAHS-

racial harmony day celebration today was rather dry. i miss those occassions we all celebrated back then when we were in bartley. could still remember when we were in year1, me, yichuang sweets & the others went to buy our ethnic costume. (: and we all wear our costume to school on RHD. (: i still have those photos! haha. totally no lessons on that day, and the entire bartley was filled with beautiful clothes. (: could still remember on that day, andrew was in BRIGHT YELLOW costume, and as usual, looking so TALL. haha! the teachers were all dressed up as well. and because of being so dressed up, we all had no pe as well. (; i miss the teachers, the people, the campus, the everything back in bartley... bartley days were really cosy & warm days. (:

i feel very emo today during econs class. i was easily irritated, and i admit, i'm frustrated and unhappy. sometimes, things just don't go my way, and i become edgy. =x

i'm so looking forward to this sat's steamboat-ing with dearies. i really really hope i can make it on sat. mummy's grandmother is admitted into the hospital, and her condition ain't that stable. tomorrow night is D-NIGHT. if we receive any unwanted news, then sat's steamboat-ing got to be off for me. ): regardless of what reason, be it is because of my own selfish interest that i want to be there for the gathering, or because i hope the elderly can hang on... i just hope that she'll be ok. i really hope i can make it, and enjoy myself fully and thoroughly before we turn into full muggers and mug our heads off for the coming exams. may bad news not come please... =x

i just realise. my lappy's "F" key on the keyboard seems to be on it's way to dying on me. i have difficulty typing the "F"s when i need to. =x stupid electronic stuffs. all dying on me one by one. *RAHHHHHHS-

STALKED! =x

2007-07-17T19:00:00.000+08:00

mood-less today. friends, head to LIVEJOURNAL. go go!

i'm feeling more than what i'm feeling. and i'm really tired of having to be myself as much as possible. i hate those stares. ): now, more comes. ): i don't know how long more i can take them. but i'm really freaking out. =x

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went home myself today. took 66, and went past the 985 bus-stops. memories AGAIN! =x i miss ake days. i miss ake. i miss syf preparation days. i miss syf. i miss dinner after syf. and i miss the night ride on 985 after dinner that day. i miss the companion i had on 985 that night... ):

time check: 10.57pm.
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random, again. (:

2007-07-16T20:52:00.000+08:00

RANDOMISATION! cos i got LOADS to finish today. ): and i'm starting to CHEW OFF BOOKS TODAY! last week was filled with FUN & PLAYING. this week is the restart-ing of my engine. (: all the way! (;

SHIRLEY LOVES LEONG! (: for every reason today. leong, you know why! ((:
NEW ADD-ONs ON SHIR's WISH LIST! (1) dearies sleep-over at my place! ((: (2) HK trip with EDITH, SHER GF & LEONG! ((:
me & sher are EGG-CITED! =p
teacher-parents meet this friday. *bloops- OH! and there's no school this friday. ((:
i miss my hendra sunshine like TONNIES? ): finally see him today. (:
steamboat-ing is coming! and i want to wear my newly bought "painter-suit"! (;
TP IS COMING. and i'm freaking scared & nervous. *rahs-
new hyped blog song! (: jump off from the earth's surface with me, will you? =p
new photos for notebook! check them out tomorrow! (;
stomach cramps nearly "killed" me today, and left me meal-less in school. ):
one last note, PE TOMORROW = TRIAL RUN FOR X-COUNTRY! *shuckies-

CIAOS LOVELIES! <3

i love everything about this morning. ((:

traumatising. =x

2007-07-15T02:09:00.000+08:00

one issue after another came looking for me yesterday. ): and i feel so upset since in the morning. felt a lot better after talking to sher gf and edith sweets. (: they're really great listeners & sisters. (: also, leong. he listened to me, talked to me & even advised me on what i should do regarding the "stares" i receive in school lately. but i know, because of the "stares", i will most probably be taking an action that will affect him. ): i'm still considering if i should or i shouldn't make that move. once that move is taken, on one hand, i feel more relieved, but on the other hand, i will drag another person into the picture, and that person is my good friend. =x i don't wish to involve another person, yet i feel so lost. i don't know what else i can do now. especially when people around me are making fun, making me feel more awkward, and the stares are really getting "out of hand". ): whatever it is, i will leave to tomorrow to decide. tomorrow is D-DAY! =x

driving yesterday was not ok. uncle salleh says that i'm not giving myself enough acceleration, and i'm still scared and not confident. =x TP is in less than TWO FREAKING WEEKS, and i'm still making mistakes. =x i striked the VERTICAL PARKING POLE today when i'm making an exit. i was super angry with myself, because i've NEVER strike ANY poles before, and that vertical parking was so nice. =x disappointing. and i stopped within the YELLOW BOX today, because i wanted to beat the amber light, with pedestrians waiting to cross the road already. ok. i'm a great disappointment yesterday. =x hope today's driving later would be a better one, and mistake-free. uncle ang's taking me later. may there be lesser mistakes, and everything runs smoothly. yes, driving later at 1.05pm, and i'm still here online at 1.21am. =p

