Wednesday, August 31, 2005Y
31/08/2005. *piano exam.teachers day celeb*
went ferr the paper todae.
nort too bad.
but i was damn nervous.
nervous until i dunnoe how to sit still
while waiting lahs.
and when im in there.
my hands are cold.
and my fingers tremble like
nobodys biz lahs.
but it was a little better
than the other time lahs. :)
teachers day celeb was best.
had fun.
and i bet.
the teachers had fun too!
and mrs heng and mr heikal was
mr and mrs popular.
hahas!
and mr raj won an award too! x)
body combat looks fun.
but i didnt take part.
left earlier.
hmmms hmmms.
yang they all gort do lantern
todae.
but silly buddies.
didnt let me noe.
sighs.
and im realli nort contributing
norhs.
sad-ded. :(
sighs!
chalet booked lerhs.
going with my three buddies.
and maybe tee wei.
looking forward.
oh yahs!
guess wat?
jus now.
ps tell me.
actually.
rodrick gort sense and feel
that i like him lahs.
and he go tell ps that.
hmmms.
and ps jus told me todae!
like.so long.hahas!
but i dunnoe lahs.
dun want to care.
ehs.im still buying him
present ferr his bdae.
gees.but realli hope he
understands that.
im doing that.
cos im treating him as
my fren.and nth more.
hope he understands. =)
*[melted.]*
Tuesday, August 30, 2005Y
30/08/2005. *giving up on myself*
i feel a pang of guilt.
wat can i say?
there are a whole bunch of ppl
out there.
caring and concerning ferr me.
and here im.
giving up on myself.
and lying to myself.
im so useless.
and so dumb.
im realli useless and dumb.
*[lost ferr words.]*
Y
30/08/2005. *screamy me*
didnt get to blog yest.
but yest was jus plain.
and nth much.
its todae.
that happened alot.
hahas!
im super screamy todae.
yes.
super screamy.
alittle oso scream.
ferr nth oso scream.
and mr heikal.
wanted to record down me
doing my IFAH.
and i dun want.
and i scream again. =/
played with fil badminton todae.
and i saw ss thru'out the entire
ltt session.
hes just there lahs.
sitting there.
and i bet.he heard me scream.
i bet.he see me do stupid
things.
but im jus being me.
the me that im.
its either others accept it.
or ferrget it.
so its either he accept it
that theres such a girl.
or he dun even bother.
i dun realli care.
in fact.
i realli do care.
i yearn ferr him to care.
nahs. *strike that off*
dun wish ferr sth so impossible
yahs?
its nort going to be true lahs.
even if its going to be.
its going to be in my drims.
okes.ive gort to admit this.
i still cant make myself let go.
i cant.
when i see him todae.
everything just came back lahs.
and i see him ferr a whole
40 mins.
so.wat eu tink?
moreover.its a more than 1/2
year thingy.
cant expect me to let go
as and when i like ayes?
i cant do it lahs.
if im to do that.
its so nort me oreadi.
i just want to be myself.
*ive been saying that tons
of times*
piani exams tml.
and im nort realli confident
as yet.
i feel so back.
i feel so lousy.
i feel so stressed up over
my scales.
i feel depressed over
scales.
i might fail scales.
nonono.
im nort going to fail.
nort going to fail any.
i promise to give mrs lee
her best teachers day prezzie.
thats a pass ferr my paper.
yes.
im going to pass.
nort with flying colours.
but a pass.
ferr sure.
*can i do it?*
*[i told myself to move on.
yes.im moving on.
i told myself to let go.
no.im nort letting go.]*
Sunday, August 28, 2005Y
28/08/2005. *new tag board*
yahs.
new tag board.
AGAIN!
hahas. x)
the previous floodbox.
gort prob.
so faster change to this.
seems to be better.
hahas! x)
but i'll try nort to use
back cbox.
hahas! x)
want sth new. =)
*[showing everyone.i can do it.]*
Y
28/08/2005. *condoned behaviour*
he condones her behaviour.
well.then i gort nth
to say lerhs.
so long as hes happie.
im fine with it.
im realli fine with it. =)
yang and all nort coming over
today lerhs.
yang want us to have family day.
lols! =p
jus found out sth.
gp can be realli boring and dry.
as in.to study ferr ahs.
i oso dunnoe.
hahas!
gort to go study ferr maths
test lerhs.
nort realli confident ferr
some parts.
uckily i gort take add maths
before.
so nmow.
its more of a refreshing
of memory
lahs. ;)
im at an advantage as
compared to the others.
going out ferr dinner with
auntie lynette and family.
sighs!im tired!
deprived of slp.
lols! =p
*[i believe i can do it.]*
Saturday, August 27, 2005Y
27/08/2005. *daddies.marmies*
lalalalas.
jus gort home from dinner.
with god daddie and god marmie.
miss them loads wors.
gees.
ehs.very long nv see them lerhs
mahs.hahas!
so suddenly.
have the urge to dine in with
them. ;)
went ferr steamboat at COCA.
yumms. =p
before that.
went to gave aunt jos and family
support at IMM.
ferr the family idol.
they didnt win lahs.
but gort consolation. :)
*congrats dearies*
last nites dinner.
was super bad.
first of all.
its boring.
secondly.
have to eat with the ppl i dun
want to eat with.
on the same table lahs.
and the food is like a spoilt
water tap.
jus keep coming and coming.
non-stop.
and ive totally no appetite.