edith & junlong came over to study yesterday too! ((: and we're making this a weekly thing. (: study together, and motivate one another along. maybe because today's the first day, so we're a little distracted here and there. i'm sure the next session will be better and more efficient. we got to be even more disciplined. if not, it will defeat all the purpose. =x

i received another news today. a really shocking one, which left me distracted and unable to concentrate on revising just now. =x i honestly was distracted, and i kept thinking why. =x SHOO to all distractions! *RAHS* FOCUSSSSS! =x

i didn't know whatever that comes to me about you, has such a strong impact. =x

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was talking to leong online, and we started talking about friends. i told him, how lucky he was to have rubin & kiat as his really wonderful & true friends, and how i come to realise that the friendship that i cherished & loved the most is actually gone just over a small incident. and i said, who knows what will happen the next moment. he was a really sweet guy, who replied, "I KNOW! the next moment you found LEONG! that LEONG would be with you thru thick and thin." (: it was a really sweet thing i get to hear, and i'm really glad i've got leong. ((:

and he said, "when you say you drag a friend down with you, it's actually to have a friend to walk with you." that's what he said to me the night before, when i spilled everything about the stares i'm getting, and how frustrated i am due to those stares to him. (:

i told him, the suggestion he gave to me, will definitely drag him down into the situation, and make him involved in the matter which doesn't concern him in the first place. as usual, being the sweet leong, he said, "i say it's not dragging. it's about being with you to solve this problem together." (:

tell me, where else can i find another leong as sweet as this one i've known? (: LUCKS TO OUR MISSION LEONG! (: and... i love leong! ((:
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results.

2007-07-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

results are ALL out. good or bad, i got to accept them. but i'm happy, because, at least, out of my 5 targets, 3 are achieved. (: gonna work DOUBLE/TRIPLE HARD from today onwards to achieve ALL 5 TARGETS during prelims. (: a brief sum-up:

CLA : B [achieved! (: ]
Econs : E [*BOO-]
Mgt of Biz : C [achieved! (: ]
GP : C5 [*BOO-]
Maths 8174 : A1 [achieved! (: ]

so, NICH! DO I GET MY SPIN FOR SHOPPING ROUND TOWN? (; haha. =p

this time round's exams, i did put in effort. but somehow, i think i could do better than this. or rather, i know i can do better than this. i didn't start really early when preparing my mids, and i was way lagging behind my own schedule. so, this time round, for my prelims, i'm determined, and i will stick to my own planned schedule, and work towards my targets. (: GO GO GO SHIRLEY! ((:

driving practice tomorrow morning! (: and edith sweets will be coming over to my place to study together tomorrow as well. (: i love edith! (;

can't wait for SISTERS' CLUB STEAMBOAT-ING SESSION on next saturday! haha. finally, sisters' club can meet up again, and have fun together. ((:

did a little shopping just now with mama. and... I BOUGHT NEW CLOTHES AGAIN! wahaha. i think i know what i shall wear for steamboat-ing next sat! (;

WOOHOO~

signs of love. <3

2007-07-12T20:14:00.000+08:00

ervy sister sent me this, and i thought, it was pretty true... =p

11 signs you're in love.

ELEVEN:
you walk really slow when you're with them.

TEN:
you feel shy whenever they're around.

NINE:
you smile when you hear their voice.

EIGHT:
when you look at them, you can't see the other people
around you, you just see him/her.

SIX:
they're all you think about.

FIVE:
you realise you're always smiling when you're looking at
them.

FOUR:
you would do anything for them, just to see
them.

THREE:
while reading this, there was one person on your mind
this whole time.

TWO:
you were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't
notice number SEVEN was missing.

ONE:
you just scrolled up to check, and is now laughing
silently at yourself.

haha. as you're reading, how many of you found yourself secretly laughing? =p well, that shows/tells it all, didn't it? (;

tomorrow's the day! my last paper to be brought back home. i don't know what the situation will be like tomorrow. embarrassed? further "humiliated/insulted"? further wronged and misunderstood? well, let's just leave it for tomorrow to settle. whatever it is, i know i've got a group of friends who will be behind me, supporting me and backing me always. (: i love my friends! (:

oh! this morning, before i left the canteen for morning assembly, i "accidentally" gave my nalgene a SUPER BIG KNOCK on the table, followed by the bench. it was TWO LOUD "PLANG PLANG". ignatious was staring at me, and saying, "aiyoh! can you be more careful? don't forget, i'm also drinking from THAT bottle as well!" haha! what has my nalgene's knocks got to do with him anyway? HAHA! oh. he drinks from the PINK NALGENE as well! =p he LOVES my PINK NALGENE! (;

touched.