*nahs.nort becos of THAT case*
and im oreadi bloated by the amt
of water i drink lahs.
i drink tons of water.
hahas! x)
this morning.
had a marathon lesson with
mrs lee.
and okes.ive gort to admit
this ting.
my aural sucks to the core.
lols!
i cant sing lahs.
and i cant hear the left hand
that part.
cannot hear = cant sing.
died-ded.
hahas! x)
well.im prepared.
to flunk my first section
ferr aural.
hahas! =)
thats so me lahs. ;)
yang and guys coming over
to my place tml.
to continue with lantern
making. ;)
cant wait.
hees.
ehs.still gort tuition tml
morning.
*yawns*
im so tired.
woke up at 7.45.
guess im going to
hit the pillows as soon as
i finish up SRJC's AQ.
and study some maths.
test on binomial on monday.
hope i score.
ive super high hopes on maths.
and nort ferrgetting.
CHINESE!
lols. =p
*[i cant live without eu.who says?]*
Friday, August 26, 2005Y
26/08/2005. *dinner*
one thing that i dread
todae.
is nort chi lit lesson.
im actually starting to
lurve my chi lit
lessons lahs! x)
hahas.
okes.wat i dread is.
DINNER TIME!
sighs.
i have to go have dinner
with my grandfather.
and some other ppl.
whom i dun realli wish
to see lahs.
but as if ive gort a choice.
i dun.ive to go.
and ive to.
sian-ded sias. =/
orites.
gort to go get changed.
hmmms.
tml aunt jos,uncle henry,
eugene bao bei,
louis dear,
ranie darling are going to
compete in the final round
of family idol.
and we're going to support
them at IMM.
whees! x)
and im going to IMM.
to buy pencil case!
hahas.
*pink pencil case.
here i come!* =p
*[eu are no longer part of me.]*
Y
26/08/2005. *I WANT TO SHOUT OUT LOUD!*
YES!
I WANT TO SHOUT!
SHOUT OUT LOUDS!
mans.
wat a choice lahs.
okes.
im just angry.and irritated.
nahs.im nort going to fall into
another depression.
and let yang have another chance to lecture me. =p
kaos.y on earth is it her?
at first.i thot it was the other one.
and im relieved.
cos that one.looked realli gentle
and nice.
BUT I DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO GO
FERR HER!
mans.wat a choice lahs!
i almost fainted when i heard it
frm yang noes?
at first.yang they all didnt tell me.
but i overheard them.
i chose to act as if i nv hear anything.
then during mgt lecture.
she told me that its her.
and i was laughing.
i cant stand it.
i just burst out laughing.
ferr wat?
i oso dunnoe.jus laughed.
hahas! x)
sighs.nvm lahs.
wend oso say.
nort fated ferr me.
well.i oreadi woke up.
and ready to move on.
wend say my mood like sgp's
weather.
hahas! =D
and i was tinking.
only that i dunoe how to do
forecasting.hahas!then can
noe when its going to rain.
and when its going to shine.
lols! =p
*[im movin' on.with a new heart.]*
Thursday, August 25, 2005Y
25/08/2005. *letting go*
i had a bad morning in sch.
i had bad mood.
im depressed.
im sads.
in the morning.
yang,wend and cais are
finding out which girl.
and yang pat me on the
back.
honestly.me myself oso
hope to noe who the
girl is.
i noe.she is definitely better
than me in millions and
thousands of times.
but i cant help it.
thot abt alot last nite.
i didnt expect myself to realli
go fall ferr him.
at first.
it was jus his smile.his looks.
thats all.
but frm wat i heard frm yang
yesterdae.
before i go ferr ake prac.
i totally broke down.
and my heart sanked.
i realli fall into deep and
severe depression.
im sad.
realli sad.
and todae.i spent the entire
morning.
sulking.and refusing to eat.
and yang asked me.
"is it worth it norts?is it worth
being so sad.and having
attitude?"
i noe.it isnt.i noe i shldnt have
shown attitude and make
myself so down and sad.
i noe i shldnt.
but i jus gort to noe that.
ive fallen ferr him.
i didnt noe till yest.
yes.yest.i jus noe that yest.
an unexpected news.
an unexpected feeling.
im nort prepared.
but when i heard frm yang that
ting.i realli fall deep into
sadness.nort even in the mood
to joke with farid abt rommance.
no mood at all.
when huda tok to me.
i can only nod my head.
shake my head.
when i see yang,cais and wend.
im oreadi on the verge of breaking
down.
yes.thats how sad im yest.
and how shattered im.
even tee wei find sth wrong with
me yest.
and can even show care.
thats how i look yest. =/
sadness filled my heart.
and my face as well.
thats how sad im.
but todae.
yang brain washed me during
mgt tutorial.