2007-07-11T18:48:00.000+08:00

finally received my ake package from sher gf today. (: just finish watching the video which made me tear non-stop. i really got to say, these bunch of people really touch my heart, and make me feel really warm. (: i miss every single thing about ake... from the start, till the end, from people i don't know, to those close friendships we've built... i know, i treasure them a lot, and i really love them more than anything else. (: the video was a really great one. (: when those photos appear one by one, noting down those captions which signifies our activities/performances, i just feel the tears rolling down. those wonderful & memorable moments that i really cannot forget, and i can't make myself forget them either. i love ake. (:

oh ya! thanks to hendra sunshine & ili, they posted my SUPER UNGLAM photo that ben took during our malaysia trip in 2005. and that SUPER UNGLAM moment is captured, with a SUPER BIG GOLDFISH FACE! =x well, its ok. (;

will post up the photos of what is in the package in a few days time, when my bluetooth adaptor is working. it's abnormal now. =x still, i want to say, i miss ake, and i love ake a lot a lot. (:

they touched my heart, and so did you. (:

gotten back my results, except for maths. cleared all, but not really satisfactory as targets were not met. ): sense of achievement for GP & management, but the rest were a BIG SHAKE HEAD. =x what's over is over, and i can only work for the present and the future. (: turning into a full-mugger mode with edith soon, and we're gonna study together. (: lovelove edith sweets! i have to, and will make a difference. (:

before i go, presenting again, my beloved ake. (:

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i continue to get STARED at, and i continue to feel like an animal. but for today, it's even "better"! i feel like a little kid being punished to stand at one corner, and not get out of that corner until permission is given. oh please! can they just KEEP THEIR EYES TO THEMSELVES? i'm starting to not lead normal school life, especially when TIME TABLE IS ALREADY CONDENSED, AND WE SHARE THE SAME BREAKS & GO HOME TIME? i need to get an invisible cloak, anyone knows where to get it? i will pay any price for it, just to make myself less visible. =x
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SO WHAT? =x

2007-07-10T19:23:00.000+08:00

SO WHAT IF YOU TOP? SO? i cannot say that i'm not affected by YOUR words, but is there a need for you to do so? =x you just want to make me feel dejected and down thats all! so... why do i have to be bothered with you? =x *RAHS- ANGRYYYY! =x just *SHUSH* will you?

another thing, i don't need people to help me make choices/decisions, when it concerns ME only. i've got my own thoughts and way of thinking, i don't have to follow whatever YOU say. ok?

also. i just feel super super stared at wherever i go. i hate the feeling of being STARED at. especially when i'm trying to have my meal peacefully, i don't like to be STARED! i feel like an animal ok? i really feel that way today during break.

SUPER BAD MOOD. SHOO~

off to rant at LJ. i need to get it OFF my mind, if not, I'M BURSTING AND BLASTING TO WHOEVER COMES AND TALK TO ME NEXT! =X

havaianas. (:

2007-07-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

the minnie mouse necklace that i saw online two days ago is OUT OF STOCK! ): and adeline, the owner of the blogshop says that the supplier won't produce it anymore. ): but it was really on high demand, that's why it ain't surprising to be sold out really fast. ): like leong says, save the money i want to spend on that necklace up, and to get myself another something that i like. (: i've already found it! wahaha. or rather, it has always been wanted by me. =p

HAVAIANAS FLASH URBAN FRESH. (: i'm spotting on the PINK & WHITE FLORAL pair, at the bottom right hand corner, with the colour : blush rose. (: it's $49.90 per pair anyway. =x
[photo credits to NEWURBANMALE.COM]

HAPPY 19TH YICHUANG! (: haha. i love talking to her in CAPS! (: told her last night, since we can't talk in CAPS in school, then we shall SHOUT to one another, just like what we did with those CAPS in sms-es. =p

meiling gave me a really sweet gift today. (: love her to bits. (: saw the card that she wrote to me, and after reading it, i feel like crying... i miss ake... i miss ake a lot a lot a lot... ):

rahs! i feel that everything of mine is crumbling down and dying. =x whatever.

further buzz-es are posted at my LJ. HALO me for the link, and i give only when i think i can give. (: if not, sorry!

visitors.

2007-07-08T17:31:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna faint. =x there are visitors over at my place from taiwan, and the parents brought along FOUR kids. so, now, my place is filled with KIDS. *faints-

finally, school starts officially tomorrow. the past two weeks were horrible weeks, where brain cells got killed and sleep is scarce. =x school's back to normal, and i will get to see all my lovelies everywhere again! (: yays!

my bluetooth adaptor is like spoilt? it's not working no matter how i pluck it into my laptop. now i can't send songs/photos from my phone to the lappy, or from the lappy to my phone. ):

driving was good today. (: the only weakness that i have now, is INSUFFICIENT ACCELERATION! =x ok. less than three weeks to correct this. *rahs-

i want that minnie mouse necklace! ((: i'm so gonna get it! whee~

shopping with zero returns. ):

2007-07-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

after tuition today, went SHOPPING with EDITH SWEETS & JUNLONG WORMIE! ((: too bad, i didn't manage to get myself anything, but edith got herself a top. (: wanted to try the same top she bought as well, but the queue was super long, so i didn't try in the end. another regret! =x walked past adidas today, and i thought of the adidas jacket that i gave a miss when i was in HK. ahhhhh! that pink & white adidas jacket. ): next year, when we go HK, i'm so gonna get the adidas jacket, either the one i saw the other time, or a newer design. ((: whee~

i love shopping with edith sweets! (: haha. too bad i got to come home earlier today, because my parents are going out, and no one's home to look after my sisters. ): sighs... i still haven't get my pair of PINK & WHITE HAVAIANAS SANDALS! =x ok... i'm going crazy over that pair of sandals soon... =p

MORE MORE SHOPPING PLEASE! and of course, SHOPPING WITH RETURNS. (; i want a lot of things orh! =p now... i can't wait for steamboat-ing with my dearest GFs & SISTERS' CLUB members! (; yadayada!

check this out! (: me & sher gf are both having itchy hearts because of THESE! =p

i like this one the best! haha. it's very sweet looking luh. the whole thing like so "bling bling". =p it's going at $12.90, inclusive of shipping price. ((: maybe, i'll get it. HAHA! (;

[all photos, credit to ALL THE ACCESSORIES YOU WANT.]

diabetes.

2007-07-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

i'm going to get diabetes soon, tv drama diabetes. =p i think i choose the wrong show to watch at this moment. haha! it's too sweet already. sweet until really making me go crazy. =p

AHHHHHHH! I LOVE THE SHOW TO BITS! WOOHOO~

lane change.

2007-07-06T18:33:00.000+08:00

LANE CHANGING IS SO NOT FUN! =x driving today was smooth all the way till i got to do lane change. ): was freaking nervous when i see the traffic flow behind my car please. after that, i will not know which mirror to look at, the rear view mirror, of my side mirror. =x now, i'm praying real hard that i won't get TEST ROUTE 8/9 for my TP test. if not... =x no no, even if i get test route 8/9, i will still do it. (: i got to pass it once and for all! (:

chiong-ing 花样少年少女 now. =p it's super cute luh the show. 瑞希 (ella) is super cute in the show luh! her facial expression make her character so bubbly. =p 泉 (吴尊) is the typical cool guy that girls will go gaga over. but, i prefer 秀伊 (汪东城). haha! he's super cute luh! like sher gf say, he may look "goondoo goondoo", but the way he talk and act really super funny. =p i'm determined to finish watching the entire thing by sunday! wahaha! =p totally going crazy over the show please. =p

finally! (:

2007-07-05T16:35:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVER! MIDS ARE OVER! haha. =p finally, the long two-week process is over. i swear, i studied harder for this mids than i even did for my Os! haha. =p hope the results will reflect what i've done over the past 3 weeks. if not... =x well, it's over! so shouldn't think so much of what has already happened. (:

today's paper to me, was a rather easy one, but a disappointment for myself. ): i didn't finish my TWO essay questions, because i spent too much time on the short questions. ): my teacher also knows that, and she say i don't bear to "let go" of not answering too much for my short questions. sighs... like sher gf says, got to learn from my mistake and move on... better strategy next time round! yadayada! (:

sisters' club steamboat-ing is POSTPONED. from tomorrow, to next friday, then to 20th, then to 21st. =p finalised date : 21st JULY 2007. so...

ATTENTION ALL SISTERS' CLUB MEMBERS & THE ONLY SNAKE:
steamboat-ing session - 21st JULY 2007
meeting time - 5PM
meeting place - MARINA BAY MRT CONTROL STATION
*excited! =p

ahhh. i badly need some retail therapy. it has been super long since i last shopped and buy things. but i think i'm going broke? no income for this week, since there's only one day of school, and i don't even stay in school for so long that i need money. HAHA! =p well, next week, money comes rolling in! (; woohoo~

cute baby. ((:

2007-07-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

was talking to my dearest ervy sayang two nights ago, and we talked about like from NOW to the PAST. =p even little secrets that we didn't tell one another back then during our secondary school days, they were all out that night. =p we even went through those details, gossipy moments, bitch-y times, those ups & downs, those squabbles we had, those NP days, especially atc camps, school np camps, our likes and loves, our crushes and knock-overs, our this & that... just anything that we can think of at that very moment. =p i seriously do miss those good ol' punggol days, those horrible yet memorable NP trainings, especially when we train for our OSO! and not forgetting, those mee soto days, with either one hotdog/fish cutlet, and with spoons and spoons of chilli, after that, we are all downing bottles and bottles of water... =p haha. those days back then were really great times luh. i will never forget them, and those who were part of us back then. ((:

i can still remember, ervy dearie have got a little brother, eddy! (; he's super cute now, and i can't wait to see him! haha. cute little eddy is already in nursery! like how time flies please. he's already FOUR YEARS OLD OKAY! =p

(TOP: ervy susanti bte sudira & her little brother eddy!) & (BOTTOM: presenting, EDDY!) the main highlight is EDDY, not ERVY! =p wahahaha. =p told you! eddy is UBER UBER CUTE! (;

anyhow, i think i did a great job on chinese lit yesterday (03072007), cos i completed almost everything, and i'm left with one prose & half a story. ((: as usual, i'm the selfish girl, who wants her name on that board again for mids. ((: i don't care, i just want it there again, and for the sake of seeing it on the board, for the 3rd time in a row for mids, i'm so gonna do it! ((: the only time i would lose it for the past two years, and this year's common test, are the CTs. =x i don't know why, but i just lose it for CTs. last year's mids & promos, i made myself up there, and best of all, i got my bursary. ((: i want to keep it going for this year, although it might not be as easy, but i will still give my best shot. (;

i'm so excited for monday! ((: i can't wait for monday to come! ((: wahaha! =p

papa louie.

2007-07-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

i'm totally into the game "papa louie" these days. haha! =p as i take my usual break after studying for some time, i will play it to "relieve stress". HAHA! =p it's fun okay? if any of you are interested/bored to the max after papers or whatsoever, go try playing it at "PAPA LOUIE" *click to play!*. (;

finally done with ALL those that needs translating, and THREE STORIES! ((: now, TWO MORE STORIES & TWO PROSES, and i'm done with chinese lit. (: shall not complain about how terrible my mids schedule is anymore. because, if not for these SIX LONG BREAK DAYS, i would never be able to cover at least HALF of my chinese lie memorising. (; although i played TWO out of the FOUR days that has passed *oops!* , i got half of today & one tomorrow to finish up everything. ((: all the wayyyy! (;

fed up.

2007-07-02T16:56:00.000+08:00

when one thing comes after another, i really feel sick and tired of living. especially when people closest to me, like my sisters, who fail to be considerate towards things, being petty over words and stuff when i'm already feeling frustrated and really shitty enough, i would really want to shut myself out from the whole world. i might jolly well crawl under my bed, stay there, and never come out. things are really becoming too heavy and burdensome for me to handle. having to meet expectations at home and in school, having to see people's face and do things, having to act like as though nothing has happened before when things HAVE and ARE happening... i know, this is the reality, the real world i'm supposed to face. and there are more coming my way when i finish school, and out in that bigger world. i just feel, tired and drained from having to cope with more than one thing. :(

thanks to leong & edith sweetie. (: they made me feel so much better. leong saved me from flooding my room further, and edith made me feel so loved. (: i'm really glad to have known leong this year, and really glad that he's always there these days. he said things that made me think, not only for myself, but for others as well. at the same time, he "smacked" into me senses, that i've never receive before. as for my edith sweetie, i got nothing to say, but that i'm really glad to be able to have her as my 'jie mei'. (: she always stay with me whenever i'm down, and make me feel really really loved. (: thank you again, to the two of you yea? (: BIG BIG LOVES. <3

driving just now was GREAT! (: the instructor says that i'm good already. (: today's driving was smooth, with minimal or near to zero hiccups. just that, my left hand is really not strong enough to pull up and let go the handbrake. =x as for the others, aside from doing lane-changing when there are like DOZENS of cars around, i'm okay. ((: the uncle today told me a lot of things, which made me feel as though i've already passed my TP test. =p and i feel so happy just by hearing them. HAHA! =p

thinking too much?

2007-07-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me that whatever i've done all these while and worry for all these while is worthwhile? can someone just tell me and assure me that tomorrow's a better day, and everything will be ok? i really feel like crying out everything, and sleep everything off. one thing after another coming strong after me. tell me, what kind of good luck/good things are coming my way. yes, i'm disappointed. yes, i'm unhappy. yes, i'm sad. yes, i'm angry.