and i thot abt it thru'out mgt
lecture and body combat
training.and found that im
actually doing sth silly.
yang,wend and cais are rite.
when sth is nort mine.
it will nv be mine.
the more i hope ferr it to be
mine.
all the more it wont be.
yangs rite.
if theres a sense of wanting to
be frens.
we wld have exchanged words
of hello.and probably smile.
but i didnt receive any.
so its totally impossible.
possibility is completely zero.
so.i shld move on in life.
with three wonderful buddies.
and one new fren.tee wei. :)
wend:i'll take gud care of myself.
i wont anyhow tink derhs.
cais:i noe.no matter wat.i have
eu three girls here.im more than
satisfied.
yang:thans ferr the brain wash.
thans ferr the waking up.
thans ferr all.
tee wei:thans ferr being so
observant.and thans ferr caring. :)
i give eu four my promise.
i'll take gud care of myself.
i'll move on in life.
i'll be back to the usual self in no
time.i promise.
so.im sure to make it. :)
*[im determined to do wat i want.]*
Wednesday, August 24, 2005Y
24/08/2005. *pictures frm lau pa sat*
here it is!
the pics taken at LPS.
some are frm me.
some frm sben.
lols! x)
enjoy yahs?
*anyways.who noes where to get
the other photos.do let me noe wors!
thans loads! x) *
Y
24/08/2005. *heart-broken*
yes.
im heart broken.
im sad.
im disappointed.
dun ask.
dun probe.
i dun wish to tell.
yang is comforting me.
asking me to cheer up.
but when i see yang.
and she came over to hug me.
i almost cried.
realli.i almost cried out to her.
and i see cais and wend there.
and i see tee wei.
tee wei sees that im unhappy.
asked me y.
and i dun want to tell.
mans.when i see the four of
them.my heart sink again.
realli feel like crying lahs.
and when i see huda.
i realli want to cry.
argh!im seeing ppl who
can realli make me want to
cry out lahs!
and ake prac todae is no fun.
i mean.ferr me only.
i bet the others did enjoyed
themselves.
i nort in the mood to be happie.
and honestly.
this is the first time i find ake
prac hours so damn long lahs.
and when things finally ended.
i saw him again.
and this time.
i dun even feel like looking
at him.
nort at all.
sighs.alahs.dun wish to tok
abt my sad sad ting.
later i feel worst.
but sure enuf.
im heart broken.
and totally sad.
sighs!
yipee!i dun have to go ferr
ake prac on sat.
cos i nort performing on
teachers day.
and i dun have to do theory!
wooties!
and farid still say.
rommance will be sad when im
nort there.
oh yahs!and he still tell me
to faster go into the room the
moment he see me.
nort chasing me to go take
photo.but telling me that.
rommance is inside.
kaos.farid is realli a superb
joker lahs.hahas!
but lucky ferr him.
despite my bad mood.
when he disturb me.
i didnt shoot him.
hahas!
*count eurself lucky farid*
*[i dunoe wat to say.or even do.]*
Tuesday, August 23, 2005Y
23/08/2005. *econs essay.tough*
mans.
mr raj aint in sch ferr econs todae.
and left us with werk to do.
and guess wat?
we dunnoe how to do sias!
its tough lahs.
realli difficult.
we gort points.
but like nort points like that.
:( sad-ded lahs.
sighs.dunnoe nehs.
i didnt left the werk on mrs wong
derhs table oso.
cos nort all pass up.
hand in tml bahs.
at least.we all gort time to like
realli go tink abt the qn.
and like werk on it.
ive completed mine.
but i dunnoe if its like correct.
cos i nort confident ferr the qn.
sighs.
gort photo-taking at ttc tml.
and loads of bc ppl are going
down there ferr it.
and guess wat?
mr ser dun allow me re-run
my 2.4 lahs.
he say pass liaos.
no need to re-run.
want to re-run.
have to use run in sch.
i was like.
wat the...
cos its so different lahs.
to run at the stadium and at
sch. :s
but he say no.then no norhs.
=/
i saw eu todae.
when im having gp lesson.
while im werking on my compre.
i saw eu in eur class.
i saw eu when i went to the gym.
eu walked in.
while i walked out.
i saw eu running.
when me and yang went to fill transport
form.eu running the library blk.
i saw eu again.
when im going ferr maths.
i saw eu outisde the library.
i jus caught eu.
counting down.
less than 50 days to see eu. :(
still remember fridae.
when wend tell me that.
she saw eu looking.
im happie.excited.and over the moon.
oooo.hahas.sat was a total
blast lahs.
i jus cant help it.
but say.hahas!
and yang they all actually
intended to buy me and yc
flowers.hahas!
luckily they didnt. =p
anyways.i had eye filled
of eye candy.
hahas! x)
im going mads. =p
*[scenes of eu smiling.stays.]*
Monday, August 22, 2005Y
22/08/2005. *lau pa sat*
woohoos!
i gort my com back liaos.
hees. x)
its discharged finally!
orites.here to update.
esp on sat derhs event.
hahas!
YES!
MILLENNIAS AKE RAWK
LAU PA SAT.