如果只要笑一笑，就没什么事情过不了，我可以笑一百遍，一千遍，一万遍...可是，我已经笑了这么久，事情始终没有过去.

can you come around that corner, and take me away from all these? this year has been a really bad year for me, with everything coming on so strongly. i'm afraid, i can't take it any longer. cos things are nearer to the edge, and i'm crumbling. i really am... :(

ultimate suay-ness! =x

2007-06-30T18:34:00.000+08:00

today's a damn suay day for me can? =x really suay until don't know what to say please. =x and i nearly burst into tears in public. *RAHHHHHHS. =x

after tuition, i wanted to cab home, cos there are guests over at my place. so after bluetooth-ing edith sweets the songs she want, i walk really quickly over to the 7-11 area, hoping to catch a cab asap. who knows, the queue for cab is like so long, and in front of me, there are near to 10 people waiting? and those cabs are really irritating. i stood there for 10 mins, with only ONE cab coming into the lane. super slow please! =x then there's this woman, who was two person ahead of me, she saw a cab that flashed the "bukit batok" sign, and she flag that cab and asked for "choa chu kang". the taxi driver said ok, and she hopped on. the rest who were in front of her were scolding her luh! but she didn't even bother, and just hopped on, and off she goes. =x

then, mummy called, to ask where am i. i say i'm still queuing for cab. she ask me to hop on 13 if it comes. but stupidly enough, there's no 13 as well! *RAHS- no cab, no bus, i continued to wait pathetically. =x mummy called again, and ask me to go to the coffeeshop behind my tuiton centre to take cab. so i walk really fast all the way back there, and on my way back, this really stupid cyclist BANG RIGHT INTO ME! =x and his bike got this hook that hook onto my shorts, and the thread came out. in the end, there's a hole in my shorts. and the cyclist didn't even apologise please! come on lah! i'm not very small size ok? cannot see me in front of you is it? can't you like ring your bell to ask me to let you pass? and i didn't pluck anything into my ears luh! ringing a bell won't kill right? now you cause my shorts to have a hole leh, sorry also never say then ride off. ANGRYYYYY! =x

as i walk to the coffeeshop, i tried to cover that hole with my jacket and it makes me look weird. cos i walk really weirdly. =x finally, i reached the area, and started waiting for cabs to come by. irritating enough, still adding onto my irritated-ness, NO CABS ARE COMING ALONG WITH THE SIGN "HIRED" OFF! =x damn pissed off already, and people are just fighting with me for cab lah! all those adults ah, really cannot stand them. then there's this indian aunty who seems nice, asked me, "girl, where you going?" so i said, "potong pasir." then she said, "oh! potong pasir! i'm going ang mo kio, later if we got cab, we share ok? then we can all go off. i drop you first, then i go ang mo kio." i was super happy when she said that lah! i wouldn't mind paying for the journey from bishan to potong pasir for that please. BUT! THIS AUNTY CHEATED MY FEELINGS! =x she went opposite to flag for cab, and when she got her cab, she went off on her own. I FEEL DAMN CHEATED PLEASE! at that point of time, i really want to cry already. =x one after another, continuously can? =x *RAHHHHHHSSSSS-

mummy called, ask me how is it already. i say no cabs lah! then she told daddy, so daddy came to fetch me. i was super relieved to hear that. and while waiting for daddy, still no cabs. when daddy came, i complained to him like crazy. sooooo pissed please! =x i'm not pissed because there're no cabs empty for me, but that PEOPLE ARE FIGHTING WITH ME WHO CAME FIRST, PEOPLE ARE BANGING INTO ME AND NOT APOLIGISING, AND PEOPLE ARE CHEATING MY FEELINGS! =x

who else can be more suay than me today? i guess no one! =x *RAHS-

ok. now my maid just came and tell me that SHE BURNT MY SHORTS. anymore SUAY STUFFS COMING MY WAY? CAN THEY COME LIKE AFTER NOW? i can't take it anymore! =x

stutters.

2007-06-29T19:23:00.000+08:00

oral wasn't really good i guess. i stutter a whole lot, because i was freaking nervous. when i'm nervous, i can't speak well & properly. =x before i even reach school, my heart was thumping, my hands were cold, and i keep wanting to go toilet. =p when i saw chuting at the noticeboard area, she ask why my hands so cold. haha! =p i told her i was nervous. =p while waiting for my turn, i was super thirsty, and i dare not drink water, if not, i will keep running to the toilet. =x before it was kiat's turn to go, i ask him to talk louder later. haha! =p when it's his turn, i could hear him from where i'm sitting luh! but not very clearly. haha. =p can hear him say a lot of "wo...wo...wo..." =p

had a great talk with leong last night. (: after sooo long ya? haha! =p we talked till 2+, and i slept till 11am this morning. =p wanted to wake up at 10am, but obviously, i was sooo tired and sleepy that i refuse to wake up when my alarm went off. HAHA! =p

was doing up my july schedule for my blog's front page, and i realise that under [JULY HIGHLIGHTS], everything there are BOLD-ed. they are all important. especially my CLA LISTENING & the TRAFFIC POLICE PRACTICAL TEST! =x

today's the 29th. FOUR FREAKY MONTHS LATER = the START OF MY As. my first paper is on the 29th OCT, CLA P1 & P2. four freaky months. really freaky. =x