WE BROUGHT THE ROOF
DOWN.
WE GORT THUMBS UP
FROM MY PARENTS,
AUNT JOS.
AND NORT FERRGETTING
MY DEAREST BUDDIES.
YANG.WEND.CAIS.TEE WEI TOO!
HAHAS.THANS PEEPS!
yahs.we gort nort one thumbs
up.but...TWO!
hahas.we gort applauses.
we gort praises.
they say we were gud.
we were wonderful.
we were great!
mans.im so damn high lahs!
and im so happie that we did
it this time round.
we gort the whole lau pa sat
going.
we gort the entire crowd go WOW!
i lurve ake to bits lahs!
yeahs!im so happie!
hahas! x)
and okes.
farid they all made fun of me
during makan time in the ake
room lahs.
and realli make me so damn
malu norhs!
shall keep that within just ake
yahs?hahas! x)
nahs.i wont take it to heart.
even when yang they all
bluff me that ss was there.
i didnt even take it to heart.
hahas! x) everyones having
fun.so.y shld i spoil the mood
yahs?
I LURVE AKE!
I LURVE ALL AKE MEMBERS!
MUACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)
*[i saw eu todae.i miss eu.]*
Thursday, August 18, 2005Y
18/08/2005. *2.4.kick-boxing*
dun bother to ask me abt my
2.4 run yesterdae yahs?
im going to do my 2.4 all
over again.
cos im doubting my own
timing ferr the run yestedae.
and im determined to do it
once more.
to test out the real results.
mad ayes?thats wat yang
they all say as well.
but i dun deny the fact that
lunch time training did werk.
and i did improve alot ferr
my own timing. ;)
thans to all pe teachers yahs?
esp mr azlan. ;)
did body combat ferr lunch
time training todae.
and it just one word.
FUN!
hahas! x) i realli enjoyed
the session arhs.
going to drag yang,wend
and cais there nxt thurs.
cos we cant go ferr the
tues one.
hahas! =p
so have to go ferr only
the thurs one norhs. ;)
saw ss while im doing body combat.
hes at the top gym.
and i saw him this morning.
while im having my gp remedial.
mrs wong asked me to
go ferr gp remedial.
*happies*
i passed my econs class
test wors! x)
i gort 16/25! x)
10/15 ferr mcq.
and 6/10 ferr drq.
a major improvement arhs.
and im happie with my
results.
shall continue to werk
even harder yahs?
*yes.i will. ;) *
hmms.mr raj wont be in
sch nxt mon and tues.
mon's lesson will be given
to mrs wong ferr gp.
and tues's lesson will be
used to werk on essays.
and im suppose to collect
them.hmms. :)
going over to ttc tml.
ferr ake prac.
and sat is our performance.
do rmb to come and support
arhs?hahas! x)
*[see eu.saw eu.seen eu.]*
Tuesday, August 16, 2005Y
16/08/2005. *smiles*
my morning started off well.
cos i saw ss at the library blk.
while im going up ferr gp lesson.
and i ferrgot to bring my proj
handout.
rushed back to class to take.
and saw him again. :)
when i was going ferr recess.
saw him again. ;)
no ltt todae.
cos mr azlan let us rest.
hees.nice nice. ;)
econs test was okes.
gort 10/15.hees.
good ayes?
hmmms.gort to go ferr
my 2.4 tml.
and i gort ake after sch.
tired sias.
but im excited when i
want to go ferr prac.
hahas! x)
lalalalalas.
my dae ended on a HIGH
note.gees.
nort mentioning.
i met a weird guy
online just now.
and i dun bother him
at all.
cos i dunnoe who the hell
he is! =/
sighs.i dun care!
*[thans ferr letting me see eu.]*
Monday, August 15, 2005Y
15/08/2005. *5 stations*
okes.i did well yahs?
hahas!well my foot lahs.
i gort:
A-shuttle run. [11.13s]
B-standing broad jump. [185cm]
C-sit and reach. [42cm]
C-inclined pull up. [10]
D-sit ups. [25]
sucks lahs.hahas!
didnt do well ferr sit and reach
as well as pull up.
cos of my arm.
pain sias.
so didnt realli do well.
and sit ups.
has alwaes been my worst
section of all.
so.expected lahs.
hahas!im now super dependent
on wed lerhs lahs.
my 2.4.
hope i do well.
then at least.
wont fail.
lols! x)
schs fine.
mrs stef wong is nort in sch.
again.yahs.again.
hope shes fine.
yeahs!
my chinese compo is going to
be sent ferr competition wors!
hahas! x) so happie wors. ;)
gort sudden oral test ferr chi.
and i didnt do well ferr the
conversation part.
the reading part was okes.
woohoos!
i saw sweet smile!
hahas.its nort as if i never see before.
hahas! x)
this morning.cais msged wend.
to tell me that she and ss at the same
bus stop.and shes taking the same bus.
and i saw him in the library.
while im running thru my gp proj one last
go.hahas! x) and saw him there.
playing the com.msn-ing.
hahas! x)
and i saw that green leather wallet again! x)
*[i wld be lying if i say no.]*
Sunday, August 14, 2005Y
14/08/2005. *printer*
STUPID PRINTER!
IDIOTIC PRINTER!
cannot print things
derhs sias.
did all my graphs
lerhs.
then cannot print.
wat the hell... =/
my arm is a little
better now.
after heeding wends
advice.
apply counterpain.
hahas!
i hate the smell lahs.
but i indeed feel
much better now.
;)
*[mr.all rounder.]*
Y
14/08/2005. *d & s curves*
was werking on ppt.
doing dd and ss curves
in preparation ferr my
econs test on tues.
hahas!
and its tough lahs.
cos have to ensure that the
equilibrium is correct. :)
nort too bad a job done.
hahas! x)
tiring my eyes out lahs. =p
my left arm is realli aching
madly sias.
realli hope it gets better
bu tml wors.
if nort cannot do my
pull ups then chams
lerhs sias.
i scared i overstrain.
then cannot play
angklung wors.
*filled with worries*
*[smiles.sweet smiles.]*
Saturday, August 13, 2005Y
13/08/2005. *practice.family idol*
practise todae was pretty tiring
arhs.cos.
we learn 4 new songs within
like three hours.
and its continuously arhs.
the most difficult one is.
"when eu believe".
hahas! x)
but its a nice song lahs.
hahas! =p
but its pretty lengthy. =p
the songs are nice norhs.
after prac.
went to support aunt jos
they all ferr the
family idol.
and they manage to get
into the finals wors! x)
out of the 7 grps.
they are one of the 4.
hahas!
*congrats!*
hmms.
gort photo taking on wed.
with the entire ake grp.
hahas!
oh yahs!
todae.liang kai distributed
the instruments among the
ppl.to like.
hlp pack lahs.
and im in charge of
quite alot.
hahas! x)
and made a fool of
myself during meeting lahs.
cos im oreadi in charge of
my own big angklung.
then.liang kai ask me to
help with the vibraphone.
and liang kai assigned me
to the stick box oso.
so when i heard.
"for the stick box.
is shirley and seraphine."
then the first ting come
out from me was.
"me again?"
hahas!then liang kai say.
"y?cannot arhs?"
then i of cos say can lahs.
nort that i dun want to do
it lahs.
but was shocked to noe
that im suppose to take
care of so many things.
hahas!but i dun mind lahs.
of cos ayes? =)
i tink i injured my left
arm yesterdae.
maybe while hlping
with the carryings.
i strained my left arm. =/
hope it gets better by
mondae.
cos gort to do my 5
stations on mon.
so dun wish to go.
then cannot do. :)
*[i lurve sight seeing.]*
Friday, August 12, 2005Y
12/08/2005. *ake tee*
yeah!
finally gort my ake tee
lerhs wors.
hahas! x)
took the back from
sera's back.
hahas! x)
nice norts?
hahas! x)
s.ben derhs design wors.
hahas! x)
*[eu're owaes on my mind.]*
Y
12/05/2005. *yakkers*
a bunch of nth but yakkers.
do nth but yak all the way.
fine!
since we are in it.
we shld hlp.
just continue yakking then.
*okes.im feeling better.*
was feeling sick just now.
and i gort gastric pain.
performance.was...okes?
well.i dunnoe.
cant realli hear lahs.
and its realli hot.
the sun glares.
and we are trying to smile
and trying to squint.
we look farnie lahs.
i dunnoe lahs.
all i noe is.
we will do better at
the lau pa sat one.
and we will all be one
big happie family.
pls dun yak anymore.and hlp.
thans. :)
i lurve ake.
and i mean it.
i realli lurve ake.
i realli lurve music.
i wont give up ake.
and thats it.
queued up behind sweet smile
todae during recess.
and can get to see him ferr long long.
hahas! x)
and he gort this realli nice.
green LV wallet.
hahas! x)
i saw it todae.
hahas! x)
super observant yahs?
no choice. :p
chi lit sucks todae.
cos i dun understand a
single thing she say.
and i dunnoe wat to do!
the new story gort like.
dunnoe how many pges to
memorise lahs!
have to start memorising
now liaos lahs.
if nort no time lerhs. =p
gort ake prac tml.
9.00 - 1.30.
and have to go catch
auntie jos perform tml at 3.
at bishan.
hahas! x)
*is there a possibility that i can see eu?*
*[im realli happie to see eu.]*
Thursday, August 11, 2005Y
11/08/2005. *im nervous*
im nervous.
realli realli nervous.
it wld be my first ever
performance in public.
ive never been performing
in public before.
never ever.
this is my virgin
performance.
shall make the best of it
yahs?
hahas.
im so scared that i'll
ferrget my notes.
im so scared that i'll
ferrget what to do.
mans.
i'll be totally nervous
mixed with scared.
and nort ferrgetting.
excitement. :p
a mixture of feelings.
argh!!!!!
im realli nervous!