YAYNESS! ONE MORE WEEK BEFORE STEAMBOAT-ing WITH DEARIES & DARLINGS! woohoo~ (: lovelove dearies! <3

anyhow, went to IMM for lunch today, before heading down to school. (: when i reach the place, memories of last year's IMM performance came back to me. and when i saw the cargo area, i remembered how we cheered/sing and wave to the other schools' performers. i miss those ake performance days, when we were all dressed up and looking good, and having the best time we could have. i miss the esplanade concourse's performance more. those two nights were really the greatest two performance nights. (: i miss ake...

i love days without stares. ((:

down down down! ((:

2007-06-28T16:26:00.000+08:00

7 DOWN! 1 MORE TO GO! ((:

i'm a happy girl, cos exams are ENDING! ((: one more paper to go, and i'm done with mids. (: whatever the results i will be getting back in about two weeks time, they're what i've worked for. if they are good, that's good. if they are not up to my expectations, more to work for. if they are bad, i can go jump into the drain/jump into any holes i see/cry like a baby etc., and back to work. and i really mean WORK, HARDER THAN I EVEN "SLOGGED" FOR THREE YEARS AGO FOR MY Os.

econs today was... pretty tough. =x MCQ was really mind-twisting. i ALMOST couldn't finish it can? =x and i "tikam" my qn20, cos i was thinking really hard, trying to squeeze as much brain juice/cells out as possible, and the teacher went, "ok! stop writing!" =x drq was better, cos i can really write. (: case study, i'm sure it's a bummer! =x i didn't manage to finish it luh! ):

i seriously think that i have time management problem. for ALMOST every paper, sure got AT LEAST ONE QUESTION i cannot complete. =x i got to start tuning myself to the exam time allowance. i don't want to be unable to complete my papers during the actual As, which is like SUPER SADDEN-ING please. =x

chinese oral for my As paper tomorrow. like kiat says, "so fast!" it's really fast, and i didn't prepare myself for it though. i guess, i will just go there, blabber, and flash them a BIG smile. (: hope the conversation isn't that tough luh. at least, let me got room to "explore" a bit. =p especially when i cannot be like kiat, think of all the points and ideas that i want to say on the spot. =p and those points that he come up with, are really good ok! (;

anyhow, xianyang told us this morning that teewei's going to do parachuting today. and on my way home from hougang mall, i saw PARACHUTING IN PROGRESS. (; my mama ask me to see when she saw two people jumping off from the plane. and i manage to catch only when they were already in mid-air. so the first question that came out was, "MUMMY! CAN SEE TEEWEI?" hahaha! =p

all those late night since the second week of holidays till now, i really am, and totally am drain-ed. but still, I MISS THOSE LATE NIGHT CHATS WITH LEONG! (: he really manage to keep me awake and study till really late into the night. (: thanks leong dear! (:

swimming later! ((: i miss swimming! SWIMMMMMMMM. ((:

i feel terrorised. i really feel so... oh, don't you know that staring is WRONG? =x

killer paper. :(

2007-06-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

FIVE DOWN. TWO MORE TO GO! :))

random-isation. no choice, gotta muggggg. =x

maths p2 was a total KILLER PAPER today. :( and i didn't finish the paper. :(
others were rather manageable? i hope the results reflects so...
CLA 'A' LEVELS ORAL THIS FRIDAY. *omg*
someone bought over my driving time slot this friday. :) LOVES to that person. :)
condensed time-table for T3 is out. i go home LATE every day, except FRIDAY.
i love counting down to end of exams. :))

COUNTING DOWN:

END OF MIDS - 8 DAYS! :)

STEAMBOAT-ING WITH DEARIES & DARLINGS - 9 DAYS! :)

TRAFFIC POLICE PRACTICAL - 28 DAYS! =x

trees.