*[when will be the day?]*
Y
11/08/2005. *spotted*
jus came home.
lunch time training todae
was best nehs.
hahas.ran 10 rounds.
with a timing of 22mins. ;)
mr azlan says that im sure
to pass my 2.4. ;)
sweet smiles in his class todae.
when i did my ltt.
ran 10 rounds.
means i saw him 10 times.
in class.writing.yawning.
and when im going to help yang
write in transport.
walked past the gyms toilet.
and saw sweet smile.
heading ferr the gym as well.
i bet.he did see me.
cos im practically running up the steps.
hahas! x)
gort see or nv see.
i dunoe.sighs.
get vert scared whenever i see yr threes arnd.
sighs.i still cant get over it. :s
i promised huda that i wont
tink so much.
and wont let this affect me.
i wont.means.i wont.
mrs stef wong talked abt the
leadership training camp in nov.
thot of joining them in it.
but in the end.
after consulting huda.
i finally come to a decision that
i wont be going. :)
can spend my time on werk.
and do my best ferr papers. ;)
moreover.i realli cant bear to
give up ake.esp when im so in
ake now. x)
i dun want additional stress.
im coping fine. ;)
thats it!no sc.no leadership
camp.and all im left with.
is sch werk.and ake. x)
*[i cant help it.]*
*[i cant help nort seeing eu ferr even a day.
im falling deeper.]*
Wednesday, August 10, 2005Y
10/08/2005. *cleanse up!*
hees.
dun stare at my title lahs.
i jus went ferr facial.
and finally cleansed my
face up liaos.
hahas! x)
happie sehs. =p
was toking to huda sayang
last nite online.
and we two poured out on
each other.
and felt much better after
that.
im sure they two will end
up fine.
and they will be together
ferr as long as they live.
hahas! x)
well.that lucky fisherman
better dun bully my sayang.
later i CHASE him all arnd.
and SCOLD him.
and refuse to go ferr prac.
and scold him when he call
me to ask me go ferr prac.
hahas! x)
im evil. =p
honestly.
i haven touch my mgt lahs.
and theres like.a test tml?
hahas! =p
and im nort in the mood to
write chinese essay.
sighs! =/
im nervous and worried
ferr wats going to happen
on fridae.
and the performance at
lau pa sat is brought
forward to the 20th.
mans.stressed up! =/
*[wat wld it be like tml in sch?]*
Tuesday, August 09, 2005Y
09/08/2005. *ndp*
whees.
was watching the march past
just now.
and finally felt.
how much i miss trainings.
how much i miss marchings.
how much i miss my rifle.
how much i miss my mark four.
my uniform.my first u.
i miss the CIs.
i miss my cadets.
i miss my NCO mates.
hahas! x) i miss everything.
told my marmie that maybe
i shld go join the police force.
hahas! x)
nort a bad idea ayes?
can remember.
ps sayang say.he wants to be
a policeman.
gud idea dearie.
werk towards eur drim yahs?
hahas! x) and i shall see my
sayang on tv somedae! x)
saw MIs malay dancers just now.
mans.they danced well arhs!
i saw....SYAZANA!
i saw...FATAH!
i saw FIL too!
and others lahs.
i dunnoe their names.
but i noe.
they are from MI. ;)
*way to go MI!*
*[steal glances.*whispers:i miss eu*]*
Y
09/08/2005. *national day celeb.outs*
first and foremost.
HAPPIE BIRTHDAE SPORE! x)
yesterdaes celebration in sch was
damn fun lahs.
hahas.had the march past in the
morning.
and hds hari was the p.c. :)
after that.kite flying com at the
outdoor court.
annas did realli well.
and sharinee described our kite
greatly too!lols.
ooo.sweet smile flew his class's kite.hahas! x)
he do noe how to fly kite.
and he run realli speedy! x)
but our class didnt win the com
lahs.
cos our kite is ready made.
hahas! =p
the concert was okes.
05B5 did realli well ferr their
dikir barat.creative arhs. ;)
the sing-a-long session was a
total rawking session.
yangs rite.almost the entire sch
is going up on stage.
the entire audi is just simly
rocking with noise.laughters.
and screams.hahas! x)
i realli enjoyed myself at sch. :)
after that.went out with wend
and cais first.
went to get marmie her bdae
prezzie.
bought her a handbag.
hahas.is wend and cais help
me to choose derhs. ;)
and we walked arnd.
and saw ms coral lim.
and later.saw mr jimmy quek.
hahas! x)
have been bumping into familiar
people yesterdae lahs.
and while waiting ferr yang and
tee wei at marina bay mrt.
guess who i saw?
SHIH HAN! x)
hahas.i went up to call him.
and he was surprised to see me.
hahas! x)
he asked me abt the unit.
and his hairstyle.
mans.i miss him lahs.
and nort ferrgetting.
elson.rodrick.wei jian.and low wei.
shih han is still the same old him.
still as gud looking.
hahas! x)
even cais and wend oso tink he is
gud looking lahs.
he cut botak liaos.
go ns lerhs mahs.
hahas! x)
but still nice lahs yahs?
yang they all came.
and met kai kiat.
kiat is rather quiet.
went ferr steamboat.
and saw wei kang there.
didnt realli eat much.
and was realli tired.
and mood swing is crawling up
on me.
i dunnoe y like that oso.
but im realli realli tired.
my mind oreadi started to wander about.
and all that im tinking of.
is the scenes that i saw in sch.
with ss arnd.
with him running abt in the audi.
him flying kite.
singing along in the audi.
went home earlier than yang they all.
me and wend lahs.
came home.
no mood to watch tv.
stayed in my room.
and thot about alot.
and fell to slp lerhs.
sighs.
*[how can i say i dun miss eu at all?]*
Sunday, August 07, 2005Y
07/08/2005. *friends*
friends.
are people whom eu can rely on.
people who will stick by eu.
when eu need them.
they will be there.
on a no condition basis.
mans.
i miss punggol.
i miss 4a.
i miss my mates there.
i miss dt.kt.jy and yz.
they are my buddies.
my pals back there in punggol.
we are one clique.
one group.
i miss them.
they asked me out on tues.
but i cant go.like AGAIN!
cos i gort piano lesson on that
dae.
and i have to mug ferr my mgt
test on thurs.
haven been studying over the
weekends.
have been slacking thru.
that gort to change.
i noe.it have to change.
im so sorries guys.
i miss eu all loads too.
and i feel bad owaes pushing
away the invitations that eu all
asked.
im sads that i cant go out with
eu guys.
i promise eu guys.
after my promos.
i sure go out with eu guys yahs?
rock the malls.
rock the restaurants.
rock the neos machines.
rock the town.
rock the entire orchard.
promise.
im all eurs people.
i promise. :)
*[im starting to worry ferr tml.
yes.again. :s ]*
Y
07/08/2005. *one moment in time*
orites.
i encourage eu guys to go dl this
song.
"one moment in time".
sounds familiar ayes?
of cos!
cos ake just learnt this song.
and we all mastered this piece in
just merely two days!
hahas! x)
we are the best wors. ;)
hmmm.managed to dl this song
just now.
and was listening to it from just
now until now.
hahas! x)
its realli a super dee duper nice
song lahs! x)
lurve the song sias.
best thing of all is.
look thru the score that i have.
and sing along arhs.
best nehs! x)
hahas! x)
want to hear the best music
being played?
want to hear "one moment in time"
being played by ake?
hahas! x)
dun hesitate.
just come down to marina south
this coming fridae.
and we assure eu with a rocking
session.
and everyone will applaud.
lols! x)
*[its just one moment in time.]*
Y
07/08/2005. *slpy*
*yawns*
im so tired sias.
alept till 9+ this morning.
and i slept pretty early last
night wors.
11 i oreadi in bed.
lols!
but im still very tired.
hmmm.tml celebrating national
day in sch.
and hari is the parade commander!
hohoho. :p
gort kite flying competition at the
outdoor court as well.
hmmm.wat a unique way of
celebrating national day yahs?
hahas! x)
oh yahs!better help hari tink of
wat to say abt our super cute kite.
hahas! x)
gort ultraman derhs okes?
hmmm.shall say that.
we, singaporeans.
are as strong as ultraman!
ehs.or can say.
we, singaporeans.
are as powerful as ultraman!
woots! x)
we are a strong and powerful
country wors. ;)
*oooh lalalalala*
*[tmls a new day.i will heed the advice.
and be myself.its tough though. =s ]*
Saturday, August 06, 2005Y
06/08/2005. *another new skin*
yerps.changed a new skin.
cos the previous one gort
some probs.
so decided to change it. :)
hmmm.
piano lesson is cancelled
ferr tml.
sighs.
another boring sunday
i guess.
woohoos!
going out with yang,wend
and cais i suppose.
on mondae. ;)
*[things are nort going my way.]*
Y
06/08/2005. *rehersal*
just finish lunch.
and practice ended at about 1.45
todae.
hmmm.15 mins more.
hahas! x) but its okes.
cos i had fun! x)
played the 6 songs over and over
again.
and we are a little restless while
practising in the hall arhs.
but when the actual rehersal comes.
we are all doing it realli well.
hahas! x)
todaes realli best best nehs.
mrs ong came and see us perform
as well wors.
we played "one moment in time"
ferr her.
and she say we did great!
hahas! x)
hmmm.cant wait ferr fridae to come wors.
the timetable goes as such.
1.15:pack instruments onto the lorry.
(bartley members are excluded.cos.
at that time.we are still at the bus stop
maybe.waiting ferr the bus! :p )
2.30:move off from ttc to marina south.
4:performance start.
4.40:performance end.
5:pack instruments onto the lorry.
5.10:leave ferr ttc.
thats the end!hahas! x)
filled with excitement.
but.....
before that.i have CHI LIT LESSON!
mans.gonna spoil my dae.
and farid says.
we have to rest well the day before.
and hahas! x) me and sera thot of
skipping ltt!
hahas!maybe i shall skip pe as well.
hahas! x)
*wot rubbish*
gonna get my ake tee on fridae. ;)
lalalalalalas.