2007-06-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

i'm "killing" trees. a lot a lot of trees. because i'm using a lot a lot of rough papers. =x pity the trees okay? :)

i feel aches all over my back. it's always the case when i sit at the study table for too long. okay, i'm old. :( late nights have really worn me out, and today, during tuition, i felt like i'm going to doze off at any moment. =x and best of all, i failed the vocab grand test. mrs low went, "it's so un-characteris-ing of shirley!" at that very moment, guilt ran all through me. =x

okay. my purpose is to post PHOTOS that were longggggggg due. =p

daddys' day dinner [part 2]. :)
weird. the folder for part1 is not here. =x

cam-waring on the car. although it's quite squeezy with four people at the back, we always manage to "war" our way through. ;)

:))

*boo- exams! =x

this packet of wormies kept me awake for most of the nights. :) they are really sour, and i HATE sour stuff. so they did the trick. ;)

the last wormie. :( it wants to help me "share" my load. =p

daddys' bday dinner. :)
finally! daddy manage to celebrate his bday with us this year! :)) although we only get to dine together on his chinese bday, but, at least, WE DINE TOGETHER! ;) lovelove daddy! <3

making use of TUNNEL LIGHTS. ;)

act cute hor? =p she will "kill" me if she knows i post her photo here. =p

endless disturbs from my sisters. that's what they LOVE to do when i take photos. *PIANGS-

:))

the end! ;)

insufficient.

2007-06-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

3 more days to the start of MYE. =x i can only say, i'm not confident enough for the papers. especially, econs. =x i feel as though i haven't studied enough for econs, although i've got my content, but i don't seem to be able to remember them well, not as well as i do for management. and i really feel sooooo dead for econs. =x it's either i do well, or i flop for my essay paper. *boo-

jieyan called me the other day. he ask me to relax for my mids, and not get so tense. he says, the real spur and push will come three months before the big As. and that's the time, when i'm really really turned on to my full revision mode. :) thanks for making me feel better 4jie. :) i miss you guys a lot please. as promised, after my As, we will rock town ok? :)

anyway, from what i can remember, i'm the one and only 4A-ian taking As this year. those who graduated with me from punggol, are already either JC-grads, going on to be undergrads, or are in their last poly year. well, lucks to me. most of them knows that i'm on my battle this year. =x and thanks to those who wish-ed me luck for my mids. :) hope the lucks are working! =p

i think i need better brains. brains that can allow me to store all my content. there's already a lot for me to remember, and i still can't remember. best of all, management is mixing up with econs. *POOF-

COUNTING DOWN:

DAYS TO MYE - 3 DAYS! =x

DAYS TO END OF MYE - 13 DAYS! :)

DAYS TO OUTING WITH DEARIES & DARLINGS - 14 DAYS! :)

DAYS TO TRAFFIC POLICE PRACTICAL TEST - 33 DAYS! =x

three more days. to make a difference. can i turn the table around, and make it my winning round, it depends. three more days...

count down.

2007-06-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

COUNTING DOWN:

DAYS TO MYE - 7 DAYS! =x

DAYS TO END OF MYE - 17 DAYS! :)

DAYS TO OUTING WITH DEARIES & DARLING - 18 DAYS! :)

DAYS TO TRAFFIC POLICE PRACTICAL TEST - 37 DAYS! =x

the timer is on, the clock is striking, the days get lesser...

he say he's the superman.

2007-06-15T03:22:00.000+08:00

nich just got to make my day. :) he sent me a comment on friendster, telling me that he's the superman. :) when i thank him over msn, he replied, "anything to make you feel better. =D " that's super sweet, and it heals please. :) THANK YOU NICH! :)

meeting expectations and achieving targets are tough. pressure is coming from EVERYWHERE, in EVERY FORM. =x

nich just reminded me, As is in LESS THAN 160 DAYS. ok. that's GOOD & BAD news ALL TOGETHER.

it has been long since SHIRS-WORLD takes her official break. :) so, SHIRS-WORLD will be on "MUGGING HOLIDAY", cos i really need to get down to serious, full-drive & hardcore mugging & revision for my mids.

nich & i have a deal. :) if i give him good news for my mids, he will meet up with me, and drive me round town for shopping after he got his liscense. :) YAY! he's pushing me hard enough to spur me on. ;) LOVELOVE! ;)

keep the tags rolling in. i will pop by to reply them, and will blog when i feel like it. :) take care people! :)

i cannot bring myself to not wonder, and think, and make wild guesses. it's getting really out of control. and i hate it.

it's true. what hurts the most, is being too close. :( closeness invites jealousy, closeness invites misunderstandings, and closeness invites hurt when things ain't going the way we want it to be. :( yet, at the same time, we yearn for closeness. closeness in the heart, mind & soul. closeness physically & mentally.

i want to remain close to you & you. i want to be as close as possible, and be as close till the end of time. i don't know what's installed for us tonight, tomorrow, next week/month/year/lifetime, i just want to remain like now. the closeness i feel & am aware of, the closeness i love, and the closeness i cherish & will never forget. i don't ask for much. no matter how confuse i am, no matter how complicated things are, no matter what happens the next moment, i just want things to be like now, and i will be a really happy & blissful girl. :)