*[peeps.free yahs?come down and see us
perform yahs?hahas! x) ]*
Friday, August 05, 2005Y
05/08/2005. *stares.looks*
i dun want!
i dun want to be famous among the year 3s!
i just want to lead my sch life
properly!
i dun want stares and looks.
im worried everywhere i go in sch
todae.
im so paranoid about stares.looks.
and all.
mans.todae.life in sch just sucks lahs.
yahs?
saw ss after mgt todae.
cais almost slam the door on his face.
and i was totally shocked.and a big struck of fear and
worriness arhs.
saw him in the canteen again.
sigh.i dunnoe lahs.things are making
me 'luan' and confused!
argh!!!!!!!!
ake was okes todae.
learnt a new song "one moment in time".
a pretty tough song.
hahas!but i lurve the songs.
the practices.
and the ppl there!
our ex-president came.
and he played the drums.
mans.hes good at it kaes?
tml still gort practice.
8.30 - 1.30.
5 hours of practice.
going to tire me out.
hahas! x)
*[im troubled.im confused.im scared.]*
Thursday, August 04, 2005Y
04/08/2005. *scared*
im starting to feel scared.
dunnoe y oso.
i very luan oso.
if what i noe is true.then y i
still so scared?
i realli dunnoe.
saw him in the gym during ltt todae.
okes okes.
i shall stop toking about him here.
its no longer "safe". =/
argh!
i dunnoe wat im tinking oso. :s
*[im in deep hot soup.]*
Y
04/08/2005. *torture*
schools a torture ferr me todae.
especially pe and ltt.
ran a total of 14 rounds lahs.
and did 260 skippings in all.
mans.
my legs seem to be detached
from my body liaos sias.
and the worst part of the entire
dae is that i gort "said" during
lecture.
dun wish to tok abt it.make me sads
nias. :(
gort ake prac tml at ttc.
a bit sians.nort that i dun like.
jus that im too shagged and tired lerhs.
dun even wish to tink about anything now.
=/ have to hand in chinese essay tml
sias.
thats a pretty short notice. :s
still gort no idea wat to write ferr it. :s
argh!im so tired.
and im so lazee in all that i want to do!
get the energy back! :)
all i want to see now.
is sweet smile.hahas!
i noe.i jus saw him about 2 hours ago. =p
*[i want to sit there.and see eu play badminton
again.i realli want to.]*
Wednesday, August 03, 2005Y
03/08/2005. *pain*
me now in super pain.
gort ulcers in my mouth.
all thans to my wisdom tooths!
my second and third ones are out!
but i dun seem to get any smarter.
lols! x)
sch was fine.
but never see sweet smile. :(
asked mrs wong abt gp todae.
and she suggested i change my tutor.
and i did!hahas.
so tml no tuition. ;) can rest abit more.
hahas! x)
*yawns*
tml gort pe.and ltt.
gort to run again. :s
hahas! x)
*[i guess.i need to see eu everydae.]*
Tuesday, August 02, 2005Y
02/08/2005. *laughters*
maths lesson was filled with laughters
from me,shen and hidayah lahs.
hahas! x)
lunch time training became breakfast
trainings from todae onwards.
hahas!and saw pok playing
badminton with his friends.
and i walked past sweet smile todae
while walking my last round arhs.
hahas! x)
no ake practice tml wors.
postponed to fridae.
hmmm.dunnoe y oso. =p
*yawns*
im so tired sehs.
and i seem to be dreading to do gp.
i dun seem to understand the compre
qns and dunoe how to do them.
im stressed over gp lahs.
feel like changing gp tuition teacher.
cannort tahan the way the current one
is teaching.
shes stressing me too much with JC2
papers lerhs.
and dun explain properly.
im gonna FAINT! :s
*[all i want to see.is eur smile.eur eyes.and eu.]*
Monday, August 01, 2005Y
01/08/2005. *made a fool outta myself*
its the beginning of the month.
and i oreadi made a fool outta myself.
the stupidest thing that ive done todae.
is when im staring and gawking at
sweet smile.
i poured water all over myself lahs! =s
i didnt expect myself to do that lahs.
cos before that.im filling up my bottle.
then saw sweet smiles bag outside the
library.
and on my way up.
i saw him walking out of the library.
so walked slowly.hahas! x)
and i wanted to drink water.
so held the bottle up.
and the water just flowed out like
nobodys biz like that. =p
hahas! x) luckily i didnt do that in
front of him lahs.
if nort arhs.at that time arhs.
surely malu myself liaos wors. =s
another malu thing.dun say here lahs.
so damn pai sehs ferr that.
hahas! x)
school was fine todae. x)
pe was okes lahs.
cos never get mr ser.hahas! x)
was mr heikal who took us ferr 5BX.
and mr azlan took us ferr circuit trainings.
hmmm.wasnt too tough lahs.still okes. x)
lunch time training at 9.45 tml.
wondering which year two class is having
their pe at that time wors.
cos mr heikal and mr azlan say.
we can join them ferr pe.
hahas!
looking forward to training tml. =p
saw sweet smile since in the morning lerhs.
he wasnt late ferr school todae.
hahas! x) and saw him stand up so fast
during morning assembly.
hahas! x)
cute boy.
sweet smile.
*muacks*
*[when i see eu.i can only smile.]*
